I don't own anything. I sooo wished I owned Jacob and Edward though! Stephanie Meyer owns twilight and sadly i own nothing.
I was walking downstairs when the sharp pain cut through my stomach again. Its been doing this for weeks now. First, it would hit me for five minutes, then it would go away as abruptly as it appeared. And all the time it was going on, it would leave me doubled over in pain, tears in my eyes. It finally subsided and I continued my trek downstairs to make breakfast for Charlie.
He was sitting at the table as always, reading the paper. He looked up as I walked in, and smiled. "Hey, Bells," he greeted me cheerfully. "What's for breakfast?" I smiled at him. "Pancakes and eggs." "That sounds great!!" I went over to the fridge and pulled out the eggs, then the pain hit again. I doubled over once again, clutching my side in pain.
"Bella?" Charlie said, alarmed. "Honey, what's wrong? Do you need to go to the doctor?" This lasted for about ten minutes before the pain stopped. When I was able to stand, I got up quickly. Charlie stood over me, a concerned, wild look on his face. "I'm fine, dad," I reassured him. "You most certainly are not fine. Come on, get your coat. I'm taking you to the doctor. And, don't try to argue with me, Bella. You're going and that's final." I groaned. "Fine," I said, stubbornly.
The drive to the hospital was long and silent. When we finally got there, the air around Charlie and me was tense. Charlie and I were directed to a back room, to wait for Dr. De Silva. When he finally came in, he immediately started to test on me. He asked me questions like: "When did you start having these pains? What were you doing the first time one of these pains began? Have you taken anything for them? Can you describe what they feel like?" And so on.
Finally, after he was done questioning me, he plastered a big and cheery grin on his face and told us to wait a moment. After thirty minutes of waiting, he came back. Only to tell us he was sending me to a doctor in Seattle. I immediately protested, telling him I had to go to school. He ignored me, and told Charlie which hospital to go to.
When we got to the hospital in Seattle, they did over sixteen tests on me. When they were done, they told me I had to stay the night. I didn't want to, but they won that battle. Charlie stayed with me, even though I told him he didn't have to. The next day, the doctors came in and asked to speak to Charlie alone. He walked out of the room, with a worried expression on his face. I was bored. I wanted something to do. I could hear Charlie down the hall, mumbling something. Curious, I got up to see what was the matter. I came to a stop outside a large door and quietly listened in. I know its wrong to listen in on other peoples conversations, but I just couldn't help it. As I was listening, I was shocked at what I heard.
"Mr. Swan, after looking at your daughters tests, we came across something that shouldn't have been there." "What?" Charlie sounded so helpless that I wanted to run in and give him a hug, but I didn't. "It was something in her liver. Mr. Swan, this is very hard to say, but we found a tumor in her liver. Apparently, its been there for a while, a little too long, in fact. The tumor has spread and there is nothing we can do about it." "So, what are you saying?" Charlie sounded like he was about to hyperventilate. "Your daughter is dying, Mr. Swan. I predict she has only three months left."
"Can't you do anything about it?!?" Charlie was angry now. "Isn't there some kind of surgery you can do? Anything at all?!?!" The doctors hesitated. "Perhaps," a female voice said. "There is a surgery we can do, but only one out of ten people has survived it. Other than that, no." Charlie made a frustrated sound. Poor Charlie. I couldn't stand seeing him like this, so I walked in. Charlie gasped. "Bella, how long have you been standing out there?" I hesitated. "Long enough," I replied, earnestly.
Charlie grimaced. I put my arms around him. "It's going to be okay, dad. We'll get through this together." And for the first time in my life, I actually saw my father cry. This made me go into protective mode. I let him cry on my shoulder, then I looked up at the doctors. "Can we go home, now? I'd rather live out my last three months at home, with my family and friends then at a hospital." They nodded their heads, signed my charts, and let me leave.
She wasn't here. Bella didn't come to school today and I'm worried. Today was supposed to be the big day. The day I apologized for my rude behavior and tell her that I love her. That plan is shot. I just hope she's okay.
I'll go check on her tonight. There has to be a rational explanation as to why she's not here. I just need to calm down. I'll ask Alice if she had a vision about Bella and why she was out today. Riiiinnnggg!! Finally! Now I can ask Alice about Bella.
I ran out of the room at lightning speed to the parking lot. My siblings were already there, waiting for me. I ran straight for Alice. What is it, Edward? Alice thought to me. You look as though you've seen a ghost! I only whispered one beautiful word, "Bella." Rosalie shook her head in disgust. The others got in the car.
What about Bella? Edward, your not making any sense. I gritted my teeth. "Alice, Bella was absent today! I'm worried sick! I just want to know where she is!!!" Alice looked slightly panicked. "Edward," Alice said, out loud. "I don't know where she is either! I've been trying to look all day long, but I keep coming up blank. Trust me, if I knew where she was right now I would tell you!! But I don't!! And I'm scared too!!"
I felt clam all of a sudden and I knew it was Jasper, helping the situation. "I'm going to look for her," I said. I tossed Alice the keys to my Volvo. "Drive them home," I told her. "If I'm not back in five hours, come find me and help me." She nodded. As soon as she agreed, I took off to find my Bella.
I'll check and see if Bella's at home first, before I start anywhere else. In two seconds flat, I was in front of Bella's house. Her truck is in the driveway, and surprisingly, so is Charlie's police cruiser. I could hear everything. Charlie was on the phone, I ignored him. I climbed up to Bella's window and peeked in. She's sitting on her bed, staring at the wall. I could tell she was thinking, so I left for her to have some privacy.
When I returned home, I was immediately attacked by a pixie. "Oh god, Edward! Is she all right? Please tell me she's just fine!" I smiled down at the spiky haired pixie. "Yes, she's quite all right." Alice relaxed. "Thank God!"
"Oh, Bella will be in school tomorrow. You can tell her how you feel, then." I nodded. Tomorrow. It seemed like a thousand years away.
I practically had to beg Charlie to let me go to school. I had to say good bye to my friends. "Bella, do you want to be the center of gossip? Because that's what you'll be if you tell all of your friends." When Charlie said that, I immediately thought it over. I didn't want to be the center of gossip, but that's what I'll be if I don't keep my mouth shut.
But, I at least want to tell Angela. I have actually come to think of her as a really special friend. I really want her to know. So, I made a deal with Charlie. I'll only tell Angela about my soon to be demise, and I'll leave school after lunch, never to go back to school. Charlie finally agreed.
Ever since Charlie and I found out that I have cancer, he's been watching me like a hawk. He's afraid that at any moment I'll kneel over and die. Oh, and did I mention that he called Renee and told her? Well, he did. At first, she thought he was playing a joke on her and yelled at him. Then, he started to explain to her what the doctor's said. After she realized it wasn't a joke, she started to cry. She then told him that she and Phil would be coming to stay with us, so that she could be with me.
And Charlie, the nutcase, agreed! Its bad enough that my dad has to watch me die, now my mom has to watch too! I don't want them to hurt because of me. It isn't right! Pretty soon, I'm going to be bed ridden and their going to have to take care of me. Which means they'll get hurt even more, seeing me in bed, dying! Plus, I'm going to feel useless. I'm the care taker! Not them! This just isn't right.
I picked up my bag and walked downstairs. When I got to the kitchen, dad was already making breakfast. When he saw me, he plastered on a fake cheery smile. "Hey, sweetheart! I made you some breakfast!" I shook my head. He's been trying to do things for me, that I can do myself! Its driving me crazy! "No thanks, dad. I'm not hungry and I'm already late for school. I'll see you after lunch."
"Okay, sweetie. And remember that your mother will arrive today." "I know," I sighed. When I was in my truck, I groaned. This was going to be a long three months. I pulled up to school five minutes before the bell rang. That's when I realized a shiny Volvo parked next to me. I looked over in surprise.
He was grinning at me. I quickly looked down. I got out of the cab and started walking to school.
I was watching her sleep again. She was frowning the whole night, again, I was worried. When the first light of dawn showed, I got up to leave. I can't wait for today to begin. I'm finally going to tell her how I feel.
I ran home to change clothes and got ready for school. I rushed all of my siblings to get ready and loaded them into my car. Rosalie was pissed, but everyone else seemed cool with it. I got there in just enough time to see Bella pull into a parking spot. The one beside her was vacant. I grinned and pulled into the one beside her.
She looked up in surprise. I grinned at her. She seemed confused as to why I would smile at her. Then quickly looked down. I grinned even wider. She jumped out of her truck and walked to school. I did the same and quickly followed her.
I think she could hear my footsteps behind her, because she turned her head in my direction. I just grinned. She quickly turned around and sped up. Okay…. I'm confused. Why would she do that. Unless she's very mad at me for ignoring her and treating her poorly. But, she didn't seem mad. Just panicked.
Maybe she finally realized that I'm dangerous. That's good, but also bad. Good, because now I won't be able to put her in danger. Bad, because I don't want her to start ignoring me. I love her, I don't want her to avoid me. Selfish, I know, but I just can't help how I feel. I guess I'll just have to find out.
I reach out and grab her backpack to stop her, and she does. "Bella," I murmured in her ear. "Can I talk to you? Privately?" She sighs. "No. I'm going to be late for class. I have to go." She tries to pull away, but I keep a firm grip on her bag. "Please let go." "Not until you and I talk. I really need to talk to you." She glares at me. "Your really not going to give up, are you?" I nodded. She groaned.
"Fine." I pulled her back behind the science building, so we could be alone. "Alright, Edward. What do you want?" I loved it when she said my name. It sounded like a prayer coming from her lips.
"I wanted to apologize for my rude behavior towards you. It was uncalled for and you didn't deserve to be treated that way. Especially, when you did nothing, other than being a trustworthy person by keeping my secret. Even though this is dangerous and I don't deserve this from you, will you consider being my friend and accept my apology?" I looked at her, hopeful.
She just stared at me, shocked. Then she looked down at the ground and said, "Your apology is accepted. However, your statement to being friends is denied." I could feel my face falling. Why doesn't she want to be my friend? Is it because she thinks I'm not a good friend to have?
"Why don't you want to be friends?" "Personal reasons." "Your not going to tell me those. Are you?" "No." I fell silent. "Can you at least give me a reason? That way, I'll at least feel peaceful?" She looked back up at me and I could see a lot of emotions flooding her eyes: pain, hurt, loss, sadness. What's wrong? Why is she upset? "I'll probably miss you to much," she whispered. Before I had time to process this information, she was gone.
What did Bella mean that she'd probably miss me too much? Is she moving away? I frowned. That seems highly unlikely. I mean, she hasn't even been in this school for a month! Why would she leave?
I tried to talk to Bella about it, but every time she passed me in the hallway and I tried to talk to her, she would head quickly in the other direction. I guess I'll have to wait for her until lunchtime. I started to tap my foot impatiently. "Am I boring you Mr. Cullen?" I looked up to see my trig teacher glaring at me. "Of course not, ma'am," I used in my most silkiest voice. She looked startled, then blushed.
The bell soon rang and I jumped out of my seat, eager to talk to my Bella again. When I got to the lunch room I found she wasn't there, yet. But, her friends were. I'll just wait for her and when she comes in, take her somewhere secluded, and ask her what she meant by "I'll probably miss you too much." I still wonder what she means by that.
"Hey, Bella," I heard Angela Webber say to my Bella. I looked up. Bella was standing next to Angela. "Hey, Angela," Bella greeted her. "Um, Angela?" "Yes, Bella?" "Can I talk to you? Alone? It's really important." "Of course, Bella."
I wonder what's wrong with Bella. She seems so nervous. I hope she's okay. Angela got up to follow Bella out of the cafeteria. I contemplated on listening in on their conversation through Angela's thoughts. But decided against it. If they wanted to be alone, I could respect that.
I led Angela out of the cafeteria and into Mr. Banners biology room. When I closed the door I took a deep breath and turned around to face her. "Bella? Are you okay? What's wrong?" I looked at her kindly. Maybe I shouldn't tell her. No! I can trust her.
"Angela, I'm about to tell you something that you can't tell anyone. You can tell them later on when I'm not around, but not right now." Her eyes went big after I said "when I'm not around". "What do you mean-" "Angela, I'm dying." She froze.
"Bella," she whispered. "Please tell me this is all some sick joke." "I'm afraid its not, Angela." All of a sudden her body started to tremble and shake. Then she started to cry. I put my arm around her and patted her back, soothingly.
After she was done she pulled back. "How?" "I have a tumor in my liver. When I was out yesterday, I was at the hospital. You see, I've been having pains in my stomach for a few weeks now. They intensified yesterday and Charlie took me to the hospital. They found out it was in there for way too long. They couldn't do anything about it. So I'm dying," I simply stated.
"How long do you have?" "Three months." "That little?" "Yup." "Oh, Bella! I'm so sorry!" "Don't," I told her. "You had nothing to do with it, so you shouldn't apologize. It's actually my fault. If I would have stopped being so stubborn in time, I probably could have saved myself. Because of what I did, my family has to put up with the consequences. I can't believe I did this to them! I'm a horrible person!"
"Oh, Bella! No your not! Look at you! Your completely selfless! Here you are, dying, and all you can think about is everyone else! I am curious, though. Out of all the people we know, why did you tell me? Why not Jessica or Mike?"
"Because I trust you. And because, I feel really close to you, more than anyone." Her eyes began to water. "Oh, Bella!" We hugged. "I do want you to tell them. After the second month, I suppose." She nodded her head. "Are you going to be staying in school?" I shook my head. "I'll be bed ridden in a few weeks. Today's my last day."
"Can I at least visit you?" I thought about it. It would be nice to have a friend with me. Selfish of me, but I don't think I can make it without Angela. "Only if you want to, not because you have to," I told her. "Don't worry. I want to!" "And you can't do stuff for me. Charlie does that enough for me. Its driving me crazy. Renee is coming to live with us for a while. And she's probably going to be doing the same thing! I hate feeling helpless and useless!"
She nodded, her eyes full of sympathy. "I won't." "Okay." We both smiled at each other. I looked at the clock. Crap! The bell is going to ring at any moment. "I have to go," I said abruptly. "Aren't you going to stick around for fifth period?" "No. I promised Charlie I would be home after lunch. Plus, we have to go pick up Renee." We both said bye and went separate ways.
Ring!! I sighed. Well, this is it. Good bye Forks High. You suck. I hate you. And yet, I'll miss you. I quickened my pace to the front office. I had to sign some papers before I could go home to meet Renee, Charlie, and Phil.
Miss. Cope smiled at me when I walked in. "Hello, dear. What can I do for you?" I smiled at her. "Oh, I just need some papers that declares that I don't go to school here anymore."
I was walking to Biology, eager to see Bella, when I heard her conversation with Miss. Cope. "Hello, dear. What can I do for you?" "Oh, I just need some papers that declares that I don't go to school here anymore." What on God's green earth? Apparently Miss. Shelly Cope was just as astounded as I was.
What? But she just got here! There has to be some mistake! I mean, the girl hasn't been here for long! What is she doing, hopping to another school at the end of the semester! "What?" I could see Bella smile at Miss. Cope, kindly, since I was invading her mind. (Miss. Cope. Not Bella.)
"I need some transfer papers." "I heard you. But, why?" Bella looked at the clock. "Personal reasons. Look, Miss. Cope, I really need to go. My mother is arriving with my step father in a half an hour, and I really need to meet them at the airport. So, if you wouldn't mind….?" Wait. Her mother is coming? Renee and Phil were coming? Why?
The woman who left Chief Swan is coming for a visit with her new husband? I can almost smell the drama and catfights. "All right, dear. Here you go." She slid the transfer papers over the desktop towards Bella. Bella picked up her pen and began filling the paper out. When she was done she handed the paper and pen back to Miss. Cope. "Its settled. Your no longer a student at Forks High School." "Thanks for your help Miss. Cope," Bella said. "Anytime, dear." With that being said, Bella walked out of the front office, towards her truck. I followed, biology long forgotten.
Just as she was getting in her truck I called out to her, "Bella, wait!" I heard her groan, but, nevertheless, she turned around. When I reached her I was smiling, barely containing my excitement. "What do you want, Cullen?" Bella asked in a harsh tone.
I could feel my smile slipping off my face. Did I really treat her that badly? I feel so horrible, I shouldn't have been cross with her. She must have noticed the changes in my facial expression because she soon sighed and said, "Look, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been harsh with you. Its just that I've received bad news and I'm a little down."
She bit her lip, as if to say that she said too much. "No, Bella," My voice was hoarse. "I'm sorry. I want to apologize for my behavior towards you recently."
A ghost of a smile overcame her lips and she said," Don't worry about it Edward. You and I both won't have to deal with apologies after a while." She sounded sad. I wanted to wrap my arms around her and try to make it better, but I couldn't. What did she mean that we won't have to deal with apologies after a while?
"What do you mean?" I hated how my voice cracked. She just shook her head. "Goodbye, Edward." She said in a monotone voice. She climbed in her truck and sped away into the decaying sunset. Leaving me there to wonder what she meant. But, most importantly, I noticed when she said goodbye, she said it like she was saying goodbye forever.
And that's what scared me the most.
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