Host of Apophis

by Layton Colt

Authors Notes: I don't think I have the official timeline quite correct, so like I said before I just started watching Stargate and need you to bare with me. The hammer has been repaired by Thor but Sam has never been taken as a host by Jolinar, I know that In The Line Of Duty was actually before the hammer was repaired and I was going to have Sam help Daniel through a shared experience but I don't know enough about Jolinar to attempt it, I've never seen the episode.

He wasn't sure where he was, for one horrifying moment he hadn't even been sure *who* he was.

And then the memories… they all came rushing back.

Sounds and sensations that weren't really his own.

It was like watching some terrifying movie replay over and over in his mind.

Jack and Sam had almost died. *He'd* almost killed them. No, Apophis had almost killed them. Thank god he'd convinced him they'd suffer more if he sent them back through the gate.

Where were Jack and Sam? And Teal'c. They'd come for him, he remembered. He remembered seeing his beautiful Sha'ure negotiating his release with a cold voice and that irrelevant manor that was so unlike his warm and passionate wife.

Apophis was dead now, wasn't he? He had control of his own body now. Though he could still hear his voice.

No, not Apophis's voice. With a sick realization Daniel understood it was the voices of Apophis's former hosts that he was hearing.

It's strange, hearing screams that you know are only echoes of some distant memory.

Screams so like his own as Apophis mercilessly burrowed into him, so like Apophis screams as he realized he'd been deceived… that the hammer was functioning perfectly…

Daniel grabbed his head trying to block out the tormented cries. He felt the scar at the back of his neck and pulled his hands away as though it burned.

Where was he? Cimmera. He looked around, he could see the sunlight streaming into the cavern, beckoning to him. Pulling himself up onto shaky legs he moved towards the glow, and prayed he remembered the way back to the Stargate.

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Jack and Sam nearly ran into each other as they headed to the General's office from their respective quarters.

They had been checked out by Janet who had assured them they had fully recovered from their 'Post Traumatic Stress' and actually slept through the night. Now they were hoping to get back to Cimmera.

"Come in," the General said as Jack knocked.

The two officers entered, "Sir, permission to--" Jack started.

"Granted," Hammond interrupted with a smile in his eyes. "Bring him home, Colonel."

Jack smiled widely, and Sam gave a small smile of her own. "Will do," Jack said smartly.

Jack and Carter quickly geared up and made their way to the embarkation room, "How do you think Daniel is going to handle this, sir?"

Jack sighed, "I've got no idea, but we'll get him through it."

Sam nodded, determination shining in her blue eyes. They hadn't gone to all the trouble of saving Daniel to lose him to the nightmares that were sure to follow his freedom from Apophis.

The wormhole was established and Jack let out a shaky sigh, "Let's go, Captain."

"Yes, sir."

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"Your friends have not yet returned?" Kendra asked of Teal'c softly.

"No, they have not."

"They will come as soon as they can," the former host said. "They care for Daniel very much."

Teal'c nodded, "Yes, DanielJackson means a great deal to us all."

Kendra smiled, "He is a very passionate individual, and he has much love for his lost wife. He had wished to understand her torment…" she continued ruefully. "It is regrettable he had to learn of it this way."

"Indeed," Teal'c agreed. "DanielJackson is one of the strongest humans I have yet met but he has a gentle soul and it has endured too much."

"But it has endured," Kendra continued. "As Daniel will continue to endure. He can not afford to give in to the darkness that is sure to hover. He still has his wife to find, he has his friends who care more than he has yet realized… yes… I am sure that Daniel will be fine."

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Daniel was sure he could hear voices, but whether they were ghosts from the past of flesh and blood he couldn't be sure. He couldn't separate them.

For one fleeting moment he almost wished to be Apophis host again, to have just that one voice to deal with, and a purpose and a focus.

Now all his thoughts were jumbled, unorganized. He couldn't isolate any one of the voices calling to him.

He felt different. He was sure that he would never again be the same.

It would be so easy to give up and just fall to his knees on the green grass, to stop driving himself further towards a destination he couldn't even be sure he'd reach.

But he knew he couldn't stop.

Because Sha'ure was out there, still suffering the same fate he had shared with her so briefly.

It had been a bitter sweet reunion, holding his wife but knowing it was really Amonet and that he was… Apophis.

He was getting side tracked again, he had to keep going he had to find help so that he could continue his search for Sha'ure.

If nothing else at least he knew that Apophis couldn't hurt her any longer couldn't control her ever again. Couldn't hurt anyone.

Because he was dead. He had to be dead.

But his skin would still crawl when he thought about him being inside him. Still inside him.

There were the voices again… these voices sounded different… they sounded real…

"I'm sure that Daniel will be fine…"

Daniel… that was him. Wasn't it? Yes, yes of course. He was Daniel. Apophis was dead.

"Yes, he will be fine. We will not allow him to be anything else."

Teal'c? "Teal'c?" his voice sounded hoarse but he took satisfaction in the fact that it was his own. "Teal'c!" he said again, louder.

Teal'c looked up at the quiet cry, "DanielJackson!" he called uncertainly. Looking up into the trees he saw his friend and he smiled for the first time in days.

The smile faded as he took in the young man's appearance. He looked like he hadn't slept in days, his eyes were bloodshot and he appeared to be having trouble walking.

Teal'c rushed to his side and caught him just as his knees buckled, no longer able to support him.

"DanielJackson!" Teal'c said in alarm.

Daniel tried to answer him, tried to tell him that he was fine even though he knew he wasn't but blackness was creeping into his vision and he wasn't able to stop his eyes from rolling back into his head.

Teal'c felt Daniel go limp in his arms and he saw Kendra approach.

"He will be fine now," she said. "The demon within him no longer lives. Bring him here," she told him.

Teal'c picked Daniel up and followed Kendra into her cottage and placed Daniel on the bed. "I need to get him back to the SGC," he told her.

"You may in a moment, but I need to do something first,"

Teal'c saw her pull out the healing device and looked at her strangely, "What are you doing?"

"I am removing the scar," she told him simply.

"Perhaps DanielJackson would not wish it removed."

Kendra gave a small knowing smile, "I can assure you, it will not be missed. It would only serve as a reminder of a time best forgotten. Please, I wish to do this for him. I do not want Apophis to keep his mark on Daniel for all time."

Teal'c nodded slowly and Kendra set to work. The last of the small gray scar had just faded when Teal'c felt a tremor beneath his feet. A tell tale sign that the gate had been activated.

"Your friends have returned." Kendra said as she put away the healing device. "You have to return now, tell Daniel that it will get better… the voices will fade and he will again be himself… tell him it just takes time and the support of good friends."

Teal'c nodded and picked Daniel up in his strong arms again, "I will tell him," he promised.

Kendra stood in her doorway watching Teal'c disappear into the distance caring his precious burden and knew with absolute certainty that Daniel Jackson would indeed be fine.

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Jack O'Neill stepped out on to Cimmera fully expecting to have his hearts unrealistic hopes shattered but only moments after he and Carter had started over the hill to Kendra's cottage he saw Teal'c in the distance.

Did he dare believe that was Daniel Teal'c was carrying so gently? He was running before he even answered the question and he could hear that Carter was right on his heels.

Teal'c was smiling, it looked kind of awkward but he took that as a good sign.

"Jesus, Danny," Jack whispered as he got close enough to see the young archeologist.

"Is Apophis dead?" Sam asked quickly.

Teal'c nodded, "My symbiot is quiet. Apophis no longer lives."

Sam smiled and let out a breath of relief, "How is he?" she asked as she grabbed Daniel's limp hand. Needing the contact to reassure herself.

She didn't even notice the Colonel had a death grip on Daniel's arm. He apparently needed the contact too.

"Carter," O'Neill said. "Get back and dial home,"

"Yes, sir," Sam smiled as she darted back the way they had just come. She didn't particularly want to let Daniel out of her sight but she knew right now she had to focus on getting him home.

Sam had just sent the GDO code through when she saw the rest of her team making their way towards her. Daniel was still out cold and part of her was grateful. It would be better if he didn't wake until he was home. Safe in the infirmary where they'd be better suited to deal with what had happened.

Teal'c and Daniel were the first to go through followed by Carter and Jack. Jack could here the clapping before he even fully materialized on the other side.

He could see Feretti at the bottom of the gate, out of breath. He'd obviously run all the way here when he'd heard there was gate activation. Jack smiled he wondered if Daniel knew how many friends he had made.

"How is he?" Feretti asked anxiously. A far cry from the know-it-all soldier that had picked on the hapless linguist that first mission on Abydos.

Jack smiled wider, he guessed that Daniel had a lot to do with that change. Daniel had a tendency to do that, to bounce up to hardened soldiers and catch them completely off guard. "He's going to be fine," Jack said with certainty.

Janet rushed in, "I'll be the judge of that, Colonel. If you don't mind."

"Of course not, Doc you're the Doc,"

Janet gave him a 'look' and motioned for Teal'c to place Daniel on the stretcher. "I don't see an entry wound," she said.

"Kendra had it removed," Teal'c informed her and Sam and Jack looked at Teal'c in surprise.

Janet nodded absentmindedly, "Let's give him an MRI to be sure," she said, as followed the orderlies who were wheeling Daniel from the room.

"I knew you'd get him back, Colonel," Ferreti said as he joined the three SG-1 members on the ramp.

"I wish I could have been as sure," Jack said quietly.

"You should have been, I've decided that the kid just can't die," Ferreti said with a smile.

"For long anyway," Jack added returning the smile with a smirk.

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Jack sighed with relief as he watched Daniel sleep. The MRI had proved with absolute finality that Apophis was dead. The symbiote had already begun to break up within his system.

He'd sent Carter to get some rest, and had to order Teal'c to go to his quarters for some Kel-no-rem time.

'Just you and me Danny, though you're not being very good company…'

Had it really only been two days? Well, almost three now.

Daniel would be fine. Janet had said, Teal'c had said it, Carter, Feretti, hell, even he had said it.

But he'd yet to hear it from the one person who could really know.

Come on kid, wake up…

He had to hear from Daniel that he would be fine. That he could get through this too.


A smile spread across Jack's face at his name, "Hey, how ya doin?"

Daniel smiled back, all be it a weak smile and Jack's spirits soared. "Oh, just peachy," he quipped.

The smile got impossibly wider, "I'm beginning to think I'm a bad influence on you…"

Daniel's eyes were closing again, "Probably but I think it's worth it."

"Are you going to be fine Daniel?"

Daniel didn't miss the pleading note in his friend's voice, forcing his eyes back open he looked Jack in the eye, "I have their memories Jack, all of his former hosts, all of his memories…"

Jack looked down the at the floor, that was just great, as though Daniel didn't have enough things of his own to haunt his sleep. Now he got to share in nightmares of the dead.

"But yes, I'll be fine,"

Daniel had said it with such quiet determination that Jack forced himself to look up again. "I'm more determined than ever to keep fighting this fight, Jack. I need to rescue Sha'ure… what I went through… she's still going through it."

"We'll get her back, Daniel."

"I know."

"But you're going to be fine?"

"I'm going to be fine, it will probably take awhile but I can't afford to be anything but 'fine'."

"Sam and Teal'c will be mad at me for keeping you to myself, I should go get them…"

Daniel smiled ruefully, "I don't think I'll be able to stay awake that long, Jack I just want to say thank you…"

"For what?"

"For rescuing me."

"You rescued yourself, Daniel. I didn't do hardly anything."

Daniel snorted, "You know that isn't true…"

"I only gave you an out, Daniel. You were the one who found the courage to take it. You somehow got Apophis to go through the hammer."

"It wasn't hard, I just had to pretend to be what he already thought I was… a slave concerned only with myself."

Jack nodded, "Why don't you get to sleep, we'll talk about this in the morning… and I assure you we *will* be talking about this. No shutting us out, alright?"

Daniel nodded, already half way asleep. "We will get Sha'ure back, Jack."

"Yes, I know."

"And I will be fine."

"Never doubted it."

The corner of Daniel's mouth twitched, "And Jack,"


"Something of the host does survive."

The End! Finally!

Think things are kind of unresolved? Tough. I have Indiana Daniel and a million other stories already in the works so the sequel won't be written for a long time. It's going to be it's own story but I'm going to talk about how Daniel coped and about the things that come from being a host.