Hey everyone! This is an Edward's point of view of the second and the very beginning of the third chapter of my other story, The List!

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"Man, can you help me out with something?" Jasper begged me around eleven in the morning. I was still in bed and I was exhausted. I worked late the night before but who was I to deny my best friend?

"What is it?" I mumbled, sitting up slowly.

"My parents are coming over for dinner tonight."

"Okay..." I said slowly. "What does that have to do with me and my help?"

"I was wondering if you'd help me kick around some ideas for dinner and maybe go grocery shopping with me?" He asked, a little bit of embarrassment tainting his southern accent.

"Alice not willing to play the doting wife and help you?" I teased him, getting up from the bed and stretching.

"No," he snorted. "Actually, she has plans. Shes having lunch with a good friend of ours from high school."

I looked at my clock again. It was my day off and it wasn't like I had anything to do. I was planning mostly on sleeping, but I didn't mind helping Jasper. He knew I enjoyed cooking just about as much as he liked baking.

"How about we grab some sushi before hand? I just woke up."

"Meet you at that place we went to last week?" He asked, getting more excited. Jasper hated shopping for grocery but not nearly as much as Alice did. It was too domestic for her taste. And he hated shopping on his own. He always had someone with him, he didn't know what it was like to be alone.

But, I did.

"Be there in twenty."

I ordered a salad and a glass of water to go along with my rolls. Jasper ordered us a pot of green tea and he was swirling the light green liquid around in the tiny white cup. He seemed totally lost in thought. "Where's your head?" I asked.

He smirked slightly, "just thinking about the girl Alice is hanging out with. She's the reason I met Alice," he smiled wistfully before he chuckled quietly, "I actually had a small crush on Bella for a time so I tried to get closer into her little circle of friends. Alice was her best friend and when I met her... God, I just forgot about everyone else."

"Bella?" I raised an eyebrow. "So, does Alice know you had a crush on this girl?"

He laughed, "yes. She was teasing me about it last night. Bella always been a very... full... girl. Very curvy. She had a great rack. I wonder if she still has one," he said, his thoughts trailing off. I laughed at him, taking a sip of my own tea.

"You're awful."

"At least I'm getting laid," he challenged in his shit eating grin sort of way. I rolled my eyes at him, trying to ignore his words. "When was the last time?"

"Jane," I said. He scoffed, "yeah, I know. I know. Trust me, I fucking know."

"Maybe I can introduce you to Bella," he said, wiggling his eyebrows. "She was so hot when we were in school in that nerdy sort of way. You know, geeky hot before geeks were hot."

"You're a loser, you know that?" I asked him, annoyed. "A real git."

He smiled and I knew an interesting comment was coming next but he was distracted by our food. I was grateful for that. I wanted the subject dropped and very quickly.

Jasper had always been with Alice so he didn't understand the position I was in. I didn't want to just have sex. I wanted to settle down one day and have kids. I'd always wanted that. That's all I ever wanted. Before I had lost the weight I thought that it would never happen. And then I lost it and I had so much hope.

But here I was, losing hope again.

"You do realize that this makes us look like a couple of pillow biters," I asked him as we roamed the aisles of the food store. Jasper had yet to decide what he was making for dinner. I suggested Italian. He was ignoring me.

"You want to hold my hand, honey?" He asked, blowing me a kiss stupidly.

I gagged a little.

"You frighten me," I said, crossing my arms over my chest. "How about Thai?"

"Dude, they're from small town Texas. They're never had Thai food before," he said, rolling his eyes.

"Fried Chicken and mashed potatoes then," I countered. He grinned, nodding his head like a little kid. "Don't forget the corn bread and gravy."

"See! This is why I bring you along!" He said, patting my back.

He honestly didn't me along to figure out that meal but the company was nice. I wasn't going to complain about that.

We brought the two bags into his house and the place reeked. I mean, the smell was super strong and one I knew rather well.

I had lived with Jasper and Alice after all.

And I was a musician. I think it was a requirement to smoke it at least once.

"Is that pot?" I asked him with a raised eyebrow.

"What are those girls up to?" He said, putting down the bag in the foyer. I followed suit and trailed Jasper into the living room. There were Chinese boxes on the table, the smell getting stronger and stronger the closer we went into the kitchen. "I bet they're eating cake."

"How?" I heard a soft and beautiful voice say that certainly didn't belong to Alice. I could only assume that it belonged to their friend Bella. Well, if her voice any indication, she was still attractive. It wasn't exactly that normal high pitched female voice. It was a bit raspier. I liked it. It was different.

"A ton of these are easy! You just have to get up and do them. Some of them involves others," Alice said in an excited voice. It was her 'I've smoked too much' voice. It just got higher and higher the higher she got. "But I think once you gain a bit of confidence it'll be easy enough."

I wondered what the bloody hell they were talking about.

"If you say so," the raspy voice replied, a soft and sad sigh in her tone.

"I do! And I'm always right!" Alice said. I just rolled my eyes. Jasper did the same.

"Sure, that's just what you want everyone to believe!" Jasper said, letting our presence be known. Alice would have gotten annoyed if she knew we were there just watching them. She'd tell us that we were just doing it on purpose to try to make her paranoid.

"Jazzy!" Alice squealed, running up to Jasper and throwing her arms around his neck. He laughed and kissed her, pulling her feet off the ground. Honestly though, I didn't really notice them. I noticed the woman sitting in the stool. From behind I saw her awesome curves. And I do mean awesome. When she turned around I saw that her skin was slightly flushed, her high and round cheeks lightly dotted with a frosting of caramel colored freckles. Her deep chocolate brown eyes were dilated, showing that she was indeed high. I smiled at the fact, because honestly, it was funny. Her full mouth opened slightly, her eyes focusing solely on me.

I flushed at her attention and I hoped to God she didn't notice.

"Ooo!" Alice giggled loudly for some reason. "Bella, this is Edward. He's a total stranger."

"What?" The girl asked, confused. I was confused by the introduction as well, but I blamed it on the fact that she was stoned.

I had heard her say and do stranger things.

"The list! It's on the list. The stranger one," Alice rambled, pointing at a piece of paper on the island. I raised an eyebrow at Jasper but he just shrugged. Alice hopped down from his arms and went straight over to Bella, who was still looking at me intently.

I wondered if she thought I was attractive as I thought she was.

I'll admit it. I always liked women who had 'junk in the trunk' as my Uncle Emmett so crudely put it. A woman with something to hold onto and love was just so much better. I loved the softness. The fleshy thighs and hips, large breasts and...

Just looking at this woman and I was getting a major erection. But I had very little time to dwell on that because Alice suddenly shoved Bella in my direction.

I grabbed her quickly as she slammed into my chest. She was much shorter than me. Maybe five foot five at the most. I put my arms around her waist so she wouldn't fall to the floor. Her large brown eyes gazed into my own, her face turning a darker shade of delicious red. Her full lips parted and she panted out a soft, chocolate smelling breath.

And much to my delighted surprise, she kissed me. Her small hands went to my face, pulling me down so it would be easier as she reached up on tip toes. At first I didn't move, not knowing what to do.

Should I push her away and be a gentlemen? Or should I kiss her in return?

Kiss her won out.

One of my hands slid up her back, brushing against the clasp of her bra as she deepened the kiss considerable. I imagined taking off her shirt and taking off her bra, right in the middle of this kitchen.

Then taking her on the counter top.

I had to stop watching so much damn porn.

I don't know exactly how long we kissed, but I didn't care. I honestly began to forget about the others there. Finally I heard my friend say,"what the hell?" His wife just giggled like the high idiot she was.

Alice said something to Jasper but I honestly didn't really hear it. I heard him laugh loudly and ask her a question. She answered, but it was sort of a blur.

In my head I was trying to figure out how to get her into a bed without seeming like a one night stand asshat that was simply taking advantage of her baked state.

But, I wasn't that kind of guy. I knew I needed to stop before I finally did drag her into their spare bedroom. But, for the life of me, I couldn't let go of her. A crowbar couldn't have removed my arms from her soft little body.

"Hi, I'm Edward," I breathed out stupidly. If I didn't know better I would have sworn I had gotten a bit of a contact high.

"I'm Bella," she muttered as she blushed.

"Bella, you taste like chocolate," I laughed, furthering my idea. Honestly, I knew that wasn't the case. Maybe I was just high off of her. But still, I rambled on like I normally did when I was nervous. "I think that was the best greeting I've ever gotten before."

Jasper had to break up our moment though.


"Man, do I get kissed? I want to be greeted like that!" Jasper laughed, pulling her into a tight hug before kissing her soft cheek. I wanted to rip her out of his arms and just hold onto her. I wasn't that stupid though. I wasn't an animal. "So good to see you again, Bella!"

"Good to see you too."

She was blushing so brightly. It was so damn beautiful.

"So, if you girls don't mind, can you take this party else where? My parents are coming over in two hours and I need to start cooking," Jasper said as he rolled his eyes and smiled over at me. I knew he was wondering if I'd end up joining the girl in a smoke, not that I had done it since I'd gotten thin. I didn't want to be tempted into over eating. If a stoner had a choice between a carrot and a cookie, honestly, which would he pick? I didn't need the sugar.

If I had gotten stoned right then, it would have been horrible. I would have ended up taking Bella right in front of Alice and I was completely sure that Jasper would not be pleased or amused.

I tried to be a gentlemen, but God knows I had trouble controlling my thoughts.

"Oh, God! I'm imposing! I'm so sorry. I should go," Bella's eyes became wide as she snatched that piece of paper off the counter that Alice had been pointing to earlier.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa!" Alice said, shaking her head. "It's fine, sweetie! You don't have to go yet. And don't be so paranoid. You're not imposing at all."

Alice was right. She was paranoid. I wasn't surprised. I would have been paranoid as well if I was smoking in a place I had never been before with a friend I hadn't seen in years. Especially after I randomly kissed a person.

"Are you sure?"

Oh, my god, my brain shouted. She was biting her plush bottom lip, making it redder and more plump. I hoped no one pointed at the erection I was now sporting.

Cold shower. That's what I'd be taking once I got home. A cold cold long long shower.

"I really should go. I need to get some work done at home," she added in quickly.

"You're not driving in your condition," Jasper frowned deeply.

"Jasper's right," Alice agreed.

Like hell I was going to let her drive while stoned. I would have never allowed that, even if I didn't want to shag her. I wouldn't have forgiven myself if something happened to her.

"Hey, I should get going myself," I placed my hand on her back and I felt her shiver slightly. I wondered if she felt it too. That pull. That heat that I felt. "I could take you home. Where do you live?"

"Like ten minutes down the street."

"Oh! That would be good. And tomorrow Jasper and I can drop off your car. We can do lunch or something again and talk about the list," Alice clapped her hands, her face getting redder.

Mentally I was doing a little dance. I was jumping for joy. I was going to get to spend time with this beautiful woman alone.

And maybe, just maybe, I'd get to kiss her again.

She looked at me for a long moment, worrying that bottom lip again. If she didn't stop I'd probably end up having a mess to clean up later. "If you don't mind?" She finally asked.

"It would be my honor," I said, swinging my arm in front of me like I was a gentlemen. I was trying to make it seem like it wasn't a big deal and that I wasn't freaking out just a little bit. Or a lot. A fucking lot.

Jasper raised an eyebrow at me as the girls said their goodbyes to each other. I just shrugged and smiled innocently. He rolled his eyes in return before mouthing the words 'have fun'.

At first this rather frustrated me. I didn't want to make her feel like a tart or something. But then I thought about it. She kissed me first. And by god, it was fun. And I wanted to do it again.

I also wanted to know why she kissed me, though I didn't really care the reason. I was just glad she did.

Because it was, by far, the best kiss I had ever received.

"So, may I ask why you kissed me?" I finally asked, unable to keep the jovial mood out of my voice. She wasn't as high as she was when we first got there, but she still was. And more than a little paranoid when she quickly shook her head and told me no. I snickered at her response. "Okay, that bad?"

"I'm just embarrassed is all. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable. Your wife, girlfriend, boyfriend, will probably beat my ass."

Boyfriend? Oh, hell no! We couldn't have her thinking that at all. I was very much unattached. And extremely straight. As an arrow.

"I have none of the above," I said quickly, trying to keep my eyes on the road. I wanted to look at her so badly so I could see her reaction.

Would she be pleased or would it not matter?

"Well, that's some comfort. It's bad enough that I threw my chunky self at you. I'm sure a good looking guy like you gets a lot better offers than me," she sighed heavily.

What the hell was she talking about? Yes, she was a little bit rounder than most women but she was by no means fat. I loved her shape. I loved her body.

In fact, I wanted to kiss and lick and suck and taste every single inch of it.

"Are you fishing for compliments?" I asked after clearing my throat, a little too amused and arroused with my last thought.

"What?" She asked, truly confused.

Did she not see how? How was that not possible?

"You are a beautiful woman. I wouldn't have kissed you back if I didn't want to."

"Like I'm your type," she scoffed and it was all I could do not to pull over the car to shake her. Thankfully we pulled up to her apartment. I wanted to grab her up in my arms and tell her that she was beautiful until she believed me. But, for once I decided to try and be a little bit smoother than normal.

"You are, actually. I happen to be extremely attracted to brunettes."

"That's not what I meant," she said in a tiny and very sad voice.

I hated that. Honestly, I knew how she felt. For a very long time I felt the same way about myself but god, she was beautiful. How could she not know?

"I know. Come on, let me walk you up. I won't feel right until I'm sure you're safely back in your apartment." I got out of the car and quickly went to the other side to help her out. I didn't know if she was stable on her feet or not.

She looked at my fingers for a long minute before taking my hand slowly. Was she scared of them? Or of me?

"Thanks for this," she said as we walked towards the large glass and metal building.

It was one of the highest end apartments in the city. I mean, really nice. I couldn't help but wonder where she got the money for this place. She didn't seem like she was some spoiled little rich girl. I hoped she wasn't.

"It's my pleasure. This is a really nice building. You must be good at whatever you do."

She blushed brightly for some reason, like she was embarrassed. "I own my own business. I work from my home so I like it to be as nice as possible."

"That's awesome. What type of business?" I asked, trying to make conversation.

It suddenly felt so awkward.


"Wow, you don't meet many woman in the computer biz," I answered. I wanted to smack myself very hard on the forehead for my extremely dim response. She was going to think I was an idiot.

"So, this is mine," she said, opening the door very quickly. "Thanks again."

I had two choices at this point. I could be a coward and just let her go into her apartment without saying anything else. Or, I could do something totally out of my character and do something about it. Make some sort of move.

The choice wasn't that hard to make.

"Bella, wait," I said, making her turn around. She looked up at me with her large doe eyes, her breath once again coming out in soft short pants. Finally, I spoke, "thank you."

"For what?" She whimpered out, her voice soft and barely above a whisper. Just the memory of her lips on mine made me lick my lips in desire. I wanted to taste her on them again so badly.

"For kissing me earlier. Probably the best kiss I've ever had," I told her truthfully.

She seemed totally shocked. I wasn't really sure why. "Really?"

"Best tasting, too," I laughed as I noticed a tiny smudge of fudge on the corner of her full delicious looking lips. "In fact, you still have some chocolate on your mouth."

"Oh, God!" She flushed. I brought my hand up to her face, going to wipe it away with my thumb but then her hand touched mine. Electricity sparked through my entire system and it was like I was suddenly on fire.

My body acted without permission, my mind making itself up. I was then on acting on instincts.

"Let me help you with that," I said, before leaning in and once again tasting her sweet mouth. And I knew right away it wasn't the chocolate that made her taste so good. It was just her natural flavor. Her hands went up to my shirt, clutching it almost desperately. It was like she was afraid I was going to suddenly flee.

I wanted to shout, 'no, my sweet girl! No! I'm not going anywhere.' But I was too busy kissing her.

Pressing her back against the door, her free hand searched for the door knob. Finally, after what seemed like forever, the door flung open.

I pulled my lips a hair's breath away, smiling uncontrollably at the fact that I was so... turned on. I had never felt so warm in my life. I was on fucking fire because of this woman. I wanted her. I had to have her. Gentlemen be damned.

Maybe that's why the words slipped so easily from my mouth.

"May I come in?"

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