Title: Who'd have thought I'd be the Fool?
Pairing: Bella Swan/Alice Cullen
Summary: Interim between Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. The title pretty much sums up this one shot. As well as it fitting into the title 'Fools in Love.'
Disclaimer: Alice and Bella and Rosalie not mine.
It happened just like this. In the blink of an eye. At human speed. Bella leaned forward and hugged me, in one of her usual crying fits. And I saw it coming, her rosy lips headed right for mine. I saw it in a vision and then the vision melded with reality before I could stop it. Before I could advise her against it, or tell her it would do more hurt than good. But it had been too late.
Bella, in her vulnerable state, had kissed me. Her soft lips meshed with mine.
There were certain things that were past the point of no return. Unfortunately, this was one of them.
"Bella?" Her brown eyes were wide with shock.
"I'm so sorry. I-I don't know what I was thinking." She pulled away and leaned against the wall, as far from me as possible.
"Bella," I stayed as calm and objective as I could. "You we're worrying about the wedding, crying because you and Edward just had a fight. It's okay. You were upset. It doesn't matter."
"It doesn't matter?" Bella's voice reached a shrill octave, tears spilled from her eyes again. I could tell she was near hysterics.
I reached out to touch her arm, but let my hand fall. That wasn't the best idea right now.
"Bella, it's okay. It's alright." I had to forcibly fight back the urge to pull her into a reassuring hug.
Her eyes stayed fixated to the floor as I took a small step towards her.
"It doesn't matter." She muttered under her breath, her words choked by tears. "What if I wanted it to matter?" Her watery brown eyes found mine and I realized what her actions now meant and what my words had done.
I listened to her intently as she padded back down to Edward's room and shut the door. Her crying muffled from inside.
I sighed. The last image I had of her looked so hurt, so vulnerable. If it was possible, it might have killed me.
I sighed quietly and sprawled across Rosalie's bed. "It's just... I didn't know."
Rosalie sat on the edge of her bed, staring down at me quizzically. "Well she did kiss you." She said pointedly. "Didn't that tell you something?"
I sighed again, rubbing my temples. "No. I just thought it was for comfort. You know, her and I always share sisterly touches now and again."
"Hm." Rose pursed her lips, cryptic as ever.
"My visions aren't always a blessing you know."
"Oh, believe me, I know." Rosalie rolled her eyes. "Nor is our hearing always a gift. Listen to the girl sob."
I knew what Rose was getting at. "I should go talk to her."
"Yes," Rosalie nodded. "If that's what you think is best." She placed her hand over mine. "You'll do what you need to. What's right."
"Mm. Thanks Rose."
She shrugged; her patented 'it's no problem' gesture.
I smiled at her thankfully and headed down the hall to Edward's room.
I knock lightly on the door before pushing it open. Bella's sobs have diminished to a whimper and she's hugging one of the pillows to her chest.
"Edward?" She sounds hopeful.
"No, sorry. It's just me." I sit on the edge of the bed, placing my hand on her shoulder.
"Alice." She turns over to face me, her eyes puffy and red from crying.
I move my hand to her overly warm cheek.
"Bella, I'm sorry." I begin, watching her eyes fill with guilt. "I didn't foresee your intentions and I apologize."
Bella nods slowly, her eyes fill with some other emotion that I can't quite name and she shifts perceptibly towards me until she's pressed against the side of my body, replacing her pillow for gripping onto my arm and leg.
"But this can't happen." I continue. "It would just cause so much.... well. Think of Edward and Jasper. You understand."
Bella clings to me as if I am her anchor. I can feel her body radiating heat against mine. Her hair is tangled and matted, splayed across the golden bed-sheets. It makes her scent all the more overwhelming.
Her brown eyes find mine. "But Alice, I love you."
It feels like I was punched in the stomach. My heart sank. I loved her. It was true. But it wouldn't be easy for us. And I wanted to save her the pain, the guilt she'd take upon herself for breaking apart my family. So I said all that I could, without leading her on.
"You know I care for you." I brushed away her tears with the back of my hand.
Bella nodded, her eyes filled with dejection. My heart sank into the pit of my stomach. Who'd have thought that between the two of us, I'd be the fool in love?
Quit possibly this will be the last chapter of this series. But for now I am uncertain.