A SOUL IN TORMENT

Chapter 15: A Nightmare Released, Happiness at Last

Feral had been forced to remain in the Eagle's Nest Citadel for over a week but at last he was recovered enough to go home with his mate by his side.

Dr. Woodard gave him instructions for his recovery. He now suffered renewed nightmares at least once a night but of shorter duration. He would have to see Katrina a little more often and his meds were increased again.

Though unhappy about his setback, Feral was happy to be at least going home. Having Forry so near had made all the difference in making this stay more bearable.

Colonel Tigarrd acted as his escort once more and flew him and Forry back to Enforcer Headquarters. Feral had been given strict orders to go home for another five days before reporting to work. The only part he disobeyed was getting an update from Felina on what had transpired once he'd been taken away that day.

He was ecstatic to learn Dark Kat had been captured and no enforcers had been lost during the engagement. He was even pleased about the SWAT Kats being the ones to keep the engagement short and less costly to all. Relieved, he was able to go home in a more peaceful state of mind.

Forry was the one who drove them home, a warm smile on his face at seeing how happy his mate was as they rode along.

"Would you like to stop and have a quiet lunch at our favorite place before going home, my love?"

"That would be nice," Feral sighed with pleasure.

The restaurant wasn't too busy and they enjoyed a quiet and wonderful lunch together. Despite the original trauma still haunting his dreams, Feral was feeling much more comfortable with himself and very relieved he was no longer alone.

As he watched his love enjoy their quiet meal, Forry's mind went back to the final briefing Dr. Woodard had given him in private. He had been told Dark Kat had newly opened the scars on Uly's psyche. Those long held memories of that dark time in his kittenhood would continue to undermine any effort Uly made to get better. However, though they both hoped the new trauma would allow Feral to get over his previous one, there was a chance Uly could bury it deeper instead.

Dr. Woodard suggested Forry see Katrina and ask her advice as to how to help his lover overcome this final hurdle. He thanked the doctor and planned to get a hold of Katrina as soon as he possibly could.

Three days later, he managed to break away. He was nervous doing this behind Uly's back but was determined to help his mate.

"It is a pleasure to make your acquaintance at last, Forry," Katrina smiled warmly and shook his paw when he appeared in her office. She gestured toward the couch, suggesting he sit there.......she joined him moments later.

"I'm glad to meet you too. I can see how much you help Uly by how he behaves with me after his sessions however, the reason for my visit now is to ask what I can do to aid Ulysses in releasing this destructive memory that hurts him so badly."

"I can understand how badly you want to help, but Forry these things must happen in their own way. They cannot be forced. What you can do for Ulysses is to be there whenever the nightmares strike and offer all the comfort you can. Eventually, he will spill the beans, as it were but it will be on his own terms and his own time. I know this is hard for you watching him suffer but your patience and love will be rewarded," she said seriously.

They talked for a little while longer before Forry said farewell and thanked her for her time. The session had helped him deal with his own stress as he tried to handle the problem from his side but still wished he could do more. Sighing unhappily, he returned home.

It was late August and they had been together more than eight months now. Uly had recovered completely from his capture by Dark Kat but that buried memory was still there. It was a wonderful nearly perfect weekend, weather-wise so Forry planned a picnic for just the two of them. Something their busy schedules hadn't allowed.

The city was finally quiet, making life a bit easier for Feral and Forry's caseload had finally lessened a bit. So Forry felt the time was right to spend some outdoor playtime together. Packing a basket lunch and a frisbee, they made for their favorite spot on the bay, little frequented by others.

Just as they had hoped, their favorite spot was empty and the waters of the bay were so still it appeared to look like glass. Setting up their blanket and basket under a willow tree, they moved to more open ground to play frisbee. They both turned out to be pretty good and soon they were jumping and laughing. After about an hour of playing, they went to the blanket to eat their lunch which consisted of cold chicken, sodas, chips and potato salad.

Chatting amiably, they finished their lunch and packed their trash away. Uly leaned his back against the tree and Forry moved closer to lay his head on his lover's chest. They sat there staring at the bay quietly letting their food digest, Uly gently caressing Forry's back absently.

After a long while, Forry sighed, sat up more and turned to give Ulysses a warm kiss which the dark tom returned eagerly. They kissed for a while, their paws caressing and groping getting a little more heated as time went on. No one was around as they began to strip off their clothes, slowly deepening their kisses. Before long, Forry lay beneath Uly, hot and needy.

Giving his mate a lustful look, Feral prepared his lover and entered him slowly. They both groaned at the moment of complete union before Uly began a steady rhythm that brought them panting and crying out long minutes later. Rolling to the side so he wouldn't flatten his mate, Uly kept his arms wrapped around Forry as they lay side by side kissing and licking each other tenderly.

Forry felt so happy when he was in Uly's arms. "I love you so very much Ulysses." He told his beloved. Ulysses sighed and nuzzled Forry back saying the same with his body that he couldn't say with words.

The sun was going down when they put their clothes back on, gathered their belongings and walked to the car for the quick ride home. Forry decided to make something nice for dinner and had Uly make a salad to go with it. They chatted as they prepared the simple meal and sat down to eat it. Afterward, Uly helped with the dishes then they went to watch a lTV before bed. Another bout of gentle love play with Forry as lead, carried them both off to sleep.

It should have been a perfect end to an enjoyable day but the dawn's early light dragged a nasty reminder that things weren't as perfect as they seemed.

His mind jumbled the beautiful day with the one that been soo nice until the moment he'd been dragged into that alley in broad daylight with the sun shining warmly.

'Well lookee here. It's a pretty kitty. Come here kitten we want to play with you' smirked the blond punk he'd seen hanging around the park for the past few days. His three other friends had nasty smiles on their faces and Ulysses could feel his heart in his throat and his mind screaming to run but it was too late. They were much bigger and had him surrounded.

'We'll show you a good time, won't we guys,' the blond punk said as he pulled Uly close as he gestured to his friends to come nearer.

He gave Uly an obscene kiss and rubbed his body against him while his buddies pulled the young tom's clothes off him. He tried to wriggle free but the blond only held him tighter. He whimpered in fear then screamed when he was suddenly bent over and one of them inserted themselves in his unprepared and virginal channel.

Ulysses was screaming and wildly swinging his arms. He threshed around so much he fell off the bed. His eyes were blind to all but what his inner vision saw.

Forry came awake violently. Seeing the space beside him empty, he crawled over and looked down at the floor. Ulysses was on his back, eyes tightly closed, and his body thrashing as if he was fighting someone. Forry quickly got down on the floor then wrapped his arms and legs around his mate and called over and over again, trying to draw Uly out of his nightmare.

Feral was sweating and trembling, his stomach tight as he tried desperately to free himself from the nightmare and the ghostly grasping paws of the punks. Through his terror, he heard Forry's desperate pleas that he return to him. He struggled hard and finally managed to free himself and forcibly opened his eyes to stare into the copper ones of his lover.

"Oh love! Are you okay now?" Forry asked gently, his heart breaking.

Feral swallowed as he heard the pain in Forry's voice, his anguish for him. Taking his courage in his paws he spoke haltingly, "I...it was sunny...just like our picnic...they were waiting for me. I'd seen them around and didn't like them. I tried to avoid them...but that day I was thinking of the game I was in the next night and didn't see them hiding in the alley until the blond one grabbed me and yanked me into the alley with him...He...wasn't alone...there were three others." He shuddered a moment, gulping for air.

"Uly, it's okay you don't have to..." Forry started to soothe him.

"No...I have to say it or I never will." He stuttered anxiously. Forry nodded and just held him tightly. "The blond said he wanted to show me a good time, then he kissed me. He held me so tightly it hurt. His buddies yanked my pants and shoes off. I tried to get away harder but they were soo much stronger than me...next thing I knew I was being bent over and one of them ...he...Oh god!...he penetrated me...it hurt soo bad I screamed...they slapped me to shut me up but it hurt too bad. Before the next one did it I managed to get away but didn't get far before they tackled me and slammed me against a wall. I was stunned when the next one took me. I was slammed around a lot over the next thirty minutes until they were all finished. Then they dropped me to the ground laughing as they fixed their clothes and walked away. I lay there bleeding and in pain for I don't remember how long but it was dark when I finally was able to pull my clothes back on and drag myself home. My parents rushed me to the hospital and I pleaded with the doctor to not tell my parents about the rape. He didn't like it but repaired my rectum and gave me cream to ease it while it healed." He stopped suddenly and heaved for air as if he had run a marathon.

Forry continued to hold him while his emotions railed at the cruelty of those punks. He wished they were still around so he could smash their faces in. For a moment he was stunned at the violence in him but he'd never been so in love with someone before and the thought of what Uly had suffered had set off a savage protectiveness within him.

"Alright love, now that that is out you should finally have some peace. It will still be there, nothing can take it away but now it won't have so much power over you. How about a nice hot shower then some tea? I'm going to call us in sick for the day and we'll just rest." Forry said firmly.

"No, I need to go in. I can't hide away here," Ulysses said, still somewhat shaky and cold inside.

"No you are not!" Forry said sharply causing Uly to stare at him in surprise. "You give everything to this city. You ask nothing in return. You are going to stay home and recover your equilibrium and feel much better tomorrow and stop feeling guilty about taking much needed time for yourself. No argument! I think it would be best if you saw Katrina later today too. I'll call and see if she can get you in. Now let's shower." Forry pushed his shocked mate to the bathroom.

"Gee Forry, I've never seen this side of you before," Ulysses purred, as they stood in the shower while Forry scrubbed his back with soap.

"I'm just feeling particularly protective of you my love. That's all." Forry said warmly, a little uncomfortable about his behavior.

"Hmm. Actually I like how you take charge. It's exciting," Ulysses murmured, turning and depositing a passionate kiss on his mate. He rubbed soap into Forry's fur going from his chest to between his legs and fondling his genitals that were taking an interest in his mate's caresses.

Washing away the nightmare, he buried himself in this kat's love for him as he brought them both to shuddering climaxes. Panting to get his breath back, he nuzzled Forry's face and said softly, "I love you."

"And I love you so very much, Ulysses," Forry murmured then stepped away so they could rinse off and get out of the shower to dry.

The next day was so much better than any before it had been. That was because Feral felt more freer of spirit now that the nightmare had been released. Talking with Katrina had succeeded in reducing the awful memory to something much more manageable, leaving him much calmer and less angst ridden. This new mindset allowed him to react to the bad things in his job with focused calmness and none of the explosions of temper he had been formerly prone to. The SWAT Kats found that a refreshing change as did the enforcers. It allowed for a more relaxed working environment for all.

Later that week, an attack by Viper was ended quickly and before the SWAT Kats could leave they were pleasantly surprised when Feral took them aside and thanked them for their discretion when they saved his life and kept his secret. He told them he was much better and warned them to watch crossing over the line or he'd have to arrest them. They smiled at the tongue in cheek, threat and left happy their antagonist was truly recovered and enjoying life again.

For their first anniversary, Ulysses had special jeweled collars made. Taking Forry out to dinner at a very exclusive restaurant, he gave him a beautiful single red rose. When they got home he presented his gift.

"Oh my god! Uly, it's beautiful! Is this what I think it is?" Forry asked his voice tight with emotion.

"Yes, I want you as my life mate and this collar and the one matching it is a declaration of my love for you and my wish for us to share our lives forever." Ulysses said nervously.

"Oh love, yes! I will life mate with you and share my live with yours forever." Forry trembled as tears of joy fell from his eyes. He took the matching collar and placed it around Uly's throat.

Uly did the same for him. His eyes glowing with love, Ulysses Feral kissed his life mate Forry Stanhope. They held each warmly as they made their way to their bedroom and a night of celebration.