So Can You Keep a Secret has finally come to an end after three long years and I must admit that it feels a little strange. This story has been with me through so many different parts of my life and there were so many times that I felt like giving up on it but I just couldn't. So here I'm going to explain a little about how this story started, introducing me to the world of fan fiction.
I don't actually remember how I got the idea for this story. I was completely in love with skins at the time and whilst suffering with a mix of boredom and insomnia, I began reading Naomily fan fictions. I loved how it was a place where we could all come together to express our feelings towards something that we can all connect and relate over.
I've been writing for as long as I can remember, it's my only passion in life. I think I watched something on TV and it gave me the idea for this story and I just had to start writing, I never expected to receive the response that I have from all of you and it made me feel so good and I knew that I just had to carry on. One comment that I have received from a lot of my reviewers is that they were amazed by how I could write something such as this when I was only sixteen. I'm nearly twenty now and I think back and I can honestly say that I have no idea how I was capable of doing it, I think it was because I was in a dark place at the time so my mind kind of revolved around angst and I wanted to express it in a different way.
For those of you who may have been wondering, I have never been raped or received any form of sexual or physical abuse but I do know people who have so it helped me to write this story because I thought of their experiences and how it still affected them after many years. Rape is such a sensitive subject for an obvious reason but it is ignored a lot by people because they simply don't like to think about it. I wanted to write this story to help people realise that horrible things like this do happen on a daily basis and it can happen to anyone, as horrible as it is to think about.
I've always wanted to write something about someone who has experienced something so horrible that is has sent them completely off the rails. If I were to ever rewrite this story, I would probably make Naomi react in a much worse way than what I did at the time. There are so many problems that I know of now that I could have added in to this story but that's the good thing about growing up, I've learnt so much since I was sixteen and I would like to think that it has made me a better writer.
Finishing this story was hard because there were points when I didn't have a computer or internet or any form of motivation to carry on writing. My life has taken so many downwards and upwards spirals since I began writing this, so there were times that I never could focus on writing such a dark story when I had so much going on in my own life. But if I'm honest, I'm quite glad that it took me so long to finish because my writing has improved a lot, I read back over the first few chapters and it literally makes me cringe because of how bad my writing was when I started this. But hey, I was only sixteen; I think I did a pretty good job considering how young I was. I might not be anywhere near as good as some writers but that doesn't matter to me, writing is my passion and I have my own style just as everyone else does. As long as you all enjoy what I create, that's all that really matters.
Anyway, enough of my babbling. The whole point to this authors note is for me to thank all of you so much for sticking with this story and leaving such lovely reviews, it's an indescribable feeling when someone tells you that they love what you do and it makes them feel such strong emotions just through a bunch of words that have formed within my mind. It seriously means a lot to me and I could never thank you all enough. I have met some wonderful people through fan fiction and I'm so glad that I did decide to post this story all those years ago.
The person who I have to thank the most is a wonderful author called FaithSky. Without our stories, I never would have met my best friend. She literally means the world to me and she has helped me through so much that I could never truly express my gratitude. We connected over something that gave us so much joy and that is what helped us to become friends in the first place. My friends from school never had the passion for writing and they could never really understand me as a person, I have gone through so much in my life and I think it was too hard for them to deal with it so they drifted away from me. That's why FaithSky is different, she didn't care that I had issues, I'm her best friend and I know that she will have my back protected whenever I need her. So seriously, from the bottom of my heart, I love you man and thank you so much for everything and for helping me to carry on with my writing, I never could have done it without you. If you haven't read any of her stuff, go and do it right now because you really won't be disappointed!
There are so many of you who I would like to personally thank but it would take a long time and sadly, I have work tomorrow and need to get to bed. But this goes out to EVERY single person who has reviewed, followed and added this story to their favourites. I love you all so much and you are all wonderful people and thank you for sticking to this story and giving it a chance. I never would have continued or gained this new confidence for my writing if it wasn't for you guys. I do intend to keep writing fan fictions and I have actually already started a new story called Made of Scars, so check it out and I hope you enjoy it. Can You Keep a Secret will always be my pride and joy but this story is officially over. I'll see you all in something new and different and I hope that I continue to entertain you all with this silly imagination of mine. :)
HUGS AND KISSES FOR ALL OF YOU, I LOVE YOU GUYS! KairiM xxxx