OK I AM SOOO SORRY, THAT I HAVENT UPDATED THIS STORY FOR A WHILE, BUT I HAVE BEEN SO BUSY! AND EVERY TIME I GO TO WRITE, I FREZE UP AND CANT DECIDE WHAT TO WRITE, AND HOW TO WRITE IT… I AM JUST NOT EMOTIONALLY THERE IN MY STORY RIGHT NOW…
OK SO I CAN SEE HOW MUCH EVERYONE IS READING THIS STORY WHEN I LOOK UNDER THE TRAFIC AND JUST FROM THE FUCKING UNITED STATES ALONE, I HAVE LIKE 5 THOUSAND READERS! THAT'S A FUCKING LOT OF READERS! I FEEL SOOOOO PROUD! THIS IS GREAT NEWS, HOWEVER… I AM FEELING A BIT DISTRAUT BY THE FACT THAT I HAVE NOT EVEN QUITE 200 REVIEWS… I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU ALL LIKE THIS STORY SO MUCH THOUGH, AND TO JUST HAVE EVERYONE READING IT, I AM TRULY FUCKING BLESSED BY MY OWN EDWARD GOD! THANKS FOR REVIEWS, FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE GIVING THEM! IT KEEPS ME GOING THROUGH THE DAY! SO PLEASEEEEEE REVIEW! I LOVE TO KNOW WHAT PEOPLE THINK!
THIS CHAPTER AS WELL AS THE REST OF THE STORY IS DETICATED TO AMY AND JAY WHO I AM DEEPLY SORRY FOR, MY CONDOLENCES... I AM SO SORRY… IN THIS STORY BELLA AND EDWARD ARE EXTREMELY LUCKY, BUT UNFORTUNATELY… NOT EVERYBODY IS… ROLL ON CH33!
"Charlie and Esme are right… This isn't going to be easy… But as long as I have you and my girls, like I do right now… I know that everything will be ok…" Bella whispered quietly and we sat there in silence for a while, just embracing in our little family moment…
"Mmmm… I love you…" I murmured against Edward's lips.
He kissed me once more on the lips and murmured back to me, "Love you too."
I pulled away from him, after another minute of kissing and looked into his eyes, "I can't believe it has been a week since we brought the girls home…"
"I know. It seems crazy doesn't it…?" He said quietly as he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer on his lap.
"Ya… I can't believe it…" I replied with a smile. "Are you as tired as I am…?" I asked him with a chuckle.
"I think so… If you feel like you're gonna pass out, then yes…" He laughed out.
"Sounds about right to me…" I chuckled lightly. "But I think my boobs are more tired than I am." I laughed out.
He smiled and kissed me softly. "I haven't been feeding two little babies with mine, so guess I can't agree with that… My boobs don't hurt…" He laughed out.
"Mmmm I hope not." I laughed back. "We might have a problem if they were…"
I kissed him once more when we suddenly heard a little cry from the other side of the wall.
"Speaking of…" I laughed out as I got up from his lap and climbed off of the bed.
"Again?" Edward said with a chuckle.
"I guess somebody wants a midnight snack…" I told him with a smile
"I want my Bella midnight snack, but I haven't gotten any in almost two weeks…" He laughed out."
"Edward…!" I chuckled and smirked at him as we walked from the room.
"Well… Your baby belly is already almost gone and… Your boobs…" He started to get out.
"Edward!" I laughed out.
"Just being honest baby…" He chuckled.
I rolled my eyes and walked through the door, into the nursery.
"Oh little girl… daddy just fed you your bottle two hours ago…" I said quietly as I walked over to Vivienne's crib and carefully scooped her up.
"Is she wet?" Edward asked me quietly.
I felt her and she wasn't… "No, she's dry."
"Well how the fuck is she hungry already?" Edward asked in amazement.
"She's a baby Edward…" I said quietly.
"No really? I thought she came out an elder…" He said rolling his eyes.
"You're not gonna get any Bella midnight snack, giving me that shit." I told him as I walked over to the rocking chair with Vivienne.
"Daddy is being a douche isn't he…?" I said to her as she whimpered and I sat down and lifted my shirt up snuck Viv up, and placed her at my chest. She quickly attached onto me and I shifted her in discomfort.
Edward huffed out and left the room.
"Ass…" I grumbled out as I fed Vivienne.
"I heard that." Edward called from the hall way.
I love my Edward… But he wants sex SO badly and I don't have enough energy these days… Don't get me wrong… I want it too… But I just can't… I am SO sore! Like, I still hurt as if I just lost my virginity… Except worse… A lot worse…
I walked down the hall from the nursery and walked into our bedroom, and over to the night stand. I grabbed my phone from it and dialed Jasper's number.
"Ey man!" Jasper called into the phone.
"Hey Jazz." I huffed into the phone.
"How are ya man? You don't sound too happy, to be a new father." He said.
"Man, I love my girls… It isn't that… I just don't know what is up with Bella…" I confessed.
"Is she sick? Is she ok?" He asked, panicked into the phone.
"Nah man… Not like that… She is fine… But she is just SO resistant…" I complained, out.
"Like, what do you mean?" He asked me.
"She doesn't want me…" I whined out.
"Man… Clearly she wants you…" He said with a laugh. "She wouldn't have gotten pregnant and moved in with you if she didn't."
"Man… She flirts with me, and kisses me all the time, when we aren't with the girls. But like, she just called me an ass and a douche!" I told him.
"Man… It will pass… I bet she is just still feeling hormonal and tired…" He told me with a huff of breath.
"Ya… I hope it fucking passes…" I grumbled.
"Well man… For your sake, I hope it will, but just for now try and go with it… Just be really nice to her and make sure her stress level is kept down." He told me.
"Ya… She's feeding Vivienne right now, but she is probably almost done, so I should probably go." I said to him.
"Alright man… Keep her happy… Say hi to the girls and Bells for me." Jasper murmured and then yawned. "I will be over with Alice probably tomorrow to help out."
"Alright… I'll talk to you tomorrow…" I said before hanging up my phone.
I took a deep breath and walked for the door. I slowly walked into the door way of the nursery and stood there looking at Bella in the rocking chair, with Viv at her chest and cooing something to her.
"Almost done…?" I said quietly.
Her head snapped up from Vivienne and she jumped when she saw me standing there. She put her hand on her heart and said, "Oh my god…"
"I'm sorry baby… I didn't mean to scare you…" I said quietly.
"No… It's ok… I just…" She huffed out still breathing heavily. "Oh my god you scared me…"
"Babe… Who did you think it was…?" I asked her quietly.
"I don't know Edward… It's just… We have a lot of people who are crazy, in our lives and… You never know…" She told me quietly as she repositioned Vivienne.
"Bell… Nobody is going to hurt you or our girls… Elizabeth, Rene and my father are all locked up…" I said quietly, and she looked down to Vivienne and ran her free hand through her soft bronze hair.
"Ya…" She said quietly as she continued to rub Vivienne's tiny head.
"Bella… I'm sorry." I said quietly and she looked up to me with a confused expression.
"For what?" She said quietly through her lips.
"For being a dick. The whole 'Bella midnight snack' thing was just a joke, and I didn't make it seem like it… I made it sound really greedy… I know, you are sore… And I'm sorry…" I said quietly to her.
"You don't need to be sorry babe…" She said quietly. "I have never deprived you before." She said with a smirk. "But I promise, that next time that we have some free time alone… I wouldn't mind us indulging each other a bit…"
We both chuckled and were quiet for a minute when I said quietly, "It's not just the sex Bella… I just want to love you… I want to love you as much as I can… Even just holding you or kissing you…"
"Edward…" She cut me off. "I know that you love me… And you know that I love you too… We made this little girl right here…" She said looking down to Vivienne. "And little Savannah… Because we love each other…" She said as her eyes suddenly filled with tears.
She quickly wiped her cheeks with her free hand and smiled at me.
"This may sound cheesy but… You gave me the gift of love…" She said as more tears came down her face. "Two gifts really…" She managed. "It takes two to tango, baby. And without you… I would never have this little girl in my arms and her sister asleep next to me…"
"Bella… Please don't cry baby…" I said quietly as I walked over to the chair and bent down on my knees so that I was at their level. "I didn't want to make this into something sad…" I said quietly as I wiped her cheek with my thumb.
"I'm not sad Edward… I just… I know what you mean… I love you… I REALLY love you and just… Thank you… You are not a douche… I never should have said that… You are the best thing that has ever happened to me… And now you and I made the other two best things that have ever happened to me… Our daughters…" She sobbed out.
She hung her head to look at Vivienne and I did too, and we say that her tiny eyes were starting to shut.
"Baby… It looks like Viv is done…" I said quietly and wiped her tears again.
She laughed and said, "I guess."
"Let's just get her into her crib and we can go into our room and continue this." I said quietly.
She quickly burped Vivienne and we laid her down in her beautiful crib.
"I love you little girl…" I said quietly to Vivienne as Bella wound the mobile over the crib. I kissed her lightly and Bella did the same. We kissed Savannah softly, as not to wake her, and we quietly left the room.
"We love you girls…" Bella said quietly before we grabbed hands and started to our room.
"Yes we do…" I said quietly to Bella and smiled at her.
"You are a great dad Edward…" Bella said to me as we walked in our room.
It's true… I have been a pretty amazing dad so far…
"You have also been an amazing mother, my love." I said to her with a quick kiss.
"We do make pretty great parents for only being eighteen…" Bella said and we chuckled.
"I hope so… I just never want to have to go back to school. I don't want the girls to think that we don't want to be with them…" I said quietly as we climbed into bed.
"Ya… I know what you mean… They have been a LOT of work and energy so far… But I could spend every minute of every day with them and you…" She said quietly as I pulled her into my arms and we were facing each other.
"I know Bella… I know…" I said quietly as I kissed her hair.
"Edward…" Bella said quietly.
"Yes my love?" I responded into the silence.
"Do you regret it…?" She asked after a minute.
"Regret what?" I asked quietly.
"Me getting pregnant…" She said quietly and I heard tears come back to her voice.
I tilted her head up to look in her eyes and she was indeed… Teary eyed…
"No baby." I said quietly as I rubbed my thumb on her soft cheek. "Why would you EVER think that…?"
"Because of me… Your parents are in Prison, my mom is in prison, you were basically forced to live with me because I got pregnant… And we had to sell my car for money because I made it so that we had no place to go, but Charlie's." She said through her tears.
I squeezed her to me and whispered to her, "Bella… You just told me not, five minutes ago that 'it takes two to tango' and now you are blaming your pregnancy on yourself. I don't regret anything, Bella… Just as you told me, you gave me two little gifts of love… And I have you forever… Do you regret it?"
"No. I don't regret anything either… Unless I made you un-happy…" She cried out.
"No honey… No… You didn't make me un-happy… I feel horrible that you feel that way…" I told her honestly. "My parents belong, locked up. They are crazy… As with Rene… That isn't your fault… And most of all, I did NOT move in with you, in this house because I felt that it was my duty because you were pregnant…"
She started crying harder as I told her how I felt…
"Bella… What brought this all on?" I asked her quietly.
After a minute, she responded, "We have two baby girls sleeping in the room next to us…" I wiped her tears and she continued, "I feel horrible that I took away your freedom… You are stuck to them for the rest of your life… And no matter if you stay with me or not… You will always be attached to me because I got pregnant at seventeen and had your children…"
"Isabella. You did not take anything away from me. I will not be 'stuck to you'… I love you and I will be with you until you order me away… I will be there by your side until the day I die… I will… I promise…" I told her as I looked into her eyes and held her face so she would look at me. "We both went into this perfectly aware that this could happen… We started having sex, and we both knew that you could get pregnant… You are a girl and I am a guy, Bella… We always said we would have kids, but now we both just did a little earlier than planned… And that's ok with me… In the future, I promise I will give you as many beautiful babies as you wish… Or if you don't want any more, I want you to know that I am ok with that… It is your body Bella. I swear I will be there with you and our children forever. And when you are ready, I will marry you…"
She looked at me wide eyed and her breathing started to soften.
"You will marry me not just because I got pregnant?" She asked quietly.
"OF COURSE BELLA! I WILL MARY YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, AND YOU LOVE ME!" I told her honestly.
"I do… I do love you Edward… And as long as you are ok with everything you just said, then I will marry you… There is nobody like you in this world, and nobody else I will EVER want." She whispered, still looking into my eyes. "The entire time I was pregnant… You looked at my face and not my stomach… You treated me with pure respect, as most didn't… And you still loved me… Even though I got pregnant at seventeen…" Her tears started streaming down her face and I melted…
"Honey, please don't cry… I do… I really do mean everything I have ever said to you… Not just now, but always… Every time I told you that I loved you, I meant it… Every time I kissed you, I meant it… And when you told me you were pregnant and I promised that everything would be ok... I meant it…" I told her softly.
She put her hands on my face and pulled my lips down to hers, softly… Her hot tears continued to stream down her face as I held her lips to mine. Her lips felt so soft… Her skin felt so warm… And most of all… She felt like mine…
OK EVERY BODY! THERE WE GO! I FINALLY UPDATED! THERE WE GOT SOME EMOTION OF EVERY KIND, AND A BIT OF EDWARD AND BELLA FLUFF I REALLY ENJOYED THIS CHAPTER BECAUSE IT REALLY WAS STRONG AND SWEET. I HOPE THAT YOU WILL ALL CONTINUE TO READ THIS STORY BECAUSE THE ENDING IS VERRY NEAR! I WISH I COULD HAVE JUST ENDED HERE AND PUT AN EPI. BUT I COULDN'T LEAVE SO MUCH BUISNESS UNFINISHED. I PROMISEEEEEEE THAT I WILL UPDATE AS SOON AS I POSSIBLY CAN! AS ALWAYS MY PRECIOUS'S… REVIEW!