Chapter 19

"You are not alone, I am here with you."

(-Michael Jackson)


Mikan tried calling Hotaru and Ruka and Ruka and Ruka and Ruka that morning.

Still nothing.

She got nothing but beeps and his goddamn answering machine.

Where could he go? And why? Why did he show up in front of her house yesterday? Why?

Her phone rang and as soon as she heard it she went dashing to the table where she placed it. Her fingers shook as she pressed answer. "R-ruka?"

"Ruka?" Came in the unusually husky voice. It kind of disappointed her. She was frustrated over something she didn't even know why she's frustrated of. "What do you mean Ruka? Did something happen to him?"

"Um, no. No, nothing." She took a deep breath, which came off hard since she shook a lot. "Natsume? Why did you call?"

"Well," He coughed lightly and she knew immediately that he was wearing his signature smirk. "at Robbins'"

It was that sweet, pink little doll house café that sells pretty and not to mention expensive cupcakes and other delicacies. "Robbins'? We're going on a date, today?" She laughed lightly and for a while, she even forgot about Ruka. She'd like that, to eat something delicious without worrying about a thing. About Ruka. Why was she bothering anyway?

She had Natsume Hyuuga now, right?

Right?

"Well, I.. uh… I guess." Mikan smiled, now, suppose, he's blushing. She never knew he was like an open book. He was so easy to read at times like this. Unlike other times where he's Natsume Hyuuga. The Natsume Hyuuga the public knew. The mysterious, dark and invulnerable Natsume Hyuuga.

He was perfect.

And just now, she's beginning to see his imperfections.

"Okay then," she concluded. "It's a date. I'll see you at?"

"Make it 6pm sharp." Mikan had her hand on the end call button when she heard his voice in the speakers. "Oh and…uh… d-don't make me wait. I hate waiting."

She laughed.

"No problemo."


Hotaru went over to Mikan's house and caught Mikan trying on some dresses. The brunette saw her best friend through the mirror and just after she opened her mouth to ask how she looked and why she's dressing up, Ruka showed behind her, smiling.

"Hi." He said lightly.

Mikan's mouth closed and opened widely. "Ohmigod! R-Ruka! Where have you been? I-I've been calling you since last night! I…" She walked out to him and held out her arms. He hesitated for a while and then completely gave in. "…I missed you. Lots."

His heart gave in.

How could he not love this girl? This—Mikan Sakura—girl, who already got him around her fingers. She was just so… so… "Mikan," He pulled away himself first. "I have something to tell you."

She was just so impeccably beautiful.

That's it.

It was not just how Ruka looked at her. She was always like that, even to Hotaru Imai. To everyone. She was something out of an obra. She was sweet like cotton candy, bright as a little ray of sunshine and as colourful as a lollipop.

And everytime Ruka looked at her, he just couldn't control himself. He wanted to hug her, to touch her hair, to lean his head on her shoulder. It was so confusing for him, he doesn't even know why he feels this way about her. Why he even has this kind of feelings for her.

"What it is?"

Her heart is pounding.

She couldn't even swallow her own saliva.

Why? Why is she feeling this way?

For Ruka, even. He's… she feels so different when she's with him. Like she's in her comfort zone everytime she's with him. Like he's her comfort zone. He makes her feel complete and… everything. But why? She knew she loved Natsume. She knew she loved Natsume more that anything.

She's just so torn apart.

Why?

"I'm leaving for France. Three weeks from now. I was supposed to go this week, but…" He couldn't tell her about the fortune teller. No, he just couldn't. "…I'll stay around for a while." He stopped. He wanted to know how she was going to marry, but he knew it wasn't him. There's now way, but why? He just wanted her to be safe. If there's anyone who can take her away from him, it could only be Natsume Hyuuga. His cousin. The boy he knew since birth. Natsume maybe a goddamn bastard but he loved Mikan so much he knew he'll be wrapped around Mikan's finger just like he was. But he wanted to go as soon as possible, not because of his line of work but because of Mikan.

"Why will you stay for a while? It's because of your work right, I mean, that's why you're leaving?"

Because he wanted to get over her as soon as possible.

Because of Mikan.

He walked to Mikan, digging his hand into her hair and kissed her forehead. He stood in front of her, the feeling of his kiss lingering on her temple. Ruka leaned his forehead on hers and looked into her eyes. "Because of you. I'll stay for a while because of you."

She smiled, her eyes brimming with wet, salty tears. "Really?"

"Yes," He said, smiling lightly. "Then tonight, have dinner with me."

The tears fell, her make-up a bit smudged. And for now, she completely forgot about her date with Natsume Hyuuga, Hotaru Imai by the door and the wrinkles in her dress. It's about Ruka.

Ruka and Mikan.

Their dinner together as star-crossed lovers.

Their dinner together as a couple that they could never be.


"Where could she be?" He whispered to himself.

People in the café were looking at him like they're seeing a boy in the girl's restroom. He was out of place and completely dateless.

Natsume Hyuuga, obviously, wasn't born for pink frilly walls and white laced table cloths. He was born for the playboy girls, classy parties and luxurious sports cars.

But he loved Mikan so much he's willing to sit down in a sanrio designed chair with that huge-ass face of that goddamned cat in a pink satin bow smiling at him. Taunting him that Mikan Sakura would never, ever forgive him and give him another chance.

He called her lots of times. If only he knew that she left her phone at home all the while having dinner with his supposedly best friend. His cousin whom he knew since birth.

They were supposed to eat something delicious. Something cute. What she wanted.

And then he'll spoil her, they'll go to shops and he'll dress her up in pretty, high class dresses and ever since the beginning, he imagined that the highlight of the night will be them making love. Something much different that he thought in the start. Ever since he met her, he was all about him all over her. Tasting her. Touching her. Feeling her. But now, the more he realized he couldn't get a girl like her by fame, money and power, he just wanted to prove himself to her. Prove himself worthy to love her.

Mikan Sakura already proved herself to him. And now it's his turn. He'd proved a lot of people worthy for everything by just introducing himself. His family name. His beautiful face. He already proved his father he was worthy of being a politician. Worthy of being the golden heir. He didn't prove himself well enough to his mother, to Aoi. He didn't have the time, they were too… but he knew who his mother was. Who his sister was. Proving himself worthy to them was a tough job. But he's getting to it.

Because proving himself to them means loving one person.

And he knew there's no one in the world who could be it but Mikan Sakura.

No one.

"Sir?" The host came in smiling as he was holding the cake Natsume ordered minutes ago. "Would you like anything else?"

It's been almost two hours he's been in here and he ordered almost half of the menu. People came and went and came and went. And he stayed still. Ignoring all the looks he's been receiving and the comments he's been hearing.

He didn't care, he only cared about Sakura.

What if Mikan came in when he decided to go out?

What if she thought he was letting her go again?

He didn't want her to think that way.

Not again.

No.

He'll stay.

He'll wait for her.

"No, I'll just call you when I need something else."

But she'll come right?

She'll definitely come.


[GD]

Yea

[SR]

The love I'm feeling (You know girl)

Is just simply amazing (Just simply amazing)

Need you in my life (I need you)

Don't throw this away (3-6-5, 2-4)

(Say I love you, don't cha)

[YB]

Girl, girl, you're so fly, oh my

[GD]

Girl, girl, you're so fly, oh my

I, I need you by my side (GD: I said I need you girl, I need you right by my side)

You're, you're always on my mind (You'll, you'll always be on my mind)

And, and you are mine for life (Now let me tell you what I'm feeling, how it feels like)

[GD]

The minute that I met you was like 'Whoa'

And every thing about you was so beauti-damn-ful

You know I had to get the digits, yo yo

The 4-1-1, the things that you like and don't like

Got a feeling you're the one I've been dreaming of

Got a feeling in my heart and it's screaming 'Love'

It's you I live my life for, it's the one I adore

I'm gonna love you for life

And baby that's fosho

Feel me?

[Chorus]

Miageta sorano hyojo

kimiwo omouto kagayakidashita.

Mezamete suguno kanjo takanaru kodo

kimini muchu-sa.

Afuredasu kono omoi wo ryote ni sotto uketometanara

Aitai to negau kokoro kono tede motto todokete yuko.

TRANSLATION:

When I look up the sky, thinking about you, the sky starts shining.

When I wake up, thinking about you, my heart starts beating.

I am mad about you (I am so in love with you)

I hold my feeling of loving you so much with my hands softly, and

I will go to see you with this loving feeling.

[GD]

I love you, I love you not

I love you, I love you not

I miss you, I need you

Come back to me

C'mon

[DS]

Girl, girl, you're so fly, oh my (TOP: Girl, girl, you're so fly, oh my)

I, I need you by my side (I said I need you girl, I need you right by my side)

You're, you're always on my mind (You'll, you'll always be on my mind)

And, and you are mine for life (Now let me tell you what I'm feeling, how it feels like)

[TOP]

Mind-blowing, girl you are oh so (Oh)

Dedicated to me, girl that's awesome (so awesome)

Everybody wanna know this all so (yea, c'mon)

So I'm about to hit 'em with a super-fly flow

Yo, yo, my baby got it goin' on for life (for life)

And she can never do wrong

I'm telling you, she's more than right

(For me) That's right, (for sheez) you know that's right

Know what I mean?

[Chorus]

[YB]

And every morning as I wake I smile

So complete, so indeed

In love, it's heaven fosho

I love her forevermore

Cuz she keeps on bringing true love out of me, hey

[SR]

There ain't nothing I won't do

You can call me anytime

[DS]

Oh, girl you are my everything

That's everything, no lie

[SR]

You are the one that I wanna be with every single time

[DS]

We're the ones so happy

Until the end, OH

(Big Bang, Mad About You)


Author's Notes:

And that's a wrap! Haha. I feel so mean, poor Natsume-kun. :( But I just turned the tables on him, he's been doing all the mean stuff and Ruka's been the one doing all the suffering. But worry not, things will soon be alright. Things will be discovered and so-so. Just stay tuned!

(You guys can skip this if you want, it's just me rumbling.)

Oh and it's another Big Bang song. I'm such a (GDRAGON/KWONJIYONG) fan, I'm sorry. Heehee. I think chapter 20 will be coming up soon since I've cut Chapter 18 into two parts. I'm torn between Ruka and Natsume! But I'm more on a NatsuMikan shipper on this one because RUKA IS AND WILL BE FOREVER MINE. }D MWAHAHAHA. (/evil laugh)

Okay, I'll stop rambling now.

ILOVEYOUGUYS! Thanks for the reviews, I love them so much.

Especially when you're all still reading even if I got so busy this past few weeks and didn't write.

And you still think my story is still not boring!

It makes me going, ya know. ;)

We don't have internet still, I mean, it goes on and off and on and off.

Damn you smartbro. GIVE US SOME INTERNET CONNECTION.

But on the bright side, it makes me write more.

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The story is going waaaaaaaay out of Love Celeb's real plot. But I like it, it's beginning to become original.

PS.

I have nothing against Hello Kitty and smartbro (except for our lack of connection.) I love Hello Kitty! She's so adorable.

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