Disclaimer: I DO NOT own any of the characters or the TV show.
*Also I might make mistakes and such, but really I'm just writing this cause I don't like waiting a week for more LUX!!!
**Written from either LUX/CATE/or BAZE's point of view. It's mostly going to be CATE/BAZE/LUX trying to build their relationships to become a family.
"Lux? Come on kiddo let me explain!" Baze continues to yell through the closed attic door.
"Can you just go away? I want to be alone right now!" I just couldn't deal with this, not yet.
"Ugh… Fine, but I'm waiting downstairs 'til you come down!"
I didn't answer him, and heard him walk away. Earlier today I walked into Baze's loft and overheard him talking to someone on the phone about our whole "situation." He once again brought up the fact that he thought Cate "took care of it." I know I heard him say that before, but I guess I was just hoping, now that I got to know him a little, he would never bring it up again! I get that they were my age, but I don't know, it hurts a little knowing Cate may have considered aborting me. I probably should go talk to both of them about this, but maybe it's too soon. I don't know really! Is there a timeline on this kinda thing?
I can't get Lux to talk to me, so I wander into the family room and sit down on the couch next to Cate. She is giving me a weird kind of smirk. I know she is happy that Lux is mad at me finally and not her.
"So where's Ryan?" I ask sarcastically.
"O no, no, no! Don't try and pretend nothing happened! What did you do to Lux? You two never fight?"
"I was having a conversation with my mom… about Lux. She was asking me questions… why I didn't tell her and stuff. Then she asked me about the adoption, and I told her I thought you `took care of it`. And well that's when Lux walked in!" Cate was just staring at me so I continued. "I mean that's what you told me you were going to do Cate! So that was the last I knew about the baby! I was just telling mom the truth! … But Cate, umm, well I'm glad you didn't' do it." I looked at Cate who had tears in her eyes, and waited for a reply.
"Me too, I'm glad. I know Lux and I fight A LOT, but I really love her and…" Cate put her hand over her mouth and just shook her head like she didn't know what else to say.
We sat on the couch in silence for what seemed like a long time, until finally Lux emerged from the attic.
"I'm still not talking to you!" She headed to the kitchen to get a drink, and Cate and I followed her.
"That's fine, but I am going to talk to you. 'Cause you HAVE to know Lux that I'm GLAD Cate decided to have you." I wait for an answer, but Lux just pauses and heads toward the attic.
"Wait Lux," Cate shouts. "Baze is right we really should all sit and talk about this… just get it out and deal with it now!"
"Okay let's talk… about the fact that you two wanted to get rid of me!" Lux shouts back at us. "Baze wanted you to abort me and you Cate… well I don't know what you wanted! I mean obviously you didn't abort me, but you still got rid of me!"
"Yes because I was 16!! 16 Lux! I was scared and I didn't know what to do!"
"And I was an idiot jock. I only thought about myself, and my future as a quarterback at the time." I didn't know what else to say to her. I figured honesty was the way to go here.
"Yeah I understand you were both young, in high school, and had grades, football whatever else on your mind… I don't know though there had to be a better option. What about your parents Baze? They could have helped!" Lux looked at me with questioning eyes.
"Maybe, but I was a coward. A kid would have been a commitment. And you've met my dad… at the time I was just worried about how pissed he would be!"
"…uhh…" Lux looked away, I could see she was about to cry. "I guess I see what you're saying. It's just that… when I hear you talk about stuff like getting rid of me, or never even considering keeping me I just…" Lux was crying now.
"Lux please talk to us. We want to know how you're feeling." Cate says as she walks over to Lux, who is still leaning against the attic ladder, and puts her hand on her shoulder.
"Even if you think we can't take it! Just lay it on us!" I add.
"Fine… When I hear you, you know say stuff like that, I think about all the times that I had wished I wasn't alive. You don't know how many times I wished that my birth mom HAD just gotten rid of me!" Lux looked at each of us.
"Lux…" I said trying to calm her down a little.
"NO… you want me to talk so I'm doing the talking!" Lux yelled at us. "I lived with 7 different foster families, and not one of them offered me a good home! I mean sure I had a bed to sleep in and a roof over my head, but no one ever LOVED me! No one ever cared enough to find out where I was going or how I was doing in school! I've been abused mentally, physically, you name it! So don't `Lux` me when I tell you that there were times I wished I hadn't been born." Lux looked at both of us and you could tell from the look in her eyes that she could see our concern, but she continued, her voice a little softer now. "Look... What's happened is over and nothing can change the outcome, but you both HAVE to know that every time I look at you I think about what could have been, and how different my life would have been…"
"I went to the abortion clinic." Cate blurted out. "I was going to do it, but on my way there I kept seeing signs about abortion and there were pictures of babies. So when I got to the clinic, I had this image in my mind of you and what you might look like. Did you have toes, or a tiny little face? I ran out of there. I just couldn't do it! Then my mom helped me through the whole adoption process. You have to know that I really thought it was the right thing to do. The social worker promised that there were a lot of people out there looking for babies and that you would easily be placed! I didn't know… I honestly didn't know you weren't placed!"
"I believe you Cate, really I do." Lux said sincerely as she turned to give her a hug.
"And Lux maybe at the time I thought the best decision was to… well you know… BUT PLEASE know that I am SOO GLAD that Cate decided to have you! I've only known you a few weeks kiddo, but it feels like a lifetime! I mean we have a bond, and Lux I think I speak for both of us here… we love you already. Like it or not you're stuck with us now!" I can't take my eyes off of my daughter as she wipes the tears from her eyes and gives me a shy smile before giving me a hug. It's the first time she ever hugged me and I'm completely overwhelmed with emotion!
"I love you both too. And I'm glad we talked about this! I do want this to work out. Us being a family and all!"
"I want that too." Cate said and smiled at Lux and I.
More to come later if people like this. I have more ideas in mind that can keep this story going. There are lots of issues and cool things to expore with Lux and her parents!