This little oeuvre was born from my deep and abiding love for Marvel, too much Tobey Maguire and Jet's fantastic song 'Hold On'. I hope you enjoy it.


Captivated

'Everybody needs a hero – people line up for them, cheer for them, scream their names and years later they'll tell how they stood in the rain for hours, just to get a glimpse of the one who taught them to hold on a second longer.'
– May Parker, Spider-Man 2

'I am vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed

But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself.'

– Vindicated, Dashboard Confessional.

Underneath it all, we all want the same thing: we want a hero. We want Bruce Wayne, or Peter Parker – we want someone to make us marvel at miracles and to catch us when we fall. We want that magic that dwells in greyness, the flash of red in the sky; we want to believe that if one good person knows how to save a life, then we'll know how to do it too.

In reality, it goes even deeper than that. We don't just want to see it, we want to be it: the one who'll always be taken because we're the one who'll hurt the most, the driving force behind the epic deeds. We want to be the one he would kick and scream and die for, because what we want is to be the reason – the be-all and end-all of absolutely everything.

This is what Blair Waldorf is to Chuck Bass: she is everything. She is the woman who helps him on with his mask in the morning and reminds him of who he really is at night. She is Rachel Dawes, Mary Jane Watson, Lois Lane – she is utter redemption. Without her, he has no power – no glory – no friends. Without her, he can no longer be a hero.

And sure, the black hat sometimes fits better than the white one. Sure, sometimes he feels like giving up and breaking down and just buckling beneath the pressure. Sure, sometimes the world crashes down and he's left among the flames but sure enough, there she is, every time – picking her way through the rubble with her stiletto heels in one hand and her heart in the other.

She believes in him, and with that?

He can do anything.

Fin.