A/N: This is my first attempt at a multi-chapter fic so please take it easy on me ;) I would like to thank my amazzzziiiinnnng beta TwiDi for her guidance, advice and kind words of encouragement! You'll never know how much that means to me bb! :) Okay...on to the story! Enjoy! ;)
Chapter 1 -Details In The Fabric
Calm down, deep breaths and get yourself dressed instead of running around and pulling on your threads and breaking yourself up. If it's a broken part, replace it. If it's a broken arm, then brace it. If it's a broken heart, then face it. Are the details in the fabric…
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing
"Good morning, Forks, Washington!!!" blared out of the speakers of my alarm clock. Ugh! I can't believe that it's already 6am. I had a rough night of tossing and turning. Night time has always been a hard time for me. When it's quiet, that's the time where my mind drifts to things I have been trying to avoid thinking about all day. It's getting worse (don't they have pills for this shit?) and the culprit behind my insomnia is none other than one of my best friends… Edward Cullen. Why does the mere thinking of his name accelerate my heart rate? The answer to that is simple... I have an insanely huge crush on him and I have known this since 5th grade.
"Bells, time to get up, you don't want to be late. I'm headed down to the station. I didn't get a chance to start coffee. Have a good day kiddo." Charlie shouts through the door.
"Ok, Dad, I'm up. Thanks and you have a good day too. Be careful." I climb out of the bed and shut off the radio. I gather my clothes and head for the little bathroom across the hall. I shower, wash my hair and head back to my room. I must have been in the shower longer than usual because sitting on my bed was my other best friend Alice Cullen... yeah, Cullen. She is Edward's sister and like everyone else in our group of friends, she was oblivious to my crush on her brother.
"What's up, Alice?"
"Hey, Bella! I was up super early and so I decided to come pick you up this morning, but from the looks of things if we don't get you dressed soon, we'll be late!"
Alice was dressed to impress as always. She had on the lacey floral tunic that we had picked up from the mall the day before. And she paired it with black leggings and knee high boots. Her make-up was flawless and her hair was wavy today. She looked like a little baby doll.
I couldn't help but chuckle a little bit, because I knew the real reason she was in a rush this morning. Her boyfriend and another one of my closest friends, Jasper Whitlock, was waiting for her at their "hook-up" spot! It was sacred ground and they went there every morning before class started. It was sickly cute.
"Calm down, you, love-sick puppy! Go downstairs and get a pot of coffee going and I'll be ready in 10 minutes." I giggled. As soon as the words left my mouth she was out of my room and on her way to the kitchen. I took a moment to put on my favorite lotion and pull on my jeans, plaid shirt and jacket. I looked in the mirror and my hair had dried and was laying in soft curls around my shoulders. I completed my look with a head band, mascara and lip gloss. I looked pretty damn cute today. I gave myself another once over in the mirror. It was time to go meet up with the gang at Forks High. Here we go.
I walked into the kitchen to a mug of hot coffee practically being thrown into my face, "Damn, Alice! Watch it! You know how uncoordinated I am! If that would have spilled on me, you really wouldn't have time for your make out session with Jasper!" I snapped at her. Immediately upon seeing her face I apologized.
"I'm so sorry, Ali! I just didn't get a lot of sleep last night and I'm really kinda cranky this morning. I'm sure I'll be better after the coffee." I pleaded.
"No, Bella, you'll be better after I find you a guy, so you can relieve some of that sexual frustration!" she smirked at me. Then she broke out singing.
"When I get that feeling, I need sexual healingggg…" she laughed. Damn this little ball of energy! I couldn't help but laugh along with her because she was right. It wouldn't hurt if I had a little "sexual healing", but there was only one person I wanted to heal me sexually; and there was no way I was revealing that to Alice.
We walked out of my front door to Alice's BMW. Alice and Edward were rich, but they in no way flaunted it around. They were two of the most humble people I knew. If you didn't have something and they did. They didn't hesitate to give it to you. They would give you the shirts off of their backs if they knew you needed it; and that was something that I admired most about them. They had huge hearts, but only one of them wore it on their sleeve and that was Alice. Since she was so loving and open, people tended to try to take advantage of her, but she had a group of best friends who always had her back no matter what.
After a quick five-minute drive, we pulled up and parked in the parking lot of Forks High. I could see all of our usual parking spaces full and Rosalie and Emmett were hanging around Emmett's Jeep Wrangler.
Alice was out of the car lightning-fast! She ran over to Jasper and jumped into his arms with a little squeal. He twirled her around and gave her a kiss. And because Alice was as animated as she was, when I saw Jasper kissing her I could swear I saw her leg lift up in the air. I chuckled to myself. I stepped out of the car and shouted a quick 'hello' to Jasper before he and Alice took off for their "morning alone time". I saw Rose waving at me, so I headed over to Emmett's car, "Hey, Bella!!!" shouts Emmett when he sees me. He picks me up and twirls me around. I can hardly breathe! "Good morning to you too! Why do you always feel the need to man-handle me, Em?" I smile.
"It's all out of love, baby girl! It's been this way since we were ten years old. So, I hope you don't think it's going to change!" He gives me a smug smirk, "Yeah, yeah. I got it, you, big teddy bear!"
Emmett was HUGE. When we were 14 he had this huge growth spurt and now he stands at 6'4. He was 270lbs worth of pure muscle. No one messed with Emmett or the people he loved. They feared him and we all thought it was hilarious, because Em was just this big giant over-grown teddy bear. Don't get me wrong; when you messed with the people he loved the most, you were in trouble! Around us, Emmett acted more like he was 7 and not 17.
"Emmett, one day you're really going to hurt her and then I'm going to have to kick your ass!" said his girlfriend, Rosalie, as she winked at me. I loved this girl!
"Ok, ok, babe. I'll be more careful with little fragile Isabella!" I smacked him on his arm. He knew how much I disliked being called Isabella.
"Ow. Bells, that really hurts" he whined.
"That's what you get, you, big baby!" Rosalie laughed. Rosalie was unlike any girl you would ever meet. She could be a little bitchy and she didn't make friends easily because girls were either scared of her or intimidated by her. I could understand why. Rosalie was gorgeous. Just looking at her today in her brown turtleneck sweater dress with light brown belt was enough to make guys heads turn and girls to turn green with envy. I'm sure that if you looked in the dictionary under the word 'Beautiful', there would be a picture of Rosalie. She was 5'9', with long blond hair and she exuded confidence from every pore in her body. She had a little attitude on her, but she only ever used it when you did something to offend her or her friends.
"Come on, Bella. Let's go find the lovebirds!" laughed Rose. We took off for Alice and Jasper's secret spot, to give them their two-minute warning. We reached their secret, sacred room and I knocked.
"Unlock the lips and get a move on. Fix your make-up, Ali. Let's go. Class starts in five!" I sounded like a drill sergeant and Rose found it hilarious.
There was only one beautiful face that I was missing. I wondered where Edward was this morning. I saw his car, so I knew he was here somewhere. Oh, well, maybe he's in the music room. That's where he spends the majority of his free time. I wonder if I should swing by to say...
Before I could finish my thought, two hands slid over my eyes and I was assaulted by the smell that was purely Edward. I damned near passed out. I think I did wobble a little bit, because he chuckled and said, "Hey, clumsy! Guess who?!?" I elbowed him in the ribs and he let go. I smiled at him, "Good morning, ass!" I smirked, "Where were you, this morning?" I asked, "Awww, Bellaaaa, were you looking for me?!? You missed me?" He waggled his eyebrows and I knew he was just joking, because this is how we usually played around, but I immediately grew bright red and I had to turn around.
"Shut up, Edward! I was just curious. Don't you have a class or a 'play thing' to get to this morning?" I turned and looked at him. He had this stupid grin on his face.
"Play thing?" he asked.
"Yeah, 'plaything', Oh, I'm sorry, they have names. Excuse me. Let's see, it's Monday, so, I guess today is… Lauren? Or is it Jessica?" I asked.
"Very funny, Bella. You know Monday is Angela!" he chuckled. For the second time this morning, I had to turn away from him, because I didn't want to have to answer his questions about why I had the expression of pure hurt on my face.
"I'll catch you in Bio, Bells! See ya later!" he hugged me from behind and gave me a kiss on the back of my head. To anyone else, this would look like an intimate moment between boyfriend and girlfriend. But anyone assuming that would me mistaken. That's just how Edward and I were. It didn't hurt any less, because the fact remained that I wanted that kiss on the back of my head to mean so much more than I knew it did. I grabbed Alice and we headed off to our Advanced Lit class.
The lecture was incredibly long today and it didn't help that I wasn't focusing at all. The two bitches in the seats in front of me were having a very intense conversation about Edward. I tried to ignore it, but it seemed the more of an effort I put into drowning their irritating cackling out... the louder they became! I knew one of the girls... the one that was getting on my nerves more than ever… was Angela "Gives-More-Turns-Than-A-Fucking-Door-Knob" Webber.
"Yeah, I'm uuuubbberrr excited about my date tonight with Edward!" she said to the other female, "When we went out last week, we had the most amazing time! I'm going to let you in on a little secret" she leaned into the other girl like she was going to whisper something in her ear, but instead she said as loud as she possibly could... I was sure she wanted to be for certain that I personally heard the vile shit that was about to spill from her nasty ass mouth! "He does this Ah-MAZING thing with his tongue and when..." She didn't get to finish because Alice, who I was unaware that she was there, was listening; she threw her pen and it hit Angela on the back of the head with such force that Angela whipped her head around. Alice was ready.
"Say one thing, Angela. Please, say one thing to me or about my brother and I can promise you, sweetheart, that a pen to the back of your ugly little head will be the least of your problems." she smiled sweetly at her. Angela rolled her eyes and proceeded to turn back around in her seat. Alice may be petite, but she had this way of instilling fear into people and all the while she kept a smile on her face.
"Amateur bitch... She doesn't want to go there with me." She whispered to me. I couldn't help it. I burst out laughing. I thought that was going to be the end of the excitement for the day, until a piece of paper was thrown on my desk.
You wanna hang out tonight?
Oh hell, that's just great. I have been trying to get this guy to leave me alone since 9th grade. Why couldn't he take the hint... I had no idea. It's not that I disliked Mike Newton; it was just that he tried way too hard. Overall he was a nice guy. He was cute, although a bit immature for my taste, but what seventeen years old wasn't somewhat immature? Look at Emmett; he had to be the poster boy for immaturity. I looked up and saw that Mike had his eyebrows raised and was smiling. I decided to write a quick response before the bell rang.
I'm a little busy tonight. Will you take a rain check?
I know. I know some people might think that I'm leading him on, but, you know what? Who says I won't give him a date. It's not like he's completely revolting. The bell rang and Alice and I headed out of the classroom.
"How boring was that class?!?" Alice whined.
"Yeah, it was pretty much what I would imagine the most brutal kind of torture to feel like." I laughed. Something caught my eye as I opened my locker. It was a pack of Skittles and a Mountain Dew. On top was a note.
I know you had boring Lit with Mr. Thomas this morning and I know how you get after his lectures on seventeenth century literature and all that "tragic romance" talk, so I thought you could use a pick-me-up! If you're reading this when I think you will be... I'll see you in five!
You know who :)
I smiled the biggest smile I think I managed all morning. Edward knew me so well, which was what made me feel like we belonged together. I quickly placed the note and goodies into my backpack and told Alice that I would see her at lunch. I made my way to Biology with the dorkiest grin on my face.
When I walked in, Edward was sitting at our table, writing something in a notebook. When I walked up to the table, he looked up and smiled at me. Damn, that smile and those green eyes of his. It could hardly be fair that he had charms that made girls trip over their own feet and forget their own names!
"Hey, look! It's my Number One Girl!" he winked at me.
"Hey, look! It's my Number One Douche-bag" I ruffled his already wild hair.
"Ouch! Bells! That really hurts my heart!" he clutched at his chest and slumped over. I couldn't help but laugh at him. "Calm down, Eddie boy. You know you're my Number One Guy! Thanks for the pick-me-up snacks." I rubbed his back. Oh, if he only knew the true meaning of those words. Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett would always roll their eyes at us, when we played around like this. That's why I was so surprised that no one seemed to have caught on to the fact that my feelings for Edward were far from platonic in nature.
"That's more like it. And you know I would do anything for my Bells!" he pinched my cheek. Mr. Molina picked that time to start explaining to us the nature of our lab for the day. I was intent on paying attention in this class, but there was this incredible pull towards Edward that was making me nervous. It was becoming harder and harder to be near him and not crave physical contact. After Mr. Molina finished explaining the lab, we got down to business.
"Don't pour that in there, Bella!!" I heard Edward shout at me. I immediately stopped and looked at him and he burst out in laughter.
"What the hell are you doing, Bells? You trying to blow up Forks High?" he managed to say between fits of laughter.
"Shut up, Edward! I don't know what I was thinking. I guess I'm not really focused today." I gave him an apologetic smile.
"Hey, it's no big deal. I was here to save you, as always. You know I'll always be your knight in shining armor!" He tucked some stray hair behind my ear. I blushed red as a tomato, I'm sure of that! His voice brought me back down to Earth from the cloud I was momentarily floating on.
"Where is your mind today, Bells?" He asked. Oh, God! Well let's see… I could always start off a little something like this... well, you see, Edward, I know that we have been friends since pre-school, but I've realized that I think I might be falling in love with you. What do you think about that? Ha-Ha, we all know I'm not brave enough to do that! So, I thought a little and then I gave him the most believable response I could think of at that moment with him standing so close to me.
"Well, volleyball drills are in the lesson plan for Gym today and we allll know how dreadful I am at anything involving me hitting, kicking or throwing a ball!" I gave him the best smile I could.
"That explains everything!" He laughed.
I hit him on the shoulder, "You're such an asshole, Cullen"
"It's one of the reasons why you love me so much, Swan" he gave me the smile I'm pretty sure he's used to get a few legs to open wide for him with. If only he knew.
The rest of Biology went smoothly and Gym wasn't as big of a disaster as I thought it would be. I was excited to be headed to lunch. I stood in the lunch line for my pizza and soda and headed to the table where I found Emmett throwing fries at Jasper and Rose screaming at him to stop being such an immature prick. I shook my head and took my seat next to Alice.
"How was the first half of your day, Bella" Rose asked without looking up from polishing her nails while Emmett proceeded to feed her fries.
"The usual, Rose. I suck at sports, Bio was cool and I'm sure Alice told you about the "beautiful disaster" that is known as Advanced Lit!"
She looked up from her nails, "Damn, that sounds like one hell of a day so far. I did hear about that little stunt that slut-mouth Angela tried to pull this morning. One day I'm going to have to formally introduce my foot to that dirty fuck-mouth of hers." I choked on my Sprite. Rose was something else and although I was almost falling off my chair from laughter, I knew that she was dead serious and if my name was Angela I think I would be terrified.
That chick was like a disease that kept coming back. It was like she materialized every time we said her name. I was listening to Jasper play his guitar and sing country songs for Alice, when out of the corner of my eye I caught sight of Edward huddled close to Angela whispering something in her ear that was from what I could tell obviously really fucking hilarious, because the fake bitch was cackling and rubbing up and down his arm. I completely lost my appetite.
"Ugh, why the fuck does he insist on fucking with that no class hoe!" yelled Rose. I wish I knew the answer to that question. I looked over and saw him leading her out of the cafeteria holding her hand.
"Score 2000 for Cullen!" yelled some football jock from the table across from us.
I saw green and then red. I had to get the hell out of here and quickly. I could feel the tears threatening to over flow. I jumped up from the table and ignored Alice calling me. I ran down the hall until I reached the empty auditorium. I sat on the stage. I put my head on my knees and starting counting back from 100 in my head. I needed to get a grip and fast, before anyone started asking questions. When I looked up Alice had a confused look on her face, the corner of her lip was turned up into a half smile and she was tapping her foot patiently. Oh, shit! She felt something! I looked at her and all the color drained out of my face.
"Bella? You want to tell me what that was about, sweets?" she has a full on smile now.
What the hell am I supposed to do?
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