AN: Hey :) Thanks to everyone who is still reading this. This chapter has more book stuff in it and I've used a few lines from the book too. I had orignially thought about continuing following the movie plot but I had a review last chapter from dekutree64 who suggested using the meadow scene from the book. I reread the chapter and watched the video on Youtube that s/he suggested (search 'twilight meadow FurubaForeva01') and decided that I would base it more on that. I'm still not sure it's all that good but there's a little bit I think you guys'll like ;) Enjoy x
Chapter Seven: Confessions
I watched as people walked past me. Loads of people. But I was only looking for one; one with short spiky hair and golden eyes. There she was. She walked into my line of vision and we both stared at each other for a few short seconds before I walked towards her, past her and then towards the forest on the edge of the school grounds. I knew she would follow me.
I walked until I thought we were far enough in that if anyone were following they'd give up before they reached us. I dropped my bag down and walked a little further into the clearing.
"You're psychic," I stated, "So you'll already know what I'm going to say but I'm gonna say it anyway, I need to say it." I took a deep breath before continuing, "You're impossibly fast, and strong. Your skin is pale white and ice cold. Your eyes change colour and sometimes you speak as if you're from different time. You never eat or drink anything. You don't go out in the sunlight. I know what you are," I paused and I felt Alice step so close to me that I could feel her cool breath on my neck, "Vampire,"
"Yes," she said almost shyly and I turned to face her. Her golden eyes were burning into mine with such intensity it caused me to take half a step back, "I'm not going to hurt you Bella,"
"I know," I breathed, my breath coming out in clouds of steam. It was chilly here, even with my coat on.
"Come with me?" she asked holding out her hand. "I promise I won't bite," she added, smirking. I took her hand and she led me further into the woods. We only walked for a few minutes before she stopped. "I can get us there quicker if I … uh if I carry you. May I?" she asked quietly. I nodded, unable to form words. She bent slowly, as if not to frighten me, and lifted me so she had an arm under my knees and another under my arms. I circled my arms around her neck to steady myself, but I doubt I aided anything as she held be as if I weighed no more than a newborn baby and not a 17 year old girl. She smiled at me before the trees around us suddenly blurred. I glanced around panicked and saw the utter speed at which we were travelling up the mountain and through the cloud bank.
"Are you okay? Can you stand?" she asked softly when we came to a stop. I just nodded, too amazed to speak. She set me down carefully before walking towards a ray of sunlight which streamed in through the trees. What is she doing? "I wanted to show you why we don't go out in sunlight…. People would know we were different,"
I watched as she shrugged off her jacket to reveal a sleeveless cotton shirt. Her shirt makes her different? I don't get it. Alice stepped forward into the sunlight and that's when I got it. The sunlight touched her skin which sparkled like thousands of tiny diamonds were set into her flesh, shimmering and throwing light back out which made it look like she was glowing. Her already angelic features were accentuated beyond anything I could ever have imagined.
"You're beautiful," I breathed and was surprised when no blush crept into my cheeks.
"Now you know why we don't go out in the sunlight, we'd kinda attract attention," she smirked before donning her jacket once more. I couldn't help but be disappointed; it was the most skin I'd ever seen of Alice. At that thought, the blush did creep into my face. "Actually Bella, I have something to confess,"
"Confess? Something besides being a vampire and sparkling in the sun?" I asked a smile playing at the corners of my mouth which dutifully expired when I saw the seriousness in her eyes.
"Yeah. Let's find somewhere to sit that isn't damp and mossy," she said indicating the thick green moss covering a fallen tree trunk. I followed her through the trees, and surprisingly managed to stay upright after tripping several times over branches, and mainly my own feet. It didn't take long before the trees grew further apart and sunlight drifted in through the canopy, lighting up Alice's skin once again. We approached a clearing which was bathed in sunlight. It must be the only place in the whole of Forks that wasn't clouded over… I could stay here forever. The meadow was perfectly round with trees lining its edges protectively. It was filled with wild flowers – violet, yellow and soft white. The scent of which filled the air in the warm morning sunlight.
Alice pulled off her jacket and laid it on the floor before sitting down on the grass, cross legged and indicating for me to sit on her jacket opposite her. I did so while desperately trying to soak up as much sun as I possibly could. The sun wasn't as hot as Phoenix, nor the air as dry but it would do.
"You know I'm psychic right?" Alice asked rhetorically but I nodded anyway. "Well I kinda saw you coming… long before you turned up in Forks, I'd known that you would come to our school and that Tyler's van would almost crush you, that you'd find out we were vampires, that you'd end up in this very clearing… but it wasn't with me,"
"Huh?" I asked, bewildered. I understand her seeing me coming and the van and stuff but what did she mean 'wasn't with her'.
"Remember the 'twisted vision'? That I said I would explain at another time…" She said softly and I nodded again.
"In my vision it was Edward who saved you. It was Edward you fell for, starting on your first day in the cafeteria… I prevented that from happening because I was trying to protect him. You see, in my vision I saw that if he fell in love with you, our family would be put in danger and I thought I was saving us all by stopping it… but it seems it didn't work out to plan. Jasper came up with a theory that I had my visions so that I could prevent Edward from becoming so involved with you… that I was the Cullen you were supposed to fall for… and I can't deny it because that's what I want but I still feel guilty for it… Edward has been alone for so long and I've taken happiness from him…"
"Alice," I crawled over to her and rested my hands on her jean-clad knees.
"If I could cry, I would," she admitted and placed her cool hands on mine.
"You can't cry?" I asked.
"Nope. I can't cry, blush, sleep… I don't even have to breathe; it's just a habit left over from humanity,"
"No sleep… as in ever?" I said amazed.
"Never. But I guess you can't miss what you can't remember," she responded. I raised my eyebrow and she continued, "I'm not like the others of my family – I can't remember my human life. My earliest memory is waking up as a vampire. I guess its better that way… maybe that's why I'm a generally happy person – because I can't see myself as a monster because this is just me, and as far as I know it always has been. Edward hates himself though, hates what he's become. Rosalie hates it too... The others are okay with it though I suppose…" her voice trailed off.
"So you can't remember anything before you were 'turned'… is that the right term?"
"Yeah," she breathed. "I'm sorry for unloading all this on you, I just feel comfortable with you and it's easy to loose myself when I'm around you,"
"Don't apologise for anything. I want you to be comfortable around me," I smiled and she returned with a grin.
"You are such a peculiar human Bella; so at ease with someone who could so easily kill you before you knew what was happening,"
"You won't hurt me," I told her confidently and she flashed a toothy grin before her face fell serious. She uncrossed her legs and was leaning over me in less time than it took me to blink. Her hands rested on either side of my head as I ended up lying down upon the grass. Her knees secured my thighs together; I was effectively trapped under her. However, 'trapped' insinuates that it was something that I didn't want… which wasn't true because I loved this.
"I'm the world's most dangerous predator; everything about me invites you in. My face," she leant down and caressed my cheek with hers causing my breathing to hitch, "my voice," she whispered huskily in my ear, "even my smell… Are you afraid?" she whispered, her cool breath caressing my face.
"Definitely not," I responded and she raised an eyebrow.
"True, for that is not fear I smell," she said before winking at me. Oh god, how did she know? Heat spread to my face and I knew my skin was turning so red it could rival that of a tomato. She giggled lightly. "You can be so adorable, for a human,"
"Thanks… I think," I said softly as she removed herself from hovering above me. I let out an uncontrollable whine of disappointment and then clasped my hands over my mouth, my face somehow getting hotter and redder than I thought possible.
"Well well Miss Swan… expecting something?" she giggled at me, "Who do you think I am? I don't kiss just anyone you know. I hardly know anything about you,"
"K-kiss," I repeated remembering our almost kiss in the bathroom yesterday.
"Yes…" she said elongating the word as if she were thinking, "You're wondering why I pulled away, aren't you?"
I nodded and felt heat flush on my cheeks and travel down my neck.
"The truth is that I didn't think I could stop…" she told me softly and that heat burned hotter at the thoughts, "and I don't think a restaurant bathroom is the most classy of places either. I hunger for you Bella; in both senses of the word. The blood which is thudding around your body is so deliciously tempting to me… but I don't just want you as a food source – I've never been so drawn to someone before… its indescribable how much I want you even if I didn't fully understand it from the beginning," she reached out and gently caressed my face. "I don't want to rush anything and in the bathroom I was still feeling guilty over taking you from Edward,"
"Will you stop talking about Edward?" I blurted and I saw the surprise in her eyes. "Okay so maybe if you hadn't had this vision I would be with Edward or something… but there is no way in hell that I wouldn't be attracted to you… but that future isn't what played out and regardless of this guilt you feel and whatever shit Edward's going through – I want you. You and no one else and I don't think that's going to change anytime soon, so can we just y'know… start over as if Edward doesn't exist or something – to stop him from influencing this,"
"Sure," she said after a few moments of deliberation.
"Good," I said softly before lying back down in the long grass of the meadow. Several moments passed before Alice relaxed and lay down next to me, the diamonds of her skin dazzling in the buttery sunlight. There was a light breeze which lifted my hair slightly and caused the grass to lick at my skin. It also causes the heady scent of Alice to tickle at my nostrils and it took a hell of a lot of willpower not to just roll over and take her there and then.
"Bella," she breathed softly.
"Why did you leave Phoenix?"
"Erm, my mom remarried and she moves around a lot with Phil… I came to live with my dad for a while," I said as I watched the white clouds roll across the blue sky.
"That's what you've told everyone… but what's the real reason?"
"How did you-" I asked propping myself up on my elbows to look at her.
"Woman's intuition," she grinned, "So what made you leave?"
"I erm, you kinda already know but…it's still a little raw to talk about,"
"Bella, I've just told you that my family are vampires, I sparkle in the sunlight and that I have visions... I think that entitles me to knowing something about you,"
"Okay… well I…" I took a deep breath, "I'm kinda um... bi,"
"And…" she said, pushing me to continue. That alone gave me so much confidence because I'd never had anyone be so accepting before even if that person was indeed a girl who was more than a little attracted to me.
"And… I hated it. I hated myself… still do but I erm I got into a really dark place about it… I had to tell someone. So I told my best friend and she seemed to accept it,"
"Seemed?" she questioned and I felt the tears well up.
"Yeah… the next day I found out she'd told half of the school I was a dyke… everyone hated me, avoided me, bullied me. I just had to get out of there. My mom doesn't even know, she thinks I just wanted to come live with Charlie for a while…"
"Who was this girl? I'll go sort her out," she said edging closer slightly.
"Just some stupid bitch I should never have trusted," I said as the first tears fell.
"Oh Bella, come here," she said softly, pulling me to her and holding me against her hard cold body. I let the tears fall as I melted into her touch. She muttered soothing things as she stroked my hair and gently rocked back and forth. The comforting seemed almost childlike but I loved every minute of it. "Do you have any idea how good you smell right now?"
"Erm…" was all I could manage to say. What do you say to that?
"Sorry, I didn't mean to creep you out at all," she apologised. "Come on, if we go back now you won't miss lunch,"
"But… the sun… its such a rare occurrence, can we not stay… at least a little while longer," I said, keeping my arms firmly around her with my head resting against her hard chest.
"Sure," she laughed probably guessing I was more interested in staying with her than the sun. "Beats study hall."
"Most definitely," I agreed as I tried to listen to her heartbeat but found nothing. I shuddered slightly as Alice's hand lightly trailed up and down my back.
Her breathe was warm as it caressed the cool skin on my chest, her face nestled under my chin. I sighed contently and continued to trail my hand absentmindly up and down her back. I couldn't help but think how unnecessary her coat was in this situation… or any clothes for that matter. Alice! I cursed myself; you said take it slow so stop thinking about things like that. I felt her warm hand on mine and entwine our fingers and yet again I realised how well they seemed to fit together.
"What are you thinking?" I asked softly, my breath stirring strands of her hair and the scent intoxicating my heightened senses.
"I was praying," she said dreamily.
"Praying?" I questioned and she nodded, not taking her head from my chest.
"Praying I wasn't going to wake up and find this never happened,"
"Oh Bella," I sighed with a smile upon my lips, I gently lifted her head so that she was looking into my eyes. "This isn't a dream and if you were to wake up it would be to find me there beside you." She smiled softly as we stared into each other's eyes.
Her eyes seemed like bottomless pools of gold which I would willingly dive into and gladly never surface again. My gaze wandered over her angelic features and came to rest upon her mouth which seemed perfectly sculpted and like they had been carved to perfection. I glanced back up to see that her eyes were focused on my mouth too. As if she knew she'd been caught staring her eyes flicked back up to look at me and a small smile touched her lips. Her cool hand slowly came level with my face, hovering slightly away as if she were unsure of her next move. I nodded slightly, hardly moving my head at all but she understood and her hand gently touched my face. I pressed into the cool touch, and closed my eyes for a few moments. Reopening them I saw that Alice was mere millimetres from my lips and they quivered slightly in anticipation.
"Stay very still," she breathed as if I weren't already frozen, "I don't know how far I can control myself,"
I nodded again slightly and felt my heart race in my chest; surely she could hear it as it pumped my blood ten times faster around my body. The speed increased as Alice closed the small gap and her cool, perfectly sculpted lips touched mine ever so softly and this time she didn't pull away.
What neither of us as prepared for was my response.
Blood boiled under my skin, burned in my lips. My breath came in a wild gasp. My fingers knotted in her short hair, clutching her to me as I swung my leg over her, straddling the beautiful woman beneath me. Her lips parted with mine and I couldn't prevent the moan which escaped my lips when her cool tongue danced with my heated one.
She sat up abruptly without breaking our kiss and began tugging gently at my jacket before growing annoyed and simply tearing the clothing from my body and tossing it behind her. I shivered slightly at both the growing heat of the kiss and the feel of Alice's cold, marble, sparkling skin touching my burning flesh. She span us round so that she was hovering above me and it happened so quickly that I only noticed the change of position when Alice pinned my arms to the ground. She trailed her kiss along my jaw and lightly tugged on my earlobe eliciting another moan from me. She placed more cool kisses down my neck and my breath caught in my throat unconsciously but the kisses quickly returned to my mouth and she released my arms and I placed them around her waist. I quickly lost all control and my hands slid under her thin shirt and danced across her cold skin and up her back and I felt a soft moan emanate from her.
The next thing I knew I was alone in the meadow. I sat up, propping myself on my elbows as I glanced around the meadow. She was nowhere to me seen. I rolled over to look behind me and saw her standing at the very edge of the forest, standing in the shade of the trees. She pushed a hand through her hair and then she was by my side again within half a second.
"I'm sorry," she apologised, kneeling to tuck a stray lock of hair behind my ear, "I didn't mean to go so far,"
"Its… okay," I told her, still breathing heavily and my lips aching to dance with hers again.
"It's not okay, Bella," she said as she carefully caressed my cheek, "I can so easily hurt you… I can't ever loose control with you,"
"You seemed… to… be doing okay," I grinned but her face was serious.
"Yes but then you – it just… it was so damn good that I lost myself in it… I then grew distinctly aware of the blood which rushed around your body and instinct started taking over,"
"Oh…" I breathed as I realised how close I was to actually being killed by a vampire.
"Somehow I don't think 'oh' quite covers it," she said as a smile touched her lips again. "I think I'll have to feed more often so that I'm not so tempted around you," she said before she was on her feet in a blink of an eye and holding out an icy hand. I took it and allowed her to pull me to my feet. I stumbled slightly but her hand kept me firmly upright.
"Is that your natural Bella-balance or am I that good a kisser?" she laughed light-heartedly.
"Both I think," I grinned before glancing around. "Um… I'm pretty sure I was wearing a coat,"
"Oh… I um sorry about that," she apologised, "Two seconds," and with that she ran off towards the other end of the meadow and then back, this time holding my coat in her hands… one half in each hand. "See… I need more control," she said almost sheepishly.
"It's okay… it was worth it," I said and she grinned.
"Here, you can wear mine – I don't need it, we don't feel the cold," she handed me her leather jacket and I shrugged it on. It was a little tight but that was to be expected when its owner had a pixie like figure. "I better get you back home; school'll have finished by now. Um… do you want to walk or should I carry you?"
"I think I've had enough excitement for one day… let's just walk," I smiled and took her outstretched hand before she led the way back into the forest, holding my torn coat in her other hand.
AN: So what d'ya think? Reviews are love. I have some of the next chapter done but I don't know when I'll finish it because I have about 9 essays for Psychology to do and some other homework that I should have already done... oopsie :P Anyways, until next time :) Stay tuned x