Only one review 4 last chapter! So meant I had barely any motivation to write this one plus I've had tons of homework and coursework. Well anyhoo I hope whoever reads it likes it enough to review it!! This chapter will probably contain another flashback of N+J
I loved thinking back to times in La Push they were my favourite memories. Lately I've been thinking about it a lot. About maybe returning, to live there with Jake. But then of course that could never happen. I would the weird white girl to all those who didn't know me. And generations could go by without us aging at all. I was very deep in thought this morning, I was sitting at Jake's breakfast bar I was only half paying attention to him. I was trying not to think about going back home to face the wrath of my parents. Things were still bound to be tense after yesterday and the unknown about our mystery visitor still lingered.
"Nessie! Hello anyone there?" Jake called.
"What? Oh yes sorry. I'm just a bit distracted." I sighed.
"I can tell." He smirked "So what's bothering you?"
"Nothing bothering me really. I was just thinking back to times in La Push and how much fun it was." I began.
"Yea" He sighed "We should go back sometime, just to see Sam and the guys."
"And to see Rachel and her kids" I reminded him.
"Of course, and see how the extension of dad's house is coming along. It's nice that Rachel and Paul decided to live their instead of total strangers moving in."
I smiled sadly at him not knowing what else to do. Of course Jacob missed Billy, after he died just over a year ago Jacob was inconsolable. He blamed himself for not being there more often but it was nothing he could control. Billy had been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer just three months before he died. The doctors told him he had at the most six months to live. It all happened so quickly. Not even a week earlier me, Jake and mum had been down visiting, and then we got a phone call from Rachel. He had died in his sleep just the way he always wanted to go. His funeral was huge. Practically all of La Push and a good part of Forks had turned up for it.
"It would be good to go back, we have some good memories there." He smiled warmly.
"My favourite time would have to be the time we spent my birthday there. Do you remember?"
"How could I forget?" and then he leaned into kiss me.
3 years earlier.
"So Nessie since it's your birthday I guess that means I'm allowed to give you your present right?" Jacob whispered to me.
"I guess" I began.
Next thing I knew Jacob took me by the arm and began to head towards the beach. The sun was slowly beginning to set over La Push, it had been another glorious day. Everything now had an almost gold like tint to it accentuating its beauty. The last remaining rays of sun beamed against the ocean making it shimmer and sparkle like thousands of diamonds. The sun also managed to put even more emphasis on Jacob's already perfect body which illuminated his beautiful bronze skin and immense muscles. I defiantly was curious to what he could possibly give me. I could think of one gift that would go beyond all boundaries of an immense gift and that would be him. I still wasn't sure if Jacob cared for me like a sister or more. But I was sure I loved him with all my heart and hoped that someday he would tell me if he returned my love. We walked down the beach a bit further until we came to a sudden halt and he began to look out to sea.
I wanted to give Nessie her present away from everyone else, somewhere private that had meaning so it would matter even more. I constantly turned my head slightly to make sure that she was still there. She was more graceful than any ballerina so it was hard to tell if she was even beside me. Every glance at her made my heart skip a beat. She was undoubtedly the most beautiful, stunning, perfect person I had ever met. Although her skin did not sparkle in the sun she still looked like a goddess. I just wish she was mine. I loved her with all my heart and I knew I would for the rest of my existence. I would die for her, do anything for her just to win her approval. I feared that if I spoke about my love for her I could loose her. Imprinting was complicated as I had learned over the years. When we stopped I looked out to the ocean hoping for some sort of inspiration, and she stood there beside me patiently. She was gorgeous it was undeniable, I just wanted to take her in my arms and protect her from everything.
"Listen, N there's been something I've wanted to talk to you about for quite a while now but I don't really know where to begin." I looked at her to see her reaction.
"Well don't let me rush you, we have eternity" she smirked.
"Well... I guess you know that we have some sort of special bond between us"
"Of course we do I mean who else would watch the Rent movie with me near a hundred times?" She joked
I had to laugh it was true but I had to make this more serious to show that I meant what I was saying.
"I'm going to get straight to the point here" I mumbled. "Reneseme we are meant to me more than just good friends. I care about you so much I can't even put it into words, I want to be with you forever. I want to be the one you turn to when you are in need, I want to hold you when you are scared and I want to be able to spend the rest of my life with you. You are the reason I breathe I can't imagine my life without you. I understand if you don't feel the same about me, I mean it probably would be impossible to match how I feel about you. So if you don't it's cool I can wait we have as long as you need". I exhaled I was pretty sure that I said that all in one breath.
Once I heard Jake speak these words so many emotions flooded me. I was shocked and surprised at the intensity and meaning behind these words. My heart felt like it was swelling up twice maybe even three times its original size. But there was a sense of fear underlying, would we be a couple? how would everyone react? I must have been silent for a few minutes because next thing I knew Jacob began stalking off mumbling
"I knew I shouldn't have said anything, I'm such an idiot."
"Jake wait, you're not an idiot. I 'm glad you said what you said because... because I feel the same way." I waited holding my breath waiting for him to say something.
"Gee Nessie you are incredible but you don't have to say that, we can be just friends, really." Although I could see the sadness in his eyes, I could see it was killing him.
"Wait what? Jacob I love you more than a friend. You don't know how long I have waited for you to utter those words to me and how incredible they feel."
Next thing I knew I had put my hands on his cheeks allowing him to see all my thoughts. These were all the thoughts from when I knew that I was in love with him and how I could never even think of being with anyone else.
Once I'd finished I slowly let my hands drop from his face. He opened his eyes slowly to look at me. We remained silent for a few moments before he started grinning and whispered,
I smiled so wide that it almost matched his.
"So are you going to kiss me or what?" I asked coyly
Next thing I knew he had swept me in for the most perfect first kiss I could ever imagine. He was gentle and careful yet passionate. His arms were wrapped around my lower back and one hand was on my face. One of my hands rested on his face and the other hugged him closer to me. We were entwined together and we clicked into place like a jigsaw.
We returned to the house hand in hand which brought about a huge cheer from everyone but I'll never forget the look on Billy's face. His ancient eyes were brimming over with tears of happiness, and he was grinning ear to ear. Jacob received many slaps on the back and handshakes, whilst I got all the girls running over to me screaming.
Mum, Esme, Rose and Alice were ecstatic and I knew they would be in tears of joy if that was possible. I was surprised that dad accepted it so well, although Emmett glared at Jacob with his arms folded across his chest. He looked like a true gangster. Before he yelled "I'm just messing with you kid." And gave Jacob an almighty smack on the back.
It was defiantly the best birthday any half- human half vampire could've asked for. They were simpler times.
Finally I got chapter seven published, I really would hope to get my review mark up to at LEAST 15, the more reviews I get the quicker I will post! Well I hope you enjoyed this chapter!!!