Day 7- Date of Destiny
It was a miracle I was able to get out of bed the following morning after a sleepless night. An even bigger miracle I made it to work without another round of fresh tears and sobs. This was the day I had been waiting for. This was the day I'd finally go out with Jacob Black. Then why the fuck did I feel so horrible?! Everytime I closed my eyes, all I saw were those gorgeous jade eyes staring at me with hate and sadness. Edward promised to never break me, and yet it was me who broke him. I hated myself for doing that to him and I hated myself even more for thinking that there could never be a chance for us.
"Oh sweetie. Wanna talk about it?" Alice asked as she approached me looking blankly at the vending machines.
"I don't know what you're referring to." I choked out.
"Bella, he called in today. He made an appointment with the director to discuss his resignation. I'm not an idiot. I know it has something to do with you. Now, you can sit here and wallow all day and keep it bottled up or you talk to me and we can talk about fixing this mess."
If there's one thing I'll give Alice Whitlock, she's a persistent little thing.
"Can we go somewhere private? I don't need to break down in front of everyone."
She nodded and wrapped her tiny hand around my arm, comforting me. We walked in silence until we reached the doctor's lounge. She swiped her badge and we entered, still in complete silence. I held my breath to stop the sobs that wanted to come out. There were three other doctor's in the lounge. There was no way I'd be able to talk. Alice having sensed this went into scary pixie mode and scared them out, threatening castration with a dull scalpel.
"Spill Bells." She said as we plopped on the couch.
"Oh Alice! It was horrible! He confessed to me that he loves me! He loves me! And we made the most beautiful love. We didn't fuck, we didn't have sex...we made love. He was so tender and gentle and nothing but a gentleman. But then I started thinking too much and I left! I fucking left without saying a word to him or offering an explanation! The look on his face....I'll never forget that look for as long as I live! He was so hurt and sad and....fuck Alice I don't know! He didn't come to work yesterday and I tried to call him and apologize but he never returned my calls. He came over really late and we had angry fucking sex! He spanked me! But then he left. He fucking left and said he was heading to Chicago, where he should've gone all along! Oh God Alice it hurts so much! It hurts to fucking breath! It wasn't supposed to be like this!" I sobbed uncontrollably into her shirt.
She wrapped her arms around me and rocked me back and forth, whispering "Shh" into my hair. If ever I needed a friend, this was the time.
"Oh Bella, I'm sorry." She said as I finally sat up and reached for a Kleenex on the table.
"And poor Jacob is thrown into the middle of this." I hiccuped.
"Bella, I think you should go on your date tonight but explain to Jacob that this is a strictly platonic thing and you love someone else. Let him down easy. Then talk to Charlotte Cullen and find out where Edward is headed. Book your flight as soon as you can."
"He doesn't want to see me Alice. He made that clear last night." I groaned.
"Fuck what he wants! He doesn't even know what he wants! Edward is still hurting but that doesn't mean he's over you. Now go find Jacob and tell him to pick you up at my place. I'll help you get ready."
"Bella, do you want to explain why my grandson informed me at 3 a.m. that he's decided to pack his things and move to Chicago?" Charlotte asked as I stood there, my head down in shame.
"Because of me Charlotte. Because I'm an asshole and have emotional constipation."
"Well Bella, as a doctor you should know that no amount of Dulcolax will help that. What happened? And tell me the truth Bella. Edward tried to sugarcoat everything but I can see right through his lies."
I sighed and sat down in the chair, scooting it closer to her bed.
"Charlotte, you have to know that Edward is good looking. He's gorgeous in fact..." I began.
"He is. Takes after me." She joked and offered a small smile.
"Then you also know that having said looks also gives him a reputation with women."
"You mean he's a good fuck. Gets that from me too."
I couldn't help blush at that one.
"I'll take your word on that one. That being said, it would also lead to the conclusion that since I'm a simple, ordinary Plain Jane that I am not good with members of the opposite sex. I had finally landed a date with a doctor I've had a crush on for about a year. I was so afraid that Jacob would want to make it to home base that I panicked. Edward approached me and asked if I'd be interested in taking him up on a few lessons of the bedroom and God I can't believe I'm telling you this...." I laughed without humor.
"Bella, I may be old and my lover may be gone but I do have a vagina. I know what the female urge feels like."
"Right....anyways, during our time together, Edward admitted he loved me and I clammed up. We got into an argument, I hurt him horribly and he left. He was at my apartment late last night, tying up loose ends...so to speak. And Charlotte, I'm so ashamed. I feel horrible. I think I love him but I'm so damn scared. At least with Jacob, I feel safe."
"Isabella, my dear, Edward is an emotional person. He feels everything much stronger then you or I do. When he loves someone, he loves with his entire soul and being. He would do anything in the world to make you happy, he'd offer you the moon if you asked him to. It's ok to be scared. He's scared too. But damn it if you two don't get together and get hitched and make me some great grandchildren before I die, I'm gonna be pissed! I'll make sure to come back and haunt you!"
I couldn't help but bust out laughing until I had tears streaming down my face and heart lightened a fraction.
"He hasn't left yet, you know. He's not leaving until late tonight. There's still time."
After my chat with Charlotte, I felt so much better. It was like a weight being lifted. Alice had helped me get ready and in typical Alice fashion, I looked beautiful. I was able to squeeze into one of her LBD's. It was one shoulder and swept down to my feet. Simple but elegant. She pulled my hair back into a messy bun at the base of neck and I slid on a pair of gladiator sandals. I wished Edward could see me. I finished sweeping mascara over my lashes and applying a thin sheen of gloss over my lips when I heard the door knock.
"Are you ready?" Alice asked me as she walked out of the bedroom.
"As I'll ever be."
I walked out behind her and stopped halfway down the hall when Alice's husband, Jasper appeared. He was a quiet, reserved southern gentleman of very few words but he worshipped Alice and adored the ground she walked on. It made my heart swell just looking at them. It looked like he had just gotten home from work at the local museum as a docent. He was quite a history buff and if there was any curiosity or questions in the subject, he was the man to ask.
"Bella, you look fantastic. That will be one lucky son of a gun to have you in his arms tonight." He smiled at me.
My heart broke a little at that sentence but my smile never faltered.
"Thanks Jasper. I appreciate it."
"Go have fun tonight Bells, but if you feel uncomfortable or if he steps out of line you call me. I'll bring down my shotgun and show him a good old fashioned ass whoopin'."
"Thank you Jazz, but I think I can manage."
He pulled a stray blonde hair out of his blue eyes and straightened out his tall, lanky form. He offered me his hand and I took it as we walked to the front door. He leaned over and whispered in my ear," This wasn't the lucky son of a gun I was referring to and the shotgun reference was aimed at the same someone with hair the color of a penny, just for the record." He winked at me and let me go.
"Bella, wow....you look great." Jacob gushed.
He stood in the doorway, wearing a white button down shirt and simple black pants. Edward would have put a lot of thought and effort into his attire for tonight where as Jacob most likely grabbed the first thing in his closet. You don't want someone who spends more time on their clothes then you do, stupid! I thought to myself.
"Thanks Jake, you look nice too."
"Have fun tonight kids! Bella call me and tell me all about it!" Alice called after us as we walked down her porch and towards his white VW Rabbit.
He was such a sweetheart opening the door to car and to restaurant, and then pulling my seat out for me to sit in. But it almost felt like I was having a date with my brother instead of a potential lover. I made it a point not think about Edward while Jacob and I were together. How rude would that be?! I may be an emotional wreck but I have fucking manners. We spent most of the time in a comfortable, but slightly awkward silence. Only when the waiter offered more wine, did he open his mouth to say something more then one word answers.
"I know it may be hard to tell, but I'm having a good time tonight Bella." He said sheepishly as he poked at his steak.
"Me too Jake. Thanks for asking me."
"Honestly I didn't think you'd say yes. I was bracing myself and my ego for the "I think you're nice but" speech."
"Jacob, half the hospital most likely knows so I'm sure you figured it out too. I sorta have a crush on you. When you asked me out I was prepared to do backflips down the MICU." I smiled as the blood rose to my cheeks.
"Bella, I have to come clean about something. It's been eating at me since I asked you out and I feel horrible."
"What's wrong? Are you ok? Did you not want to go out with me tonight because we can go home now an-" I started rambling.
You would think that if your crush is trying to tell you he was forced into asking you out, that you would be devastated. In tears even. But I didn't feel that one bit. Not at all. How fucked up am I?
"No Bella, nothing like that. I really do think you're awesome and I'm glad we went out tonight. I just wish it would've been under different circumstances."
"I'm so fucking lost Jacob, I don't even think Louis and Clark could find me. I don't get what you're talking about."
"Bella, I know about your midnight rendezvous's with Cullen. And the reason I know that is because Cullen bribed me and then blackmailed me to ask you out so you'd freak out and run to him for lessons...so to speak. And fuck, I'm sorry Bella. I don't want you think I didn't want to be here tonight cause I do. I think we could be awesome friends but I wish I would've gone about it differently."
"So what you're telling me Jacob Black is that you accepted money to prevent some stupid secret from coming out and this was all planned?!"
"Basically, but Bella that secret could potentially ruin my career. I hope you understand why I did it."
"Well I think I deserve to know your secret don't you? Considering you used me, I'd say that's a pretty fair trade."
He groaned and placed his head in hands, shaking it. With a deep sigh and closed eyes, he looked at me and said the one thing I certainly wasn't expecting.
I almost fell out of my fucking chair and choked on my wine.
"I"m sorry? I don't think I heard right. It sounded like you just said you were gay."
"Bella, Cullen found out because seeing as he's my attending and I'm a second year resident, he invited me over to his place so we could go over a few of my cases and do an eval. I walked into his townhouse and I got the wrong idea about him. I made a move, a very inappropriate and stupid move on my part, and he freaked out. That's when he said he'd forget about everything if I'd help him. Which leads us to where we are now."
I must've looked like a god damn psycho. People probably thought I had escaped the looney bin. I burst out in laughter. A deep guffaw, to be exact that came right from the pit of my stomach and erupted out of my mouth almost sounding like a jack ass hee-hawing. Jacob blinked at me once, then twice before his lips twitched upwards and he started laughing too. Minutes went by and we hadn't ceased our public display of humor. Tears were rolling down my face and my mascara went with it. My sides were aching and I thought I was going to throw up. Finally I calmed down enough and looked at Jacob through water filled eyes.
"That's the funniest fucking thing I've ever heard! Jacob fucking Black is homosexual. Who would've thought! And for the record, I thought Cullen was gay when I first went to his house. I won't hold that against you."
"Friends?" He asked as he extended his hand.
"Friends." I smiled back as I grabbed it and held it firmly.
"Now Dr. Swan, I believe Dr. Cullen is in dire need of a physical exam. Perhaps we should call it a night so you can pay him a visit?"
"Dr. Black, that's an excellent idea."
Jacob dropped me off in front of Edward's townhouse and I nervously made my way up the front door. I raised my hand, shaking with nervousness and excitement, and knocked in short, loud thumps. After a minute or two I was thinking maybe he wasn't home and I could feel a lump forming in my throat. He had left already. I was too fucking late. I turned around to walk away when I heard the familiar sound of the locks being played with and the handle turning.
"What are you doing here?" He asked softly.
"We need to talk."
"Bella, I can't. I just don't have the energy for this. I have a flight to catch in a few hours and I'm not even done packing."
"Edward Cullen you will talk to me, even it means I have to stand out hear and let the whole world hear what I have to say."
He pinched the bridge of his nose and gestured for me to enter. I walked past him and stood by the couch waiting for him to join me.
"Spill Bella." He said in annoyance.
I walked over to him, looked him square in the eye and slapped him across the cheek as hard as I could. While he was in shock I reached forward and grabbed his head bringing it down to mine and capturing his lips with my own. At first he was stiff as a board and his arms stayed by his sides. But when I let my tongue glide across his lip, he moaned and I knew I won. His hands grabbed my hips firmly and he pulled me closer. I wrapped my arms tighter around his neck kissing him with everything I had. When my lungs were burning with the lack of oxygen did I finally pull away. He looked at me through half lidded eyes and swollen lips.
"Now you listen to me Edward Cullen. You're an asshole! How dare you blackmail Jacob just so you could get into my pants! If would've asked me then I might've said yes!" I scolded putting my hands on my hips.
"Fucking blabbermouth." He mumbled.
"Shut it, I'm not done. And another thing, how dare you fuck me and leave me last night."
"I'm sorry, isn't that what you did the night before that?! I make love to you, tell you I love you and you fucking left Bella! I hadn't felt pain like that, not even when my parent's died. You broke my fucking heart Bella! I would give you anything! I gave you my heart and now I can never give it to anyone else. It's only you Bella. Only you for me. I hope you're happy now that you've stolen my heart."
"Edward, the feeling is fucking mutual. Ever wonder why we argue so much? Because we're perfect for one another. You and me Edward, we're a team. We argue, laugh, cry, and love together. It doesn't get much more perfect then what we have. I love you Edward Cullen, and I know you still love me. So what are we waiting for?"
He took two steps forward and wrapped his arms around me in a bone crushing embrace. I yelped in surprise, weaving my hands through his hair and whispering soft words of love into his ear. This felt safe. This felt right, perfect. Who would've thought that my soul mate would be right in front me for the last eight years. But such is destiny.
"Bella, I love you so fucking much. I want you. Right now."
"Edward, tonight, I want to love you. Don't get me wrong, we're gonna fuck each other silly but I want you to feel my love."
"Anything..." He whispered as he swept down for a panty melting, orgasm inducing kiss.
"You. Naked. Couch. Now." I got out in between pants.
We stripped each other in a matter of seconds. Alice was going to be pissed her dress was thrown on the floor. He sat down on the couch and I straddled him, his cock close to my entrance. I wanted to push down and impale him but he needed to know I loved him and that this wasn't going to be just a quick fuck.
"Cullen, we've never done this position before. It's something new, kinda like this whole love thing. It's new to me. But I'm glad you're going to be the first man I'll fuck cowgirl style and I'm also glad you're the first man I've ever truly loved."
"God, Swan you have such a way with words. And for the record, I'm going to be the last man you ever fuck. No one will get to know how tight your pussy is except me. They won't get to see your perfect tits as they bounce up and down while you ride my cock. And they certainly won't get to see the beauty that is your face during orgasm. Now, if you please." He retorted as he nipped at my neck and descended down my chest until he had a nipple in his mouth.
Enough with the foreplay. I placed him right at my opening and brought my ass down. We both hissed at how wonderful it felt. His hands were at my hips again, holding them steady as he brought his hips up to meet my every thrust. Faster he trusted, and harder I slammed down. I was so close. I threw my head back and let out a loud moan when his hand left my hip and reached between us rubbing my clit in hard, fast circles. I brought my hands to my breasts and gripped my nipples hard and it was only a matter of moments before my orgasm swept through me and I screamed his name in agonizing bliss. He was right behind me, waves of pleasure capturing him. I leaned forward and rested my head on his shoulder, both of us breathing hard and covered in sweat.
"I've never been as happy as I am right now, here with you." He whispered.
"Me too. But you know Cullen, you haven't even asked me out on a date. There was a rather handsome male nurse working in the MICU with me who I'm sure would love my number."
"Oh Isabella...you're in trouble now. I'm going to tie you to the bed, spank you with the leather strap, and bring you so close to coming. But I won't let you find release until I say so. Wanna know how I'm gonna do that? I'll start with my tongue licking that swollen clit of yours. Then I'll fuck you with a few fingers. And just when you can't take anymore, I'm going to flip you over and fuck that tight pussy of yours from behind."
The breath hitched in my throat and I felt myself getting wet again. He stood up, my legs wrapped around his waist and made his way towards his bedroom where he made true to his promise. Nice. And. Hard.
"Well Charlotte, looks like you get to go home today. Your x-rays are clean and your chest sounds good." I smiled sweetly at her.
"Thank God. You know I simply adore you Bella, but the hospital food here is just shit. It's no wonder I've lost seven pounds. I need a steak with potato's, not applesauce and cornmeal. Absolute garbage I tell you. Perhaps, you and Edward should come over to dinner at my house sometime. I love company. I'll ask Rosalie and Emmett on the ride home and we can make it a family affair. Bring that little pixie creature that you hang out with too. What's her name? Dallas?"
I laughed light heartedly, "Alice. I'll be sure to pass on the invite to her and her husband. Thank you so much for everything Charlotte. Edward and I are happy and in love. I couldn't have realized that without you."
I leaned down and kissed her cheek softly and helped her into the wheelchair, preparing to wheel her outside where Rose and Emmett were waiting for her. I had just pushed the button for the elevator when I heard footsteps running behind me and screeching to a stop.
"Dr. Swan! Quick! It's Dr. Cullen! He needs you! He's in the hallway by the lounge, hurry!" Angela gasped.
"Angela take care of Mrs. Cullen, Charlotte I'll be back." I said before I took off running down the hall, practically tackling anyone in my way. My running slowed when I heard the overhead P.A. come on and a smooth chocolaty voice came on.
"Attention employees and visitors of Forks General, this is Dr. Edward Cullen. Please forgive the intrusion of airwaves but I wanted to inform everyone love is in the air and it's highly contagious. In fact, I think I feel a song coming on...."
I stopped as I looked at Edward standing at a nurse's station by the lounge, the microphone in his hand. He smiled at me devilishly and I erupted in a fit of girlish giggles, my cheeks on fire.
"This is dedicated to Dr. Bella Swan... you're just to good to be true, can't take my eyes off of you! You'd be like heaven to touch, I want to hold you so much..." He started singing.
When this was over, I was going to kill him. Flat out, fucking stab him with a rusty scalpel. I was so embarrassed, everyone was stopped in the halls looking at us. Patients were even coming out of their rooms to see what the commotion was.
"I love you baby! And if it's quite alright I need you baby! Let me love you baby, let me love you!" He sang some more.
"Bella, this is so romantic!" Alice squealed next to me.
Next thing I knew, about ten nurses got into a chorus line and danced in synch right in front of me. Some of the residents, got involved too singing the chorus with Edward. It was a full fledged hospital affair and I was absolutely mortified. There had to have been at least fifty people, staff included, surrounding me clapping and getting involved in Edward's PDA. I brought my hands to my face and dared to peek out between my fingers. Edward had put down the mic and was walking towards me, his hands outreached to me.
"Cullen! What the fuck are you doing?!" I whispered harshly.
"I'm loving you, what does it look like?"
"Oh stupid me! I thought this was a hospital not a god damn Broadway production!"
"Ladies and gentlemen, I want you all to meet the beautiful woman who stole my heart...Bella!" Edward announced loudly and the crowd clapped and whistled and I stood there like a damn idiot. Slowly the applause died down until it was so quiet you could hear a pin drop.
"Bella, I don't want to spend another day without you. Never. When we were apart those two days, I thought I was going to die. Knowing that I may never see you again, damn near killed me. You're right Bella, we're polar opposites and we argue and fight constantly. But I don't want to fight with anyone else. I've grown kind of fond of you over the last eight years and don't you think it's time we put all the bullshit and heartache behind us and move on? I do. Which is why, Isabella Marie Swan, I want you to be my wife. I need someone to keep me young and on my toes. Will you marry me, Bella? Be mine forever?" He asked as he got down on one knee and pulled a little black box revealing an antique sapphire and diamond ring.
God damn if he didn't already embarrass me, I embarrassed myself when I started bawling like an asshole in front of the whole hospital, hiccuping in between sobs. I dropped down to my knees and wrapped my arms around him, whispering "Yes" over and over.
"She said yes!" He yelled as he wrapped me tighter in his embrace.
The clapping and cheering erupted once again and Edward brought me to my feet, picking me up and spinning me in a hug. I was never happier either. Who would have thought the awkward boy I met in an undergrad bio course would turn into this amazing doctor, handsome man and above all be the one to win my heart. Never go against fate, she's an angry bitch.
"Oh Bella and Edward, I'm so happy for you." Charlotte said as Angela wheeled her towards the front of the crowd.
"Me too! Oh Bella, you're going to get married and have kids and..." Alice chimed in until she broke down in tears too.
"Oh Alice, why are you crying? Don't cry!" I soothed as I hugged her.
"I'm ok, it's just the hormones. Being pregnant has its perks but it certainly has its downs." She hiccuped with a smile.
"You're?! Really?!" I gushed.
"Just found out yesterday. Now you can have a little ring bearer or flower girl. We need to start planning immediately."
I opened my mouth about to say something when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I spun around to see Jacob, smiling at me like a buffoon. I pulled him for a hug whispering words of thanks and more tears fell down my face and onto his scrubs.
"Just make sure you invite me to the wedding." He finally spoke as we broke apart and Edward wrapped his arms around me.
"Oh Bella, to think you're going to be Mrs. Dr. Cullen."
"Oh? What makes you so sure I'm going to take your name? I'm rather fond of Swan."
"Isabella, you know what happens when I get upset. Your ass takes a beating amongst other things. Don't make me take you in the supply room." He growled.
My panties were soaked and my skin was prickling with desire. Oh yes, we were most certainly a match made in Heaven. And Hell.
"Don't make threats unless you plan on following through, Dr. Cullen." I replied smoothly as I grabbed his erection discretely cause him to hiss.
Edward grabbed my wrists firmly and kissed me, every ounce of passion and love I could feel. I rested my forehead against his and we stood there in the middle of the hall as the crowd started to break up and the staff got back to work.
"You know, I don't know the first thing about being a wife." I said as we walked hand in hand.
"Oh? Well perhaps you're interested in a tutor of sorts?" He asked giving me a mischievous grin.
FIN! Thanks to everyone who reviewed. Yes, this is the end. Sequel? Maybe, I'd kinda like to finish BTL before I start another monstrosity. I've got a new beta/idea tosser backer Psalms18. Go read her stuff. Until next time, happy reading!!!