"You. . . don't. . . want me?" I asked.
It felt like my whole world was falling down. Then, before I could blink he was gone. He left, just like that. I knew where I had to go. I ran to my truck and drove as best as I could through my tears to the Cullen house. The garage was empty. All the cars were gone. Through the windows, all the furniture was covered with white sheets. They weren't planning on coming back for a while.
I stumbled up the steps, wiping away my tears. I touched the door and a flood of memories came back. My birthday, the first time I came here, the baseball game. I took a shaky break and opened the door, amazed that it was unlocked.
There on the floor in front of me was a note.
I picked it up and opened it. A key fell out.
I'm so sorry I left without saying goodbye. If you get this, this is my goodbye. Know that the family loves you. We always have. Edward is forcing us to leave. He says that its what's best for you, but I know that you will attract danger somehow. So, stay safe and don't go into the woods. Esme, Carlisle, and I left everything here. We thought that if you wanted to come here, you are welcome. I have enclosed a key to the house, in case you want to stay sometimes to get away.
I'm so sorry, Bella. I love you like a sister, and I always will.
Alice, Carlisle, Esme, Jasper, and Emmett.
Rose as well, but she won't admit it :*)
Tears streamed down my face as I picked up the key and looked at it. I quietly walked through the house, touching what I felt like I had to. When I saw the piano, I looked the other way. I reached Carlisle's study and opened the door. I choked back a sob when I saw all the books, the desk with the disarray papers, the paintings, all placed where they were the last time I was here.
I remember the stories of the paintings. The Volturi as Edward had said three days ago. The people you go to when you want to commit suicide as a vampire. I flinched at saying his name in my mind. Note to self: Don't say HIS name in mind.
I looked at the picture of Aro, Cauis, and Marcus. I remember this story very well. They welcomed Carlisle and tried to get him to become human drinkers. The part that kept echoing in my mind, was that they welcomed Carlisle with open arms. They just took him. What if I were to . . . go there. What if I was to go there and ask to be changed. I could find Ed- HIM again. I could ask him how he really feels.
I looked at a little piece of paper, tacked to the wall. I pulled it off and read what it said. The handwriting matches the note from downstairs.
Please do not even think about going to Volterra. It is dangerous and they can kill you without a second thought. Even since you know too much of our kind. It's dangerous. DO NOT GO TO VOLTERRA, BELLA!
Volterra. Did she realize that she wrote what the city was called? I looked at where the paper came from and it had a golden plate under it.
VOLTERRA, ITALY - 1735
Italy. I know where I'm going. If I do die, I'll gladly. I can't imagine a world without E- HIM in it. I crumpled up the paper, put it in my pocket, and flew out the door. When I got to the front door, I pulled out my key and locked it. Placing the key a few inches deep in some plant soil, I raced to my car and started the engine. I would make Charlie a nice dinner, and leave a note, saying I'm going to travel for a while. Get my head around things. I'll be back when I'm ready. Yeah, that's good.
I pulled into the driveway to see Charlie wasn't home yet. I sighed in relief and set the first note from Alice on the kitchen table as I got steak and potatoes going. I did my homework quickly and packed my bookbag. I put a few changes of clothes, my laptop, passport, and some of my favorite books. My backpack fell on the floor and a floorboard popped up. I cussed and picked my backpack up, seeing something in the floor.
I knelt down and gasped. I pulled out my presents from the Cullen's. Pictures of me and HIM. I shook my head and put my presents from everyone but HIM into my backpack. I set the pictures of HIM and I on the window sill and kept the pictures of his family and I. They were my only family now. I packed my toothbrush, hair brush, and anything else I may need in the next three days. I wrote a note to Charlie saying that I was driving back to Phoenix, since HE broke up with me. It brought back too many memories.
I took a deep breath and finished dinner just as Charlie walked through the door.
"Hey, dad. I made dinner." I said loud enough for him to hear. I realized that I haven't talked since HE left. I grimmaced as Charlie say in HIS favorite chair.
"Where's Edward?" Charlie asked.
I flinched. "Um, he and I broke up. Apparently Carlisle and Esme have moved."
He noticed my pained expression, "Oh, I'm sorry honey. I heard Dr. Cullen got a different job today at work. You okay?"
I smiled, "Oh, I'm fine. I was, um, thinking of going to Phoenix for a couple of days, you know? Just to get out of here and relax. I just get memories when I'm here, so I'll come back when I get over him or something. That's okay, right?"
He dropped his fork and looked up at me. "You want to leave?"
My eyes widened, "No! Dad, no. I just think that I would get over him better if I left for a week or so. I just feel like I'm going to explode if I stay here. I don't want to have a break down at school tomorrow."
Charlie nodded in understanding. "You know, when your mom left, I did the same thing. I tried to deal with it."
I nodded, "That's what I want to do. I want to deal with my pain and just forget about it, but I can't here. I remember everything we did together. And I just want to forget." My voice cracked at the last word and I turned away and looked out the window.
"Oh, honey. It's fine. You can go. I don't care. Just let your mom know you're going to Phoenix. She'll be in Jacksonville still."
I nodded. "I'll call her on my way."
I really would. The more people I got in on this lie, the more believable it will be. I cleared the plates and started to go up the stairs.
"When do you want to leave?" Charlie called.
My heart stopped. When?
"Um, maybe in the morning. About the time I go to school."
Charlie nodded and hugged me. "I'll miss you, Bells."
I smiled and hugged him back, "I'll miss you too."
I looked over his shoulder and saw the note Alice gave me opened and next to where Charlie was sitting. Charlie read it. I'll have to leave tonight.
My heart stopped. "Hey, is it okay if I go to the Cullen house, you know? For a parting peace?"
Charlie pulled away abruptly and read my face, "You sure? Do you think that will be best?"
I nodded, "It will help me get over it. I really think it would. If I'm not back by ten, I'll call you."
Charlie kissed my forehead, "Ok, kiddo. I won't wait up."
I smiled, greatful. "Thanks, dad. See you. Love you."
I ran up the steps and into my room, pulling on sneakers. I grabbed my backpack but stopped. How would I pass this one off?
I shook that thought out and slung it over my shoulder.
"Where are you going with a backpack?" Charlie asked as I walked down the steps.
I froze and looked at him. "I was, um, going to draw what it feels like being at the Cullen's house. Maybe it will help me out somehow. I read it somewhere, I think it was seventeen mag. Love, you! don't wait up!" I grabbed my keys and the note from Alice from the table and walked out the door. I threw my backpack in the passenger seat and started it up. Charlie waved from the window, and I waved back. Did he suspect what I was doing? I pulled out of the driveway and down the road, passing the Cullen driveway and driving all the way to the airport. I took a deep breath and handed the girl my wad of cash I saved for college.
"Where to, miss?" The girl asked. Her eyes were violet, which I thought was strange.
"Italy, please." I responded. I looked at her long blond hair. She would give Rosalie a run for her money. She was really pale too.
"Where to in Italy?" She asked, sweetly.
I think I saw her eyes get redder. "Um, somewhere as close to Volterra as possible."
She froze, "Volterra?"
I blinked and I think she moved super fast. I gasped. "Vampire." I barely whispered. Her head snapped to mine.
I shook my head, "It's nothing, ma'am. Can I please have my ticket?"
"Sure," she started to punch things in and looked at me nicely, "What is you business in Volterra?"
I shrugged, "I was planning on meeting my boyfriend, Edward Cullen, there."
She had a face of recognition. "Ah, young love. Well, good luck. I hope you and that Mr. Cullen meet up."
She handed me a ticket and I smiled, thanking her. She pulled out a cell phone and I heard a few words as I walked away.
"Master Aro." She said, "A human is coming to Volterra. She knows of our existence."
I spun around. "Your from the Volturi."
She froze and looked at me, "How do you know of the Volturi?"
Didn't think that one through. You just killed yourself, congratulations. Yeah, I was stupid.
"Um, I was planning on going to them, and um-"
She laughed a soft laugh and walked in front of me.
"Master, I will call you back in a moment." She snapped the phone shut and put it in her pocket.
"You were planning on going to the Volturi?"
I nodded. "I was going to ask for death, and I don't have any other vampire friends to kill me instantly. So, I was going to take my chances."
She looked me over, "What's so special about you that the mind reader dated you for?"
I blinked, "He couldn't read my mind."
Her eyes turned red, probably due to some contacts disolving in their venom.
"Ah, that is interesting. I will take you to Aro myself, he might find you worth while."
I gulped and looked at her outstretched hand. "Um, you could just kill me."
She laughed and grabbed my arm, "But then I would be punished. You are going to come with me."
"Your eyes," I said, rather bluntly.
"Your eyes, their red. Your contacts ran out."
She froze and looked at me, "Your kidding. I just put those in an hour ago!" She muttered to herself. She reached into her purse and pulled out some more contacts and put them in before I could blink.
"Is that better?"
I nodded, "Violet."
She laughed and pulled me toward an exit door. I was about to protest until a big guy that looked like Emmett came over to join us.
"Oh, Heidi, you found yourself a good catch."
I gulped, they were talking about me as food.
"I'm taking her to Aro, Demetri. Where's Felix?" Heidi, my kidnapper, said.
"Why waste such a . . ." he sniffed me, "Nice smelling human by taking her to Aro?"
"Because I know about your existance," I said, jerking away from his sniff.
Demetri looked at Heidi, "She knows?"
I nodded, "Yes, so please refrain from smelling me. I've been sniffed too much in the last year. I don't need other vampires, especially human drinkers, to sniff me. I've had my fair share of people killer vampires to know they want to kill me."
Demetri looked amused. Heidi pushed me toward the door. "We'll talk on the flight. I knew those Cullen's were going to fall for a human."
I opened the door and saw a small jet hidden amongst the trees. I was about to say something when Heidi opened the door and led me inside.
"Sit." She said, pointing to a bunch of chairs. I took my backpack off and sat.
"When Alice sees this, she'll kill me." I mumbled.
"The future seer? You know her?" Heidi asked.
I looked up, blushing. "Um, yeah. She is - was - sort of my best friend."
"You said you know human drinkers. Who?"
I gulped, "Um, some nomads. James is dead, but there is Victoria and Laurent. I don't think Laurent wants to kill me, but Victoria definately does."
"Why?" Demetri asked.
I sighed, "My ex boyfriend, Edward Cullen," I grimmaced at saying his name, "killed her mate, James, in the spring when he was coming after me. Tracking me would be more like it."
"And you know the Laurent fellow won't want to kill you?"
I looked at the new arrival that entered. He was cute, but different. "I don't know. If he still works for Victoria, maybe. He might do it to get back on her good side after that fight."
"The fight in Phoenix. The Cullen's were trying to keep me away from James, and Laurent went out on his own. He said that he didn't want to fight. A day later, James lured me to Phoenix and a ballet studio. He tortured me and bit me and then the Cullen's came."
"He bit you?" Heidi asked, skeptical. I showed her my wrist.
"Yes, he bit me."
She gasped, "But you would - you should- you aren't-"
"Edward sucked the venom out. I was in the hospital for four days, unconscious from blood loss, but I survived!" I said, fake happiness.
The new comer laughed, "I like her, she's funny."
I rolled my eyes, "My names Bella, not her."
Demetri cracked a smile. "This one is Felix. Big jerk he is too."
I looked at Felix, "I wouldn't doubt it either."
"So, who told you of vampires?" Heidi asked.
"Bram Stoker." I said sarcastically.
She grinned, "Who told you of our kind?"
"No one told me, I guessed. I got it right and told the Cullen's I knew. It wasn't that hard, really. I knew they didn't eat, didn't come out when it was sunny, and they went on camping trips every other weekend. There were legends about them from a werewolf tribe nearby, but that was really it."
Heidi looked like she was the only one that was listening.
I shrugged, "I don't know. It was just some legends. I think I have the book with me, actually." I opened up my backpack and handed her my Quilleutte legends book. She flipped through it at human speed, as not to scare me.
"You guys can move fast. I'm used to it." I said, softly. Heidi nodded and flipped through it faster.
"They aren't werewolves. They are shapeshifters." Heidi announced, handing the book back to me.
"Shapeshifters?" I asked at the same time as Felix and Demetri.
"If they get angry, they burst into whatever animal is in their blood. This tribe turns to wolves. Huge wolves by the looks of it."
The plane started to life and I looked at Heidi, "You weren't kidding."
She smiled, "Of course not. We have been watching you, Bella."
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