A/N: K so I know this chapter is reallllllyyyyy short compared to my other ones but I've had this HUUUUGGGEEE case of writer's block lately and you see it took me a month and a half to come up with this. I promise I'm going to try to update sooner with a longer chapter soon.
I closed the door as Emmett walked out, hoping this wasn't going to be as bad as I had imagined it. It wasn't bad enough that we had gotten into an argument once today. It wasn't enough that the argument was about the very vampires who just left my house. Now we had to fight over something that didn't even matter because it was over and there was no harm done. I love Paul, I really do, but I can't stand how he's always jumping to conclusions about everything. It's more stress than I need, especially so soon after losing Charlie. I turned back to him, he looked like he wanted to say something but didn't know how to phrase it.
"Spit it out already Paul." I just stared at him.
"I don't like you being around them. It's too dangerous."
"I don't care, you can deal with it, I'm not choosing."
"I won't have you putting yourself in danger..." His voice started to raise.
"I don't care what you will or won't have! It's my life!" I started screaming at him.
"I don't want to lose you!" He was starting to shake.
"I'm in more danger being around you right now than I am being around the-" I went too far. His eyes went blank and he stopped shaking...His face looking as if someone had just told him that his dog had died. "Paul, I didn't mean it, I swear!"
"Stop Bella," he put his hand out in front of him, in between us. "If that's how you really feel then I won't bother you anymore."
He turned and walked to the door, I grabbed his arm trying to get him to stop, he wouldn't. I was crying, trying to get him to stay with me. It wasn't working. He turned back to me and I started to feel a glimmer of hope before he kissed me on the cheek and left, only taking time to whisper 'I love you' before his disappeared completely. I couldn't stop crying no matter what I tried. After everything we had been through together. He was there for me when Charlie died, I slumped to the floor in front of the door, the tears flowing freely down my face. He was there when Edward came back. He was there when the Cullens came back. No matter how bad our fights had gotten I had always counted on the imprint to keep me from getting my heart broken. I guess even that isn't strong enough when the personalities clash as much as ours did. There was a knock on the door that I was just barely able to hear over my sobs. I opened the door and Alice rushed in pulling me into her arms apologizing over and over again, promising she wouldn't have mentioned it had she known that he didn't know. I didn't even care about that anymore. I couldn't believe that Paul had actually left me. She carried me to the couch and just held me for hours, rubbing my back and telling me it would all be okay.
"No it won't" I said between sobs. "It will never be okay, I'm a horrible person for telling him that!" I continued to sob before a thought hit me. "How did you know? I thought you couldn't see him."
"I can't Bella, but I saw you sitting against the door crying, I knew you would need someone." She continued to hold me in her arms. "Do you want me to call Jazz and get him here?"
I nodded my head and continued to sob against her lap. She pulled out her phone and called Jasper, explaining the situation to him and asking if he could come over to help calm me down. When she hung up she told me he was on his way. I couldn't believe I said that to Paul, he didn't deserve to be treated like that. No matter what I had done to him he had never phased out of his anger for the situation. I know he would never hurt me like that. I just get so pissed off at him some times. Every now and then I wonder why the fates saw fit for me to be Paul's imprint, we were both so stubborn. Jazz walked through the door and immediately a sense of calm washed over me. I looked up at him, grateful, a half smile upon my face. I didn't know what to do or say, the situation was just really bad. There was a knock at the door and Edward walked through.
"Go Away Edward," I rolled over.
"Bella, please hear me out, I'm so sorry about what I did to you." It was Alice who spoke this time.
"Please leave Edward, can't you see she's in enough pain?" Her eyes pleaded with him to leave.
"It's my fault she's hurting, if I never would have left she wouldn't have seen the need to go hang out with a bunch of mutts."
"He's right," I pulled away from Alice and stood up. "If you never would have left, I wouldn't have found the greatest thing in my life. And if you never would have come back, Edward, I never would have lost him. Get out, all of you."
"Bella don't do this." Edward started to walk towards me but I pulled back.
"GET OUT!" Alice looked at me heartbroken, but I didn't care. I had just lost the only man who I ever really loved, and it was their fault. If they wouldn't have come back, he would still be here. I sat on the couch and pulled my legs to my chest wrapping my arms around them as I started crying. I wondered if he would ever come back to me. I missed him more than I could truly express. So much had gone wrong lately. Edward leaving, Charlie dying, and now this. Not to mention the argument Renee had gotten into with Phil when she told him I wasn't coming back to Jacksonville with her.
Renee was on her phone, she had been for the past hour.
"She doesn't want to come back, she wants to finish out her school years at Forks." She was silent for a moment.
"I understand that she needs to be around family but she also needs to be around her friends, and she's found someone here, she loves him Phil."
"Well I don't care what you think, she's my daughter!"
"Phil, what would you have done if someone had told you that you had to move clear across the country right before we married?"
"Exactly, and I'm not doing that to my daughter. She has a life here, and a job, and a man that loves her. She's happy. I'm not ruining that."
Renee hung up the phone and turned to me.
"He'll be fine sweetie, he just doesn't like the idea of leaving you here by yourself. He doesn't understand what it's like to be a young girl in love and to be told you have to leave. He'll get over it."
She smiled at me and took me into her arms. It was time for her flight to board.
"Now, I want you to call me every day and tell me how you are doing, promise?"
"I promise, mom," I smiled as she gave me a hug. "Not get out of here, your flight's boarding. I love you mom."
"I love you too sweetheart." She smiled at me and turned to get on the plane.
That had been a month ago. I was glad that she left me here. At the same time I wondered what my life would have been like if Paul and I had been able to get on that flight with her. We'd never know. Paul couldn't leave La Push until he quit phasing. Which probably wouldn't be until after the Cullen's left, if then. I turned on the tv finding that leap year was on. Great...
There was a knock at the door.
I got up and answered it, finding Paul I opened the door and walked away. He came in, not making a sound. I sat down on the couch and went back to watching my movie, wondering what he was doing here. He had made it pretty clear that he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just stood there silently for a few minutes, it was clear he was trying to figure out what to say. Paul never had been one to do a lot of talking. Mostly we just held one another or he listened to me talk.
"Bells, I was wrong. I shouldn't have gotten mad at you like that. I just kept seeing his hands on you, and it got the better of me. I'm always so scared that you're going to leave me and go back to him. I know you don't have to stay with me, but I need you Bella. The few hours I've been gone, I've done nothing but think about you." As he was speaking he came and sat down by me. I leaned into him and he laid back, wrapping his arms around me. We stayed like that all night, falling asleep around two in the morning.
A/N: Again, sorry for the short chapter but you should still leave reviews, more reviews means longer chapters too!