Chapter 2. This time it's Nils and Ninian! ^-^ As always, I'm very grateful if you're reading this!
"Ninian?" Nils said with a quizzical tone. "What's wrong?"
"Nils…" she mumbled. Quiet. "I don't know. It just feels… strange."
Ninian lifted her step and walked closer to the edge of the high cliff, until she saw the beautiful valleys and mountaintops, which tops sparkled with snow.
Everything sparkles here, she thought. Everything.
It blew. The wind bit her dress-fell and sent it back. Her blue strings of hair raveled into each other. It was cold. She shivered. But, truth said, she didn't shiver because of the cold weather. No. It came from inside. It was like it felt like. Like her soul had became solid in her body.
She should be happy. She was home. She was safe. She wasn't any different here.
Not at all, she philosophized. Why wasn't that enough?
Was did she miss?
Was it him?
Of course it was him.
But that was over now. There was nothing she could do about it. She was too different. She was a dragon, even if she looked human. She didn't think like them – didn't act like them.
Them – in the other world. And no matter how much she wanted to become one of them – it was still a dream beyond reach.
But besides their differences – they had one thing in common. Love.
Love was the same drug that pumped inside them. Through their factors. Because she loved him. How could she deny it? He was so simple – yet so perfect. So caring. Generous. Yes, all that.
She defied him.
But even that wasn't enough. Nothing was enough. It was over.
She couldn't leave the place that was her home. Couldn't deceive her brother. She was forced to betray him to achieve her dream of taking care of Nils.
And her dream had been achieved.
But she wasn't happy.
Only gloomy. Sad. Looked day out and day in at the horizon as if she waited for a difference. That'd never come.
"What's this feeling, Ninian?"
She removed her glance at the horizon and met her brother's eyes. He had the same golden eyes like her, same shape of face. Same hair-color too, but his was short and disheveled and her long and straight. It was lucky for her that she had Nils left. Without him she would had been nothing.
A being without life.
"A feeling", she stated. "That hurts…"
He signed. Started to kick the pebbles on the ground with his shoes.
"You know, I know exactly what it is that hurts."
She became mute. But inside she knew the same thing.
"Absence", he ended.
Why did the truth hurt so much when he said it? It was so easier to keep track on it when she thought about it. Didn't feel so present. But when she heard it. It was too much.
He walked closer, took her hand. Saw her in her eyes.
"Ninian, you miss Lord Eliwood. I see that."
"Yes", she said while sparkling tears started to run down her cheeks. "I miss him so much."
She squeezed his hand harder. Didn't want to release. Scared that he might disappear from her.
"I love him. So much. Nothing will change that. But I love you too. I don't want to lose you."
He was quiet. Looked down. Was forced to press his fingers hard against his palm to prevent his tears from start running like hers.
"Ninian, you can't remain here", he ended.
"What? What are you saying?"
"You can't remain here."
"But this is my home!"
He shook his head. Looked in her eyes with his head awry. It was a sore gesture.
"No. You don't, my dear sister. You belong in Pherae, at Lord Eliwood's side."
She shook his head in objection. Her long strings of hair tickled in his face.
Soft like silk, he though. She is soft.
"Of course I don't want you to leave me. But you can't have it like this. I can't have it like this. I don't want to see you so sad. You should be happy. Smile. Not look like this. Like all hope has running away from you."
"And you point is?"
"You've have to return to him. Return to Eliwood."
More tears ran. She was so shocked that she didn't know what to say.
"But, but you…" she said with her chin shivering.
"I stay here. This is my home. There is nobody that waits for me out there. In the other world. But there is someone that waits for you, sister. Miss you so much. You're not happy here. You're happy with him."
"I can't leave you!" she screamed upset. "It's impossible."
He smiled. A sad smile.
"You don't leave me. We are one. We are siblings, connected with consanguinity. I love you, Ninian. And I'll always do. But I can't prevent you from being happy. I'm not going to. And who knows; one day I may see you again."
"There is a way to open the portal again. There is. It's the only right thing."
"But I… I can't…"
"I know. I know the dilemma. I know that you're lifespan will be shortened if you leave this world. And I hate to say this but I'm sure that it's worth it. If only your years are filled with happiness. You're not going to find it here. With me. With anyone. Not here. Only with him."
It wasn't the notice of a shortened lifespan that scared her. It was the emotions. She didn't want to agree with Nils, but she knew that he was right. Maybe she should ignore her conscience and just walk forward to her own feelings. To her own wishes.
Even if it meant that she had to leave him.
"Nils, is this what you want? Do I deceive you?"
He smiled. Smiled through his tears that had started to fall.
"You deceive me if you remain here."
They walked closer to each other, closed their fingers in the others' and withdrew their eyes. Felt the force under their feet, came from below, made the ground pulse. She opened her eyes again, saw the big hole in the sky that appeared – the hiant darkness that soar like a thick mass around the hole. Felt the force that made her move closer to it. She held his hand as long as she was able to before she was forced to release it.
"Nils", she mumbled when she looked at him for one last time. "Nils, I..."
Then she saw his face with all its tears fading away. She'll always remember him.
No matter how many days-weeks-years passing. She will.
End of chapter 2. And chapter 3 will be up eventually, when I've completed chapter two in my other story!