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"Bella, I'm sorry!" I heard Edward say.
What the hell! Just a second ago he was telling me I was unfaithful and screwing around, and now he's saying 'I'm sorry!?' No.
"No Edward. You're not sorry. You would not be sorry. You won't ever be truly sorry. How CAN you be sorry when you just talked shit to my face?"
He was speechless, good he better be.
"Bella you have to understand that I was completely shocked. How would you feel if you were just told that you have a kid, have had a kid for almost 3 years!?"
"Don't you dare yell at me Edward! You have no right to. Now, my daughter is asleep and you will lower your voice so she can sleep. Move Edward I need to put her to bed." I said starting to get up so I could get Lexx to her room for her nap. I got to her room and laid her down, kissing her cheek. I walked out of room but not without the baby monitor in my hand.
"---come back Edward, she was just getting better and then you had to come back," I heard Alice telling Edward as I walked back into the living room. As I walked in I realized Esme was now sitting there as well. She got up and walked over to me and gave me a tight hug.
"How are you doing sweetheart?" Esme asked me.
"I'm doing fine, Esme," I told her, slightly smiling at her as to confirm I was fine. She nodded at me and then proceeded to sit me down where she had been. I only saw Edward and not his whore of a girlfriend, I wondered where she was.
"Now, Edward, why don't you tell me what damage you have already caused?" Esme started.
"Mom. I didn't do anything! All I saw was Bella with a little girl and I didn't think anything of it! Then the kid called her Mommy. What would you do if you came back and a girl you were once with had a kid?" Edward said, to his defence.
I could only flinch as he said "kid" with so much disgust. And to top it off he didn't even say a girl 'I once loved' or anything like that. He just said a girl I was once with, which hit me hard and straight to the heart.
"Edward, if only you knew so much," Alice said to him, pleading with him.
"No Alice. He can think what he wants. He has fucked up his life, and Bella's. He needs to learn on his own," Rose said. She was pissed. You never mess with a pissed Rosalie.
"What the hell is your problem Rosalie!? How did I fuck up my life and Bella's!?" Edward yelled, probably loud enough to wake Lexx.
"Only time will tell Edward," Rose said, surprisingly calm.
Before I knew it Lexx started crying, thanks to Edward. I got up from where I was sitting and glared as I passed Edward. They were still talking by the time I reached Lexx.
"Hello baby girl, what happened?" Lexx just looked at me with a tear strained face. "Did you wake from the loud noises?" Alexis just nodded at me and put her hands up from me to get her. I reached down to pick her up and she laid her head down on the crook of my neck. I started swaying back and forth, rubbing her back, hoping to get her back to her nap. "I love you Lexx, never forget that."
The door to Lexx's room creaked open, and I looked up with tears in my eyes. There stood Edward, eyes looking down towards the ground. I wonder how he got passed everyone, especially Rose. He finally looked up and noticed my teary eyes, then looked down at Lexx in my arms. He breathed in a big breath and let it out slowly. He gradually walked forward step by step, I'm guessing he was waiting for me to back away or run away. I just looked at him as he walked forward. I could feel Alexis already asleep again on my shoulder.
Before I knew it he was right in front of me, breathing heavily. His lips brushed against my forehead, cheeks and my lips. Alexis started to fuss but with a little shushing she fell back to sleep again.
Edward went back to putting his lips over my face. He placed soft kisses on both sides of my cheeks and then on my forehead. I was completely confused, why was he kissing me? He didn't love me, he certainly didn't want me... Why was he even here? But I couldn't make myself pull away, no matter how hard I tried or how much I wanted to. Edward was kissing me. His smell intoxicated my head, that scent I used to live for. And his lips were soft against my skin, those lips that I hadn't felt for months, years...
Lips that had been over every girl in campus probably, I remembered angrily, but before I could say something, Edward spoke again, "I am so sorry Bella. You do not know how sorry I am." he told me, emotion deep in his voice.
"I am so sorry Bella. You do not know how sorry I am." Edward told Bella.
Rosalie, Esme and myself probably looked pathetic huddled around a baby monitor, but the rest of our lives was going to be decided right now, and thank god for the baby monitor!
"I am too Edward," Bella said. We all gasped and looked at each other. "If you thought I was going to welcome you with open arms then you thought wrong. I did at first," she said and I heard something creak, she must be sitting on Alexis's rocking chair, "I was waiting for you to come back from college, and I was going to tell you about Alexis, we were going to talk about our future, and we would live happily ever after," Bella said, chuckling at the end.
"Bella, I did--," Edward started to say before Bella cut him off.
"Edward. Tell me right now. When you came back were you going to come running to me? Tell me the truth, and I'm a mother now, so I can tell if you're lying."
"Bella," Edward said, sighing, "I-I really don't know if I would have come back to you. I might sound like an ass, but you said to tell you the truth. But...If you would have told me about your kid that is supposedly mine, maybe I would have came back. But you were selfish and kept that information to yourself. Is she even really mine Bella?"
"Oh hell to the fucking no. he does no talk to Bella like that," Rose said, starting to get mad.
"Rosalie, calm down. We shouldn't even be listening in to their private conversation," Esme said.
"Shhhh!" I shushed them.
"Really Edward!? I'm being selfish!? If only you knew. Everyone begged me to tell you, but I decided against it. I thought I would be a nice girlfriend and let you have the best experience at college as you possibly could, without worry of a child back home, or other responsibilities here." Bella said, and by the tone of her voice, she was infuriated.
"How would keeping from me that I have a child be for my benefit?"
"I'm sorry Edward if my choices aren't good enough for you, but that was my choice and I guess you will never see my perspective of this situation."
"No Bella. Tell me right now. Why did you do it?"
"I already told you Edward! I didn't want you to worry, so I thought I would be the best girlfriend anyone could have and try to hold all the responsibilities in a relationship, but I guess not," Bella said, her voice faltering
"God dammit Edward don't make her cry," I whispered.
"I-I-I- was just trying to do a good thing for once in my life. I failed my family by getting pregnant at a young age, and so I thought I could show some responsibilities for my actions, but I'm in trouble for that too," Bella said, and her voice sounded like she was crying. "Now if you'll excuse me Edward."
Before we knew it Bella was in the living room where we were on the ground, with the baby monitor in the middle. She just lightly giggled at us for our immaturity and went into the bathroom to compose herself.
We just all looked at each other.
"Alright you and Rosalie go help Bella and make sure she doesn't do anything to harm herself, and please remember she is only 17 years old. We all sometimes forget about that because she is so mature for her age, but if she needs to cry just let her cry, just comfort her," Esme told us.
"Are you going to take care of Edward?" Rose asked.
"Yes, and try to knock some sense into him."
"Okay, Rose lets go," I said and we were off to find Bella.
We found Bella bent down, balancing on the tip of her toes with her elbows on her knees and her head in her hands on the bathroom floor. She has tissues in her hands and was trying not to cry, but it wasn't working. I went over to her and went down in the same position but instead I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and leaned my head against hers. Rose just sat down, her legs in front of her and leaned against the tub.
"How are you doing sweetie?" Rose started off.
"I-I'm doing fine." Bella said, her voice shaking.
"Bella, you're not fine. We all know you're not fine, so don't try to hide it. Just talk to us," I said to Bella as I rubbed her back. She took a deep breath and divulged into her feelings, and she went deep down.
I know, I know, I took forever to put this up, but I'm in my last few weeks of 8th grade and I need to keep my GPA high, and my mom doesn't know that I write for fanfiction, so haha yeaa.
Anyways, Thank you sooo much to my beta TheOneAndOnlyBellaCullen for bearing with me, haha,
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