A/N: Hello wonderful readers! So sorry I haven't updated in an extremely long time. I won't waste your time with the pointless excuses and reasons behind my terrible updating habits. Instead, hope you enjoy the next chapter(: xoxox, hellotocarissa.
"Bells, are you ready? We need to head over to your dad's house or we are going to be late!" Edward called to me and I sighed, frustrated, and threw my hair in a ponytail. I had been home attempting to get ready for the past two hours. I had barely gotten as far as taking a shower. Now, I was in my bra and underwear staring at my reflection in the mirror. I ran my hands over my face and groaned. I stormed out of the bathroom and quickly began rummaging through my drawers, looking for something to wear. Edward walked into the room and stopped short. "Bella, what are you doing? Why aren't you dressed and ready to go?" He asked me and I sighed and flopped down on the bed.
"I don't know Edward. I keep zoning out and then when I zoned back in it was time to go. My mind isn't here right now." I sighed and he smiled sadly and sat down next to me on the bed.
"Bella, what's running through your mind babe? Where are you right now?" He asked me and I closed my eyes and rested my head on my hands.
"I just have a lot going on in my head right now. With Alice still not doing so great and everything that is going on with us. I'm stressed out." I told him and he looked at me with concern in his eyes.
"Bella, you need to relax. This worrying and stress isn't good for you." He explained and I nodded my head.
"I know Edward, and I really am trying. Just every time I think I have it under control, something else always happens and I go spiraling back down again. Edward, I can't keep going. I can't keep walking around with a smile on my face pretending everything is ok. I can't keep up the façade. It's too exhausting." I spilled out and Edward pulled me into his chest and held on tightly.
"Let it out Bella. I'm right here for you, always. I love you and I know Alice being in the hospital and her and Jasper's pain is taking an extremely heavy toll on your heart right now and it's not fair to you. You have to be able to let it out. Even if it's in the shower by yourself, with me, or with anyone else, you need to let it out." He told me and I sighed and closed my eyes. I folded myself tighter into Edward's arms and let the calm I felt when I was with him wash over me. It ran through my body and was welcomed with relief. I always felt home in Edward's arms. Like it was where I belonged.
"Alright, I should probably get dressed before my dad starts to worry." I sighed and reluctantly began to shift out of Edward's arms, only to have him tighten his hold and bring me back in farther.
"Why don't we just stay home tonight? We haven't had a nice night together at home since before Alice and Jasper's wedding. Between the actual wedding and then spending every night at the hospital, we both need a break from constantly going." He offered and I smiled and snuggled into his arms.
"That sounds wonderful Edward. I'll call my dad and see if we can reschedule." I told him and he let me go so that I could go call my dad. I picked up my phone and quickly dialed the number I had memorized years ago.
"Hello?" He answered on the first ring.
"Hey dad, it's me."
"Hey Bella, where are you guys?" He asked.
"That's actually what I was calling about. Dad, do you mind if we reschedule dinner?" I asked him carefully.
"That's fine Bella. Is everything ok?" He asked, concern lacing his voice.
"Yeah, dad, everything is fine. We are just really tired and want to spend some time together. We aren't really up for going out." I explained and I heard my dad chuckle.
"That's not a problem Bella. Have a good night. We can talk tomorrow at work about rescheduling." He answered and I smiled.
"Thanks dad. You too, goodnight." I said and then hung up the phone and headed back to the bedroom to snuggle up with Edward. When I got back into the bedroom, Edward wasn't in there where I had left him and the shower was on. I frowned and sighed before climbing into bed and snuggling under the covers. Before I knew it, I was fighting sleep off as hard as I could. But, I was too weak and it soon overcame me.
I felt my eyes slowly begin to drift open. I yawned and stretched before rolling over and inhaling. I smiled as I smelled Edward and snuggled closer to the warm chest.
"Good morning beautiful." He whispered into my ear and I smiled.
"Good morning handsome." I replied and he chuckled.
"How did you sleep?" He asked me.
"I slept wonderfully, how did you sleep?" I asked him and he laughed.
"I slept amazing because I had my angel in my arms all night." He replied and I giggled and blushed slightly. I then remembered the night before and I gasped and shot up.
"Oh my gosh Edward I am so sorry! I feel like a terrible girlfriend." I exclaimed and he sat up and took my face in his hands, his eyes drenched in worry.
"Bella, what are you talking about?" He asked me, his voice rising in pitch.
"I totally passed out last night and we were supposed to spend the night together and talk. It's just I came back in here and you were in the shower so I lay down and then before I knew it I'm waking up this morning. Gosh Edward I am so sorry." I told him as I rubbed my hands over my face and he laughed.
"Bella, it's totally fine. We will just spend today together. And you needed your sleep. Don't worry about it." He told me and I sighed.
"Edward, I have to go to work today." I told him and the smile dropped from his face.
"Bella, its Saturday." He said carefully and I groaned.
"I know but my dad has a huge case he is working on and he needs me to go in and finish up some paperwork for him." I told him and he smiled sadly.
"Ok Bella." He said and then he got off of the bed and walked into the bathroom. I sighed and looked at the time, seeing I only had an hour before I needed to get to the office. I got out of bed and looked at myself in the mirror. I threw my hair up in a ponytail and quickly threw on some jeans and a Forks Police Department t-shirt before putting on a pot of coffee. While the coffee was brewing, I made myself a quick breakfast smoothie and left a glass for Edward. I poured myself a to go cup of coffee and quickly downed the smoothie before grabbing my purse and keys and heading to the office.
"Hey dad." I greeted as I walked in.
"Hey Bella, thanks for coming in today." He told me and I smiled.
"No problem." I replied as I sat down at my desk.
"How was your night with Edward?" He asked me and I sighed.
"I ended up falling asleep while he was in the shower. I woke up this morning and he wanted to spend the day together but I had forgotten to tell him that I had to come into work for a little bit and when he found out he got upset with me." I explained and my dad smiled sadly at me. He knew the problems we were having with our relationship.
"Well Bella, you can go home if you need to. I understand. I can just call in someone else to help." He told me but I shook my head.
"It's fine dad. The damage is already done. I will just talk to him when I get home tonight. It will give him some time to cool off." I explained and he nodded. Both of us were silent after that as we got to work, signaling the end of the conversation. It took me about four hours to finish all of the paperwork I needed to do and by then it was lunch time. I sighed when I was finished and stretched out slightly. "Hey dad, I'm all finished. Do you need anything else?" I called and he shook his head and waved me off. I laughed quietly to myself. My dad was so involved in the case all he could manage was a shake of his head and a wave. I gathered all of my stuff and drove home with the intention of making up with Edward and spending some time together. When I got home, I found a note the was scrawled in Edward's beautiful penmanship.
Jasper called me and said he wanted to talk. We went out to lunch. If you are back before I am, which means you are reading this, then feel free to spend the rest of your day as you wish. Do not wait around for me, I do not know how long I will be. See you tonight.
I sighed, crumbled up the note, and threw it in the trash. I felt the frustration, hurt, and anger bubble up inside of me. I grabbed my keys and sped off to the hospital, I was going to find Edward whether he wanted me to or not. I walked into Alice's room and found Jasper sitting there with her. I stopped short and looked around in confusion.
"Hey Bella, how are you?" Jasper whispered quietly when he saw me, signaling with his hand to be quiet because Alice was sleeping.
"Where's Edward?" I asked him, completely ignoring his question.
"I don't know." He replied as he shot me a confused look.
"Didn't you two go to lunch?" I asked him and his confusion grew even more.
"Were we supposed to?" He asked me. I gasped as the hurt in me grew even more and tears pricked the back of my eyes.
"I have to go." I whispered before I dashed out of the room and out to my car. I sat in the parking lot for a good forty-five minutes before I was able to start my car and drive home. I sat at home, feeling completely numb, for a few hours before Edward walked through the door.
"Bella, what's wrong?" He asked me in concern as he walked over and knelt in front of me. He placed his hand on my cheek and I slapped it away from me. Shock laced his face before hurt covered it.
"Where were you Edward?" I asked him.
"With Jasper, didn't you see my note?" He asked me and the tears began to spill down my face. Part of me was still clinging to the hope that the note was just a misunderstanding and he would tell me the truth when he got back. Now, that hope had shattered and I couldn't hold back the tears any longer.
"Don't lie to me Edward." I whispered as I looked down at my hands.
"Bella, I'm not lying to you. Why would I lie to you about that?" He asked me and the anger flared inside of me.
"Don't lie to me! You were not with Jasper! Nor did you ever make plans with Jasper Edward! I was at the hospital! I talked to Jasper! Don't fucking lie to me!" I screamed and understanding crossed his feature before guilt settled there.
"Bella, it's not what you think." He began and I scoffed.
"So you didn't lie to me Edward? You didn't not only write an untrue note saying you were with Jasper but you also never lied to my fucking face? Please then Edward, enlighten me as to where the fuck you were and who the fuck you were with that required you to lie to your fucking girlfriend?" I screamed and he sighed.
"I can't tell you where I was, nor can I tell you who I was with Bella. But you will find out soon, I can promise you that. And I did not lie to you because I am doing something behind your back. I didn't lie to you to hurt you. I lied because I had to Bella, and I know that sounds completely ridiculous right now Bella but I promise you that you will understand soon." He said and my mouth fell open in shock. Sobs wracked through my body.
"Well, when you decide its ok for me to know Edward please let me know. Until then, I will be at my dad's house." I spat at him before standing up and storming into the bedroom, throwing some stuff in a bag, and storming back through the living room.
"Bella, please don't do this! Just stop, listen to me for God's sakes!" He screamed and I rolled my eyes.
"Why Edward? So you can lie to me more? Did you come up with some more excuses?" I said through clenched teeth and I saw the tears glistening his eyes.
"Bella, please." Was all he could get out in a cracked whisper. I sighed and dropped my bags, flopping onto the couch.
"Edward, I can't handle this. I was just telling you the other day how everything is too much for me to handle right now, I can't handle you lying to me and going behind my back as well. I did nothing to deserve that. I have always been an understanding girlfriend. I've never done anything to make you think you needed to lie and go behind my back. And, frankly Edward, its bullshit that you did lie and go behind my back Edward. I am so disgusted with you right now. I can't believe you would do something like that. What happened to being completely honest with each other? I can't even stand to look at you right now. I need to leave. Please don't try and stop me." I told him before standing back up and lifting my bags to my shoulders. Edward began to say something before seeing the resolve in my eyes and closing his mouth. Tears streamed down his cheeks and my heart broke as I walked away from him. I fought to hold back the sobs as I drove to my dad's house. Halfway there, I had to pull over because I could no longer see the road through my tears and it was becoming too much to hold back. Once my head was clear, I continued driving. I pulled in the house and headed up to the door and knocked.
"Bella, what are you- oh my gosh what happened honey?" Rosalie squealed as he pulled me into the house and into her arms. I had decided against going to my dad's. I knew he was not the support I needed right now. So I drove to Rosalie's house instead.
"Edward and I got into a fight. Can I crash here for a few days?" I asked her and she gasped and looked at me sadly before nodding her head.
"Emmet, come get Bella's stuff and take it to the guest room! She is going to be staying here for a little bit!" She called and Emmet came stalking around the corner. He stopped short when he saw the tears streaming down my face.
"Bellybear, what happened?" He asked in concern and I sighed.
"I don't want to talk about it right now Emm, do you guys mind if I just go to sleep?" I asked them and they both nodded. I fell into the bed and began to sob into the pillow. I slowly cried myself to sleep. I woke in the morning and reached out next to me, searching for Edward. When he wasn't there, my eyes opened and as I took in my surroundings the events from the night before slowly came back to me. I sighed and rubbed my eyes, finding them puffy and sore from all the crying I did the night before. Thank God it was Sunday and I could just lounge around in my own self-pity all day. I heard a knock at the door and I sighed and took a deep breath.
"Come in!" I called and Rosalie's head slowly poked through the crack.
"Hey Bella, how are you feeling today sweetheart?" She asked me.
"As good as can be expected I guess." I answered as I shrugged my shoulders and she nodded her head.
"What happened Bella? I don't think I have ever seen you this upset over a fight between you and Edward. I have seen you upset, just never this bad. What did he do?" She asked me and I sighed and rubbed my hands over my eyes.
"Well, he wanted to spend the day together yesterday but I had to go into work for a few hours. He was upset when I left the house and I felt bad when I got to work so I rushed through all of the paperwork and made it home by lunchtime. When I got there, I found a note from Edward that said he was going out to lunch with Jasper and would be back later on, but not to wait around for him. I couldn't stand that we were fighting, so I went to the hospital, figuring that they would be eating lunch there because I know Jasper hasn't left the hospital at all since Alice has been in here. Well, when I got there Jasper was in Alice's room and said he hadn't seen or heard from Edward all day. So I went home and waited for Edward. He got home and I blew up, asking him where he had been and who he had been with. He said that he couldn't tell me, but that I would find out eventually. Whatever the hell that means. So, I packed my stuff and came here." I explained to her and she sighed and wrapped me in a hug.
"Bella, I am so sorry. I am sure he has an honest explanation of where he was and who he was with and why he couldn't tell you at that moment. But I am so sorry that you are hurting because of him. Feel free to stay here as long as you need or want to." He told me and I smiled at her.
"Thank you Rose, it means a lot to know that I have you and Emm here for me whenever I need you guys." I told her and she smiled back at me.
"Of course Bella, you are a sister to us. We will always be here for you. So, are you up for some breakfast? Emmet wants waffles." She said and I giggled and nodded my head.
"Yes, I will be down in a second. I just want to freshen up." I told her and she smiled and nodded at me before giving me one last quick hug and a light peck on the cheek. She walked out of the room, closing the door behind her. I sighed and grabbed my phone, seeing that I had five text messages and three missed calls. One text message was from my dad, telling me that Edward was looking for me and asking me to call him and explain what was going on. The other four text messages were from Edward, begging me to call him, tell him where I am, and saying that he was worried about me and how sorry he was and that he loves me. I hit the erase button so I wouldn't feel the need to reply to the text messages, opting to call my dad when I got the chance, and then checked my missed calls. Two of them were from Edward, as expected, and one of them was from Jasper. I decided to call Jasper back now, in case it was news on Alice, and waited for him to answer as the phone rang.
"Hey Jasper, what's up?" I asked him.
"Bella, oh thank God! You had us all worried about you. No one knew where you were." He exclaimed and I sighed, now knowing this phone call had nothing to do with Alice and everything to do with Edward.
"Well, you guys obviously didn't look very hard Jasper. I am with a friend." I told him and he sighed.
"What friend Bella?" He asked me and I groaned.
"Jasper, I am not telling you. You are just going to turn around and tell Edward and then Edward is going to show up here and I don't want to see him right now or talk to him. So forgive me for wanting my location a secret until further notice." I snapped into the phone.
"I'm sorry Bella, I didn't mean to push or pry. Edward showed up here this morning and he was a mess. I've never seen him this upset Bella. Whatever happened, he knows he fucked up big time. He was most worried that he hadn't heard from you and you weren't at your dad's house like you said. He thought something had happened Bella. So I told him I would try and get a hold of you and at least find out that you are ok." He explained.
"Well, I'm fine Jasper. I am alive and staying and a friend's house until I feel ready to talk to Edward." I told him and he chuckled.
"Alright Bella, I'll let you go then. If you need me, I am here. Alice wants you to come to down to the hospital today when you can too, said she has something she wants to talk to you about." He said and I sighed.
"Alright, I'll see you later then Jasper. Bye." I said and I hung up the phone. I plugged my phone into the charger and then jumped into the shower. I took my time, shaving and washing every spot of my body, before turning the water off and drying off, wrapping my hair in the towel and rummaging through the things I packed for something to wear for the day. I looked outside and saw that it was overcast, but not wet. I chose a pair of dark blue skinny jeans, a blue long sleeved shirt, and black ugg boots. I laid my clothes out and grabbed my makeup and hair stuff. I decided to just blow dry my hair and leave it natural today, since the overcast outside would just undo any curling or straightening I did today anyways, and decided on light makeup, feeling it unimportant to dress up too much, considering I had no one to impress today anyways. Once I was all finished, I put everything away and headed downstairs for breakfast.
"Morning Bellpop!" Emmet called through his mouth full of food. I giggled and shook my head.
"Good morning pig." I called back as I shoved his head forward lightly. He chuckled and shoved me as I walked by.
"How you doin sweetcheeks?" He asked me and I rolled my eyes.
"Emmet, did nicknames like that really work for you?" I asked him incredulously.
"It worked for Rosie here." He stated simply as he shrugged his shoulders. I looked at Rose and she winked.
"What can I say? I'm a sucker for the incompetent." She said and I laughed as Emmet's mouth dropped.
"So, I'm heading down to the hospital today. Alice wants to talk about something. And I have a strange feeling that Edward will be there. I do not want to see him nor do I want to talk to him so, Rosalie, would you like to accompany me and be my bodyguard?" I asked her and she laughed.
"Of course I will Bella. I've been wanting to go see my brother anyways. When did you want to head over there?" She asked me and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I didn't really have a particular time in mind. Whenever we make it down there is fine with me. If you have stuff you want to get done before hand, that's fine." I told her and she shook her head.
"Nope, I got nothing to do today. So we can head down there and visit either until we get tired or we can go down there and then go to lunch after we visit or shopping. It's totally up to you Bells." She said and I smiled and nodded.
"Alright well, there's no use putting this off so we might as well head down there now. You know how impatient Alice can get." I told her and she laughed and nodded her head.
"Don't I know it!" She agreed and I smiled. "Alright well, let's get out of here then." She said. I ran upstairs to grab my purse and phone and then we headed out the door and to the hospital. I kept a sharp eye out for any sign of Edward while we parked and walked to Alice's room.
"Hey Alice." I called as I walked into the room.
"Bella! Hey, you're here!" She called and I smiled.
"Nope, I am just a figment of your imagination." I told her sarcastically and she rolled her eyes.
"Thanks smartass. Hey Rose! I didn't know you were coming too." She squealed and I laughed.
"Yeah, I dragged her along for the ride. She called me and asked what I was up to and then I just had to give her no choice in the matter. We are headed out to lunch after this." I explained, looking at Rosalie with a warning in my eyes not to mention that I was staying at her house.
"Well, the more the merrier of course. Jasper was missing some sane company anyways. I am probably driving him crazy as it is." She said and I rolled my eyes.
"Well little brother, what do you say we take a walk and give them some time to talk?" Rose suggested and Jasper nodded his head. They walked out of the room, closing the door behind them.
"So how are you feeling?" I asked her as I replaced old flowers and organized different shelves in her room.
"Bella, stop with the cleaning and sit your ass down." She stated firmly and I looked and saw her glaring at me. I rolled my eyes and sat down.
"Alice, stop with the bitch act. I really don't need this right now. I have enough shit going on." I told her and she sighed.
"Bella, I am only being a bitch because that is the only way to get any information out of you. When were you going to tell me, your best friend, that you and Edward are fighting? Not only fighting but it is so bad that you actually left and stayed somewhere else last night!" She exclaimed and I groaned.
"Alice, it only happened last night! Excuse me for not thinking 'Well shit, Alice would sure as hell like to know that me and my boyfriend are fighting. I have nowhere to stay tonight but that's ok because Alice wants to know everything'." I snapped at her as I stood up and ran my hands roughly through my hair.
"No Alice, just stop. This isn't about you, Alice. For once in my life I was thinking about myself last night. I was thinking about the fact that my boyfriend that I am head over heels in love with and who I have never lied to about anything, flat out lied straight to my face. For all I know he was with some other girl cheating on me and he was perfectly ok with lying about it. So I'm sorry if me not rushing over here last night to tell you all about my heartbreak and pain hurt your precious feelings Alice, but I really could care less right now." I snapped and then I walked out of the room, slamming the door behind me. I leaned against the door and slid to the ground as the tears flooded my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I tried to quiet the sobs that wracked my body so I wouldn't disturb the rush around me. I sat there for a few minutes in order to get the tears under control before I stood up and headed to the bathroom to clean myself up, and then I headed off to find Rose. I spotted her and Jasper in the cafeteria sitting at a table and walked over.
"Hey guys, sorry to interrupt. Mind if I join?" I asked and they looked at me smiled.
"Sure Bella, have a seat." Rose replied as she smiled back and I sat down.
"So, that was quick. I don't think in all of the years I have known Alice, has she ever been able to cut a conversation that short. Especially not with her best friend." Jasper said with a concerned look in his eyes but a playful smirk on his lips.
"Yeah well, we had a small disagreement so I wanted to get out of there before we upset each other anymore." I explained as I looked down at my hands and sighed, willing the tears to stay at bay.
"What about?" Rosalie asked and I sighed and shook my head.
"It doesn't matter. So what's going on with you Jasper? How you been?" I asked him and she smiled sadly at me.
"I have been pretty ok Bella, how about you? How are you doing?" He asked me and I smiled.
"I am getting through it best I can Jazz. It's really hard when the one person that you want to just hug you and comfort you and be your shoulder to cry on is the one who made you cry in the first place. It's also really confusing to miss and hate someone all at the same time. To want to call them and fix things and to never want to talk to them again, also at the same time." I said sadly and looked up to see looks of pity and sympathy on both of my friends' faces.
"Maybe you should just talk to him Bella. Give him a chance to explain." Jasper offered and I sighed.
"I already did Jazz. That's the sad part. I screamed and yelled at him, I cried, a lot, and I packed my bags and told him I was leaving. But before I actually left, I sat down and just simply asked him to explain. I told him that if he could just tell me the truth, no matter what it was, I would stay and we could talk and work things out. You know what his answer was? His answer was that he just couldn't tell me, but that I would find out soon. So I left. It was the only thing I could do to keep from shattering our relationship completely. I could feel it, deep down, that if I stayed there that night and just accepted that he lied and he knew that I knew that he lied and yet he still didn't tell me a damn thing, I knew we wouldn't survive. That the idea of 'us' would be over by the next morning. So I did the only thing that I could think of to save it all. I left." I explained and he nodded gently.
"I am so sorry he did that Bella, and I completely understand your unwillingness to talk to him. Just make sure you don't wait too long. Don't make it so long that the relationship and the good times and the feelings are just memories rather than something to be saved for present and future. You two are meant to be together Bella, don't forget that." He said and I smiled and nodded.
"I know Jazz, I won't forget." I told him.
"Alright, I should probably go check on Alice. Thanks for stopping by guys. Rosie, I will see you for lunch tomorrow. Bella, if you need anything at all, please feel free to call me." He told me sincerely as he grabbed my hand and squeezed it.
"I know Jasper, thank you, I will." I said back and stood up. Rosalie and I both gave Jasper a hug before heading out to the car.
"Ok Bella, what happened with Alice?" Rosalie asked me as we buckled up in the car and headed off towards the restaurant.
"She was upset with me for not telling her about Edward the minute that it happened. That she had to hear it from him rather than from me." I explained briefly and Rosalie scoffed.
"You just have to ignore her Bella. Alice has always been extremely controlling. I remember when Emmet first introduced me to her and Edward. She pulled me aside, had this what she thought was terrifying little scowl on her face and her exact words to me were 'You need to break up with my brother. You look like a bitch, you dress like a bitch, and you act like a bitch. My brother deserves better. So break up with him or else…' I laughed in her face and walked away. She hated me at first, lord knows why, but once she realized I was in it for the long haul and I wasn't going to rip her brother's heart to shreds, she finally started to loosen up and turned into the little pixie Alice we know and love. Anyways, the point of this story was just that Alice is extremely controlling and she hates when the people she is closest to are hurting. Her defense mechanism is to control everything and be a total bitch about it." Rosalie said and I nodded my head in agreement.
"I know it just gets really frustrating sometimes. I know she is only doing it because she cares but I just wish I could tell her to but out and mind her own business for once in her life." I exclaimed in pure frustration.
"Bella, it's ok to tell her that. She might get a little upset at first but eventually she will get over it and she will understand. You are going through a lot right now. No one expects you to be perfectly normal and get on with your life like it's all ok." Rosalie said as she parked the car at the café where we were having lunch. We got out and Rosalie stopped me before we headed inside. "I just want you to know that I am here for you Bella. Whenever you need me and for whatever I am here for you. Ok?" She told me and I smiled at her and wrapped her in a tight hug.
"I know Rosalie." I said quietly and she smiled back before we headed inside. We sat down at a booth and began to look over the menu.
"Oh shit, Bella, there is someone here to see you. We can leave right now if you want to. It's totally up to you." Rosalie said in a panicked tone as her eyes drifted out the window to the parking lot. I followed her eyes and saw Edward climbing out of his car. He was eyeing Rosalie's car, which meant he knew I was there. I groaned and banged my head on the table. "We can go if you want Bella." Rosalie said and I shook my head.
"I might as well just get it over with. I can't ignore him and avoid him forever. I'm bound to see him somewhere eventually. Besides, I only packed enough clothes for the weekend so I need to go back to the house sooner or later." I told her and she nodded. I grabbed a piece of bread and looked down as I began to pick it apart.
"Hey Rosalie, Bella." I heard his voice behind me and I closed my eyes as my heart fluttered wildly in my chest.
"Hey Edward." Rosalie answered but I kept my head down and remained quiet.
"Rose, do you mind giving Bella and I a moment alone?" Edward asked and I sighed and closed my eyes.
"Bella?" Rosalie asked and I looked up to see question in her eyes. I nodded my head to show her that it was ok and she walked away. Edward sat down in the seat across from me and cleared his throat. I continued to look at the piece of bread that I was disintegrating with my fingers so I didn't have to look at him.
"Bella, please look at me." Edward's quiet voice pleaded and I sighed. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and then looked up at him. I was instantly lost in the smoldering look in his eyes. They begged for forgiveness, and I was tempted to grant it to them. After a few moments of silently looking at each other from across the table, I looked away and swallowed away the tightness of my throat.
"You said you wanted to talk, so talk." I said quietly as I looked back at him and his eyes held such sadness and longing that I felt my stomach tighten and my heart reach out to him. I fought to keep myself under control. I knew this conversation needed to happen and right now the relationship was on the brink of ending completely, so a random outburst from me would not help matters at all.
"Bella, I am so lost without you. I have been so miserable and you've only been gone one night. I can't go on without you Bella. I love you and it kills me that I am hurting you like this. I am so sorry I lied to you. But I promise you that there is a perfectly explainable reason behind it, I just can't say it right now." He started and I sighed and looked down again. Just from his first few words I could feel that this was not going to go very well.
"Edward, I can't be with someone who lies to me so easily. I can't be with someone who doesn't trust me enough to tell me the truth. I love you and I have been miserable too Edward, but I can't come home. Not right now at least. And probably not until you tell me the truth." I told him and he sighed.
"Dammit Bella! Why do you have to be so damn stubborn? I wish I could tell you everything. Where I was, who I was with. But I promised them I wouldn't tell anyone. I can't tell anyone Bella. And once you find out you will understand completely but please, just trust me." He begged and I felt the tears prick my eyes.
"That's just it Edward. I can't trust you. Not after this." I said quietly and the look that crossed his face was one of shock and pure hurt.
"Bella, please don't say that. You can't be serious. We belong together Bella." He cried out and I smiled and nodded.
"Yes, I agree. We do belong together. But you lied Edward and right now I don't feel like I can trust you at all. That's something you will have to earn back. I will be staying at a friend's house for a little while longer. When you are ready to sit down and tell me the truth, give me a call. Until then, I'm sorry but it has to be this way. I love you Edward." I said before I stood up and walked out of the café to Rosalie's car. I climbed in and she started the car and peeled out of the parking lot. I looked up through the window and saw Edward with tears running down his face staring down at his hands. He slammed his hands on the table and stood up, I flinched and looked away as the tears began to cascade down my face.
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