WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! WARNING
This story is not for Edward lovers. If you like Alice you may not want to read it either it will make you dislike her and then it will make you sad…
The story has rape and abuse in it. So if you don't like reading about that you're going to have to skip parts of chapters including this first one (skip 1, 4, 6(abuse), & 10.) Possibly parts of other chapters...
Chapter 1: Something I Never should have seen
I pulled up the Cullens drive. I wanted to say high to Esme and Carlisle. I hadn't seen them in ages! Junior year had just ended and I was free from school. No one was there when I answered. They could have been out hunting. I hadn't called ahead. Someone was upstairs. The music was really loud. Was it really so loud that they couldn't hear my truck? I ran up the stairs and nearly tripped. It wasn't coming from Emmett's room but from Alice's. I knocked and no one answered.
I opened the door and saw something I had never wanted to. Edward and Alice were having sex. They didn't stop when I came in they seemed to go at it harder, faster. I crumpled to the floor, unable to speak, unable to leave. Tears streamed down my face. Edward had said he loved me. Swore up and down he could never hurt me. Well this would not only hurt me but hurt Jasper.
When they were finally done an hour later I still hadn't moved. They both got dressed silently. "Go hunt with the others. Get them to stay out for a few more hours." She nodded smirking at me before she ran out of the house to find them.
"Do you two realize what this is going to do to Jasper when I tell him?" I asked through tears.
"I don't know. I am not going to find out either. You are forbidden from telling Jasper about this!"
"You don't own me!" I spat at him. In truth I was scared. Edward never acted like this towards me before.
"Yes I do! You will do what I say when I say it or I will kill you!" He threatened. I didn't doubt him. This wasn't my Edward. This was a darker version.
"The Cullens won't let you get away with it." My voice was shaky now.
"The others will never hear about this bitch! Now stop talking back." He ordered.
"Edward, please!" He slapped me so hard I was knocked backwards. I rubbed my hand over the spot crying. He never hit me. He didn't care about me at all.
"I don't love you. You're vile and cruel!" I said trying to walk away from him. He shoved me up against the wall of the room. I couldn't move. There was no way I could beat him off. He was a vampire.
"You will love me! We will continue to go out!" He hissed in my ear. I tried desperately to squirm out of his grip.
"I am not yours anymore!" I screeched at him.
"Oh, but you will be Bella." He purred evilly as he ran a hand up my thigh. "Everything you have to offer will be mine in less than an hour." I shivered. He assaulted my lips fiercely. I fought against him. I didn't respond to his touch. He didn't like that.
"You will kiss me back or suffer." He said squeezing my thigh tightly. He once again attacked my lips. I had no choice but to kiss him back and fake moans of pleasure. I didn't want to be hit anymore. He removed his lips from mine but I knew he was far from done. He slowly kissed down my neck. He kept going. I squirmed but he had my hands pinned tightly above my head. He moved us to the bed and tore my shirt and bra off before starting on my pants.
"Edward! Don't! I haven't ever…Don't!" I pleaded through another round of tears. Just then he yanked off my pants and underwear. I shivered in fear. I didn't want to do this. I had wanted my first time to be with him, but not anymore. I didn't have a choice. This was wrong. He had already taken his clothes off. He wasn't wasting any time. He positioned himself on top of me and looked me in the eye.
"Bella, you are mine!" He said before he thrust himself inside. I screamed. I was human. He needed to remember that I wasn't Alice if he wasn't careful with me I would die. He kept going faster and faster. I felt like I would never get to stop whimpering.
"Stop, Edward!" I begged him. He smiled angelically at me before thrusting in harder than all the other times. I let out an agonized scream. He laughed. He was enjoying this. After that he was slightly gentler. When he finally withdrew himself all the way I was relieved. I was about to attempt to get up when Edward shoved me back down hard. Suddenly I was choking on his member. It was hard and cold. He had by now taken off the condom he had had on earlier. At least I wouldn't end up having his kid.
"Suck it bitch!" He ordered as he pumped himself into my mouth. I obeyed. Swirling my tongue around it and sucking like he asked. "That's right Bella. You're doing great. I told you, you would enjoy this." He said as I faked another moan of pleasure. He cummed in my mouth… I had to force myself not to gag; he didn't give me a chance to spit it out. I had to swallow it. After a while he got out of me. He kissed me on the forehead before allowing me to get dressed again.
"Bella when everyone else gets back you are going to be my happy cheerful girlfriend. I will not come by your house at night anymore, but if anyone asks I always stay with you. No one is to know about Alice and I. You will come by here everyday you don't work and will be your happy cheerful self. You are to make it so no one suspects. If they do you won't live long after that. If you're good everything will be fine. Do you understand?"
"Yes, Edward." I whispered brokenly. I got up and put a smile on my face before I went down stairs to wait for the others. I focused on a memory of Edward and I in the meadow. I couldn't give Jasper anything to suspect. I had to be good. Emmett came in and wrapped me in a giant hug.
"Hi Bella," Emmett boomed. Alice was next.
"Hey!" She said before walking back over to Jasper. She quickly planted a kiss on his forehead before sneaking a look at me. I kept my smile in place. She wanted me jealous she had two flies caught in her trap at once. She was a lucky spider. One I was going to squash.
I spent the rest of the day doing as Edward said. I played with Emmett and acted as if nothing was wrong. I drove home at a normal pace and kept my act together up throughout dinner.
I went to the bathroom. I wasn't clean. I jumped into the shower and turned the water up as hot as my body could stand. I looked down at my body in horror. There were blue and purple bruises shaped like his hands on my arms and other ones on my torso.
I scrubbed my self three times before I deemed body clean. Then I brushed my teeth four times and drank half a bottle of Listerine before I was satisfied. "I'm going to bed early. Night dad," I called down the steps to Charlie.
"Okay, Bella. I'm leaving later. I'll see you in a month."
"See you then." I called back quickly.
I went to my room, and locked the door. I curled up in a ball on my bed and cried. Soundless tears poured from my eyes like they were faucets. I had no one to comfort me anymore, no one to trust, and no one to tell. For the first time this year I was alone. Edward had taken from me the last thing I could ever give. It wasn't his to take, and I could never get it back. Edward was right! He is a monster! I thought savagely before crying again. Someone landed in my room with a light thud. I looked up to see Jasper. This was bad if Edward found out…
"Bella, why are you so sad? I can feel it all the way from the house." He asked concerned.
"I'm fine Jasper really. It's not important." He didn't reply. I started to grow anxious. "Jasper, you need to get out of here before he finds you." I warned him.
"Why? What's Edward's problem?"
"Oh nothing, you know how protective he is." I lied rolling my eyes.
"Bella with almost anyone else that would have been believable."
"Jasper, I'm not lying." I lied casually.
"Bella, I'm an empath. I know you're lying. Now what's up with Edward?"
"I can't tell you." I told him truthfully. I longed to tell him. He deserved to know.
"Okay the reason is too selfish. You deserve to know. I'll deal with Edward." I winced mentally.
"You aren't selfish. What is your reason?" He asked calmly. I hesitated before speaking.
"He'll kill me." I stated quietly. I had a sudden urge to hit something, hard. He was projecting.
"Did Edward tell you that?" I nodded. "I'm going to go have a talk with Edward then." He went to jump out the window.
"Don't!" I pleaded panicked. "He'll find out I told. He just said I had to be good." I muttered to myself.
"Bella, can you please tell me what's going on?"
"Yes, it will make you miserable. I know that's what it did to me, but you deserve to know. At least you aren't finding out the way I did." I took a deep breath and looked into his butterscotch eyes. "Alice and Edward are cheating on us." Pain ripped through me and I started crying again. Jasper was haunted, tortured, it all shown clearly from his eyes. He buried his emotions slightly and studied me.
"Bella, how did you find out?"
"I walked in on them having sex." I whimpered. Jasper's pain returned to his eyes. I could feel his pain on top of my own, along with anger: lots and lots of anger. His emotions had no effect on mine. I was feeling a much more powerful one, fear. I was terrified. Edward had warned me, and after what he had done today I knew he would keep his word. I was going to die. I shivered in fright.
"What's wrong? What are you scared of?" Jasper asked looking over at me again.
"Edward. He…he…" I didn't finish I shuddered instead. I really didn't want to say what had happened, not now, not ever.
"What did he do to you?" He asked his anger returning. I pulled my sleeves down to cover my arms entirely. Unfortunately for me he noticed. He came over and pushed up my sleeves. He gasped when he saw the handprint bruises. I suddenly felt like I wanted to punch someone again. It was Jasper. He had to be really angry. It took a lot to mess with his control over his power. I didn't get it. I hardly knew him at all.
"Did he do this to you?" He interrogated enraged.
"Yes, but when you go back you have to pretend like you don't know."
"I can't do that."
"If you go and yell at them can you kill me first? You'd probably be kinder than he would be." Jasper's countenance darkened further.
"We need to talk to the others together. I won't let him hurt you again." I was still worried. I thought about a happy memory, when I was with Renee and we were painting the house. I let the joy from the memory radiate off me. I myself wasn't happy but it did help brighten Jasper's mood.
"How are you happy?"
"I'm not. I'm just thinking about a happy memory. My emotions can't be helping you."
"Thanks Bella." I blushed slightly. "Do you want to go see them now?" He asked.
"Yes, Alice has probably seen me telling you. If we don't go to them they will come to us. At your house at least I'll be the only human around." Jasper jumped out of the window and gravity quickly pulled him down out of sight.
"Bella, jump I'll catch you." I looked down frowning before jumping out. Just like he said he caught me. I was quickly switched to clinging to his back and we took off for the Cullens house. The cool air whipped by my face. Any other night I would have enjoyed it.
I walked into the Cullens house back ridged and my hands were all ready clenched into fists. The onslaught of memories was terrible. I had already felt like shit before arriving here. This was really bad. I wanted to walk in with my head held high but I wasn't good enough for that. I was used and wasted. I was damaged beyond repair.
"Could everyone come down here? I have something to talk to you about." Jasper said in a normal tone. I was shocked at how calm he was considering everything. Maybe I was just a wimp. They came down slowly. First it was Carlisle and Esme, then Rosalie and Emmett. After them it was the traitors themselves Alice and Edward. When he came down the stairs I started shaking violently. I was really worried. Jasper sent me a wave of calm but it didn't do much.
"Thanks for trying." He nodded curtly. Edward was glaring at me hard. I squirmed under his gaze. Jasper growled at him harshly. Alice danced over to Jasper and put on a look of concern.
"Jazzy, what's wrong?" She asked innocently as she placed a hand on his shoulder. Anger welled up inside me. She had no right! She was with Edward. I started to worry that Jasper might believe her over me. He had known her for over 5 decades, but then he shrugged her hand off quickly and came over to sit with me. The rest of the Cullens stiffened when he came near me. I rolled my eyes. Jasper would never be the one I worried about.
"Jasper what did you want to see us about?" Carlisle asked.
"This." Jasper said yanking up my sleeves. Everyone except Edward gasped when they saw the bruises. I shifted around uncomfortably. Edward came over to me and wrapped me in a hug. I stiffened as he did. Then he moved back and slapped me. Not hard enough that I was propelled backwards but it hurt like hell. I put my hand over the mark. As I rubbed it I felt the makeup come off now the other bruise from earlier would be visible if I moved my hand. I kept it firmly in place.
Jasper growled at Edward and pushed him away from me. He stood in front of me crouched defensively. Emmett came and joined him Alice on the other hand stood in the middle unsure. I stood up shakily and somehow got around Emmett. "Fuck you whore!" I told her coldly. She glared right back at me. Jasper came up beside me.
"Why Alice," Jasper inquired. He hid his pain well, but I knew what he was feeling completely. She shrugged.
"I love him." She stated simply. She went over to Edward and grabbed his hand. That hurt, I loved Edward not the abusive Edward he was now but my Edward. I wanted him back.
"I want a divorce." She nodded. Edward kept looking at me and shifting around trying to see how he could get by Jasper to me.
"What did I tell you Bella?" I cringed. He sounded just like he had a few hours ago.
"I didn't tell him anything. He just saw my arms." I told him.
"I don't believe you Bella." He said threateningly. I was still shaking. He was really scaring me. His promise was fresh in my mind.
"Edward I want you to leave. Go to Alaska and stay there until I call you." Carlisle ordered angrily.
"I'm going with him." Alice declared. The two of them left the house. I heard the Porsche screech down the driveway.
"What did Edward do to you Bella?" Emmett asked angrily. I looked up at them. Edward was already angry. I didn't want to die.
"Nothing, I'm fine." I lied looking him straight in the eyes. It wasn't the fact that I couldn't lie, because I was pulling it off quiet well. It was the fact that they already knew something was up since Edward hit me and threatened me in front of them.
"When did you learn how to lie?" He asked surprised.
"When my life depended on my ability to do so," I muttered knowing full and well they would hear me.
"Is that what Edward meant?" I winced at his name. I nodded unable to speak.
"What happened to you Bella?" Jasper asked. I sighed sadly. I couldn't say no to him. He deserved to know what was really going on with Alice.
"I came over to see you guys. When I came in no one was around. I heard some really loud music from upstairs and I went to go check it out. It was coming from Alice's room. I knocked. No one answered so I went in. I saw Edward and Alice…together…" I took a deep breath and kept my eyes on the floor. I didn't want to see their faces right now. "I was frozen shocked. They didn't even care that I was there. When they were done Edward told Alice to go convince you guys to stay out and hunt for a few hours. I asked him if they realized what this was going to do to Jasper when I told him. He ordered me not to tell Jasper about it. I told him he didn't own me. He threatened me that he did and that if I didn't do what he said he would kill me." Jasper growled angrily from beside me.
"I tried to reason with him and he hit me for talking back." I finally removed my hand from my cheek to reveal the bruises there. I heard them gasp and Emmett uttered a low oath. I had to hurry up and finish. I didn't know how much longer I could hold it together. "I…I tried to tell him I didn't love him anymore. That I wouldn't go out with him. He told me I had to love him and we would continue to go out. I tried to get away from him it only got him mad. He wasn't gentle." I winced at the memory as I edited it.
"When he was done with that he told me I was going to be his happy cheerful girlfriend. He said he wouldn't come by my house at night anymore but if anyone asked I was to say he always stays with me. No one was to know about Alice and him. I had to come by here everyday I don't work, and that I would be happy while here. I was to make it so no one suspected anything. He said if any of you ever suspected I wouldn't live long after that. He said if I was good everything would be fine…so that's what I did. When you got back I smiled and pretended like nothing was wrong and I focused on a happy memory so Jasper wouldn't feel my emotions. I left and locked myself in my room at home. Jasper came over and asked what happened. I told him about them. I couldn't lie no matter what Edward threatened. He deserved to know." I finished.
I hadn't told them the full story, but this telling still sent me into tears. I couldn't tell anyone about what else happened. I wiped away the tears and gritted my teeth until they stopped. I wasn't done yet. "He did this too." I said pulling my shirt up half way to show the rest of the bruises. Not a single cut just bruises. Emmett hissed while Jasper growled.
"Bella, are those just bruises or did he crack ribs too?" Carlisle asked concerned as he tried to hide his anger.
"Just bruises." I said as lightly as I could.
"I am going to kill him!" Rosalie growled. I looked up shocked by her outburst: she never had liked me. She flashed me a grimace of understanding. From everyone else I was getting pity. I really didn't want a pity party. I didn't deserve it. I felt dead, used, and stupid. I deserved to die…
"No you don't. You don't deserve any of what has happened to you." Jasper assured me. I couldn't meet his eyes. "Come on Bella. You need to sleep." I let him lead me out of the house and into his car. When he got to my house he brought me back in through the window. Once he set me on my bed the water works started. I wasn't just crying I was sobbing, loudly. Jasper was staring at me his face was tormented.
"You don't have to stay. You're already hurting. You don't deserve the pain I'm feeling." I told him between sobs. He slowly walked over and wrapped his arms around me. "You're hurting too. You didn't do anything." I cried as he held me. I eventually calmed down enough to rest. I fell asleep in his arms.
Screaming was my first conscious memory. I had dreamed about Edward, Edward hurting me. I was alone. I felt hollow. "Jasper," I called quietly. No one answered. I hadn't expecting him to have stayed. I hated how Edward seemed to haunt even my dreams. What do you do when the man of your dreams turns into the devil that haunts your worst nightmares? I got ready for the day slowly. After eating breakfast I pulled on a sweatshirt before heading into the woods behind the house. I followed the marked trail until I reached a fallen tree it was a lot closer to the house than the other one. I ran towards it, stupidly. I fell and cut my hands on rocks and sticks below. "Crap." I muttered under my breath. They were bleeding a lot. A twig snapped and my eyes shot up.
What do you do when the man of your dreams turns into the devil that haunts your worst nightmare?
The apple has rotted.
The lion is getting hungry.
The lion is getting hungry.
The lamb is depressed and scared.