"Best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting," I sing under my breath, strumming the chords gently and closing my eyes. "Could it be that we have been this way before?"
I tilted my head back against the wooden frame of the creaky bed that I've slept in my entire life. The bed that has known sheets of pink, yellow, purple, green and most recently, grey. I wasn't sure what wasn't grey these days. And if it so, I couldn't see it. I saw grey, I saw the sadness that was my life, that illuminated my eyes.
"I know you don't think that I am trying," my words, slightly louder than before, "I know you're wearing thin down to the core."
I went from the happy little girl, always sporting a bright outfit and sincere childlike smile, to what I am now. I dress in dark colors, much like my newfound attitude. People wonder what happened, but they already know. Life happened. Life happened and stole everyone I cared about, but who was I to complain about the hand I'd been dealt. It wasn't like I could change anything, bring the dead and deserted back.
"But hold your breath, because tonight will be the night I'll fall for you. Over again." I gripped my guitar a little tighter, making the notes more prominent and singing stronger to make them stand out over the chords. "I won't live to see another day, I swear its true."
A knock on the door brought my eyes open and I whispered another final line. "Cause a guy like you is impossible to find, you're impossible to find." I crossed the room in one small stride. I reached and opened the door, pulling stray mahogany hairs out of my eyes.
"Uh," He stuttered, "Hi. Your, uh, brother let me in." Awkwardly looking at his feet, he chewed his lip. When he looked up, I wasn't sure what he saw, but a slight tinge came to his cheeks.
"It's late," I muttered uselessly. I set my guitar down and used my foot to push a pillow over the notes of lyrics.
"Don't," His voice was gentle, soft. "Don't stop."
I sat back down, this time on my bed, and picked up my notes and guitar as he followed suit. "This is not what I intended, I always swore to you I'd never fall apart." I relaxed my hunched shoulders, leaning closer to him. "And you always thought that I was stronger, I may have failed, but I loved you from the start."
I paused and took a breath, my fingers moving quickly, playing chord after chord, setting up the chorus. "Don't hold your breath, because tonight will be the night I'll fall for you. Over Again." The words were flying out of my mouth, embedded in my memory. "I won't live to see another day, I swear its true."
"A girl like you is impossible to find," he surprised me by singing the last line of the chorus. He brought his hand up to turn my chin to face him. "You're impossible to find."