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Chapter One

"Rose?" Lissa asked.

We were all sitting at our usual table in the cafeteria, eating our breakfast. I just got back from Russia a couple of days ago. I had also gotten the letter and silver stake from Dimitri around the same time. The only person that knew about the letter and stake was Lissa. But, she didn't know who it was from. And, I didn't bother to tell her. I didn't need her to be worried about all my problems.

"Huh? What? Sorry Liss." I said. She looked worried but didn't say anything. Yet.

"We were talking about graduation. And, how it's a little less than two months away." She replied.

Are you sure you're okay? Lissa thought.

I gave her a brief small nod and a small smile.

"Oh! I know! Can you believe it?" Eddie asked. He seemed really excited to graduate and get out of this place. Who could blame him? If only he knew. That it wasn't what all the other guardians said it was like. It scary out there in the world. You don't know what you're doing 'til you're actually doing it. Like trying to kill the love of your life.

I guess I was staring off into space again because Lissa was sending me another message through our bond.

You and me are going to have a talk after class. My room. Meet me there. I know something's wrong. And I'm betting that it has something to do with the letter and silver stake.

I stared at her. How could she know? But I wasn't going to let her think she was right. So I just nodded again, like it was no big deal. Eddie soon caught on to the fact that I wasn't paying attention to the conversation.

"Rose?" Eddie asked. Everyone was staring at me as if I had two heads or something. Now, what were they talking about…Oh yeah! Graduation.

"Yea! I know! Graduation, two months away!" I answered. I tried to be happy for them, hoping that Lissa and Eddie bought it.

They either did or they just didn't bother bring up my problems at breakfast. I was hoping it was the first one.

Adrian was just staring at me the whole time during breakfast. It seemed like he was trying to figure something out. Then, he looked around me. He was looking at my aura. I figured it was black – as usual.

"Rose, something's wrong." It wasn't a question, more or less a statement. I was pretty sure that Christian said it but I wasn't positive because I was staring at Adrian the whole time.

"You know what? I just realized that I left my paper for history class in my room. I'll see you guys at lunch." I said as I was getting up. I left the cafeteria before anyone said anything.

Once I was out the doors, I took off towards the track. I felt like running. I needed to run. Running always seems to help me think straight. And at the moment that's just what I needed. So, when I got to the track, I took out my IPod, put the headphones in, and blasted the music. Headstrong by Trapt was playing. One of my favorite songs. I ended up do a total of 40 laps, twice as much as my normal, but I didn't care. I decided to skip all my classes. I wasn't in the mood to be around anybody right now. I took off towards the gym. There were no classes going on so I went in.

This whole time I was thinking about Dimitri. How could I've missed his heart? I killed him twice and both times it felt as if I was killing myself. I couldn't do it a third time. It would be impossible. I would choke up again.

I promised my mom that I would stay here until I graduated. What am I going to do?? And then it hit me. All of a sudden I was angry. I sucked all the anger form Lissa away. Why was she angry? Whatever. I don't know what happened but now I had the urge to punch something. So, I decided to go into the small room where the dummies were. I took all my anger out on them. I worked on my punches and kicks.

Before I knew it, I was sitting on floor in the small room, with my back against the wall. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes. I did the one thing that I haven't done in a while and that was cry.

My music was still blasting so I didn't hear him when he walked in. I was surprised to see him there, to be honest with you. But he was. Adrian sat down next to me. I took my headphones out and he wrapped his arms around me.

"Shhh, Rose…Everything's going to all right." He kept say that over and over. He was trying to calm me down, to get me to stop crying. I was still crying when everything started to go black, and then, I passed out.

I woke up in an all too familiar room. I was in at the academy's clinic. I've been here so many times that I've lost count. Adrian was sitting in a chair next to my bed holding my hand in both of his.

"Hey, Little Dhampir." He said with a small smile on his face.

"Hey. What are you doing here?" I asked a little groggy. Just as he was about to answer there was a knock on the door and in came Dr. Oldenski.

"Good morning Rose, glad to see that you are awake today." She said with a warm smile.

"W-what day is it?" I stuttered. I knew it was morning so was it Tuesday? Why were they both just staring at me…. I was so confused.

"Rose, today is Friday." Dr. Olendzki decided to answer. I just stared between the two of them. How could it already be Friday? I mean it was Monday yesterday? And why couldn't Lissa heal me? Now, I was really confused. What had happened?

As if she could read my mind, Dr. Olendzki said, "Well, Rose, I'm sorry, but I have to go and check on the other patients. But, Adrian here, can fill you in on what happened." And then she left and closed the door behind her.

I looked over at him. Trying to remember what had happened. But I couldn't.

"Adrian, what happened? Why am I here?" I asked worriedly.

After a long silence, he finally answered.

"Rose, you passed out in the gym." I passed out? How? And that's when I remembered what happened. The running, the working out, and the crying. I cried in front of Adrian; how on earth will I live that one down. I looked into his emerald green eyes, and saw he really did love and care about me.

When I didn't say anything he continued.

"After you left from the cafeteria, I told everyone that I was going to go and have a smoke. They didn't ask any questions. They were trying to figure out what was wrong with you." That did sound like all my friends. Always trying to figure out what happened to me, why I was mad. It never got old.

"That's when I decided to follow you. I had to. Rose, on Monday, when I was staring at you, I was staring at your aura. I was really worried about you. Your aura was blacker than ever. I followed you over to the tracks. I hid behind a tree. I was going to call your name when you went to get a drink a water, but saw your headphones."

I looked at him and he looked right back at me. I could tell that he was worried about me. What am I going to do? Tell him that I fine? Tell him don't worry about…I was just stressed out form school.

"I don't think I have ever seen anyone run 40 laps before. You didn't even look tired. I was about to stop you because I thought you were done, but you just went to the gym. I thought that it would be best if I let you be so I did. I figured you want to be alone and I couldn't blame you."

And that's when I remembered what happened in the gym.

"Lissa. I got mad." That's all I could manage to say.

"Yea, I saw what happened. Your aura got even blacker and you looked like you were about to kill who ever got in your way."

"But what happened? Why was Lissa mad?" I asked.

"Her and Christian had gotten into an argument about me and her working on Spirit." That's all he had to say. I knew ho Christian got when Lissa and Adrian were together.

"You were working out in the gym for a good two hours. Lissa was worried about you and wanted me to go and find you. She said that you skipped your morning classes. I figured that you would still be in the gym. I looked around for you and found you. You were sitting on the ground and... and you were crying."

I heard it in his voice, how worried and scared he was. I haven't told him what happened in Russia but he knows bit and pieces from the dreams. And, now he had a couple tears coming down his cheeks. I wiped them away. I didn't like when he cried. It made me want to cry. Wait! What the hell is going on? Why am I having feelings for Adrian?

After he took a couple of deep breaths he went on. "I wasn't sure what to do…so I just sat there, right next you. You leaned your head on to my shoulder and I just held you. And, then, out of no where you passed out. I was so freaked out; I carried you to the clinic. And, that my Little Dhampir is why you are here."

After he was done telling me what happened Monday, I looked into those emerald eyes and saw he really did care. He cared all this time, when I didn't. I just never saw it or took the chance to get to know Adrian Ivashkov.

"Thank you, Adrian." Was I could say. I wanted to say more but I was starting to get tired again. I wanted to tell him thank you for being there when no one else could, for understanding all my pain, for keeping my secret, for helping me with my 'trip', for never giving up on me, and the most important one of all – thank you for loving me – especially when I pushed you away.

He held my hand in both of his as we wait for the doctor to come back – which wasn't long. We sat in silence, but it was comfortable. Just then there was a knock and Dr. Olendzki came in with a smile on her face.

"Well, Rose, it looked like you passed out from exhaustion. You need and still do rest. You'll stay here for a couple more days to get more fluids in you and some rest. I also cancelled your practices, just as a precautionary." She said.

"Umm…ok." I wasn't to happy about this. I wanted to practice. And, I defiantly did NOT want to stay here a couple more days!!

Once she left, I got sucked into Lissa's head. Great! Just what I need. She was walking to the clinic with Christian and Eddie behind her and behind them was…my mom and dad?!?! What why are they here?? Oh man! This can't be good.

I got out of her head as soon as possible. Adrian was shaking me, he looked worried. "What was that about? On minute you were here then the next thing I saw was you zoning and not answering me."

"Oh. Sorry. I got sucked into Lissa's head."

"I see. What's going on?"

"Did you know both my mom and dad are here?"

"Who's your dad? I knew that your mom was here."

"Ahh man! Why's my mom here? My dad is Abe Mazur."

"W-w-who did you say your dad was?" He looked really pale. I think he was a little scared.

"Abe Mazur."

"Well, that explains so much." He said with his lazy grin.

"You didn't answer my question."

"Which was?"

"Why is my mother here, of all people?"

"Little Dhampir, she was worried. She arrived Monday night, when Kirova called her to let her know about your situation."

"She was worried?" I asked sarcastically.

"Yup" He answered popping the 'p'.

"But why-"

I was cut off because, right then and there, my mother, the best kick ass Guardian Janine Hathaway came barging into my room along with my dad and all my friends. And let me be the first to tell you, my mother looked pissed.

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