Acceptance

Saki... Can you hear me? Wait, that's a stupid question. No matter where you are (Heaven or Hell), there's no way that my words will reach you. But I still want to talk, to let you know how things are.

Today I cried for the first time since... Well, forever. I can't remember the last time that I stood there and sobbed like a girl (perhaps that's a good thing), but this afternoon the gossips had something else to talk about other than the weather.

You remember Seta-san, don't you? He was there, but he didn't laugh at me. He didn't even bother to comfort me or to tell me that everything was gonna be okay. He just said "Let it out, Naoki-kun," and that's what I did. For the first time in months, I actually felt like I could cry for you.

Tomorrow I'm going to visit Junes - on my own. It's stupid to hate a place because someone you loved used to work there, because she spent all her free time before she died there. Maybe my reason for hating Junes goes deeper than the family store and my aversion to Hanamura. Maybe it's because you were working your ass off every day and not spending time with us. With me.

This is probably the part where I should say 'I love you', and 'I miss you', but I just don't see the point. After all, you can't hear me.

I think I know what I'm gonna buy. At Junes, I mean. I'll eat them both and think of you, and then I'll help Father out in the store. Maybe I'll even help Mother cook dinner... I don't know, maybe that's stretching it a little too far, but I am certain that things will be okay, given a little more time.

Because in the end, that's what we need, right? Time to grieve, to experience each of the stages (I looked that up on the internet too) and then come out knowing we're just that little bit stronger.


A/N: Thanks for reading!