"We shouldn't be doing this"

It was something China always said with a blush and sometimes with a curse. It had become a ritual almost between him and Russia; a dance they both knew the steps to. He would step away, protesting and Russia would follow, never missing a beat. One, two, one, two- a twirl and a dip. Never varied, never strayed.

Tonight...tonight was different. The words that began their chase were murmured half-heartedly. The protest was ever constant but it wasn't for Russia to stop. It was for him not to go.

"No we shouldn't... but that never stopped us before." Russia tilted China's chin up. Slowly, so slowly as if time stopped and the air stilled, their lips met. The moon's light played upon their entangled forms, melting and melding their shadows into one.

Gently Russia pushed China down on the bed, careful not to crush him with his weight. Their lips parted as Russia stared down at the man underneath. Golden eyes seared into violet ones.

Tonight. Tonight was their last.

Of all nights, one would expect it to be a frenzy, wild joining of two people -not nations- who desperately try to cling to each other; that they might attempt to futilely burn their bodies heat and warmth for the cold, lonely nights ahead. But no. One by one he undid China's button with steady hands as China lightly stroked his hips and down his thighs in contentment. Dawn was their enemy but they took their sweet time in undressing and savoring this moment.

To prolong this as much as possible.

Their clothes discarded, they simply laid against one another, kissing gently, lightly, softly, hands glossing over bare skin and sinewy muscles. When they finally did join in body as their souls already joined, the world didn't shatter and break. It all became clear. The vast universe and the endless infinity dwindled into this small space, this one memory. Words and tears weren't needed. Everything that needed to be said, that needed to be expressed rested in the here and now- China's sighs, Russia's kisses it was all they desired.

Together, China wrapped securely in Russia's arms, they watched as the rays peeked over the horizon. Their night of passion was coming to an end. Wordlessly they helped each other dress. China buttoned up Russia's clothes just as Russia brushed China's silk hair before tying it in his beloved red ribbon. Soundlessly they walked towards the door together, closing it.
"Ivan..."
"Yao..."

They parted, each walking towards their respective homes. They last word they would hear from the voice that had lulled them to sleep for years. They glanced back and met each other's gaze for a second, for an eternity then continued walking.

Although it would be written in history the bitter split and ruin of their relations, only they would know, Wang Yao and Ivan Braginski would know, how their final days were spent. Perhaps that is the secret that holds them together.


Original author's note that I wrote at the time:

I couldn't convey the whole song becuz haha this is a drabble but I never planned to use the whole song anyway. Just the bolded part.

'Can't Make You Love Me" by Bonnie Raitt

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, dont patronize - dont patronize me

Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power

But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont

Ill close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you dont feel when youre holding me
Morning will come and Ill do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight

And I will give up this fight
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont