Prologue

I couldn't explain it. These strange urges I get when he walks by. They had me so confused. I've never felt such a strong attraction for anyone before. But this love would never be, he's my best friend and that's all he'll ever be, all he should ever be. That's why I've decided to never tell him or anyone. Johnny Cade, my best friend.

Ponyboy's POV

I came back from school, exhasted and hungry. The schools food was only good for people who enjoyed "recycled" food. I knew Darry and Soda were out at work, so it was up to me to make my own food.

I dropped my worn backpack where I was standing and walked into the kitchen. I moved to the fridge and pulled the fridge and freezer open at the same time. A wall of cool air flew past me, instantly releiving my exhaustion. I scanned the shelves for something that I could eat that wasn't cold, but didn't take long to cook. I settled for a T.V dinner. I quikly popped it into the microwave for 3 minutes and sat at the table watching the meal make a full revolution every 12 seconds.

Just as the microwave stopped, the door swung open and in came a very upset Johnny.

"Hey Johnnycake what's wrong?" I asked scincerly.

"M-my dad. H-he pulled a blade on me. S-said if I ever act up again, he'll finish me off, f-for good." Johnny was pretty tuff before he got jumped by some socs months ago. Ever scince he's been afraid of any mustang he ever saw.

I stepped in closer to him. "Johnny if you wanna stay here, you know Soda and Darry will be more than happy to let you."

"Thanks Pony." He had stopped crying at this point. He gave me a sincere smile and a big hug. I could feel my cheeks get hot and I knew I was blushing. He pulled back. "You alright, Pone?"

"Fine." I answered too quick.

He stared at me alittle longer and then shrugged his shoulders.

I walked to the kitchen and pulled my food out of the microwave. I turned around to get a fork from the drawer to see Johnny sitting at the table watching the steam rise from my food.

"You hungry Johnny?" I asked.

"Yeah. My folks don't feed me and going to the kitchen without getting beat is entirly impossible." His stomach growled to back up his response.

Wow. Even his stomaches voice is cute, I thought.

"Pone, you alright?" Johnny asked.

I nodded, and continued to get Johnny a T.V dinner of his own. I put his in and sat in front of him. He was staring at my food and it was starting to make me feel self concious of my cooking.

I was gonna say something but the microwave interrupted me. He got up and I used the opportunity to scarff everything down without his eyes watching.

I finushed quickly and put my fork in the sink. Walking back to the table, I couldn't help but notice that Johnny had the cutest way of chewing. I sat at the table and watched him eat.

He looked up then. "What you starin' at, Pony?"

I flushed, "Nothin'." He looked away and I continued to stare.

He finished his meal and put his fork in the sink. "Whatcha wanna do know?" He asked me. It took me a while to comprehend cuz I was still staring at him. But when I understood I told him we could do anything he wanted to. It didn't really matter to me, because anything we did I would be staring at him.

He suggested the movies and I abliged.

We went to see some horror/comedy/romance. I stared at him as he tried to get into the movie. None of our gang could understand movies or books or anything, because they couldn't sit still long enough to try. Johnny was the only one who attempted and the faces he makes are why I love going to the movies with him.

He looked at me to see if I was getting it, and immediately his expression turned angry. "Why are you staring at me like that? I know my scars make me look ugly and I don't need a pretty boy staring at them making me feel worse!"

I was shocked that he was angry and mad that he came to that of all conclusions. "You think I care what my best friend looks like?"

"Well you seem to! Seeing as your always staring at me like that!"

"I don't care about what people look like! Not you not anybody!" I yelled.

"Oh yeah? What about Cherry Valance?"

"She a girl! It's a totally different scenario!"

"You've gotta be kidding me!" Johnny said shaking his head.

"No! I'm not!" I wanted to prove it but here was not the place. "Johnny i don't wanna fight with you. Maybe we should just go home."

He agreed and we got up and left.

That was close, i thought. I'd better watch it before I acidently tell Johnny i love him.

A/N: That's all for now R&R please!!! It's my 1st story be gentle.