A/N I do not own any of the characters in the story. They are thanks to the wonderful Stephenie Meyer.

I also want to the Fitever for the idea of this story and the end of this story leads into a great story she wrote called "Man in the Mirror" This story is not for young readers.

Chapter 1

Hello. My name is Isabella Swan. I am on myway to Forks, Washington where my dad lives. I finally was able to escape the confines of my mother, who only took me to Phoenix because she wanted my dad to be miserable. Finally, I can live with my dad and be happy.

I can't revisit Forks without thinking of the best times of my life. I would like to share those with you. I was about 4 when my mom divorced my dad and moved to Phoenix. She was a bitter woman and made my life miserable because of it. My mother had to let me go see Charlie every summer because of the visitation orders, but she sure did everything she could to defy them. I knew when I turned 18 I would move back home to be with the 4 people I loved the most. My dad, and my three best friends: Jacob, Quil, and Embry. I can't wait to see them.

I guess I should start at the beginning. I have been best friends with the boys since I could walk. Jacob's dad and my dad are best friends. Jake and I were the closest till I turned 16 and then I gained a closeness with Embry that I would never have with anyone else. Oh Embry! I hope he is not seeing anyone when I get home, maybe we can develop a real relationship instead of just sex. Of course I have had other boyfriends in Phoenix, but no one can compare to my Embry. He is sweet and always makes me feel special.

I have a while on this plane so I am going to take you back to the best summer of my life. The summer I lost my virginity to Embry Call. I knew when I lost my virginity I wanted it to be with someone I loved and trusted. Jake and I were too close and Quil was too immature. Embry was perfect and of course he agreed. I knew I was going to have to stay in Phoenix next summer and I wanted to experience everything I could.

"Hey Bella!" Embry called out as I walked down First beach. "You said you wanted to talk to me. What's up?"

I was so nervous. How did I ask my best friend to have sex with me? What if he didn't think of me that way. How humiliating would that be. I mean I know we kissed a few times, but this was different. I am a pile of nerves but here goes nothing.

"Embry, you know I love you right?" I asked him.

"Of course, I love you too Bells. What's wrong? I know you are leaving in a few days but you have never been like this before. Are you ok?"

"Well, I have been thinking the last few days and there is something I really want to do. Gosh I can't believe I am asking you this. Embry I want to…to…lose my virginity." Did I really just say it like that. What a loser I am. It is not like Em and I have never fooled around.

"Bells, I want to lose mine too, but what does this have to do with…….." A look of understanding washed over his face as he realized what I was about to ask him. "Bella, you want to have sex with me? You want me to be your first?"

"Em….you are my best friend, I love you more than anything. I can't think of a more perfect person to be my first, but if you don't feel the same way I understand." Wow I think I am gonna throw up. He is taking too long. How could I think he felt this way about me? "What about Jake or Quil though. They are your best friends too?" He said nervously

"Em, Jake is too much like a brother and I don't think Quil is near ready for anything like that. You and I just have this connection. It's ok. I feel like an idiot. Forget I brought it up. I have to go" I started to cry as I walked away.

As I was turning around to walk back to my bike I felt a hand grab my arm. The next thing I knew Embry was kissing me. He licked my bottom lip and I parted my lips to let him gain access. He was such a good kisser. I wonder what else he could do well. Bella!! You naughty girl.

"Bella, how could you think I wouldn't want you to be my first. I feel the same way about you. I love you and no one could ever hold a candle to you. I am not saying I want to do it right here on the beach. I think your first time should be somewhere romantic where you feel loved and appreciated. I am not saying no. I am just saying not today. Spend the weekend with me. It is not like my mom is ever home anyway."

"Ok. What if the guys want to come over?"

"Bella, we are not gonna be doing it 24/7. Are we?"

"I guess it just depends on good you are Em." I chucked as I got on my bike. "Love you!"

"Love you too!" He shouted.

This is going to be a great weekend. Gosh I am gonna be sick. Did I really just ask Embry to have sex with me? I sure did!! Goodbye virginity!!