I still don't understand how you can like someone like me…
I don't understand how anyone can not like you…
~ Revenge is my motto
My name is Roxas and I have the perfect life.
At least I thought I had.
I have a rich boyfriend; Xemnas, who buys me whatever I want. I live in a big fancy apartment he bought me and all my clothes are first class. I have all the things money can buy. My life's just pretty perfect, you know?
I also work at Xemnas's record company as a singer. I know he loves me. Not that he's told me, I just can tell. Right now we're on our way to Traverse Town. I don't know why though. But that annoying redhead seems to think Xemnas wants to sleep with me. Oh well, he's just stupid.
My name is Axel and I have the perfect life.
At least I thought I had.
I'm single and proud over it. I sleep with random persons I meet at clubs and I live in a small, crappy apartment, that I still love, with my roommate Demyx who's dating my boss, Zexion. I wear mostly black clothes because not many colors go with my wicked red hair. My life's just pretty perfect, you know?
I also work at a hotel owned by a rich guy named Xemnas. I know he hates me. Not that he's told me, I just can tell. He and his boyfriend are here, and I just know Xemnas wants to sleep with Roxas. Roxas claims I'm wrong. Oh well, he's just stupid.
I wake up by a door opening. "Who's there?" I call out as I sit up in the bed. Could it be Axel…?
It's pretty dark outside and I wonder how long I've been asleep. "Me," I hear Xemnas's voice as he lit a lamp in the dark room.
I smile at him as I get up from the bed. "Good. I thought you were Axel there for a moment."
"Yeah, that would've been terrible, now wouldn't it?" Xemnas says and smiles at me.
"He's not that bad… I just don't want to talk to him right now. He was being stupid, telling me bullshit," I state and sigh.
"Oh, so what did he tell you then?" Xemnas asks as he hangs away his coat along with his hat.
"He told me that the reason we're here is because you want to take the next step… You know, sleep with me!" I say and chuckle. Silly Axel…
"So he told you that, did he?" Xemnas asks, no humor in his voice.
"Huh?" I let out, turning to Xemnas who was smiling in a scary, lusty way.
"Well, I'm afraid your dear Axel is right," He states and pulls off his glows slowly, one finger at time.
"Eh… Sorry, but I'm saving myself for my wedding night," I say apologizing, turning around to walk away from him.
"It isn't an option," Xemnas states as he grabs my wrists and starts kissing my neck roughly, while leading me towards the bed.
"Please get off me!" I say in horror as I try to break away from him. He pins me down on the bed and straddles me. "Please?"
"Silence!" He orders and I felt a sharp pain on my cheek. He slapped me. Xemnas slapped me. My boyfriend slapped me. "I've been patient enough with you," He growls.
Now's when I for real understood what is happening. He is going to rape me. My boyfriend is going to rape me. I can't do anything about it. I can't tell him to stop.
And so… I scream.
I could've have sworn someone screamed from the top of their lunges somewhere above me. "Did you hear something?" I ask Zexion, who was stiff and looked a bit… doomed?
"No, nothing," He says hurriedly.
"I could've sworn I heard Roxas scream…" I mutter and start walking towards the stairs.
"You can go home now Axel! I'll take care of the rest!" Zexion say, rushing to stand between me and the stairs.
"Thanks, but I'm going to go check on Roxas first…" I say and try to walk past him.
"If you leave now, I'll drive you," He states.
I shone up. I don't have to walk or take the fucking buss! "Okay, let's go!" I say and drag him with me to the parking lot.
"Goodnight Roxas," Xemnas whispers in my ear before turning away from me and falling asleep, leaving me scared while crying myself to sleep.
"AAAAH!!" I scream as I wake up from the same nightmare as always. Well, nightmare might be the wrong word. More like a relived memory?
I hug my pillow and make sure I'm not crying. I have promised myself a long time ago to never EVER cry again. But it gets harder and harder with every day that pass.
In short, Demyx is sitting on my bed beside me, patting my head like I was some kind of child. He knows about the dreams. He's the only one I have ever told about my previous life. Before I changed name and came here.
"The dream again?" Demyx asks and smiles at me. "I guess meeting Xemnas brought it up…"
"Don't even say that bastards name," I hiss at him while holding the tears back even more.
"Axel. Just so you know, Roxas isn't like you. He loves Xemnas and Xemnas loves him in his own twisted way. It can never be compared to your experience," Demyx says reassuringly and keeps patting my head.
Zexion told him, didn't he?
"Yeah, I know…" I say quietly.
"Go back to sleep now…" Demyx pats my head one last time before leaving me to go back to sleep.
"Good morning Roxas," a voice purrs right beside my ear as a pair of arms wrap around my waist. I flinch away and the voice chuckles. "Is my little Roxas scarred for life?"
I don't say or do anything. I just keep my eyes shut tight and hold my breath.
"I'm going out today too. I'll be back tonight. Be awake and ready for another round," He order me and I feel the bed shift under me. "Or else, I'll have to wake you up in my own special way…"
He hears my squeak of fear and laughs. "Bye, Roxas." I hear footsteps and felt his presence beside the bed. "Don't I get a kiss goodbye?" He then ask mockingly before grabbing my chin, making me face him and attack my lips. He breaks away and walks over to the door. "See you later, Roxas!" He says before closing the door.
As soon as I know he was gone, I open my eyes and sit up. The tears were rolling down my cheeks and my bottom lip was quivering. I feel dirty, unpure and worthless. And hell, I'm in a lot of pain.
Instead of pitying myself too much, I go for the shower. I want the trace of him out of me. As I limp into the bathroom, I take a look at myself in the mirror. I barely recognize the cheerful Roxas I had been just yesterday. I have a black eye and my lip have swollen up. Before I had even stepped into the shower, the door open.
The door is open so I just walk in, since I assume he is in the shower. When I thought about it closer, I realized it wasn't a that smart move but it wasn't like I could change that. I walk over to the bathroom to find it empty. Well, that's strange…
"What are you doing here?" I hear a voice beam. Xemnas.
I turn around to see him standing with his arms crossed. "I came to… See if you had any problems with the shower. A lot of people have been complaining about that…" I lie, smiling apologetically. "So do you?" I then ask, looking around for Roxas.
"Not that I've noticed," Xemnas says, raising an eyebrow.
"Well, that's great news! I should go now so… bye!" I say hurriedly and move past him only to get my arm caught in Xemnas grip.
"Not so fast, my old friend," Xemnas say and smile evilly as my eyes widen. "You didn't think I'd recognize you, did you? Well, you did get those tattoos and change name, but I'm afraid your hair gave you away a long time ago."
My mouth pop open in horror as Xemnas smile widened. I then regain my cocky attitude. "Well, what are you going to do about it?"
Xemnas mouth moves close to my ear. "You have something that belongs to me don't you?" He ask in a whisper and I stiffen up. He then lets me go. "Roxas, come out! We have a visitor!"
For a moment I think that Roxas and Xemnas actually are vampires and now they're going to feed on me but I realize that it's not the most clever theory ever and hope that that isn't the case…
Roxas limps out of the bathroom I thought no one had been in. Wait a minute… "WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOU?!" I scream and move my eyes from Xemnas to Roxas and back to Xemnas. "WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM?!"
"Oh, Axel, I thought you'd recognize yourself in his situation. Are you really that dumb? Don't you remember when you looked just like him?" Xemnas asks and smirks. "Well you two probably have a lot in common to discuss so I'll leave you alone."