All I Wanted Was You Chapter 22: Numb
Hey everyone! This is my last chapter of this story! Wow it feels bitter sweet. I am sad this story is over because I loved writing it and I am going to miss it. But I am happy because I actually completed a story, even after my writer's hiatus. I just want to say a BIG thank you to all of my reviewers! You guys are amazing and I love you all! Without this story would not exist and would not be completed! Thanks for your support and excitement! Thank you to all of you who have added this story to their alert and fave story lists! I appreciate everything! I started school and I will be busy but I also want to keep my writing up. If I start to write another story, it will take me quite awhile to update sometimes it will be 1-2 months without an update! I hope in the future you guys will continue to read and support me! Thank you!
Thanks especially to: Glory2121, teambellaedward, , PriestessOfFreya, Simaril, Lisa87, traciebuie, 1sparklygirl, KateyT23. Thanks so much!
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you- Numb Linkin Park
Edward's Point of View
I have seen some horrible things in my life, things that I wished I could erase from my mind. I have seen many people die from monsters like myself. I have seen innocent people die in a pool of their own blood. But none of those things compared to what I saw when I ran to my fallen angel. The most important person in my life was lying motionless on the grass. Her long, almond brown hair was fanned out behind her her, surrounding her like a brown halo. She was my angel. My amazing angel. She did not look human. She looked like a china doll who was not real but was breakable if you touched her. My heart sunk in my stomach like a heavy weight. If I was still human I knew I would not be breathing. The guilt wave washed over me as I fell to my knees. Bella was this way because of me. I could have protected her. I should have stopped her. I felt as though I was a frail, fragile human instead of a strong, protective vampire because right now it seemed as though there was nothing I could do. There was no way I could lose her. I would die without her. Her life couldn't just end like this. Our life together couldn't just end. Not after everything we had been through. Somehow I found my voice.
"BELLA! BELLA PLEASE DON'T DIE!" I could hear my voice as it shook and echoed throughout the forest like a bass guitar.
I looked at all of my family members who were kneeling beside Bella as well with concerned expressions on their faces.
"Carlisle what do we do? How is she? Is she dying?" I asked quickly and impatiently. I knew time was ticking away and I needed all the time I could get in order to help Bella.
Carlisle quickly checked Bella's pulse.
"She is still alive Edward but she is injured. It looks like she has a broken wrist and bruised ribs. However her cut on her face seems to be the worst injury. Her body has been through a lot this evening and in order to deal with the actions of today, her body has shut down to try and heal itself. We have to get her to the house as soon as possible." Carlisle explained. I had no idea how he could be so calm when I was full of panic and fear.
"Edward do you want to take her? You will be faster than the vehicles." Carlisle asked.
All I could do was nod my head as I gently picked up Bella's body in my arms.
"Edward she is going to be okay, look all the things you guys have been through." Alice said trying to sound positive.
"She is right Edward, remain calm everything will be fine." Jasper said.
I knew Jasper was trying to use his powers on me and that angered me. I didn't want anyone helping me cope with my emotions. I had every right to be mad because I was the one responsible for Bella.
"You don't know that Jasper, she could die! Don't you get it! I would die with her! I'll meet you guys back at the house," I said as I stood up and flew into the forest as though I was chasing my dinner.
I couldn't think of anything but Bella. I couldn't feel anything not even the slashing of the tree branches hitting my skin. I felt numb on the inside. I couldn't live if Bella wasn't alive with me. She was my world. She was my life. She was everything to me.
Finally after a couple of seconds I arrived at my house. I could hear Alice, Esme, Carlisle and Rosalie running behind me in the woods. That meant that Emmett and Jasper had driven the two vehicles home. I ran up the stairs and set Bella on the bed. I wiped away a strand of brown hair from her pale face so I could look into her beautiful eyes. I pleaded with her. I begged her to fight. I wished her eyes would open. They were too beautiful not to be open.
"Edward you have to believe. Believe in the love you two share; let her know that you are here for her and that you are never going to let her go." Esme said softly as she glanced worriedly at Bella's body.
All of a sudden Carlisle quickly entered the room and set up all of his equipment. He quickly stitched up her scarred cheek and covered it with white gauze. Then he quickly took care of her broken wrist and wrapped it in a cast. I wondered if Bella was in pain. I hoped she wasn't. I hoped she couldn't feel a thing. I thought the sight of blood would finally start to get to me but I was too busy being worried about Bella. This made me feel more reassured about my issue with blood. He checked her stats, her pulse and her eyes. But this time instead of seeing an encouraging nod or positive reinforcement, I saw a grim expression on his face.
"What's the matter Carlisle? What is it?" I quickly asked, knowing I wouldn't want to hear the answer.
He shook his head as the rest of my family members rushed in.
"I'm sorry Edward we are losing her." He said with a sad voice.
"What? What do you mean? Can't you do something?" I asked my voice trembling as my body began to shake. No, this could not be happening. No, Bella had to live!
"You could turn her?" Emmett asked.
What? Was he crazy? There was no way I was going to turn my beautiful Bella into a monster.
"No! She does not deserve this curse!" I yelled as I sat on the bed and grabbed Bella's soft hand. It was so cold. Her whole body was cold.
"Well then she will die Edward!" Emmett exclaimed, as though I didn't even know it.
"Emmett's right Edward, you have three minutes to think about what you want to do, but after that there will be nothing you can do." Carlisle explained.
What? Three minutes? I didn't want to turn Bella into a vampire. I didn't want her to be like me. But I also couldn't live without her. I hoped she would wake up soon because then I would have to do something I would regret for the rest of my life.
"Bella please, I know you can fight this you are so strong! I need you in my life please don't leave me!" I cried out.
All of a sudden Bella's body was changing temperature. She was not cold anymore; she was getting the warmth back into her beautiful body. I quickly looked up at her and to my amazement her eyes were wide open, like they should be. If I was a human and not a vampire, my heart would be beating like a drum. Yes she was alive! My Bella was alive!
"Bella, love are you alright, your body went so cold and I thought you had left me!" I exclaimed as I sat down on the bed and took her head again in mine.
"Edward I promised you I would never leave you and I never break my promises!" She said as she smiled. Oh how I loved her smile. It was the most beautiful thing in the world! I was so happy. My love was okay. I wrapped my arms around Bella's body.
"Bella how do you feel? You gave us quite a scare." Carlisle asked as he began to check her vital signs again.
"I feel tired and a little sore." She answered.
"Yes Sarah gave you quite the scar but it should fade with time. When you were asleep I checked out your injuries, you have a bruised rib, a broken wrist and a few large bruises on your lower back which may cause difficulty with your breathing." Carlisle explained.
"You should take these pain killers every three hours and drink plenty of liquids. I also want you to remain in bed for a couple of days to make sure your ribs and bruises heal. Bella I am so glad you are okay, we were all worried." Carlisle said.
"Thank you. Thank you for everything." She said.
"Bella you were awesome against Sarah, using the tree trunk was genius!" Emmett exclaimed looking as though his favourite football team had won the super bowl.
"Thank Emmett; I thought it was a genius plan as well!" She said smiling up at Emmett.
"You had me worried there Bella, I thought I would have a baby vampire to defeat." He said giving her a smile.
I gave Emmett my dagger stare as she looked up at me.
"When your condition turned for the worst, Carlisle gave me a time limit and said when that limit was up I would have to turn you or else let you die. I didn't know what to do Bella, I wanted to turn you but I didn't want to change your life without you asking. I was so happy when you finally woke up Bella. Oh you have no idea how happy I am to see you alive and human." I said.
"Oh Edward, I am so glad I woke up. I never want to leave you. I never want to leave any of you." She said as she looked up at my family.
"Bella you have no idea how happy we are to have you. If anything were to happen to you Bella, it would be like losing a family member. You are a part of our family now." Esme said as she leaned over and kissed her healthy cheek.
"Thank you Esme, for everything. You are like a second mom to me and I appreciate everything you have done." She said as she hugged her.
"I'm glad you are alright Bella." Rosalie said but then smiled as she walked out of the room.
"Oh Bella! I'm so glad you are okay! Don't worry about your scar, I have amazing make up that will cover it up and of course once your better we will go on a shopping spree." Alice said in her spunky voice.
"Oh gee thanks Alice!" Bella said smiling.
"Don't worry Bella; I will protect you from Alice." Jasper said finally taking a break from controlling everyone's emotions.
"Thank you so much Jasper! But I think I may need the whole Cullen Clan to help protect me from Alice and her shopping sprees." She said laughing but then she winced in pain. All of a sudden I became very concerned. Was she okay?
"Bella are you okay?" I asked in a concerned voice.
"Yes Edward, some laughing isn't going to kill me." She said smiling but then she started to yawn.
"I'm sorry. I don't want to think you guys are boring me. I would love to spend every minute with you but I feel as though I can't keep my eyes open." She said as she started to rub her eyes.
"Okay Bella we will let you get your rest, again we are so glad you are okay. If you need anything don't hesitate to ask." Carlisle said as everyone but me left the room.
"Do you want me to leave?" I asked. Not wanting her to say no.
"No! I would like it if you laid down with me." She said as I moved into the bed, on top of the covers. I wrapped my arm around her and she sighed. Oh how it felt so good to be with my Bella. My beautiful Bella. I would do anything to make sure she was safe so she would leave me.
"Bella did you need anything?" I asked as I ran my fingers through her long, brown hair.
"No, just you." She said smiling at him.
"Oh love I am so glad you are okay. I am sorry I put you through danger, I'm no good for you but I love you so much. I can't live without you but I feel terrible when I see you lying in bed with scrapes and bruises. You are my life Isabella Swan and without you I do not exist." I explained as I traced her lips with my index finger. Oh how her lips felt so smooth. I just wanted to kiss them.
"Please don't ever leave me. I couldn't bear it. Although I'm a strong vampire, you are my weakness." I pleaded as I grabbed her cheek bone and then kissed the gauze.
"Edward this is the final time I will say it. I love you too and I will stick by you no matter what, even if that means fighting evil vampires like Sarah. No matter what you do, you will never get rid of me. I'm yours forever." She said as she kissed me on my lips. Her words made me smile but her lips made me want more. I could feel her tongue trying to open my own lips. At first I didn't want to but the strong feeling coming from my groin was overwhelming. So I let my lips part so our tongues could dance together. Her tongue was warm and felt so good in my mouth. I wanted more. I wanted more of her. I broke off the amazing kiss and started to make more kisses down her sweet, neck. Bella started to move closer beside me but as she did that, she winced.
"Ouch." She said.
"Bella are you okay? I shouldn't have done that, not while you're in so much pain." I said worried about her condition. Then I felt bad for my actions. I was selfish for wanting to kiss her after what had happened.
"But Edward you are the cure to my pain." She said snuggling close to my stomach.
"How about when you are better, I will try to continue what we just started." I advised, knowing that would stop the strong feeling from being released from my groin.
"That sounds awesome Edward. I love you so much, even after all we have been through, and I know you are my only one." She said.
"You are my only one my love and I promise nothing will change that," I said as I kissed her forehead. Then I started to hum the melody of Claire De la Lune as her eyes started to close.
Watching Bella's eyes close was the most beautiful thing I could watch. I could watch her beautiful body for hours. I knew as I sat beside my love, that everything would be just fine. Bella was safe and we could start our lives together.
Hope you like it! Please review!