ZOMG BBQ LAST CHAPTER! but there's a sequel XDD thanks to everyone who has read and stuck with this story! LOVE ALL OF YOU!

I have also CHANGED THE STORY TITLE to: Chronicals of a Cimmerian Heart: Close Your World
The sequel will be called: Chronicals of a Cimmerian Heart: Darkness Rising

Chapter 20: Always Was and Will Always Be

Recap: I called my arrow guns forth and cracked Carron into the side of Riku's head, knocking him the floor. I jabbed the nozzle of Sharpshooter into Sora's chest, right where his heart was...

"SORA!" Donald exclaimed.

...and pulled the trigger.

CLICK. My golden eyes widened with panic. CLICK. CLICK. "NO! NONONONO!" I had forgotten to reload. Oh, fuck me!

"AERORA!" Riku exclaimed and I was thrown back with a harsh casting of wind. I hit the floor and rolled to my feet, but by the time I had prepared to move again there was that Kairi girl, and there was a sudden flash from her Keyblade…

…And there was a searing pain like someone was slicing me open with hot iron… It didn't take all of that to realize she had just finished me.

Kairi, not Sora, had just erased me.

I felt my body grow weak as Carron and Sharpshooter clattered to the floor. No… No, this can't be! Everything slowed to a painful crawl around me as I fell. My knees hit the floor, and I had to stop my decent with my hands.

No. "I… I can't loose!" My blurry gaze focused in and out. So this was fading? It… sucked but I wasn't afraid… I forced myself to stand, but I effortlessly fell back down—Kairi caught me.

"Easy, Xanze," She muttered soothingly.

I pushed her away—not hard, but enough so she knew to let me go. Darkness rose from my battered being, and I stared at Sora with enough hate in my golden eyes to freeze hell over. No, not hate but… it wasn't something nice. "I… failed? No, I can't! Dad, I'm sorry I tried…!"

Flashbacks overtook me for a moment.

Larxene is holding herself in the corner of the room, away from everyone in the Grey Room. Marluxia is talking to her, but he's not too happy to be walking around with his injuries.

Lexaeus is watching Vexen confuse Roxas with some scientific logic. Axel butts in and is treating the Chilly Academic like a geek. He's making fun of his experiments, and Xaldin has to jump in and scold them for being so immature.

Demyx is strumming his sitar, and my dad is yelling at him for being so loud. Zexion is fast asleep despite the obnoxious voices, leaning against me with his book held against his chest. I tell them to shut up because the kid is sleeping.

There's this girl… I don't know her. Do I? I see her sleeping with me, her head on my chest. When did that happen? Who… is she? But she's laughing with Axel and Roxas as Vexen and Xaldin start fighting.

Luxord is teaching Xemnas about reading someone's thoughts when they play their cards and he's using words with more than five syllables. Saix sits on the arm rest of the couch beside me and he squeezes my hand before Demyx can notice. Marluxia gets Larxene to giggle.

This is us… and despite not having feelings we all seem… happy. And we're a family…

At least… until the following day when the members leave for Castle Oblivion.

"No… I won't fade!" I gripped Sharpshooter and Carron. Sora… He took everything from me! He took them all and he destroyed our family! But I'm not… angry… because we didn't get our hearts back after all.

So we weren't a complete family no matter how I looked at it.

"I refuse to fail! Not until I… Get my heart back…" With the little strength I had left I rose to my feet. One step. A second step. I pushed past Kairi on my third step. The blackness was hazing my dead vision, and I was close to Sora now.

Was he standing? I couldn't tell. But I knew it was him, and I aimed Carron at the fading figure before me. Suddenly, my knees buckled and I collapsed into open arms… but I refused to let go of my arrowguns.

For a moment I was staring into Sora's face, but then it faded out to be my father's. "Dad? …No, Roxas?" His expression turned sour, but it was Sora's again. The shadows were claiming me; I couldn't hang on any longer. "You're just… Sora. I'm still… sorry…"

His scowl softened as I buried my face into his chest, "Xanze?" He uttered. Everything went black and the darkness truly, finally claimed me. "…Scout?"

Xemnas wouldn't last long against the Keyblade Wielder, and whatever happened to Roxas was beyond me… I didn't want my heart. After all of this all I had wanted was a family… The heart could have waited.

I wanted a family. I had a family.

…I want them back. I want them all back. If there was some way we could exist as our own beings, even if we already belonged to someone else… even if we didn't truly exist to begin with.

So we could be a family again, I would do anything. I would give up my life and…


A voice? Wait, didn't I fade?

"Xanze, I want you to listen to me very carefully… Sora was chosen by Kingdom Hearts, and he has found it in his heart to forgive the Organization for everything. Kingdom Hearts has heard his heart's light, and I am here on behalf of Kingdom Hearts."

"Who are… you?" I'm talking? But I can't see… it's dark but it's so bright! What is this?

"Me? Well, you can call me Aerith."

"Where… am I?"

"Oh, that doesn't matter." I shielded my eyes from the intense light as she appeared in her neatly braided hair and pink outfit. Seriously, where am I? And I don't exist so I… I'm so confused…! "Xanze, you want them back, don't you? You want them all to get back their hearts so you can all go on living as a family?"

"Yes, I do." That's not creepy… at all.

"Kingdom Hearts has decided that you and one other are going to be the ones who will save the Nobodies."

"All thirteen others?" I questioned. That sounded like a lot of work… and seriously where am I?

"All fourteen… Including Naminé and Xion."

"Naminé, you mean that blonde girl from Castle Oblivion? And who's… Xion?" I scratched the back of my head. This was all so much I… "Is that perhaps the raven-haired girl that's a vague image in my head? And if there's fourteen… Wouldn't that make it fifteen? Aerith, you're confusing me."

Aerith smiled warmly, "Oh, no… Your partner is from the Organization! So you two will already be set, and that will leave fourteen. Oh, and if see Cloud tell him I say hi! Whoops, sorry, but that's not important! Your chosen partner must discover the secret to a Heart before he can truly earn it back." He? Well, that clarified nothing for me. "Scout, will you risk your life and your heart for the Nobodies, so that you all can become complete beings of your own?"

I blinked at her. My… heart? Hesitant about my decision, I found myself smirking into my answer.

"Tell me what I need to do."

THE END! Sequel info time:

Scout is thrown into a world of insanity in order to save the Nobodies and make them their own individual beings. This won't be easy, seeing as her partner is- (What, did you seriously think I was going to tell you?).

Early sneak peak because I'm nice like that:
Once Xanze saves her partner, it's onto the first world to save the first member. Wanna know where that will be?
Hint: "I've got a jar of dirt, and guess what's inside it!" (Thanks to Loves Ironic Tragedy for helping me decide on that one XD)

Any questions or comments? Leave a reveiw or send me a message.

Now, it's time for utter randomness!

Character themes for the Organization Members in this Story (I only used a few lyrics from the songs... and Skillet and Sum 41 really do have fitting songs xDD)


I'm too sexy for my love too sexy for my love
Love's going to leave me

I'm too sexy for my shirt too sexy for my shirt
So sexy it hurts

"I'm Too Sexy" -Right Said Fred

(No, I couldn't resist xD)


I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut.
My weakness is, that I care too much.
And my scars remind me,
that the past is real...
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.

I'm pissed cause you came around,
why don't you just go home?

"Scars" -Papa Roach

(I kinda pictured him and scout having Faint as their theme lol)


see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and must have it painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black

"Paint it Black" -Rolling Stones

(Xaldin's was a little difficult...)


You got me going insane
And I can't get enough
So let me get it up

Ooh, looks like we're alone now
You ain't gotta be scared
I'm a hit defrost on ya
Let's get it blazin'
But you're frozen
That's what I'm saying

Let me break the ice

"Break the Ice" -Brittany Spears

(Don't ask xD)


I am just a man
Not superhuman
(I'm not superhuman)
Someone save me from the hate

It's just another war
Just another family torn
(Falling from my faith today)
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live

I need a hero to save me now

"Hero" -Skillet

(Whew, thanks to Skillet or I would've been stuck giving Lex something random... like Cliffs of Dover!)


It's a crime you let it happen to me
Nevermind, I'll let it happen to you
Out of mind, forget it there's nothing to lose
but my mind and all the things I wanted

Nevermind, forget it, just memories
All the pain inside a spiral notebook

"Forget it" -Breaking Benjamin

(LOL Scout Falcon Punched your ass!)


The secret side of me I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me
The beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

I must confess that I
Feel like a monster
I hate what I've become
The nightmare's just begun

"Monster" -Skillet

(I found like 5 for Saix but I just used this one... cuz I love Skillet)


I miss the part, when we were moving forward now
On our way down
But maybe someday, I'll be something more than love
Just know I'll never tell

We speak in different voices
When fighting with the ones we've loved
We speak in different voices
Why can't we say what we're thinking of

"Voices" -Saosin

(Wow. Axel cannot hold over a friend, can he?)


Does he,
Love you,
The way that I do?
Tonight's for fighting.
I feel,
The hurt,
So physical.

Think twice before you touch my girl.
Come around I'll let you feel the burn.
Think twice before you touch my girl.
Come around, come around,
No more.

"Think Twice" -Eve 6

(I used this in one of the chapters)


I met up with the gambler; we were both too tired to sleep.
So we took turns a starin' out the window at the darkness
'Til boredom overtook us, and he began to speak.

He said, "Son, I've made a life out of readin' people's faces,
And knowin' what their cards were by the way they held their eyes.
And if you don't mind my sayin', I can see you're out of aces.
For a taste of your whiskey I'll give you some advice."

"The Gambler" -Kenny Rogers

(fitting, is it not? xDD)


No apologies,
I never thought you'd be so
Easily deceived

We're mad with regret,
Memories that we'll both forget.
So far it's been so hard,
To cover up these scars.

I find its got so cold now,
That I've lost my heart and soul

"Noots" -Sum 41

(I actually a different song for him but this one is so in character...)


Best of cruel intentions
Finding what they fail to mention
No truth
All pretension

You'd give it
We'd take it
You'd build it
We'd break it
You sign and we erase it
You'd feel it
We'd fake it

Wasted education
Celebrating imitation
Misplaced admiration
Speaking for a generation

"Red Stars" -Birthday Massacre

(I wanted to do something different for her xD)


It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pockets and my head in a clouds
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hole on my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

"Hero/Heroine" -Boys like Girls



Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

"21 Guns" -Green Day


Wake me, c'mon and wake me up now I
Want to cut off my strings and break,
Loose of your control of me,
Cut your strings and be free with me

"Puppet" -Thousand Foot Krutch

(I kinda like 21 guns better)


I know you as complete unknown
I guess it's better you don't bother
All our truths should be left alone

I learned all the things you never showed me
took the chances you'd have blown
And to this day the one and only
You remain a complete unknown

So many years have been ignored
you've been gone without a trace
I'm Getting used to knowing you're
just a name without a face

"Dear Father" –Sum 41

(New Ability unlocked: Falcon Pawnch! xD)