A/N: So, I got this anonymous review for one of my stories here and it inspired me. The review said something like, "You should write Jasper's POV of when Bella becomes a vamp in Breaking Dawn." That review inspired me SO much that I just had to write this. This is dedicated to you, #1 twilight fan!
Disclaimer: Not Mine, but please enjoy! :D
Chapter One: A Rather Odd Newborn
Bella's eyes opened. I could sense all the tension and anticipation in the room so much I felt dizzy. What I feared most would be the thirst and other emotions that came from Bella. Though all vampires had the same level for their emotional capacity, newborns weren't used to it and they were very dangerously moody. My fist clenched and I pushed Alice farther behind me. Bella could get angry or very upset and try to attack us all. Or, in her desperate need to kill her child downstairs, hurt one or two of us while she tried to drain the whole city of Forks dry.
Everyone was holding their breath in anxiety as Bella's eye observed the ceiling she was facing. She inhaled and we all started breathing again. I did have to admit it, I enjoyed this. I didn't have to try to not breathe around Bella for she was a vampire now, nothing appetizing. I felt her confusion and thirst. Oh, there was nothing like a first thirst for a vampire. Nothing stronger. Bella's wasn't nearly as strong as what I remembered mine to be or other newborns' thirsts were. That's odd.
Edward gently squeezed Bella's hand.
No, I thought in my head, but it was too late. Bella was thinking too much about her surroundings that she didn't know Edward was there. He had shocked her. Bella hissed and growled. She jumped up and crouched down. I grabbed Alice's hand, making my stature protective. Edward anxiously held his hand out to Bella. He was so conflicted: happy that she was finally one of them and he didn't have to thirst for her blood, and angry that he was being so selfish and had caused her to go through so much pain.
Bella finally looked at us and I tried to look as safe as possible for I knew my scars would be an issue. It could cause her to just attack me from out of the blue. Bella didn't seem to register me. I felt Alice's overflowing excitement radiate to me and she peeked around my elbow to look at Bella. I had warned her to be careful—Bella was unpredictable now. Even if Alice could see the future, Bella was dangerous to her. Bella's attention left us after a millisecond of studying us and went back to Edward. I felt her love come off of her as she studied his face. She straightened out of her crouch. Only a second had passed from when Bella had been frightened.
"Bella?" Edward said in a low voice. He was worried. "Bella, love? I'm sorry, I know its disorienting. But you're all right. Everything is fine." Bella was completely overwhelmed and I didn't even need my power to know that. You could see it clearly on her face. Edward carefully stroked her cheek. Edward raised an eyebrow, expecting Bella to speak. We were all anxiously awaiting to see how she would do when she opened her mouth. Bella instantly threw her arms around him. I felt Edward's pain. Bella was stronger than she used to be, that's for sure. Bella was confused about his sudden pulling away from her.
"Um…carefully, Bella. Ow," he said gruffly and Bella took her arms away. Bella didn't talk still, but she did mouth the word 'oops'. Edward smiled.
"Don't panic, love," Edward said and touched her lips. "You're just a bit stronger than I am at the moment."
Emmett was amused, as was I. Bella was the weakest of us when she was human, and now she was nearly crushing Edward. It was comical in a rather odd way. Bella was upset that she had hurt Edward. Alice was tugging at the edge of my shirt, begging me to let her go over to Bella. I sent a wave of disappointment to show her that it wouldn't be right to barge towards Bella. Alice poked the middle of my back in frustration. I smirked slightly. Desire rolled off of Bella and she was suddenly irritated. I felt like I was suffering a whiplash from al her emotions. Bella raised a hand and touched Edward's cheek.
"I love you," she said in a voice that was very different from the one of her human life. It was a lot more bell-like now. Edward smiled back at her.
"As I love you," he said and Emmett rolled his eyes. Edward pulled Bella's face towards his and gave her a kiss. Soon, they were swaying a little and I looked away, not wanting to invade their privacy. It was a little awkward, but, judging from Alice's emotions, she thought it was absolutely adorable. Our relationship together wasn't much about physical touch or showing affection publicly and I didn't quite understand why other people did show their love in front of others. It's not like you really had to flaunt your love life in front of the entire earth. I guess that was only my opinion, though. Emmett cleared his throat and I shot him a warning glance. It could upset Bella. At the same time, I was glad they had stopped. Embarrassment shot off of them.
Emmett and I have teased you enough, I thought wryly towards Edward. I thought you would've gotten over embarrassment in the eighties at the very least.
Edward chuckled and led Bella forward, keeping his hands around her waist. Edward had a smug smile on his face and I only figured it was because of his wife. He was proud to call Bella his.
"You've been holding out on me," Bella accused, her eyes narrowing. Edward laughed. All the emotions that came off of him made me wonder if he was going mad. He was so relieved that I was surprised he hadn't broken into song about it. He was also still guilty and angry at the same time.
"It was sort of necessary at the time," he answered. "Now it's your turn not to break me."
Edward laughed again. Alice was getting real impatient now and I was surprised she hadn't tried to be sneaky like usual and get past me somehow. Carlisle stepped around Emmett and walked toward Bella. I'm sure he wanted to know everything about her transformation. I followed him. Even though Carlisle was a skilled fighter, I'd be the only one to tell first hand by her emotions if she was going to snap. I'd be the best protector for this family because of my gift.
"How do you feel, Bella?" Carlisle asked, wary and worried at the same time. Bella hesitated for a sixty-fourth of a second.
"Overwhelmed. There's so much…" Bella trailed off, mesmerized by her voice.
"Yes, it can be quite confusing," Carlisle agreed and Bella nodded.
"But I feel like me. Sort of. I didn't expect that."
"I told you so," Edward whispered. It was true. Bella was the most controlled vampire I had seen in my whole existence. There were a few that came close, though they had snapped when they had first smelt a human. She must've been one of those cases. She had to be. Why was I getting so frustrated? I had gotten my hopes up about Bella replacing my title as 'the weak one', but she would soon.
"Yes, you are quite controlled," Carlisle mused. "More so that I expected, even with the time you had to prepare yourself mentally for this." Carlisle had convinced himself that Bella wouldn't be too bad as a newborn vampire because she knew it was coming. I had to disagree. No one could really truly prepare themselves for what being a vampire was like. Not even a human girlfriend—excuse me, wife—of a vampire.
"I'm not sure about that," Bella said. She was a smart girl and knew that she could just suddenly flip out and become one of the ravenous newborns I had once used for an army. Carlisle nodded. His interest was making me itch.
"It seems like we did something right with the morphine this time. Tell me, what do you remember of the transformation process?" Ha, the morphine didn't do a thing. Her pain had me wanting to rip my hair out and I made sure to stay as far away as possible from it all. Edward glanced at me. Oops. I had tried to spare him from becoming so depressed when Bella was changing by not letting him know how badly it was hurting her and blocking my thoughts. The cat's out of the bag. Edward was very tense now.
"Everything was…very dim before. I remember the baby couldn't breathe…" Bella answered. She cared so much for the thing. I was very against Renesmee at first, but she had grown on me in the past three days. Bella looked, frightened, at Edward.
"Renesmee is healthy and well," Edward promised. Pride radiated from him. He truly loved his daughter. Times like these made me wonder what it would be like if Alice and I could have a child. She had never really expressed interest, but sometimes she really did want a baby. I guessed all women had those moments. I didn't really care if I had a child or not—I had Alice. "What do you remember after that?" Pain, pain, and more pain. I answered for her in my head. I knew Edward was going to push her because he had heard my thoughts.
"It's hard to remember. It was so dark before. And then…I opened my eyes and I could see everything," Bella answered. She kept a good poker face on, I had to give her that, but she was definitely lying. Though Carlisle didn't know that. I wonder how much Bella's going to lie to him about her transformation because it could get out of hand, like all lies did.
"Amazing," Carlisle breathed. I didn't want to burst his bubble, so I just kept quiet. Edward might be the one to tell him if anything. Edward smiled gravely. He knew that she went through so much pain, but he was glad it was over. "I want you to think—to tell me everything you remember." Uh oh, busted. She was either going to have to lie more or confess. At least she didn't have blood pumping through her system to make her blush. Vampires were fantastic liars because we had so much space in our minds to focus on things. Bella's worry and fear nearly knocked me over, but Carlisle saved her.
"Oh, I'm so sorry, Bella," he apologized. "Of course your thirst must be very uncomfortable. This conversation can wait."
Bella's relief was instantly overpowered by her thirst and I went rigid. It wasn't very powerful—I could handle it—but she could go totally berserk on us. Bella's hand flew up to her throat, eyes wide.
"Let's hunt, Bella," Edward said and dropped his arms, taking her hand. Bella was nervous. I smiled just a tad. I tried not to remember my first hunt, but I couldn't. I shuddered unnoticeably, but Alice noticed of course. I caught her eyes and she looked at me with a worried expression on her face. I just tried to act like it didn't bother me, but I could never lie to her. She knew me too well. "It's quite easy, love. Instinctual. Don't worry, I'll show you." Bella just stayed in her frozen mask of worry. "I was under the impression that you'd always wanted to see me hunt."
Bella laughed a short burst of laughter, still reminiscing in the sound of her voice.
"Shall we?" Edward asked. His emotions changed from light to heavy. "I don't want you to be hurting." He said in a low voice and I knew instantly that he still felt guilty about the transformation.
"I'm fine," Bella said. She tended to say that a lot. "Wait. First." What would she want? Tension filled the air again.
"Yes?" Carlisle finally spoke. I stiffened, prepared for anything. She really should hunt before the thirst grows. Maybe she'd kill the dog downstairs, though. That wouldn't be too bad. Though I can't imagine how he'd taste. Probably terrible because of his smell. If we refused Bella something, she could throw a big fit.
"I want to see her. Renesmee," Bella said. Not good. She really shouldn't do that. Renesmee had a beating heart and blood pumping through her system. She was still part human and she could smell good on occasion if you dug deeper from the vampire scent. Edward was torn between giving Bella what she wanted and protecting his daughter.
Don't let her, Edward, I warned him, but he exchanged a glance with Carlisle instead.
"What?" Bella demanded. She sounded angry.
"Bella," Edward soothed, catching my observation. "That's not really a good idea. She's half human, love. Her heart beats, and blood runs in her veins. Until your thirst is positively under control…You don't want to put her in danger, do you?" Bella frowned, disappointed.
"Where is she?" Bella asked. We were all very silent and I heard the gentle beating of Renesmee's heart. Bella got thirsty again. I prepared myself yet again for her rampage that seemed to not be coming. "Is Rosalie with her?"
"Yes," Edward said. Rosalie was taking the role of aunt very seriously. Edward was upset that the dog had imprinted on his baby. If Bella's reaction was like his, we'd be in big trouble. Imprinting would be something mentioned in maybe a few years, when Bella was more capable of keeping her emotions in check. Though I wasn't so sure how we would explain Jacob still around and not at all sad that Bella was a vampire and didn't choose him.
"Wait," Bella protested. "What about Jacob? And Charlie? Tell me everything that I missed. How long was I…unconscious?"
He exchanged another glance with Carlisle. We hadn't contacted Charlie much except when he called and asked for Bella. I happened to be the one who answered the phone, though Esme normally answered it whenever Charlie called. I just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. I had to tell him that Bella was in Atlanta having some tests taken. From then on, he talked to Esme about how Bella was doing. Charlie didn't like me much—he was rather terrified of me—and always paid close attention to how I treated the rest of my family. Especially Alice. He loved Alice like another daughter and would have my head if I hurt her. He was very wrong and yet right at the same time. He should be afraid of me. I was dangerous and if he knew what had happened at Bella's eighteenth birthday party, he would never let Bella talk to one of us again.
"What's wrong?" Bella whispered, knowing that we weren't telling her something.
"Nothing is wrong," Carlisle explained. It was true—nothing was wrong, only very, very strange. "Nothing has changed much, actually—you were only unaware for just over two days. It was very fast, as these things go. Edward did an excellent job. Quite innovative—the venom injection straight to your heart was his idea. Jacob is still here, and Charlie still believes that you are sick. He thinks you're in Atlanta right now, undergoing tests at the CDC. We gave him a bad number, and he's frustrated. He's been speaking to Esme."
"I should call him…" Bella murmured before shocked jolted through her body. "Hold on—Jacob is still here?"
Carlisle and Edward exchanged another glance.
"Bella," Edward answered quickly. "There's much to discuss, but we should take care of you first. You have to be in pain…"
Bella's thirst flared up again and she swallowed.
"We have all the time in the world for explanations, love," he pushed.
"Okay," Bella finally allowed. Alice's emotions told me she had forgotten something, but remembered it just in time.
"Wait, wait, wait," she trilled and danced across the room to Bella. She was so graceful, even to our kind. "You promised I could be there the first time! What if you two run past something reflective?"
I smiled, remembering how Alice had bugged the heck out of Edward until he agreed she got to see Bella's reaction to her reflection. She was just so persistent all the time.
"Alice—" Edward warned, feeling annoyed. He wanted Bella's thirst to be quenched.
"It will only take a second!" Alice darted out of the room.
I'm sorry, buddy, but I have to take my wife's side on this, I thought to Edward. She's right—it will only take a second and Bella's thirst isn't too bad. Only slightly stronger than mine. Edward sighed while Bella gazed around curiously.
"What is she talking about?" Bella asked. Before Edward could answer her question, my wife danced back into the room, carrying a huge mirror that was two times the size of her. I wanted to help her and I walked over to her, watching Bella carefully, my eyes never leaving her face. Alice moved very fast around Bella and even though her eyes could see all our movements perfectly, Alice could catch Bella off guard. I had to protect her. I felt Bella's shock as she studied me for the first time. She was suddenly scared and she tensed into a defensive position. It was quite funny how we were both wary of each other right now. I smiled wryly.
"Edward gave me grief for not getting you to a mirror before the wedding," Alice chirped and Bella's eyes moved away from me towards my wife. "I'm not going to be chewed out again."
"Chewed out?" Edward questioned, raising one eyebrow.
"Maybe I'm overstating things," she murmured before turning the mirror to face Bella.
"And maybe this had solely to do with your own voyeuristic gratification," Edward teased. I felt Alice's amusement as well as Edward's and couldn't help feeling happy as well. My wife winked at him. Bella just stared in awe at the mirror, and horror. She had seen her eyes. Alice was absolutely ecstatic and I was surprised she hadn't erupted into a bout of squeals yet.
"The eyes?" Bella whispered. "How long?"
"They'll darken up in a few months," Edward answered. "Animal blood dilutes the color more quickly than a diet of human blood. They'll turn amber first, then gold."
"Months?" Bella asked, stressed and appalled. I took a step forward, knowing her first tantrum was about to happen. I was ready to put a calm wave around her, but suddenly the stress subsided into curiosity. "No, I'm fine. It's just…a lot to take in." My brow furrowed as I tried to figure this out. No vampire had ever controlled their emotions this easily. How did she do it?
"I don't know," Edward answered my question in a low voice.
"What question did I miss?" Bella asked and Edward grinned.
"Jasper wonders how you're doing it," he explained.
"Doing what?" Bella was still confused.
"Controlling your emotions, Bella," I answered before Edward could.
I can speak for myself, I teased Edward in my head. "I've never seen a newborn do that—stop an emotion in its tracks that way. You were upset, but when you saw our concern, you reined it in, regained power over yourself. I was prepared to help, but you didn't need it."
"Is that wrong?" Bella asked.
"No," I said, my voice revealing some of its doubt. It wasn't wrong at all, but it was crushing my hopes of not being the weak one of the family anymore. Also, she still could suddenly loose her control and become a normal newborn any minute. Edward stroked Bella's arm.
"It's very impressive, Bella, but we don't understand it. We don't know how long it can hold," he explained. Alice's impatience flew around the room as we got sidetracked with Bella's amazing control.
"But what do you think?" Alice asked, pointing to the mirror. I wanted to smile at her impatience, but my other emotions were overriding it. That was strange; usually Alice could calm me down and make me feel happier at any given moment. Not today, I guess.
"I'm not sure," Bella danced around the questioned. She was terribly frightened at her reflection. She continued to stare at the mirror. Edward sighed. "Disappointed?"
"Yes," he laughed. Bella suddenly felt shocked and hurt. Alice snarled at Edward's remark and I leaned forward again, ready to save our family from Bella's attack. Edward ignored us, trusting Bella a little too much for my liking. He wrapped his arms around Bella and pecked her cheek. "I was rather hoping that I'd be able to hear your mind, now that it is more similar to my own. And here I am, as frustrated as ever, wondering what could possibly be going on inside your head."
Bella was instantly relieved, but I wasn't. If she just hunted, she wouldn't have too much stress on her throat and she wouldn't be as likely to throw a tantrum as quickly.
"Oh well," Bella said. "I guess my brain will never work right. At least I'm pretty." Edward growled.
"Bella, you have never been merely pretty," he said to her ear.
Quit the lovey-dovey stuff and just take her to hunt! I shouted to Edward in my mind since he hadn't heard my previous musings of Bella's thirst.
"All right, all right," Edward sighed.
"What?" Bella asked, her eyebrows creasing together.
"You're making Jasper more edgy by the second. He may relax a little when you've hunted," Edward explained. Bella met my gaze and nodded, understanding that even though she was showing unrealistic amounts of control for a newborn she was still dangerous.
"Okay. Let's hunt," she agreed, getting suddenly nervous. Edward turned her around and faced her towards the window. "The window?"
"It's the most convenient exit. If you're frightened, I can carry you," Edward smiled.
"We have all eternity, and you're worried about the time it would take to walk to the back door?" Bella questioned. She was very naïve right now.
"Renesmee and Jacob are downstairs…" Edward frowned.
"Oh," Bella said, realizing yet again that she was dangerous. "Is Renesmee…okay…with Jacob there? He doesn't like her much."
I fought back a smile. She didn't know how wrong she was.
"Trust me, she is perfectly sage. I know exactly what Jacob is thinking," Edward said.
"A little. I don't know how…"
I sent Emmett a warning glance. I knew that he would burst out laughing at one point in front of Bella and then she could attack. He nodded, pressing his lips tightly together.
"Watch me," Edward said and jumped out of the window. Bella tensed before jumping out of the window.
"Right. Easy," Bella smiled. Edward smiled back.
"Bella?" he asked.
"That was quite graceful—even for a vampire," Edward complemented.
"Thank you," Bella said and her pride floated into the room I was standing in. Bella slipped out of her shoes and chucked them through the window, Alice catching them as if they were made of glass. She put her free hand on her forehead and shook her head.
"Her fashion sense hasn't improved as much as her balance," she grumbled and I rubbed a soothing hand on the small of her back.
A/N: Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it! There is one more chapter to go! Please review. No flames, please and thank you!