Chapter 20- I Should've Never Thought of You

I should've never thought of you, I knew
I know in my heart it's not you, I know
But, now I know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no! I should've never thought!

-I Caught Myself by Paramore

Bella's Point of View

I was just about to go to the Cullens from La Push when Jacob followed me.

"Bells." He stopped me by holding my shoulder.

"Hey Jake, what's up?"

"Well, I wanna show you something." I noticed he was whispering.

"Hold on a sec. Why are you whispering?" I asked him in a normal volume.

"Shh! Quiet, you!" He told me as he covered my mouth.

"Okay. I'm gonna show you something." Then he pulled out a small black velvet box. My face was showing a how-the-hell-am-I-supposed-to-react-when-you-are-showing-me-a-ring-box look. My eyebrows went up. Way up.

"Jake, what's. Wait. What are you doing with that?" I asked clearly puzzled.

"Bella, I'm planning to ask Leah to marry me."

"What? Oh my God. I don't know what else to say. Why are you asking me this?" I asked, my expression changed immediately from puzzled to delight.

"Because you two are like sisters. I mean you two are very close. And it would be very rude of me if I won't ask you."

"Oh gosh. Jake. I'm so happy for you!" I said as I hug him tightly. "When are you planning to, you know. Propose to her?"

"This Saturday."

"Wait. Tomorrow?" I asked him.

"Tomorrow is Saturday?" He asked me back.


"Oh. Tomorrow then." He told me.

"Oh. Okay. Oh, Jake, I'm so happy for you two." I told him breathlessly. "You two make a lovely couple."

"Thanks Bells. Now you go ahead to the leeches. Maybe Blondie and Pixie are worried already." I rolled my eyes at him. I waved him goodbye and went in my truck. It took me 15 minutes to reach their house.

"Hey guys!" I greeted Alice and Rosalie when I saw them at the front porch.

"Bells!" They hugged me when they saw me.

"Eew, Bells. You smell like a wet dog. You hugged Fido before going here, didn't you?" Rosalie told me.

"If by Fido you mean Jacob then yes."

"Oh. Okay. Go in."

When I entered, I noticed that their house is unusually unorganized. There were lots of paper scattered everywhere, ribbons…

"Okay, why…" I was about to ask them when Alice continued.

"Why is it so untidy here? Ask Tanya. She's 'preparing for the wedding'"

"She's making the invitations herself?"

"Apparently, she's good at arts and stuff. So yeah."

"Oh. Okay then." I shrugged.

"So, you wanna hang out?" I asked as I sat on the couch.

"We're gonna show you something." Rosalie said.

"Okay. What is it?" I asked suspicious.

They shoved a laptop on the table and then I saw the video of our performance of My Heart in Anaheim. This is my favorite version of My Heart. I'm very proud of this performance. Though there is still the embarrassing part that we performed this more or less than 5 years ago.

"Oh my gosh! I was so young! I was just 19 here!" I told them as I cover my face that's becoming red. "Oh gosh…"

"Bella, you were great here!" Especially in the last part!" Alice praised

"Aww. Thanks Alice."

"Wait Bella, I have a question for you." Rosalie said. "What's your favorite song? The one you wrote?"

"I don't know. My Heart?" I told them but it came out more of a question.


"Dunno. It's the first song that came out of my mouth."

We chatted for hours, telling each other stories. I did most of the talking, telling them about the time when we started touring, my experiences during tours, the places. They were intently listening to me. They asked whether I plan on to go to college. Of course I do. But for now, I'm too busy to think about college. My main priority for now is the band. Later, Jasper, Emmett, Carlisle and Esme came and we shared stories.

"If you're not a vocalist, what would you be?" Emmett asked.

"Form a band and be vocalist." A mischievous grin forming on my lips.

"No. Seriously!" Jasper said.

"Pilot, hands down." I told them.

"What? A pilot? Bella, where did that come from?" Alice asked.

"I happen to watch a marathon of Air Crash Investigation one boring day then yeah. Good things happen when you're bored you know?"

"Wow. You're serious?"

"Yeah." I smiled. "I will be the pilot of the plane you will be riding, Alice Cullen. Remember my words." I joked.

"You know what? I wish we have times like this. You know, hanging out, talking…" Rosalie sighed.

"Yeah." Jasper agreed.

"Sadly, those times will have to stop for a moment." I said sadly.

"What? Why?" Rosalie asked.

"We'll start touring soon, Rose." I smiled sadly.

"Ooh, dear. We're gonna miss you so much!" Esme said hugging me.

"I'll miss you too, guys." I told them hugging her back.

"Why aren't you telling us?"

"Not yet allowed." I said. "Don't worry. I promise I'll give you tickets to the concert in Seattle with backstage passes."

"Really?" Carlisle asked.

"Yeah. You want a tour of our tour bus?" I asked them again.

"I'm soooo gonna charge my camera." Alice said.

"Then you better be ready for next week."

"The concert is next week?"

"Be ready for it." I winked. "It's gonna be legendary."

A/N: Guys, I'm really sorry for not updating. School just started and I'm really busy. So sorry guys! The next chapters will be explosive. You better be ready for it. I'm going to update as often as I can but I can't really ensure you that I'll be updating every week. Again, please bear with me.

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