Out of Reach


You falter, because that scream that voice that name (Sasuke-kun Sasuke-kun Sasuke-kun, that's not who you are anymore, who are you anymore?) don't belong here, not now, not ever again. You're severing a bond, just another bond, and what is Sakura doing here?

You think that you should feel something at the sight of her (eyes wide hair wild face pale), pleasure or surprise or irritation or wariness. But there's nothing. You narrow your eyes, because that's your response to most everything these days.

"… Sakura."

You remember, back at the Sound base, when you'd seen her again after all those years, that there had been a certain delicate familiarity in saying her name, accompanied by a stirring in your chest and a dim memory of a girl who looked at you like you were the world.

Now it's just a string of syllables, Sa-ku-ra, flat and foreign and meaningless.

"What do you want with me?"

She's staring at you (from across an impossible distance, across time and abandonment and betrayal and paths that split when bonds were broken), staring at you like you're a stranger.

And you are, because she doesn't know you, doesn't know the thing that sleeps in your chest, dark and sick and angry, the thing that eats away at you from the inside out, sucks everything you ever loved and remembered into a hole and spits it back at you as a reason to hate hate hate keep going keep killing this is your path you're not done yet you'll never be done.

She doesn't recognize you or your madness.

And there's still a tiny part of you that's sane enough to be glad about that.

God, I could really go for some waffles.

And - yeah, yeah, here I am again, with another stupid little drabble that says nothing and accomplishes nothing but dammit, that's the beauty of it. Why does writing depressing stuff make me hopeful and happy? Whatever. The Sasuke/Sakura reunion has stirred my interest in Naruto once again. -shrugs- Who knows how long I'll stick around. Don't get me wrong, though, I love you guys, I really do. I just suck at showing it.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.