So this is something that I really shouldn't be concentrating on right now because I have another story, which should be my priority. I have had this story posted before under a different name, so don't think that I am stealing anything because I am not. It was Keels in case you were wondering.

Stephenie Meyer, as we all know, owns the real deal. I am just merely enjoying the fact that I get to play with the story.

Hope you like it

Hemorrhage by Fuel

Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was there something you left behind?
Don't you remember anything I said when I said

Don't fall away, and leave me to myself
Don't fall away and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

Oh hold me now I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you've left to go
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors faking lines
Over and over and over again she cries

Don't fall away, and leave me to myself
Don't fall away, and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

And I wanted
You turned away
You don't remember, but I do
You never even tried

Don't fall away and leave me to myself
Don't fall away and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

Bella POV

Jake rolled off me, our naked chests heaving and covered in a glistening sheen of sweat. I curled up against him, his giant arm slung over my waist. I laid my head on his heart and listened to the gentle pounding. As his arm gently rubbed up and down my back, I hummed in contentment. He lifted my chin and stared deep into my eyes, he finally leaned down and kissed my gently.

"I love you Bells." He sighed against my lips.

A small smile spread across my lips, "I love you too." He kissed the top of my head and laid his head back against the pillow. We fell into silence, just happy to finally have the time to be held in each others arms.

A piercing howl split the silence. I sighed, Sam was calling. I rolled off Jake and looked up at him as he stood.

"Be safe." My voice was raw with emotion. I always got this way when Jake left to go hunt vampires. I feared he would get hurt, or worse killed.

"I always am. Be back in a bit." He turned and ran out the door. I waited until I heard the front door slam and the soft popping noise of him changing. I saw his giant form run across the lawn and into the woods. I rolled over onto his spot and breathed his scent in deep. I felt my eyelids closing quickly and the last thing that I heard was a soft bark in the distance telling me goodbye.

When I first found out about Jake's ability to turn into a wolf, I had a little bit of a temper tantrum. I threw things across the yard and yelled at Jacob for lying and making up stories that don't exist just so that I would be scared of the world and never leave Forks. I then proceeded to scare Jake into thinking that I thought he was a monster. Once we both had calmed down and my items were collected, I was able to tell him that I wasn't scared that he turned into a giant wolf if he even did that, I was a little skeptic, but more scared of the fact that something could happen to him. He was my best friend. I wouldn't be able to live without him.

I guess it was just too much to ask for when my day got more confusing and scarier. Jacob explained his whole life to me. I almost hit him when he told me that he hunted vampires.

"Nice try Jake. You really expect me to believe that you morph into a giant wolf and hunt vampires? What do you take me for?" I stared hard at Jake and crossed my arms daring him to try and back up his statement with something other than the bullshit he was currently giving me.

"But Bells, when have I ever lied to you? You think that I would lie about something like this?" He face was pleading with me to understand and to accept, but at this point I just thought he had gone crazy.

"Prove it then." I stood my ground with my hands on my hips and a smirk on my face. I felt myself go into shock when Jake sighed and ripped his shirt off and started unbuttoning his pants. "What the hell are you doing?" My voice had gone high with confusion and panic. I rushed forward grabbing the shirt off of the ground and tried to wrestle it back on Jake. "Put your shirt back on for gods sake!"

"I am proving it Bella. Back off!" His voice went low and a small grow sounded out of his throat. I backed away my hands held up in surrender and let the shirt falling to the floor.

I heard a disturbance in the forest to my left so I turned my head to look at what was happening and felt myself backpedaling rapidly. Four huge wolves stood in the tree line. I turned my head to look back at Jake and felt my world fall apart when I saw that he was gone and a wolf stood in his place. The world fell away and I floated into darkness.

When I came to, I saw Sam, Embry, Paul, Jared, and Jacob surrounding me with concerned expressions. They all started talking at once, I shrunk back from them and held my head as I tried to make sense of all this. What in the hell was happening?

"Are you okay Bella?" Sam voice, the reasonable voice heard above the babble, came out strong.

"Yeah, just give me a minute here." I sat for a couple minutes as the boys quieted down, and just held my head, breathing in and out. When I felt a warm hand being placed on my arm, I looked up at Jake, whose face was eager and worried, "Okay Jake I believe you now, but don't ever do that to me again."

We all laughed it off, but Jake knew that deep down I wouldn't be able to handle something like that again. Over the course of the next months I was explained the supernatural world, and things got easier. I settled in nicely with the pack. I met Emily and Kim, and we all became fast friends. Seth, Leah, and Quil joined with the pack, as wolves of course. And our lives seemed to be going nicely. That was until we heard that one certain family was moving back into the house that I secretly admired.

I loved that old house, it looked like an ancient castle that held many secrets and showed great beauty. Vines climbed the columns that held the roof, showing that they were being neglected and needed motherly care. The library was filled with books, and in the music room sat a grand baby piano just begging to be played. The great meadow and forest surrounding the house held many animals. Great windows were all over the house and from any spot you could look out and see the far away distance.

It was a secret pleasure of mine to go to the meadow outside of the house and sit and watch the trees sway in the wind. I would sit and ponder about my life. It was fulfilled to an extent. I always felt like something was missing but could never find out what; no matter how much I thought or wondered about it, an epiphany about what I was actually missing never came to me. Even when I was with Jake I felt like I could find something more in life. But you can't just leave someone because you feel like you are missing something when everyone around you says that you have everything that you could ever want. Don't get me wrong, I love Jake and everything about him, but sometimes I feel like we were went to be more like brother and sister instead of boyfriend and girlfriend.

6 months into Jake and my relationship, we finally confessed out love for each other. I was still in the puppy love stage; the excitement of having my first love clouding the reason and clarity behind everything. That night I lost my virginity. I can still remember the dinner to this day, all of the details down to the piece of hair on Jake's black tux jacket.

He had lit candles and the glow softly illuminated our faces that hung close together. He had spread bright red roses all over the floor. My sapphire blue dress hung tightly to my body and it made me feel beautiful even when I knew I was just an ordinary girl. Jake looked up from his lap and reached over across the table,

"Bella, I have always felt this way about you but have just never said it." His face wavered, he didn't know if saying those 3 words would wreck out relationship, "Bells I love you with all my heart. And if you don't feel that way about me I can wait for you. I am sorry to spring all this on you, I know that you don't like to feel like someone else is controlling the relationship but I won't control it. You can control it all you want, because after all women should be able to have a say…" He was forced to stop when I put my hand over his mouth.

"I love you too Jake. Always have and always will." His face broke into relief and a huge grin appeared on his face.


"Yes really." His smile got bigger and he jumped up from the table and kissed me passionately. Telling me silently he really did love me. From there things got heavy very fast. The rest is ancient history.

After we were done, and lay quietly holding tightly onto each other I finally spoke my greatest fear,

"Jake, promise me one thing."

"Anything for you babe," It was now or never, once I said this I could never take it back.

"Promise me you will never leave me." I looked up at Jake and stared deep into his eyes, loving the familiar dark brown color that gazed back.

Jake's eyes softened and blazed with ineffable emotion as he spoke back, "I will never leave you Bells. I love you too much to do that."

I woke up with a start, sitting straight up in Jake's bed. I knew deep in my bones that something wasn't right. I looked around the room and frantically grabbed some clothes. Jakes wasn't back! Where is he? Is he hurt? I ran out of the room, ready to follow him to the end of the world and back. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw Billy sitting in the kitchen with his head in his hands. I felt my body go numb with fear and worry. Where was Jake?

Billy looked up and I saw the tears running down his cheeks.

"What in the hell happened Billy?" I felt myself start to choke up and he said the greatest thing that I feared.

"There was a great pack of vampires and they got a hold of Jake." He put his head back in his hands, "Bells I don't think that he will be coming back." His once strong and steady voice broke and great sobs began to take his body.

My brain couldn't take the information. He can't be dead. He loved me and promised that he would never leave me! I broke down, sinking to the floor. My legs couldn't stand to carry my weight and the weight of the world any longer. My heart broke. I started to shake and heard great screams of despair sound throughout the house. It wasn't until Sam walked through the door that I realized that it was me making the horrid sounds. I couldn't hold myself together.

Sam gently picked me off the ground. I turned my head to his chest and buried myself there. I tried to bury the pain and give it away. Make it all go away. My tears stained his shirt, as I clung to the man that was holding me together as I broke down. Embry came in through the tiny door, and stared at me as I let my tears fall freely. He kissed my forehead as he passed by me to get to Billy, who was rocking in his wheelchair back and forth, murmuring under his breath that everything would be okay. When in reality it wasn't.

"We will find him Bella. Don't worry." He ran his fingers through my hair in comfort. The pain became too much. I felt like someone was stabbing me with a knife while a bus ran over my heart, leaving it in the mud, dirty and torn. I welcomed the darkness that crossed over my eyes, eagerly embracing the numbness.

I woke up in a strange room. A small window with a little red curtain pulled shut was up above me hanging over the bed, a great and ancient chest holding many memories and values sat at the foot of the bed, creaking and wailing with old age. The bed I was laying in was simple and clean; something that one would always find in Emily's house. I rolled to my side and curled up into a ball wrapping my arms tight around my legs and letting the white sheets scratch against my skin.

Emily came in at some point and held me, rocking me softly, telling me everything was okay. I wanted to believe her, but I was letting the doubt overcome me, surround me and drown me in its sorrow.

I don't know how long I cried. It could have been hours or days. I just laid on the bed and let the tears fall freely from my face. At some point I was registered that Sam came inside and sat down on the bed, curling up around me and holding me to his strong and warm chest. I was breaking down. Everything was falling apart around me. I knew that some day it might happen. I had never thought about loosing Jacob before. I should of prepared myself because somewhere in the back of my mind there was this little thought that I would one day loose him. You want to be strong for the ones that you love, and you want to think and pray that nothing happens to them, but then when the day comes that something does happen to them, you are left standing alone in a battlefield that you can't control. There is always a slimmer of hope left, but you are so far gone that you don't care to register that a miracle could happen. Instead you cry your eyes out and wonder why you didn't prepare yourself for the worst, when in reality you cannot prepare yourself for a tragedy.

The happy memories were flashing through my mind. Jake and I walking on the beach, holding hands and laughing as we stared at the sunset stretched out over the ocean. Trembling in my shoes as I tried to get the courage to jump over the cliff; Jake finally ran and jumped off the cliff with me when I confessed that I didn't want to do it by myself. I can still remember the look on Charlie's face when we told him what we did that day. I swear it looked like he was going to have a vein pop from the pressure.

Of course there were the bad memories, but when you love someone you let those moments go and move a along with the relationship. I tried not to remember those times but tonight I just couldn't stop the onslaught. Jake yelling at me when he thought that I was cheating on him with Mike. That happened to also be the night that Jake first turned into a wolf. My hand coming hard across Jake's face when I went to confront him. The harsh sound of skin on skin was sounding throughout the room; it was like I was watching a movie and my life was being played out before me on a blank screen, and I didn't have a choice in what went on it.

I was being gently nudged awake. I open my groggy eyes and blink rapidly trying to clear my eyes and focus on the person before me. It was Sam. His eyes were concerned but happy.

I immediately sat up, whacking my head against his and groaning at the pain that spread throughout my head. I clutched my head and tried to speak, but my voice was scratchy and rough from the cry, "What is it Sam?" I finally managed to get out.

"We found him Bella," A bright smile broke out across his face, "He is here and healing as we speak."

I let my hand drop down from my hand. I was speechless and in shock. Jacob was okay. I breathed deeply and let my eyes shut on their own accord. I got myself together. The pieces were being put back together.

I opened my eyes and stared at the black ones before me, "Where is he?"

Sam smiled gently at me before saying softly, "In Emily and my room."

I threw myself off the bed and ran to the door; Sam tried to stop me. He tried to warn me that Jacob was in pain and not looking the best, but I didn't care what he looked like. I was in love with him and you never judged the people that you are in love with. I stopped running once I was in front of the door that concealed my Jake. I let myself calm down before gently opening the door and poking my head through the doorway.

"Oh Jake," my soft voice was loud enough to his sensitive ears that he was waking up. Oops, I didn't mean to wake him up. I smiled and felt the tears run down my face when I saw the brown orbs I had missed so much open and look at me.

"Bella," his voice was filled with so much relief and love that I couldn't help but run to the bed and run my hands across his face. He was okay. I ran my fingers through his hair and loved the humming sound that he made.

"You are okay?" I stared deep into his eyes, not wanting him to lie to me for my well being.

His voice was weak, "I'll get there in time," he smiled softly as me before stretching his arm out and wrapping it around my waist. He gently tugged with the little strength that he had, and I curled up on the bed with him. Letting my head rest on his chest, away from his wounds, but close enough that I could feel his strong heart beat.

His eyes closed and he sighed in contentment before whispering, "Bella."

I snuggled deeper into his warmth and let my own eyes close. Everything would be okay now.

When I woke up, I was once again alone in the bed. I threw the covers that had somehow managed to be over my body and ran out the door only to collide with Jake's hard and wide chest. His hands immediately grabbed my arms, steadying me. He knew that I would of fallen back on my butt if he didn't help catch me.

He smirked at me knowing why I was running out of the bedroom so quick, "Where you off to babe? Got a hot date or something?" I didn't understand how he could joke after something like this. Anger flashed inside me and burned.

"Don't you say that to me mister. I wake up and you are gone once again. What was I suppose to think?" His eyes softened at my concern and he held his hands up in surrender.

"You were supposed to trust me not to leave you," Anger boiled and thrashed inside me. Jake's face turned wary when he saw me barely keeping my anger in check. These last few days had been so hard on all of us, especially me. I had held all the anger inside me, and I knew that it would want to come out eventually. I was like a volcano just waiting to erupt.

I snapped, trying to rein in the anger burning and biting me inside my gut, "Well now you have to trust me in believing that I will be back later. I need to get out of here for now," I was waiting for a demand for me to stay. I was not expecting the okay that came out of his mouth, "I will come by when I am ready to kick your ass." I shot Jake a hard look then turned around and started walking towards the front door. I was pulled back when Jake's arm curled itself around me.

His eyes were solemn and his voice was soft with understanding, "I am sorry. I will see you later babe. I love you."

I nodded and felt some of the anger melt away at his words. I put my hand on his cheek and stretch up giving him a quick kiss before walking out the door and slamming it shut.

My pickup was my safety. I had spent many days sitting in the dark red trunk, letting the emotions overcome me. Jake had built the engine and given it to me when I got my license. I drove without really seeing anything. I was on autopilot.

Halfway home, I saw something flash in the trees off to the right of the road. It was enough to make me come out of my coma. I slowed down and got out of the trunk. A piece of clothing was hanging from a bush, and a trail of blood ran into the forest. No one was around to account for it either.

I knew that I had to go help whoever was in trouble. It was in my nature to help those that needed it. I ran into the forest, not even thinking to call my father. I ran faster when I heard a quiet sound of leaves rustling, and a gurgling sound, a last attempt at a scream. Someone was in serious trouble.

I pushed my way through the last bushes and stopped short at the sight in front of me. A young girl was being sucked dry by a man. I was not stupid and I was glad that I had actually listened to Jake when he told me about the cold ones. This man was a vampire. His long blond hair was hiding the damage he had caused to the girl's torso, and his strong arms held the dying girl with great force, enough to easily break her weak bones and dig into her flesh. He was a beautiful creature; there is no doubt about that. I was fascinated by the line of blood that trickled down his chin and neck. It was like he was calling to me. I took a small step in his direction, needing to be closer.

He lifted his head from the dead girl's neck at the sound of soft footsteps. Blood covered his mouth, but for once I didn't care. The red was strikingly bright against the pale white color of his granite skin. His stained lip pulled up showing his teeth, sharp and waiting for more blood. Quietly, like a panther stalking his prey, he stood up and walked towards me with such grace that I was struck dumb and staring. I had only ever seen Jacob and the pack walk with such grace.

My head told me to run. To run as fast as hell as I could, but all that I could do was stand there and watch him come towards me. Something in this creature was calling to my body and making me stay. It was an earth shattering feeling.

"Well, well, well. What do we have here? More food? Too bad I am not quite as hungry as before." He leaned forward running his finger along my chin and breathing in deeply. He was obviously pleased with whatever he smelt for he shivered with delight, "I got my fill from the one laying on the ground. She almost smelt as good as you," He picked up a piece of my hair and ran his fingers over it while he stared with wonder at the soft texture.

In that moment I knew what he was going to do, he was going to condemned me to a life that goes on forever, a life stained red with the blood of my helpless victims as they screamed for mercy and stared at me with disbelieving eyes, murmuring that we don't exist, it is all a dream, but knowing it was the unenviable truth. It was as real as the beautiful creature standing before me, leaning and running his nose across my neck breathing heavily.

"You smell divine. I wish that I had met you before that other one over there," He said pointing to the girl crumpled on the floor of the forest. No blood was visible because there was no blood for her to be bleeding. He stopped his nose at the point where my pulse beat wildly. "I feel like doing something reckless. See you soon beautiful," He whispered into my ear and then bit into my neck, I gasped as I felt his teeth sink into my soft flesh. A sharp pain radiated throughout the area. I felt my blood slowly start leaving my body, and this horrible burning replace it. My head started to get dizzy; I was loosing coordination and concentration. As the blood went faster out of my body and the burning replaced it. His mouth left my neck and it went to my wrist where he bit deep into my flesh, the burning sensations starting there too. He took my other wrist and bit down in the same spot. I was in too much pain to know what was going on. I was swaying from side to side, looking for something to hold me to the ground that was blurring.

I felt a strong arm wrap around me and guide me to the ground. I looked up at the man that did this to me. He smiled at me before licking his lips happily, "I knew that you would taste as well as you smelt," I didn't have any control over my body anymore. The burning was becoming too painful; a searing pain had started to develop in my heart. It was then that I realized that I was having his horrible pain throughout my whole body.

I also realized that the man had left. He had done the horrible act that he wished to commit and left me to figure things out on my own.

I laid there trying to think around the pain that was becoming more and more pronounced. I closed my eyes and tried not to scream as the sensation went worse. I was bring burned alive. It was like being stung with fire ants except they were all over your body, and not stopping.

For a fleeting moment the pain diminished as panic replaced it. Jake will find me in this situation. What will happen between us? The thoughts were eradicated as another wave of pain passed through me. I squished my eyes tighter and let out a scream. I knew that Jake would be coming to save me from a danger that was already gone. He would be too late. Just as I predicated, not 5 minutes later, Sam and the pack came running into the meadow, looking on the situation with despair. The air shivered with power as Jake changed and I opened my eyes immediately finding his. The brown orbs were the only thing that was keeping me grounded right now.

I knew these would be my last words to the man that I loved with all my heart, "Don't let…" I had to trail off when the pain became too great, "me become..." I fought the urge to scream, "a monster…keep me away from…humans." I realized that I had closed my eyes, "I love you Jake." I opened them and watched him with sadness and saw his face filled with disgust, "I am sorry." I couldn't speak; my body was shaking from the pain. I knew there was still a lot of hell to go through; I could only help I got through it fast.

So let me know if this is worth continuing..

Sorry for any mistakes, I tried to correct as many as could.