I was standing in the backyard with Jake Jr when I felt the Earth shift. Standing before me was the ghost of the only man that could make my knees weak. How was this possible? They said they found his body? I was there when they handed me the American flag at his funeral. How is it that five years later the man I thought I had lost was standing in front of me looking as beautiful as he did the day he left for Iraq. Jacob Black, my husband, the love of my life had come back from the dead. "Mommy who is that man?" Jake Jr. asked me. Jacob's eyes shifted from me to the russet tow headed little boy standing behind me. That was all I remembered as the world turned to black.
5 years earlier
It was the week after Christmas and I watched him as he packed that horrible ugly green duffle bag. My husband Jacob Black is a navy seal. His dream when he was younger was always to serve his country and now he was going on his first deployment to Iraq, flying out tomorrow morning. knew he had to go, but I am not going to tell you that I was tempted to hit him with my car and break his legs so he couldn't go. Yes, I was being selfish, but I was scared. Then the tears came.
"Bella, baby I am going to be fine. I know a year is a long time, but I promise I will email you as much as I can. I will come home finish my enlistment, get out and we will start the family we want so much. Please honey, this is hard enough."
"I know Jacob, but I am going to miss you so much."
"I am gonna miss you like crazy too Bells."
He walked over to me from his side of the bed, placed his hands on my cheeks and kissed me. He pulled his head away, looked deep within my eyes and kissed me again. He licked my bottom lip asking for entrance which of course I gave him. He removed his hands from my face and started unbuttoning my shirt slowly and pushing it down my shoulders. He unhooked my bra as he brushed kisses down my neck and to my collarbone. I placed my hands on his bare chest and stroked his nipples as he hissed through his teeth. He got on his knees and took one of nipples in his mouth as he stroked my center. "Ugh Jake" I moaned and threw my head back.
He slowly and painfully licked down my stomach to the top of my slit and licked my clit. Jake was the only man that has ever made me cum multiple times in one night. He slipped one finger in me and I moaned in ecstasy. He licked me a few more times and I screamed his name as I came.
He rose back up my body from his kneeling position and picked me up so as I wrapped my legs around his waist. He pushed me back against the wall and entered me slowly. "Jake I need more! Please!" In that instant everything changed. Jake went from making slow love to me to pounding in and out of me while he pressed my back harder against our bedroom wall. He wasn't usually this rough, but this was the last time we would make love for a year. He was putting everything he had into this and I was loving every minute. I wrapped my arms around his neck for leverage and rode him hard till he screamed my name coming inside of me with such a force it brought tears to my eyes. Tomorrow night I would be sleeping this bedroom alone.
I got dressed and went down to start dinner as Jacob finished packing. It wasn't till I was putting dinner on the table did I realize we didn't use protection. I didn't say anything to Jake. He didn't need to worry about me possibly being unexpectedly pregnant while he was gone. Either he didn't think about it or he didn't want me to worry about it either.
The next morning I moped around the house as he got some last minute things together before we left for the airport. He got special permission to fly out commercial after everyone else left so we could spend a few extra days together. We drove to the airport in comfortable silence, glancing at each other lovingly every few minutes.
The moment of dread was finally upon us. Jake had checked his baggage and I had gone as far as I could with him to the security check point before the gates.
He sat me down on the bench and knelt before me.
"Isabella Black, I want you to remember this forever. I am madly in love with you. You are the sole reason I get up every morning. I breathe for you. I am going to miss you terribly, but I will always be with you. Before you know it, you will be driving to the base to pick me up. I love you honey and I promise I will come back."
Tears rolled down both of our cheeks as he stood back up and took my hand to walk towards the security check point.
"I love you Jacob Black. You come home to me."
He kissed me before walking through the gate and turned around after he got on the other side. He blew me a kiss, put his hand over his heart, and yelled to me. "I promise you I will return."
The first few weeks are always the hardest till I get into a routine. I got an email from Jake when he got to Iraq. He said it was hot over there and awful, but that he was ok.
I got emails from Jake every week for three months and then they just stopped.
I went to the doctor today and found out I was three months pregnant. I kinda already knew cause I have been so tired and sick lately. It has been two months since I have heard from Jake and it was driving me insane. I talked to his dad and he said he hadn't heard from him either. I was really starting to get worried, but just told myself he couldn't email me right now and I would hear from him soon.
Billy and my dad were over for dinner the week before Independence day. We were talking about Jake and the baby that was coming. They were both so happy to be grandparents and I couldn't wait to hear from Jake again so I could tell him he was going to be a daddy. I know we hadn't planned this, but any little one that had any part of his daddy in him was going to be amazing.
I was just about to serve desert when the doorbell rang. I opened the door and my heart broke at the sight before me. Standing before were two officers standing in their dress whites. They didn't have to say anything, I knew why they were here. Jacob was dead.
"Mrs. Black, I am Captain Smithers and this is Lt. Carson. Can we come in please?"
I couldn't say anything I just stood there and opened the door.
"Bella, honey?" Billy called. He rolled out into the living room in his wheelchair and all I remember was him saying "No not my son"
They had explained that his unit had fallen under attack. They were sure they had become POWs, but they were still searching. Last week they had found Jacob's unit. Captain Smithers said that his body was burned beyond recognition but that his dog tags were near his body and that is how they were able to identify it was him. I dropped to the floor and didn't resurface until the funeral a week later.
The ceremony was beautiful. Rachel and Rebecca flew in and said a few words about Jacob, as did Embry and Quil, his lifelong best friends. They folded up the American flag and handed it to me as I cried for my lost love. My child would never meet his father and know the great man he was, but I would sure to tell him. If it hadn't been for the fact that I was pregnant I don't think I would have survived. I was barely a shell of myself, but lived to bring the last part I had remaining of him into the world on September 10th, 2010. Jacob Daniel Black was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. He was a spitting image of his father and was the joy that kept me going everyday.
A/N I want to thank by beta Enchantressinblack. She keeps me sane!!