DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING
"Jake? Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure, sweetie! You know you can ask me anything Nessie."
I knelt beside her bed, where I just tucked her in. The rest of the Cullens all had gone on a three day hunting trip to Northern California. Nessie didn't feel like going, she doesn't get as thirsty as the rest of her family since she also eats human food, so she doesn't hunt as often as they do. After a discussion with Edward, Nessie convinced him that she should be allowed to stay home as long as I stayed with her. She had Edward wrapped around her precious little finger since the day she was born.
She hadn't looked up at all. Her beautiful brown eyes were focused on the ground and she was biting her lower lip just like her mom use to do.
"Come on Nessie we tell each other everything. What do you want to ask me?" I took her left hand and rubbed small circles with my thumb trying to calm her pounding heart.
"Jake, I was wondering why have you never had a girlfriend? I don't ever see you look at any girls or even go on dates."
Uh-oh. This was not the question I was expecting or prepared for. Little does Nessie know, but I have had only eyes for her since the day she was born. The day I imprinted on her. About six months ago Nessie stopped growing and it was obvious that she had fully matured. It only took one slip-up in front of Edward. My head wondered to thinking of Nessie in romantic ways and it was interrupted with a deep growl from him. Edward always understood all of my thoughts previously; I just want Nessie to be happy. But now she is allowed to date and I have started thinking about her in romantic ways. I still want her to be happy; I just want her to be happy with me. After every date she had been on, ok I know I am being dramatic, she has only been on two, she would come home and tell me about them. She had an ok time on both dates, one boy tried to kiss her but she turned her head, but nothing spectacular was planned for her on these dates. She deserves spectacular.
"Well Nessie… I am just waiting until the right time for the right girl." I smiled, and then kissed her forehead. "Get some sleep sweetie." She forced a smile as I closed her bedroom door and then I took a seat on the couch in the living room.
Edward, Bella and I had a long talk a couple months ago. They knew about my imprinting, as well as the rest of the Cullen coven, except of course Nessie. I made both Edward and Bella a promise. A promise that hurt me to the core, but I knew it was the best for Nessie. I would not tell her about my imprinting until the time was right. I would let Nessie make her own decisions about me. I didn't want her to feel obligated to be with me or have feelings for me because I imprinted on her. Edward and Bella agreed. After all, I only want Nessie to be happy.
My thoughts got interrupted by the sound of soft sniffling. What was wrong? Is Nessie crying? I quickly got up and knocked on her bedroom door.
"Nessie? Sweetie? Can I come in?" I paused and there was no answer, just the sound of her blowing her nose. I opened the door and kneeled by her bed.
"Nessie! What's wrong, Sweetie?" Her eyes were puffy, and red and she was rubbing them. I gently brushed the bronze curls away from her face with my right hand and wiped away her tears with my left. I felt her tense and let a small gasp slip from her perfect lips. Why is she so upset?
I got up and sat on the bed wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her into a tight hug.
"Please Nessie! I can't help unless I know what it is that is upsetting you."
I ran my hand up and down her back and felt her shiver. She put her head on my shoulder and whispered softly into my ear. "It's embarrassing Jacob."
I didn't want to push her. I knew eventually she would cave, so I just sat there holding her and running my fingers through her bronze curls. Her voice was still the soft whisper but she knew I would be able to hear with my werewolf hearing.
"I really like this guy…. I think he only likes me as a friend."
"Nessie, if you like him, he is the luckiest guy in the whole universe." My heart started to break listening to how much she liked this undeserving boy.
"Uncle Emmett said the same thing. He said I should just tell him." Nessie is close to Emmett, but I thought he wanted me to be with her. What was he thinking? She glanced up at me then continued. "I think Daddy caught me thinking about him. I…I have just never had these feeling before." I felt her bury her face deeper into my shoulder.
I took a deep breath. It was incredibly difficult to be hearing this. I am so in love with Nessie. I truly want her to be happy, but it still breaks my heart for her not to be with me.
"He is a fool if he doesn't like you back." I whispered softly into her ear. "You should just tell him how you feel."
She lifted her head and slowly turned towards me. She gently put her delicate hand on my cheek and then stared at the ground. My body involuntarily gasped. She was showing me, me. My mind started to flood with her thoughts. How much she loved me, how she wanted to be with me physically but was embarrassed because she didn't have any experience and wasn't sure what to do. She showed me how I was her best friend, but she wanted me to be her boyfriend. Her thoughts were shy but clear. She wanted me and wanted me forever.
I hate to admit it, but I got instantly hard. Everything I wanted and desired she wanted too. My heart was beating so fast, I had no idea how to do this. Still looking down, she slowed pulled her hand away from my face and put in her lap. I put my fingers under her chin and pulled her face up so we were staring into each other's eyes.
"Jake…" she whispered. How I loved the beautiful blush she got when being so shy.
I slowly moved my head towards her, her eyes getting large. I softly placed my lips on hers as I closed my eyes. While my heart started skipping beats, hers was working overtime. She placed her hand back on my cheek and all I saw was happiness and love. I pulled my mouth away from hers so I could whisper into her ear.
"I love you Renesmee Cullen. I am completely in love with you. I always have and I always will be, forever." I saw a single tear escape from her eye and I gently kissed it away. Just looking at her took my breath away. She put her hand back on my cheek and silently told me, "I love you too Jake. I want you to be my forever." It's so cute how shy she's being in this situation. Usually she's so outspoken. I didn't think it to be possible, but her silent words made me even harder and my pants were uncomfortably tight.
She was looking into my eyes as she grabbed the back of my head and pulled my face to hers. She slowly kissed my neck, oh God it felt so good, my eyes rolled back in my head. Then she kissed my jaw, and finally my lips. I never experienced this kind of happiness in my life. Her lips, so soft, so sweet, I could hardly think straight. Her lips parted on mine and I slowly sucked on her lower lip. A small moan escaped her lips and my cock started twitching in my pants. My hands twined in her hair, her hands yanking my hair and then I felt her tongue in my mouth. We explored each other's mouths with our tongues and then she started sucking on my tongue. I moaned and almost came in my pants right then. She has no idea what she does to me.
I have no idea how long we were kissing for. I could kiss Nessie forever. It was perfect, my heart soared, and it felt like heaven. Every once and awhile Nessie would silently show me how long she had been waiting for this and how happy she was. But then a small thought slipped by as she was removing her hand from my face.
I pulled my mouth away from hers slowly and started stroking her perfect bronze curls with one hand, while cupping my other hand under her chin.
"Nessie, Sweetie, I don't want you to be scared. We'll stop. Sweetie, I don't want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable or scared, that is the last thing I want you to feel." I dropped my hand from her chin and started to move slightly away from her when she stopped me with her words.
"Oh no, Jake! I'm not scared about this. This is perfect, I am so happy." She was grinning as she took my hand and put it over her heart. I was having a hard time paying attention. Lord knows I wanted to pay attention to every word my beautiful girl says, but my hand was touching the upper swell of her breast and my crotch was now painfully throbbing.
"What are you scared of Ness?" Oh God, I could focus better if my dick wasn't so hard.
"I was worried that…. I love you so much, and…." What is she getting at? I love her too. She was having such a hard time telling me, but she able to continue."And what happens if in six months…Or two years…. What happens if you imprint? I am not strong enough to deal with that. Like Leah, with Sam and Emily. I am not strong like Leah…" It was at that point that I placed my fingers over her mouth, and stared into her chocolate colored eyes. It was time to tell her. I couldn't have her worry, it was not fair.
"Shh, Sweetie." I whispered while looking into her eyes. "I have already imprinted."
Her eyes got huge and filled with tears, her body started shaking as the tears escaped. "What?...Who?..."
"Please don't cry." I lightly brushed away her tears and then took her hands into mine. "I already have imprinted Nessie. I imprinted on you the day you were born."
She inhaled deeply, instead of looking sad she now looked confused and a little hurt. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I wanted you to be able to make your own decision. I did not want my imprinting to influence you in any way. I wanted you to love me for me. Not out of any obligation you may have felt…." The next thing I knew her mouth was on mine and we kissing so passionately it could have set the forest on fire.