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Chapter 1

2004-Singer Salvage

"Where are you going Holly?"

"I don't know yet Dean. I just have to get away for awhile a figure stuff out."

"You don't have to leave"

"Yes I do. I can't stay here anymore acting like everything ok when its not"

"What do you want me to do Holly; it is what it is and I'm sorry, please just stay"

"Why Dean? Tell me why I should stay here?" All Holly Singer wanted in that moment was for the man she loved with all her heart to tell her he loved her back. When the man you love is Dean Winchester, those are the three word you would never hear.

"Your Dad needs you here"

"No he doesn't. He's never here and I have already talked to him about me leaving and he supports me"

"So that's it. You're just going to move away, meet Mr. Right and have you're 2.5 kids. That's not you and you know it" Holly picked up her bags and headed to the door. "Holly just wait I….." Dean froze.

"what Dean? You what? Tell me?" Dean wanted so bad just to tell he needed her and that he loved her more than his own life, but the words wouldn't come out. Maybe because he didn't mean them or maybe because he knew he could never give her what she deserved.

"Goodbye" Holly walked out of the door and never saw Dean again.

2008(present)

Holly had just finished her 12 hour shift at the hospital and headed home to her one bedroom apartment. When she got to her door, she saw a envelope with her name on it. She grabbed it and walked inside. Holly sat down on her couch and opened the letter and read it.

Holly,

I know I am the last person you expected to write you a letter. Something's have happened to me and I just could go another day with out you knowing the truth so here it goes. Letting you walk out of my life was one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made. If I could go back and do it all over I would. There was so many things I wanted to say to you back then but I just couldn't find the words. I used to come by your apartment and sit outside trying to get up the nerve to knock on the door but I couldn't. I always felt that I couldn't give you what you needed. You wanted so bad just to be a happy normal couple and that scared me. I just want you to know that I do Love you Holly. With all my heart. Never forget that and please never forget me. One more thing, go see your dad, hes going to need you. Goodbye Holly

Love Always,

D. W

P.S I wrote a song down for you that I am listening to know and no its not shook me all night long. I still say that is our song. Once again I Love you

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say. So, I'll be on my way

I finally put it all together,
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine,
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase,
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be,
You know I live my life like a gypsy

I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I've tried

Call Me- Shinedown

Holly was crying by the she finished reading the letter. She folded it up and grabbed her keys. She had to see Dean.

She drove all night to Pontiac Illinois. The last place her father had used his phone to call her. Holly got in town at about 5 that morning. Everything seemed quiet. She tried to call her dad but didn't get an answer. She turned down an old road and noticed two men standing in a field. As she got closer, she realized that it was her dad and Sam. She was happy she saw Sam because that meant Dean was near by. Holly stopped the car and ran and ran toward her dad.

"Hey guys" she said making them turn around. She could see tears in theirs eye.

"What are you doing here Holly?"

"I needed to talk to Dean so I can to see if you knew where he was" Sam and Bobby looked at each other and more tear came down. "What's going on daddy?"

"Listen sweetie I hate to tell you this but….." Holly looked around him and saw a cross in the ground and her heart sank. At that moment she wanted her dad to tell her anything else. Maybe Dean in the car, maybe her had another girlfriend anything but……"

"Deans gone sweetie, I'm so sorry" Bobby walked closer to his daughter and she looked away trying to catch her breathe.

"No Daddy, please God no, he's fine, he can't be dead" Bobby pulled her close to him and she looked over at Sam who was staring at the grave. He turned and walked over to her and pulled her to him.

"Its ok Holly, I'm getting him back" Sam said, kissed her on the forehead and walked away.

"Sam come back here" bobby yelled and Holly grabbed his hand.

"Let him go Daddy" She turned to look at the grave and before she broke down she spoke to her dad. "dad can you give me a minute please."

"I just go wait by the car" all she could do was nod. It began to rain but her face was so wet from the tears that it was hard for her to tell. She got on the ground and lay next to the dirt and laid her had across it.

"Its going to be ok Dean, I'm here now" the more she was there, the harder she cried. "you cant leave me Dean, I need you" she said and gripped the ground tighter.

She had been laying there close to an hour before her dad finally had to drag her away. She knew if Sam couldn't get Dean back, than she would somehow if it was the last thing she did.

So please tell me what you think. I know this chapter was a little sad but it will get happier. Please review and please be gentle I am still new at this. Thank for reading!!!