Finding Innerhappiness

A/N: another story from moi. so my first sailor moon story. Now a few things first...

I am going to use their names from the english dub ( after researching sailor moon on Imdb I found out that Serena's last name was Campbell)

I hope for some more reviews after finding that my other story 'Bella the St. Trinian' and my one shot 'Do You Know The Way It Feels' didn't get much response so the more reviews the more chapters. sorry to be harsh.

This story takes place after the episode where Darien dumps Serena so I hope it's good.

Chapter 1: A Reminder Of Us.

I woke up disoriented and confused. hmm 6.30am i'm up early for once. maybe that's what heartbreak does to you. it makes you feel empty. No I must not dwell on this... I can't. It's only been a week! That's right a week. A week Since he broke up with me. If it wasn't for my duty as Sailor Moon, I would have probably caved and left town days ago, because no matter where I go he's always there.

Ah shit. i've been wallowing in my self pity without realising that i'm late for another meeting at the temple. The girls are gonna have hissy fits for sure. I ran out the door and turned the corner and who should I find... I find him getting on his motorbike with a girl. who is she? I've never seen her before. Ugh I need to get out of here before he sees me... Too Late. He takes one look at me, then takes the girl by the hand and goes for a ride on his motorbike. Realising that I'm even more late than I usually am, I sprint to the temple, where I find my four friends looking extremely pissed; que the 'your useless comments'.

Rei- " WTF MEATBALL HEAD??? This is beyond late, even for you ! I have had enough of this! time and time again you let us down with your lateness and uselessness. Anyway the reason for this meeting is simple, me and the scouts feel that we would work better without you around; so we would like you to hand over your communicator, transformation crystal, disguise pen and your off the team!"

"What!!!" I shouted. "why??"

Amy- "Serena, please see it in our point of view, In some ways more than others, your weaker than most of us, heck all of us! I'm sorry it has come to this, but we see that there is no other way but for you to leave the team".

I showed no emotion. I didn't even shed a tear. I just rummaged through my bag got out all the items they requested and turned to walk away. Before I walked out the door, I whispered "I'm sorry you guys. I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment". With these sudden turn of events I had a realisation that hit me hard; They didn't need me anymore. None of them did. I was free. Free of being Sailor Moon, but all I needed to do next was be free of Darien.

I rushed home to find my mom in the kitchen doing the ironing."Mom, can I ask you something?" I hesitated. " I didn't wait for her to answer "Mom, I wanna live with Aunt Rachel". Aunt Rachel lived in Astoria, America, she had no kids of her own but always said if i wanted to live the american life, feel free to visit. Mom put her iron down and walked over to me " has something happened serena? you haven't been yourself lately" I wanted to tell her. I wanted to tell her everything, but I couldn't so once again, I lied "Mom, it's not you okay, I just want a change of scenery and I think living with Aunt Rachel would be good. She all alone in America.... I could keep her company." Wow! This lie was so good that I even believed it myself. Mom looked at me warily, " when do you want to go honey?"

YES! Mission complete! I am leaving this town and everyone in it. Even though I would miss my family, I would still be able to see them. Mom made me swear that I would visit during spring break for at least three weeks, so that wouldn't be too bad. As long as I don't bump into any of them. No Serena ! Forget it. this time saturday, you will be in america. It was the night before I head to astoria and I was just finishing my packing up when Taylor Swift's "Fifteen" came on to the radio. I don't know what but this song had me reminiscing... about things I shouldn't be thinking.

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
You say "hi" to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
You know I haven't seen you around,

I was remembering us. All the scouts together, hanging out at crown arcade drinking milkshakes and talking about random idol gossip that took our minds off of missions... Darien and me becoming a couple...

'Coz when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're ..
Fifteen feeling like there nothing to figure out
well count to ten, take it in
this is life before who you're gonna be

Me and him having our first kiss. How right it felt. No! I have to stop doing this to myself... Why do I keep doing this to myself?

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
Well be out of here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date and hes got a car
And youre feeling like flying
And you're mommas waiting up and you think hes the one
and youre dancing round your room when the night end
When the night ends
Doesn't it hurt enough as it is. I did nothing but be myself and they hurt me. They all hurt me... He hurt me!

Coz when youre fifteen and somebody tell you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin round
but in your life you'll do greater than dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

I always imagined us being together forever, getting married, the whole nine yards! but I guess I was wrong...

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
who changed his mind
and we both cried

Coz when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found that time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be

I do have a bigger dream now... and I'm gonna live it, I'm gonna go to America and make something of myself. Something that doesn't involve the sailor scouts or Darien or any of that world. From now on... I'm gonna do something for me!

La la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la you're very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through those doors

Today's the day I go away, and start a new life on my own. Well technically I won't be on my own because of aunt rachel, but hypothetically, it will be my first day without Darien. Before I left, I asked my parents not to tell anyone where I had gone particularly THEM! So when i stepped off the plane in Oregon (A/N: I have no idea about airports so bear wiv me) I smiled for the first time in what seemed like forever.

Amy's POV

I can't believe we agreed with Rae, how could we??? Serena had helped me with so much and I had repayed her with the ultimate betrayl of abandoning her! I shouldn't be her friend. So here I was going against the scouts wishes and apologising to Serena. That's the least she deserved. I knocked on her door and it seemed unusually quiet. The door opened and her mother stepped out "Oh hello amy dear, how can I help you?" she looked upset but I had to ask " Is serena in? I'd like to speak to her" I saw the tears welling up in her eyes... has something happened? " Oh amy dear i'm sorry but Serena has gone away for a while and is finishing her education abroad". My mind was already in a tailspin. How could she just leave? Where is she? How is she? No doubt that she left because of us, because of everything that's happened. I regained my focus "Do you know where???" I asked, it was then her mother flinched " I'm sorry amy, serena has asked me to keep her location a secret for now, she said she wants time alone" and with that she shut the door. Now what do we do? With serena gone, none of the other scouts will give a damn, especially rae, but i know who would, so i ran out of serena's drive and headed to the one person I knew who would help me; Darien.

A/N: did u like it??? plz just leave a review and tell me what u thought!