Okay, this is my new fic.

It's gunna be a bit of a different journey from the other ones....

This might be a collection of one-shots just with similar themes all strung together.... something I need to practice for my english 2000 class.

Summary: AU version of New Moon

(I don't have the "fever", It's just the best setting for my plot.... honest! lol).

Edward leaves Bella, but the rest of his family stays. Alice is there to help Bella through her deep depression, but will Bella let her?

Inspired by the song: Fools in Love by Inara George

song lyrics in bold, past in italics.

Alice/Bella not mine.

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Listen, are you breathing just a little, and calling it a life? – Mary Oliver

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Bella:

The room is dark, except for the flicker of the tv. It illuminates the walls in flashes, and flickers across her pale, drawn face. Her brown eyes are dull, and dark circles accent them, giving her a ghoulish appearance.

Used tissues are strewn all over the floor in clumps. There are multiple cups of water on the bedside table, half empty. There's a sandwich, untouched and by now quite disgusting.

A deep purple comforter engulfs the girl in bed; her hair is a tangled mess, strewn across her pillow. Rain pounds against the windowpane. Her arm stretches languidly out from under the blankets to reach for the remote and turn up the volume, if only to drown out the relentless pouring rain.

Fools in love, are there any creatures more pathetic?

Fools in love, never knowing when they lost the game.

"Bella, I'm leaving." Edward's golden eyes showed no emotion. His face portrayed indifference.

"I'm coming." She struggled to grasp his arm, to keep him here with her.

"I don't want you to come." He said gravely.

Her mind pieced together the true meaning of his words. "You... don't... want me?"

"No."

Everything she thought she knew of life, everything she had trusted was gone, as quick as she could blink. Love. Life. Meaning. Over.

He had disappeared from her life forever. She could barely grasp it. She struggled home, and fell into the safety of her bed, where she could feel warm and safe. It was a place where nothing bad could touch her.

'Maybe it was a dream. All a dream. ' She tried so hard to convince herself, squeezing her eyes shut and hoping to find sleep. But the sleep didn't come. The scene kept playing over and over in her mind, like a broken audiotape. As she sank into her covers, she felt empty. The warmth did little to comfort her, because her bed was lonely. It was empty. The space that he used to fill seemed overwhelming, her bed far too spacious now that he was gone.

Her heart stopped beating and suddenly the hole, that empty abyss, took its place in her chest.

Fools in love, are there any other kinds of lovers?

Fools in love, is there any other kind of pain?

She had done her crying. There were no more tears left. The tv was her only contact to the outside world; it flickered night and day before her lifeless eyes.

The first night she had gone down to dinner, as if nothing was wrong. Now she told Charlie she wasn't feeling well, and stayed in bed all day. He brought her cups of water and food intermittently; he gave her concerned looks, but said nothing.

Eight days, Bella had been in bed for eight days and she had no intention of getting up.

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Alice:

She flicked the cell phone open and closed, agitated.

"You're going to break that thing." Rosalie muttered.

She turned to give her sister a death glare, in no mood for her smart-ass remarks.

She stared at the phone and began dialing the number, only to stop and press end for the twelfth time that day.

"Just go." Rosalie groaned. "Stop debating and just leave already."

Alice flashed her sister a worried look.

"Don't worry, I won't tell him. It's not like he'll call to check in anyway. It's only been a week."

She jumped up from the couch and threw her arms around her sister. "Thank you."

Rosalie groaned, but hugged back. "Just hurry up and go." She mussed her tiny sister's hair and watched her flit out the door in a blur.

Rain poured down as the tires of her father's Mercedes gripped the pavement, speeding towards her destination.

She flew to the door and knocked. It was near dinnertime, she knew he would answer the door.

"Alice?" Charlie seemed shocked to see her.

"How is she?" Alice asked, stepping inside as Charlie shut the door behind her.

The police chief grimaced. "She's been holed up in her room for days. She won't come down to eat. I've been bringing her food, making sure she has something."

Alice nodded; he had been trying. "I should've come sooner."

He rubbed the back of his neck, as if trying to relieve stress. "It's good of you to come at all. Maybe you can reach her."

Alice nodded. "I'll do my best. Thanks Charlie."

"No, thank you Alice." He sounded so sincere. She flashed him a reassuring smile before walking painstakingly slow up the stairs at a normal human pace.

She had seen Bella, screaming into her pillow. Crying until her eyes were red and swollen. And then nothing, completely emotionless. Like her friend had turned into a zombie overnight.

The first glimpse of her vision this morning had scared her half to death with worry. The reality wasn't much better...

Fools in love, gently hold each other's hands forever

Fools in love, gently tear each other limb from limb.

She knocked on the door and waited for a second, she heard the tv blaring. After there was no answer she shoved the door open. It was worse then she had seen. The room was a mess; she wrinkled her nose in distaste. Tissues were strewn everywhere, she noticed the cups of water and the untouched food. Then, she saw Bella, staring lifelessly at the tv as if her eyes were glued to it. She didn't even acknowledge Alice's presence.

The tiny vampiress sat down on the side of the bed, blocking the view of the tv. "Bella, this place is a mess." She admonished.

The human girl did not respond, her lackluster brown eyes stared straight through Alice, as if she could still see the tv.

Alice took in a sharp breath, noticing the dark circles beneath her friend's eyes. There were clothes strewn everywhere- sweatpants and t-shirts cast over the side of the bed. Bella was a mess. This was much worse than her sight could've predicted.

"Bella..." Alice reached out cautiously to brush Bella's tangled hair out of her face. Her hand rested upon the human's pallid cheek.

"Bella, have you been eating?"

She shook her head no.

Finally a response, something a bit like living. "Have you gotten any sleep?"

She shook her head yes.

"How much?" Alice pried, wishing Bella would look at her.

Bella shook her head in a negative gesture; she reached for a cup of half finished water and took a sip, making a face as she downed the tepid cup.

"A little sleep."

Alice sighed. "Not enough." It wasn't a question; her cool fingers lightly traced the dark circles under her best friend's once beautiful eyes. What had her brother done to this poor girl? She would punch him in the face the second he returned, or probably curse him out.... if he returned. Alice trailed her fingers to Bella's cheek; her skin wasn't nearly warm enough.

"Bella, if I had any idea..." She shook her head. "Bella, I'm so sorry.

She watched the human wince away from her touch.

"Didn't you though? You knew, didn't you?" Bella's voice was so lifeless, monotone.

Alice shook her head. "No. I swear I didn't, he decided it last minute. In a spilt second. By the time I saw anything... well, it was already too late."

"Why didn't you come sooner?" Bella accused, suddenly looking her right in the eyes with a look of utter wrath.

Alice hadn't wanted to see this, she had no idea what she expected to see once Bella looked her in the eyes, but it wasn't this. "Bella, I'm here now." She snaked her hand under the blanket and, entwined their fingers.

"Don't." She ripped her hand away, and turned away from Alice. "Don't touch me."

"Bella...." Alice ached for her friend. Had Edward really done this much damage in just a few days? She watched the human shake under the covers. "Bella, what's wrong?" Her musical voice was filled with alarm. She placed a hand on Bella's shoulder lightly.

"I said don't touch me." Bella nearly moaned. She shrank away from Alice.

"Bella, look at me." Alice tugged Bella gently, turning her over. Her brown eyes were filled with tears that threatened to spill.

"I can't let myself feel again, I just... I can't Alice, I can't." She grabbed the vampiress and clung to her, sobbing into Alice's shirt. "What if you leave me too? What if you leave me?"

Alice wrapped her arms around Bella in a protective cage. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm here. I'll be here." She kissed Bella's forehead. "Shh." She stroked her friend's knotted hair and waited for her to gradually calm down.

"Bella, this isn't healthy. You need to eat. You need to get some fresh air." She placed more kisses on Bella's forehead and cheeks.

Bella winced, as if the touch of the vampire's lips made her skin burn. "Stay with me." She pleaded.

Alice nodded slowly. "All right. I'll stay for the night, if you promise to get up tomorrow and try, for Charlie... for me."

Bella glanced up. "For you." She echoed and leaned into Alice.

As Bella drifted to sleep, Alice made a vow, a silent vow to always be there for her best friend and to never leave her alone again in this vulnerable state. She would always be there when Bella needed her. Always. Alice knew she could love Bella better than Edward ever had.

Everything you touch, everything you feel

Everything you see, everything you know now

Everything you do, you do it for your baby love, your baby love... your love.

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Hope that wasn't too confusing.

My first song fic.

Please let me know what you think. Thanks ...

'Mazin