A/N: Under this "chapter" you'll find all of the "written correspondence "outtakes I did while writing, Two Makes Three. These are not beta'd, they're only meant for enjoyment, as little extras from the story.
~Below is Jake's letter to Bella when he sends her the box, containing the engagement ring.~
~From Chapter 21~
I don't know where to start. I still don't even know how I was able to let any of this happen. I messed up. I messed up in so many ways that I could fill up an entire notebook with apologies for everything I've done, for everything I've put you through… and I'm not just referring to the last few months. When I sit back and think about everything, I mean really think about everything, I realize that I am the world's biggest asshole.
I know we've talked about us, about how it's over. My point in this letter is not to repeat things that have already been said, but to say the things that haven't.
Let me begin by saying I'm sorry for what happened on the stairs in our building. I don't know who that was. I don't know where that came from, but it wasn't me. I hope you know that… in my heart I think you knew that. I don't even remember half of it. I hadn't been sleeping well, I'd been at the studio all night and we were drinking. The entire thing is a blur to me. All I remember was Jasper getting a call and realizing that you were home.
I shouldn't have gone to Alice's party. I'm sorry for messing that up too. I just wanted to say my goodbyes. But then I saw you. You were glowing, and looked so beautiful, so happy… I lost it. I promised you this letter wouldn't be full of things I've already told you, but I still miss you, Bells. You're still the first thing I think about in the morning, and my last thought before I go to sleep at night. Everywhere I look, everywhere I go, it all reminds me of you… of us. What we had, and what I so royally fucked up.
It's obvious that you're happy now. I've never seen you smile the way you do now. At least not in a very long time. It's hard to admit it, you have no idea how hard, but it's the truth. He makes you smile in ways I never could, and on a regular basis. I guess I should be thankful that I've at least gotten to see you like that, even if it wasn't because of me. He takes care of you; he proved it by giving me what I deserved.
I don't want to be the one to still make you sad, Bella. I'm done trying to push something that clearly isn't salvageable. You are worthy of everything, and I was never able to give you that. We came close, very close, but it's time for me to accept that close is never close enough. You deserve someone like him. You were always too good for me.
Shit. Sorry, I'm repeating myself again.
If I could change anything it would be what my priorities were. You never deserved to be my second. You should have always been my first.
I need you to keep the ring Bella. I need you to keep it because it belongs to you. I bought it for you and if I hadn't been such a moron you would have at least worn it for a day or two before you randomly met some guy you now believe you're meant to be with. For everything I put you through, for everything you've ever done for me. That ring belongs to you. I spent everything I had on itm and there are no refunds. I'll never forget the look on your face when you saw it in the store window, that was the smile I wanted to see again. I bought it for you, you have to keep it. Please.
If anything think of it as a symbol for what we had, what we shared. For the friendship that helped make it all possible. I could never sell it to a pawn shop. That ring represents too much.
I guess this is me saying goodbye, Bells. I will love you forever, I don't care that I'm repeating myself there because that is something that will never change. Please take care of yourself. Know that even though I'm saying goodbye, if you ever wanted to come back… I will always be here. I'm going to love you forever, Bella, and that's why I'm letting you go now. I'm letting you go because I can't help but feel that someday you will come back.
A/N: Below is the email Bella sends to Jake in Chapter 28, after she finds out he wants to join her for her doctors appointment back in the city.
I just don't understand.
I don't understand why you're insisting on inserting yourself someplace where you're obviously not wanted. Am I the one going crazy? Because that's the way your emails made me feel. Why is this so hard for you to accept? As if the doctors appointment wouldn't be stressful enough, now you want to add another pile of bull shit to it?
I used to think it was sad, the place I find you at now. Not anymore though. As far as am I concerned you deserve to be miserable because that's obviously how you want to see me. Miserable. Why you want to put me through this is beyond me.
If you want to push yourself on me one last time like this then go for it.
The appointment is this Wednesday at 9:30 a.m. I've included a link to the doctor's office, you can find the address there.
Just so were perfectly clear… I do NOT want you there. I do NOT want to see you. I do NOT want to hear from you again. When I have something to say to you *I* will contact you. All you're doing is making this more difficult. Do you realize that? Why couldn't I just have a single month of peace? One month without your immature rants, and ridiculous assertions? Why was that so much to ask for? It's okay though. In 1-2 weeks we will have our answer. I'm sure by then you will have found a new way to make me feel badly for you one last time. You always have been good at playing the victim. Finding out you're not the father of these babies should be your ultimate "whoa is me" moment. I'm sure you'll write a great song about it. Maybe it will finally be your number one hit? Alright… I'm done being bitter. You should have let me go when I asked you to. I'll see you on Wednesday.
A/N: Below are the E-MAILS shared between Edward and Jake, from Chapter 32~
Subject: A warning.
March 10, 2010 2:47 PM
You obviously have a problem with comprehending how serious I'm being about you keeping your distance when it comes to my fiancé. Let me reiterate.
Leave her alone.
She doesn't want to see you, she doesn't want to hear from you, she doesn't want to think about you. If you really care about her you won't show your face again. Stop being such a selfish prick Jacob, and back the fuck off. I'm not going to say it again.
Yes. This is a warning. Don't fuck with me.
March 10, 2010 11:40 PM
Subject: Re: A warning.
That was laughable. Thanks Cullen. You've helped me finish my day with a smile on my face. Love knowing that you care. If Bella feels this way then let her tell me herself. She doesn't need you to fight her battles. She's a big girl, or have you taken her independence from her? She doesn't like to be told what to do. Some advice from me to you. The more you push her in one direction the harder she'll push back. Take my word for it, I did after all spend 5 years with her… I know her better than anyone in this goddamn city.
Do you know why you wrote me this email? You wrote it because I make you nervous. And do you know why I make you nervous? Because you know she still cares about me.
I have no plans to go anywhere again. Not till a test tells me I should.
March 11, 2010 8:17 AM
Subject: What's it like living in a world of denial?
Are you fucking kidding me? Let Bella tell you that herself? I think she has you fucking idiot. What part of "Leave me alone." doesn't register with you? When these results come back you better take a step back. No you better take quite a few fucking steps back because if I ever see you some place where you haven't been invited, I'll make sure I put you in a place that will keep you from bothering my girl again for quite some time.
March 12, 2010 2:48 AM
Subject: Threats make my world go round.
I have every right to pursue this. Lets not forget what brought us all here. I kissed Bella and she kissed me back. Shit I can still feel that kiss on my lips. I can still feel myself inside of here. It was fucking powerful. She might be wearing your ring, but she still thinks about me and the ring I bought for her. You don't easily forget about something when it controlled everything you were for four years. History can never be erased or forgotten. The sooner you accept that the sooner you'll get used to the idea that I'll always be two steps behind you. If these babies are mine I will be around till the day one of us stops breathing. You want to threaten me physically? I think my threat is much more damning. Bella fell back into my arms because she still had feelings for me. You call my world denial? I call it reality. What Bella and I had, it was real. You can't blame me for fighting to get it back. You would do the same.
March 12, 2010 8:12 AM
Subject: Re: Threats make my world go round.
You're fucking out of your god damn mind Black. You fucked her when she was passed out drunk. Way to fucking go! You make me sick, your disrespect for her is dangerous. Do you have any idea the amount of stress you're placing on her? Do you not understand how unhealthy that is for a pregnant woman? Your blatant disregard for what's best for Bella is fucked beyond belief. You can always be 2 steps behind me, because you know what, you'll still be behind me, while Bella will be walking beside me. The sooner you accept that the sooner you'll be able to move the fuck on. It's pitiful, I would almost feel bad for you if it weren't for the deliberate nonsense you're trying to haunt my girl with. You refuse to go away so of course Bella still thinks about you. You should know though, they aren't pleasant thoughts.
I wouldn't do the same thing you're doing. If seeing me made Bella unhappy I would make sure I stayed the hell away. All I want is for her to be happy. I care more about her own happiness than I do my own. That's the difference between you and me Black. I care about Bella while all you care about is yourself.
March 13, 2010 1:13 PM
Subject: Keep dreaming.
You don't know me, don't pretend you do. I'll be sticking around at least a little while longer.
March 13, 2010 4:46 PM
Subject: Re: Keep dreaming.
Have it your way Black. I gave you a chance to walk away. When the test results come back I'll make sure that choice is taken away from you. She doesn't love you anymore. Accept it, and move the fuck on. All you're doing now is showing how sad and pathetic you really are. Have more respect for yourself.
A/N: So those are those. Pretty crazy to look back and remember where they once were.
Don't forget to check out the sequel, Two Makes Five. I'm updating that today as well. :)
Thanks for reading!