Disclaimer: Looking for Alibrandi doesn't belong to me, it belongs to Melina Marchetta.

A/N: This is a generalized take on Nonna's perspective.

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She comes over every day. And everyday it gets harder and harder to see her. I know she hates me in some ways and blames me about how I treat Christina, but it's just so hard to break the cycle. At times I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror, but I have to live with the decisions I've made. I know it was cruel and mean but it was the only way we could survive. And when after I could stop, I did, but it was too late, she was already far away. Now, I look into Jozzie's eyes and see the same hatred and questions she longs to ask. At times I want to answer her questions, but then I remember I can't, how to I tell her that everything she knows about her grandfather was a lie, that I was forced to treat her (Christina) like that, and when I could treat her better it was too late. How? How do I tell her I know how Christina felt? How?