Hey everyone! Sorry it took me so long to get up this last chapter. I have had it written for a long time and just kept forgetting to put it up. I'm kind of sad to see this story end but I guess its a good thing to finaly finish. I want to thank everyone that stayed with me and waited for the next chapter to be published. I know I have been unreliable but life happens sometimes and its unaviodible. I would really like feed back to know if you would like a continuation of the Sam story let me know! Well here you go the last chapter.
I waited a couple seconds and tried calling him again. I herd a phone in his room ring and then it went to voicemail. So he was ignoring my phone calls, how mature. But of course now I knew where he was and I wasn't giving up till he let me in.
I knocked again and he still didn't answer, how stupid did he think I was? I knew he was in there. "Reid can we talk please?" Still nothing. "Look I know your in there I'm not stupid. Just open the door." Nothing
"Reid, do you even know how aggravating you are sometimes? I think you do it just to get a kick out of my reactions! I can't believe you just walked away from me in the library. Look I know your pissed at me but please let me explain." I laid my head on the door.
"Don't be like this Reid, don't prove me right, don't let me win! Prove that you actually care, that you can show some ounce of emotion. That you actually give a damn about me. God Reid! Don't be a pansy, own up to how you feel, shout, yell, do something. Don't sulk in your room!" My voice had steadily got louder and I was full on yelling by the time I was done and was glad most of the boys were in class right now.
"Reid Garwin! If you don't open this door right now I swear I will tell everyone…
Just then his door opened "What in the hell is your problem? Do you think you're my mother or something? Cause your not, right now I'm not sure your even my friend!"
He was turning red and I could see the hate in his eyes, then they flashed black and I was thrown across the hall.
I was shocked, I wasn't hurt but I was on the floor. Immediately I could tell Reid was freaking out. "Sam, I'm sorry, I don't, I don't know what happened. I never lose control like that. Not even with Caleb. Are you ok?"
I stood up "I'm fine Reid and message received I'll leave you alone" a couple tears were running down my cheeks.
Reid stepped in my way so I couldn't leave "Sam, its not like that, I promise. I don't know what came over me."
"I do, I saw the hatred in your eyes Reid."
"Sam, I don't hate you. I couldn't hate you. I love you."
"Says the guy that just threw me across the hall."
He flinched "Sam, I don't hate you. I was just annoyed and pissed. I had no idea that would happen. Please, you have to believe me. Are you sure your ok?
"Physically, I'm fine I just have a headache."
I could tell he caught what I was getting at. "Do you want to come in and sit for a while?"
"I don't know. Are you going to throw me across the room again?"
"Fine, I don't care Sam. Do what ever you want if your going to be that way."
There he had that wall back up again and he was moving back into his room and he closed the door. I pushed open his door, "What in the hell Reid? I swear you are bi polar or something. Ten seconds ago you act like you care what you did and now your acting like I'm just some slut you slept with and kicked out. I don't get you at all!"
"Well Sam, what do you expect? You are like, I don't even know how to explain you! I tell you how I feel and you act like you don't care at all. So if you don't care then why in the hell are you here?"
"Because I felt bad ok? About what I said to you. I don't blame you for the shit that has happened to me, and I didn't know that you actually blame yourself, and I never would have known if Tyler hadn't told me. If I would have known I never would have said those things. I was just pissed at everything that was happening and you were there so I took it out on you. Last night I had it in my head that it was Pogue's fault and if I had been talking to him I'm sure I would have yelled at him too. But Reid, why didn't you tell me that's what you thought? I could have cleared it up for you in a second. Do you honestly think that I could think that? Cause if you do I guess that would explain the hate that I saw in your eyes."
"God Sam, no. I didn't tell you because I knew you didn't blame me. Your too sweet to blame anyone and I know that. It was just stupid insecurities on my part. But when you were sitting there practically yelling at me telling me it was my fault. I believed you, because that's what goes through my head every day. But I don't hate you Sam, the hate you saw in my eyes wasn't aimed at you, it was aimed at myself because I could see how upset you were and it killed me." He laid on his with his arm over his face.
I just stood there looking at him. It was strange to see him this way, vulnerable, it was a side to Reid, I didn't get to see often and I'm sure he never showed anyone else.
"I just wish you would have said something." I tear ran down my cheek partly because I felt bad for him and partly because I felt bad about what I had said. I sat down on his bed next to him and put my hand on his leg. Instant sparks every time. "Reid, just please don't hate yourself. I don't hate you."
"How do you not hate me? I seem to do nothing but hurt you."
"Yes, I will admit that you have had you share of causing pain, but its not the same kind of pain. You just confused me and I didn't know what to think about you and the whole Pogue thing. You made it very difficult for me."
I knew that wasn't what he had wanted to hear cause he grabbed his pillow and covered his head. I smiled to myself, he was kind of acting like a little kid. I moved farther up the bed and I removed the pillow from his face. "But Reid, you have been there for me through so much. If I needed you, you were there instantly. I ran to your room that night with Kevin and you made sure I was taken care of. You were the first person I said goodbye too when I thought Chase was going to kill me and you were the last. You were the first one that found me when Chase did take me, you had to have used so much power just to get there, and I still don't know how much you aged from that. You were there that night at Nicky's when Pogue put our relationship on break, and you were there the night we broke up. You have always been there for me Reid, so don't you dare hate yourself, because I love you Reid and I always will."
I waited for what I said to sink in. Then Reid looked at me his eyebrow raised and I smirk on his lips. "What did you say?"
"You really want me to repeat all that?"
"Just the last part." He sat up so that our eyes were level.
My heart was beating faster and I could feel my cheeks getting warmer. It was different when there was pressure on you to say those three little words. When I had been talking like I had been it was easy, they just rolled off, its not like I meant them any less though. I stood up and turned away.
"Oh no you don't." Reid got up and turned me to face him. "Now what did you say?" I could see it in his eyes that he was loving this.
I wasn't going to give him any more pleasure from this. I looked him square in the eyes "I said I love you Reid and I always will."
A huge smile broke out of Reid's face and he leaned in to kiss me. But I backed away "Heck no, I'm still mad at you."
"Oh come on, I apologized." He stepped towards me.
"I don't care, you still hurt me." and I stepped back again.
"You told me I didn't hurt you, you said you were fine." he stepped towards me.
"Well, what if I lied?" and I stepped back again, only to be stopped by the wall. Shit I was cornered.
Reid smirked "Well if you did then I should probably check you out to make sure your ok." I could feel his eyes rake over my body as he stepped right in front of me. "You look fine to me."
I didn't miss the double meaning to his word choice. I shivered and my heart rate was increasing and I was getting goose bumps from Reid being so close. He stepped even closer and our bodies were touching each other, our mouths were so close I could feel his breath on my skin and I could smell his wonderful sent. Sometimes I hated the way my body reacted to his and how he knew it did too.
He leaned into me and I closed my eyes and felt his breath on my neck and by my ear "I won't kiss you Sam if you don't want me too." He was whispering and I felt his hand by my neck and he was loosening the school tie, then he started unbuttoning my shirt. He only undid the top three or four just so my neck was showing and just so my breasts were starting to show. "However I can tell you want me Sam, just by the way your body is reacting, I'm surprised your still resisting." I felt his fingers lightly trace down my neck stopping right before the my bust line. I'm pretty sure my knees would have given out from underneath me if Reid wasn't pinning me to the wall.
He looked me straight in the eyes as his hand continued to do what ever it pleased and I wasn't stopping him. I bit my bottom lip as I stared straight back at him, I noticed his eyes travel to my lips, I could tell he wanted to kiss me and I was glad that I was torturing him just a little. He started unbuttoning the rest of my shirt but he didn't take it off me, then his had went up my back and unclasped my bra. How he managed to do that with one had I will never know, practice I guess. Then I realized what I had just thought, how many times had he done this already, in somewhat the same manner, I didn't want to be just another one of those girls. Just another girl to add to the memory of his room. I was surprised he didn't notice the thought in my eyes but I realized he was no longer looking in my eyes. He had removed my tie and had placed it on the door outside. I was shocked that he actually thought he was going to get away with this.
When he looked back at me I'm sure he was surprised to see the reaction on my face. "What's wrong?"
"Reid, we aren't having sex"
He smiled and rolled his eyes. "I know that Sam."
"I mean come on, I'm not stupid, that's not happening, there is no way in hell I'm ready for that…wait you know?"
"Yeah, Sam I don't want to have sex with you." I guess it was a mixture between my reaction and the words sinking in that he realized what he said. "Oh my God that's not what I meant Sam. I do want to have sex with you just not right now and not like this. Don't get me wrong I'm really over due but I'm ok for now and can wait."
"Then what's with the tie? And all of this?" I said motioning to the state of my uniform.
He smirked. "The tie was because I didn't figure you wanted baby boy walking in on you exposed like you are and that was just fun. I wanted to see how far I could go with you before you stopped me. But I was under control, that's one reason I didn't kiss you."
"So you were toying with me?"
"Its not like that, I knew you would enjoy it and it wouldn't make you all that uncomfortable. Like I said I just wanted to see how strong your will is and its not bad, which is good for us."
"We can mess around and I know you will be able to stop me if you really want to."
"But I didn't stop you."
"No but you didn't give in either."
Just then I herd the door slam open "Reid how the yell can you do this to Sam…" the voice faltered, "Shit, Sam I'm sorry I had no idea." Tyler had turned the brightest shade of pink ever.
Thankfully as we had been talking I had started buttoning my shirt back up so Tyler really didn't see much of anything. "Its ok baby boy, I was just leaving anyway, so no worries.
Reid hadn't really moved all that far from me so I could still feel him. I whispered in his ear. "You have my heart now Reid Garwin, don't break it." Then I kissed him lightly on the lips and walked out the door. The rest of the semester was going to be very interesting.