Jake had come to visit Bella unexpectedly one Wednesday evening. They organized to meet at her home, Bella had told everyone she had plans so her and Jake would have a chance to talk.
She heard a knock at her door and made her way to answer it. She swung the door open to reveal Jake leaning against the door frame.
"Why do you wait for me to knock? I know that you can hear me coming up?" He smiled as he gave her a hug.
"I know but I still like to pretend I'm just a normal girl sometimes. Now come on in I cooked." They made their way into the kitchen.
"And I thank you for always thinking of me and having something ready for me to munch on. I'm a growing boy after all." He joked as they took a seat at the bench where Bella had already loaded a plate full of spaghetti bolognaise.
"So to what do I owe this unexpected visit?" Bella asked. Jake usually came to visit once every two months or so but she'd seen him a few weeks ago.
"Who says I need a reason to visit you?" Jake asked mouth full of food. Bella narrowed her eyes at her childhood friend, she was no bodies fool.
"Alright, alright, I just wanted to see how things were going with you. What's new?" He asked.
"Business is great, really busy at the moment. I'm thinking of expanding, first to LA, then once that's ready I'm thinking international." Bella was teasing because she knew he was talking about her two suitors. Now it was Jake's turn to narrow his eyes at her.
"Jacob, are you asking a lady about her romantic goings on? That's mighty inappropriate." She mocked in her best southern accent.
"Since when did you become a southern belle? Or a lady as a matter of fact!" He teased.
"I'm deeply offended by your last comment." She joked.
"So…" he probed.
"I don't really want to talk to you about this."
"Why?! Who else are you going to talk to about it? You need a neutral parties advice."
"Oh really. Do tell Jacob, what wise words do you have for me." Bella asked.
"First I need all the details, to make an informed evaluation." He said as he handed her an empty bowl for her to refill with food.
So Bella filled Jacob in on all the goings on between herself, Edward and Creed.
"Hmm. Those are your wise words?" She asked him.
"Geez, do you need to lie down?" Bella joked.
"You can be a cow, you know that." He smirked as he made his way to relax on her leather couch.
"Tell me, what are you thinking? You obviously have a soft spot for Cullen, otherwise you would have let me pummel his ass when he showed up and had Creeds witch friends turn him into a toad or some shit." He smiled as he thought of pretty boy as an ugly toad.
"I spent 10 years feeling so many emotions towards him. Angry, devastated, abandoned, used, upset, unloved... just to name a few. And then to find out the reason behind it all, that in his way it was all out of love, it just threw me."
"I mean it doesn't magically make everything else better or forgotten, but it does make me look at that time differently. I think to myself would I ever have been able to walk away from him if I thought it was the best thing for him. Would I be able to stay away for a decade and be lonely and miserable just to keep him safe. Self-sacrifice."
"And Creed…" Jacob asked.
"I won't lie, if Creed wasn't in the picture my decision would be easy. Slowly I'd give Edward another chance and see where that took us. But Creed is in the picture. At first it was him taking care of me and taking me under his wing. But now it's more than that. I realized Creed has never treated me as defenseless or made any decisions for me. But then again he did meet me as a vampire not a human so I wasn't as fragile. Who knows, had we met when I was human he may have been exactly the same as Edward."
"Either that or he would have eaten you." Jacob said without thinking, "sorry, my bad."
"I want to be an equal in whatever relationship I'm in. I know what that's like with Creed, but I haven't had that experience with Edward. I don't know even know both of us being vampires whether that's possible. Or whether he would always see me and treat me as weaker and fragile Bella Swan. It's so hard!"
"You could always turn lesbian." Jacob added.
"Thanks for your guidance Jacob. You just solved all my problems, why didn't I think of that." Bella said as she threw a cushion at him.
"I'm sorry. I couldn't help it. Look from where I'm sitting it's pretty easy to see the situation. Creed is perfect for you. You can pick him and be happy. Nothing has to change. You've lived the last almost decade with him happy, healthy, or well as healthy as you can be. Enjoying life and being a successful business woman."
"What your issue is you've never had the closure with Edward. As in to see how things would have run their course between the two of you. Would he have turned you eventually for you two to live your lives together or would he have left you as human. If he did that he would have left you eventually anyways to give you a chance at a normal life. Then you would have still ended up at the same place you did 10 years ago."
"That was actually insightful." Bella stared at her friend. She had never thought about that. Edward was always against turning her. Would that have been their life, a few years together before he left her to do what was right?
Obviously it didn't matter now that she was a vampire, but it would say a lot about their relationship and its dynamics.
This was definitely something she needed to take up with Edward.
"Looks like I've got you thinking." Jacob mused out loud.
"You have. You definitely have brought up some good points."
"You know what I think you should do. As much as it pains me to say this, if Creed will agree I think you need to give Edward some kind of chance. It's the only way you'll know for sure. It will either give you closure on the chapter of you and Edward or show you what you are missing out on and maybe what you've been using Creed to replace in your life."
Bella definitely had lots to think about, the gears in her brain were working overtime. Jacob could see this and with that gave her a kiss on the cheek and let himself out to make his way home. He was sure what was to follow would be really interesting.