A/N: Hey there! So I've recently started getting back into this pairing and recovered how much I love Remus and Sirius so I'm starting this story. I'm pretty determined for this to actually be a story that I will finish but I'm not promising anything unless reviewers kick my butt for not updating . Anyways, please review even if it's to light my writing on fire and dance on my grave. I will appreciate it none the less. Onwards!

Disclaimer: Honestly if I owned Harry Potter I wouldn't be writing fanfiction now would I? Not mine…sadly…

Song to Listen to: The Bitch of Living from Spring Awakening and if you finish that or don't like it then Totally Fucked from Spring Awakening.

Is this more than you bargained for yet

Oh don't mind me, I'm just watching you from the closet

Wishing to be the friction in your jeans

Sugar, We're going down Swinging by Fall Out Boy

Sirius walked into the dorm, dropped his things, and flopped onto Remus' bed with a sigh. It wasn't any reason it was Remus' bed that he chose to fall on, he tried to tell himself. Remus just had the bed closest to the door. It was the shortest distance to walk was all.

Yes, he said to himself. It most certainly was not because Remus slept here at night. Nope, not because when he slept he would curl in to that adorable little ball with his muscles all taut and gorgeous. And definitely not because in the summer he only slept in boxers and you could see his chest and it looked all sweaty and rugged and scarred…

Sirius groaned miserably and threw an arm over his face. He did not just think the word rugged. He wasn't that gay.

Yet, a small voice amended in his head. He scowled at the small voice and it shrunk meekly back into its little corner of his mind.

Who was he kidding? He was Sirius Freakin Black, for Merlin's sake! He was the biggest man-whore in all of Hogwart's history! He'd slept with many an attractive girl…and liked it!

Maybe it was a phase. The full moon had ended last night and the last was always the worst for Remus. It was as if the wolf had to get the last dregs of its remaining savagery out therefore making the toll taken on Remus' body more violent and pronounced. It was a terrible struggle, palpable almost. Sirius could see the flashes of his friend in the wolf's eyes quickly swallowed by the animal. It was hard to watch at times. Sirius could only imagine what it was like to actually go through. But maybe this was why he was feeling so…caring towards Moony. It would be a good explanation if anything.

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair haphazardly. He was also going to have to explain skipping out of class to Peter, Remus, and James. He knew James would never buy that he didn't feel well. He could lie through his teeth to everyone – McGonagal, Filch, heck even Dumbledore – but James always knew. His poor kids would have a hell of a time trying to get anything past him.

The door opened and James walked in and stood right in front of where Sirius was lying, his arms crossed.

"Okay, what's wrong?"

Sirius sat up to look at his friend then plopped back down again with a barely suppressed groan. He took a deep breath and sat up, forcing an easy going smile as he did so. He wouldn't lie to James. That would be too hard. No, he'd just pretend he was fine and that nothing was bothering him.

"Nothing…just breakfast disagreeing with me, I guess. Urgent and all that," he waved it off. That was the way to go. Make it a personal problem and the interrogation would stop.

James narrowed his eyes behind his glasses but shrugged. Sirius knew he didn't buy it but let the subject drop which he was grateful for.

"Oh well, it's not like you missed much; just some goblins fighting some other goblins about gold and stuff. Test tomorrow though," he added as an afterthought.

The door opened again and Remus entered, undoing his tie and unbuttoning his shirt slightly. Sirius' eyes followed the boy's fingers as he undid each button and watched as a tiny patch of chest became visible as he did so.

If only I could be the one doing that, thought the small voice again. Sirius mentally bitch slapped the voice for thinking bad thoughts and for the image that followed and looked at the space above Remus' head instead.

"A test Sirius will fail if he doesn't get today's notes," he said as he went over to Sirius and rolled him off the bed where he fell to the floor unceremoniously.

"He'll pass. He's brilliant without trying anyway," Peter stated with a slightly bitter edge that none of the boys caught.

"Yeah but he sucks at goblin wars," said Remus.

"It's impossible to be good at memorizing goblin wars. They're all named Ragnok the nasty and Blarvak the Bloody and such," James said exasperatedly as he started digging through his bag.

"He still sucks at them."

"It's so comforting to know that I have friends who believe in me and stroke my ego," Sirius said sarcastically from his place on the floor.

Remus nudged him in the shoulder with his foot and Sirius rolled away from him and stood up, brushing his clothes off theatrically.

"I believe in you. I believe that if you spent as much time planning ways to torture Severus –,"

"Snivellus," Sirius and James corrected quickly.

" – as you did studying you wouldn't be failing."

"I am not failing!"

"Yes you are," Remus looked at him and raised an eyebrow. Sirius wondered at the sexiness of that look then shook his head to clear the thought away. This whole naughty thoughts business was getting out of hand. Remus was too distracting for his own good. What with the way his bangs fell into one eye and the way the color of his hair and eyes offset each other since they were only two shades away from matching. The way his lips would part slightly when he listened and how he chewed the bottom one after saying something like he was now.

Sirius realized he was waiting for an answer and blinked a few times.


"I said I could help you study tonight so you won't fail tomorrow…if you want."

"Oh yeah…sure. What ti –?"

"After we torture Snivellus of course!" James sing-songed happily as he pulled out the Marauders' Map with a triumphant grin.

Sirius smiled and bounded over to where James was sitting on his bed scanning the map.

"Oh good, it's been a while."

"It's been two days," Peter said with a bemused look. Remus nodded at him in agreement.

"Listen Monsieur le Prefect, Snivelly hangs around Lily too much and soon she'll start thinking he's nice and misunderstood and other words girls use unless I interrupt those thoughts by showing her what a real man is," James rambled. Sirius just looked at his best friend with a sympathetic look.

"You don't listen to yourself when you speak, do you?"


"At least he's honest," Remus said as he went through his trunk to get a change of his clothes.

"Where're you going?" Sirius asked.

"Library; meet me there when you're done being 'manly,'" he laughed at his own joke as he took his shirt off to change.

"Manly" the small voice thought as Sirius licked his lips subconsciously at Remus' bare torso.

If you only knew.

A/N: So? Love it? Hate it? Suggestions? I have a pretty good idea of where I want to take this but, as always, suggestions for future chapters are lovely. Just click this cute little green and white button that says Review and write to your heart's content.

Oh! And if Sirius' out of the blue running out of class and all of a sudden crushing on Remus seems random and convenient? That's because it is. I promise you an explanation in later chapters. There is a method to the madness…