NEW BEGININGS

WHY IS IT SO QUIET WHY AM I SO COLD WHY IS IT DARK .

"J wake up wake up you can't leave you promised me you wouldn't leave stay alive stay alive for me please "

WHO COULD POSIBBLY BE SOBBING FOR ME I DIDN'T MATTER TO ANYONE ,WHO COULD BE SHEDDING TEARS FOR ME .

Ugh " J come on stay alive the police and the paramedics are here "

I KNOW THAT VOICE NOW IT WAS JOSH OH JOSH IM SO STUPID .I'M SO SORRY I MADE A PROMISE AND I BROKE IT . WHY IS IT SO BRIGHT .

" Her pulse ... she may not make ." SAID UNFIMULAR VOICE .

"J don't go into the light don't leave me ok "

JOSH HE SOUNDS SO DESPERATE . I FINALLY FEEL LIKE I CAN TALK .

"Josh I'm so sorry I hope u can forgive me ."

THEN EVERYTHING WENT BLACK .

WHEN I WAKE UP ...........

When I wake up finally I feel a warm body around me when I shift around in the bed Josh got immeadly.

" J J WHAT HURTS WANT ME TO MOVE J YOU STAYED !!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"Breath Josh I'm fine but you didn't have to stay here . I'm fine it was just an accident ."

"No J if that were an acident I wouldn't have found with a gun in your hand and you bleeding to death on the floor your just lucky you missed "

"HHHHow did you -"

"Know . I found a letter on my doorstep to me saying not to open till after school but recongized the hand writing and opened , after reading callled the pilice and sprinted to your house just a few minutes after your you pulled the trigger . "

"I'm so sorry Josh i didn't mean to -"

" Don't worry but I brought the letter soo you could read it .I gotta go I'll be back later today."

After Josh left I turned around in the hospital bed and saw the letter . I decided i would open it and read .

Dear Josh by the time you've read this letter I'll be gone you know that at this point I'm tired of fighting .I know I made a promise to keep myself here for you but it getting harder everyday to look into the mirror and see me and see the happy girl that you have always said I was .Put yourself in my place you know me just as well as know you we've shared so many experinces together but this one we can't share . Please for me tell everyone goodbye and that I'm sorry . Goodbye my one and only love .

Love

J