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Chapter 4: Facing Facts
Songs for Chapter 4: End of the Line - Metallica, Sorrow - Flyleaf, Absolute - The Fray, My Own Design - Trapt, All around Me - Flyleaf
When I sent Emmett to Forks I never saw him and Bella becoming so attached so fast. The problem was they were both being stupid and couldn't see what the other was feeling. It was not like they were completely in love with each other, but they would be.
Emmett had lost all of his desire, love, and happiness the day that bitch walked out on us. I saw bits and pieces of Rose at times, but she was foggy. I assumed she wasn't making any concrete decisions, and honestly, I could have cared less what she does and where she was, but Emmett needed peace.
Bella, my poor friend. I just couldn't tell her that Edward did what was destined to happen from day one. I see that now, but I missed it before. I couldn't imagine why it was all so farfetched for anyone I tell. It wasn't like I could control my visions. Jasper understood me as always, but the others… I knew they are skeptical.
Carlisle was the first one I went to after I sent Emmett to Forks. His only question was,
"Are you sure this is necessary? Is there anything I can do to help them heal? "
I explained to him that I had seen them together - happy and with the family. I wasn't sure (as the visions don't tell you everything) how long that would take, but Bella was still human, so it couldn't have been that far away.
Or could it?
I was shopping when a horrible vision hit me.
I hurried to the house. I don't think I stopped running until I hit the bedroom, grabbing Jasper, and my panic really set it. What if I was too late? I had to stop it. He would beat himself up and do something stupid. The dogs would take him out and I could not, no, I would not lose any more family members.
"Alice?" Jasper's said, looking at me in confusion.
"Listen, we have to go to Forks now. There is no time to explain," I said turning and grabbing his hand to pull him behind me.
"Ali, baby, you have to tell me what's going on," he repeated every few minutes as we ran. I was too focused on them, to explain that I saw Emmett kill Bella in a fit of lust and rage. She was meant to be with him forever, even if she didn't know it, and I really didn't think he could live without her. I had to stop him.
"Alice Whitlock! Stop and tell me what in the hell is going on, right this minute," Jasper growled.
I stopped and turned to face him. I could see the worry written in his eyes.
"We have to stop Emmett. He is going to hurt Bella. We just need to get to them," I said turning to run towards the cottage. We were only a few miles away now. We would make it in time.
As we continued to run, Alice's focus was making me nervous. It wasn't like her to not tell me everything. I just couldn't understand what she was seeing, but my instincts told me it wasn't anything good.
"Are you sure this is what we need to do?" I asked. She turned and pounced on me.
"Jasper Whitlock! Are you questioning me? Of course I'm sure. He is going to lose it and kill her. It will tear him apart and... I can't lose either of them," her little voice cracked as she screamed at me. I felt her anger and sadness hit me as her dry sobs started, she collapsed into my arms. I laid there holding her as my mind replayed the evens of Bella's birthday party.
This was all my fault. If I hadn't lost control we'd all be together and happy. I jumped to my feet with Alice in my arms and headed for the cabin. We had only been in Forks a few hours, and if what Alice saw in her vision came to light she would never forgive herself. We needed to hurry.
We cautiously approached the cottage. There was no sign of anyone around except the two inside. I could feel the lust, longing, and need rolling around in the air. It was strong, and the weight of it all was enough to smother me. I watched cautiously as Alice made her way to the door. As she knocked I heard a growl and Emmett bellow from inside the house, "WHAT THE FUCK?"
Instinctively I pulled her behind me.
As I stepped in front of Alice the door opened. Emmett glared at me as if I was encroaching on his territory. The look and feel of complete anger and worry washed over me. I raised a brow at him as I pushed calm all around. I had to keep this under control.
"Calm down now," I hissed as he stood there visibly shaking. "We are here to help."
"Help? What good will you do me?" he growled as the bedroom door opened. I knew it was Bella and my head snapped her direction as her emotions hit me. She fell to her knees in agony. Emmett was at her side before she started to cry hysterically.
As soon as Alice was at her side Bella latched onto her. Holding her close and screaming.
"I... I'm sorry. This is all my fault."
I could feel Emmett's anger building as he stood there, watching the girls. His emotions were running from confusion to anger to worthlessness then back to anger.
"Emmett take her to bed. She needs to sleep. Take her in the bedroom. We will be here when you come out. We do need to talk," Alice said in a whisper to Emmett. Without my acute vampire hearing I would have missed it.
Bella let go of Alice's shirt and looked up at me. I had not moved from my spot at the front door. I didn't want her to think I was going to try and attack her again.
"Bella, don't even think about it. I mean it," Alice hissed.
Bella started to cry again and Emmett picked her up and carried her to the bedroom. I asked Alice what was going on, but she wouldn't tell me. She said it wasn't important and for me not to worry. I trusted her, so I let it go. He stayed in there until she fell asleep. When he came into the living room his emotions were completely different. The feelings of love and contentment were overwhelming.
He fell onto the couch and buried his face in his hands.
What am I missing?
I could smell her before she knocked. My anger was released with a heavy growl, "WHAT THE FUCK?" I flung the door open, glaring at them. My body started to shake as I watched the look in Jasper's eyes.
"Calm down now," Jasper hissed from a slightly crouched position. "We are here to help."
"Help? What good will you do me?" I growled.
What did they want? What if they are here to take her from me? I can't let that happen. I need her, even if she doesn't need me. As long as I keep her here she will be mine. The connection I felt to her was unlike any other. She was mine, I staked my claim.
I was pulled from my thoughts as the bedroom door opened. I knew Bella was curious. Jasper looked to her over at her and as I did and she fell to her knees. I ran to her and watched as she started to cry hysterically. Alice came to her and she hugged her tight.
"I... I'm sorry. This is all my fault."
Bella sat there crying and shaking. There was nothing I could do to help her. Alice looked at me with sorrow in her eyes. It was heart wrenching to watch this. But I was frozen, just watching her.
"Emmett take her to bed. She needs to sleep. Take her in the bedroom. We will be here when you come out. We do need to talk," Alice said. I nodded.
Alice looked back at Bella and hissed. "Bella, don't even think about it. I mean it!"
Bella's tears never quit as I carried her to the bedroom. I held her as she mumbled and cried. She had been through so much. I knew then that I was falling for her hard. She was mine, I couldn't lose her. I laid there. Held her and coddled her. As she started to fall asleep, I leaned in and kissed her cheek and whispered in her ear.
"Don't worry, baby. I will always take care of you. I love you, Bella." I looked down at her angelic face. Her lips were parted slightly and her breathing had become shallow. She was already asleep.
I walked back out to the living room and fell on the couch. I rubbed my face before turning back to Alice and Jasper. My anger grew as I anticipated why they were there. I stood up and moved in front of the fire place, crossed my arms against my chest, and stared at Alice.
"Start talking, Pixie," I growled.
Alice looked at me with anger in her eyes. She jumped to her feet and was in my face, yelling at me.
"Listen to me, dumb ass. You were going to hurt her. Don't act all innocent. I have seen the things you've done to her - the bruises, the marks. She is human, you moron. How dare you act all high and mighty with me? I am not Rose. I will knock you on your ass," she said through dry sobs.
I stood my ground as she started to hit me. Jasper grabbed her and pulled her into his arms. It felt like the world had stopped turning. Could I really hurt Bella? As I replayed the events of the last few weeks, I felt anger, anguish, and loneliness wash over me. My mind and body were betraying me. I felt a surge of anger hit again, thinking of the nonsense Alice was speaking.
"I would never hurt her!" I growled.
I was shaken as I heard Emmett's feral growl. I knew he was talking, but it was unclear as to exactly what he was saying. I moved slowly to the door and peaked out. I really couldn't see anything, so I opened the door completely and stepped out. That is when I saw Alice and Jasper standing there. My heart fell to my stomach. The guilt that I felt was so overwhelming. I couldn't believe it.
At first I thought my mind was playing tricks on me. My body gave out and I went limp. I felt Emmett beside me, but all I could focus on was Alice. She was really there and within my reach. I grabbed her and just cried. All my feelings of loss, anger, and betrayal were gone. I only knew I had her in my arms and I wasn't letting go.
"I... I'm sorry. This is all my fault," I cried out as my fear and sorry made me feel like I was drowning.
Alice was rubbing my back as she held me. I could feel myself fading. My emotions, my body, warn out and in need of peace, if only for a few minutes. As I lay there, I thought of the many things I could do to rid myself of these feelings. I was human and it wouldn't take much to kill me. I could take a razor to my wrists. I could jump off a cliff, like Esme did. I could run out into traffic and get hit by a car. So many possibilities...
"Bella, don't even think about it. I mean it!" Alice said.
I felt the feelings all flood me again and I started to cry once more. Why was this happening to me? I knew they were there to take Emmett from me and I couldn't have that. I needed him. If he left me I would die anyway, painfully and slowly. There were many ways to kill myself and I would do just that. I'd do it so that history couldn't repeat itself once again.
I felt arms wrap around me and then I was in the bed. I was so lost in my own world, I have no idea how long I laid there talking to myself before I saw black. My mind and body literally shutting itself off so I didn't have to deal with this shit now.
That night I dreamed that Emmett told me he loved me. We were happy and normal. In my dream he was real. There were no monsters, nothing to stand in our way. His eyes were the clearest blue I'd ever seen. They contrasted nicely with his dark curls. The sun beat off his tan skin that held a slight blush as we laughed and played. He was pushing me on the swings at Forks Elementary. On my face sat a smile that I, myself, had never seen. Elation would be the closest way to describe the emotions I was feeling.
All too soon the dream ended. I sat straight up, my heart pounded; feelings of joy and happiness still swirled around me. My eyes searched the room. Where was he? My heart plummeted straight to my gut as I realized it wasn't real. Why couldn't it have been real?
My mind wandered to the night before. Alice and Jasper. My hand flew to cover my mouth. I knew they would be taking Emmett and silently questioned if they had already gone. I didn't want to know. I took a few calming breaths, trying to level my heart rate in case they hadn't left. If they were still in the house Jasper could feel my erratic emotions and it wouldn't be long before he tipped someone off. Or finish me off, I thought idly. I sighed. I didn't blame Jasper, but I was angry. How dare he and Alice show up?
With my heart rate back to normal and my breathing less frantic, I laid back down. The last thing I wanted was to deal with anyone and the more asleep I seemed to be, the better. Unless they're gone. Then you're just a fool. Thoughts like that weren't helping my façade. Self loathing and sadness were heavy in the air. You didn't have to be an empath to feel them.
Fifteen minutes later and I couldn't stop stirring. I figured my flawed plan was already a flop and if someone were in the house they already knew I was awake, so I got out of bed and shuffled to the restroom. As I sat on the toilet I tried to clear my mind. How had things spiraled out of control so quickly? I looked around the bathroom and wondered what I could busy myself with. I wasn't ready to face whatever was waiting for me on the other side of the bedroom door. As my eyes hit the shower I noticed my razor. Emmett must have put it there. He must like me shaved… I shook my head of the errant thought and quickly stood up, pulling up my jeans. I leaned over the edge of the tub and grabbed the flimsy piece of pink plastic. I looked at the door. Nothing. Perhaps they aren't here after all.
It took me two seconds to decide. I brought the razor edge to my wrist and tried to cut. I hissed as it scraped my skin. It wasn't deep, just enough to break the skin. I was stupid enough to expect it to work. I tried again and again. Tears streamed down my face at the short piercing pain. Blood finally began to surface. I threw the razor into the shower. The smell of salt and metal assaulted my senses. Bile began to rise in my throat. I was bleeding, but I knew the cuts wouldn't be enough. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Big mistake. Vertigo hit me like a ton of bricks. I was slipping… literally, against the wall of the tub. I heard rummaging outside the door. My eyes flew open to see the handle being turned.
He was there.
And he was pissed.
He stood above me, breathing rapidly. His snarl was lethal, his eyes dark. My last thought before slipping into the darkness was that my razor trick had worked after all.
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