Title: Until Now
Author: cardiogod
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Spoilers: Through 6x22
Rating: PG
Word count: approx 475
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Summary: She has always been good at breakups.

She has always been good at breakups.

Since she was 19, with Joanne, the at-the-time love of her life, she has been good at them. If one can be good at such things.

She has always been calm, rational, in control.

She knows how to pack her things and leave someone's life.

She knows how to stand tall, even amidst yelling and screaming and harsh words falling like torrential rain.

She knows how to walk around pretending everything is okay.

She knows how to pretend her heart isn't breaking.

She has always been good at breakups.

But then, she's never had a breakup like this one.

In this breakup, there is no screaming, only murmured "I love yous" accompanied by soft tears of resignation.

In this breakup, she cannot simply remove her things from the apartment, so she leaves behind an old college T-shirt, in case she needs a reason to go back, in case she can't keep herself away.

In this breakup, she holds her head up, she smiles, she pretends, but she knows it isn't working. She knows that she isn't convincing anyone, least of all herself.

But still, she vows to stay resolved. Because that is what she does, that is what she's always done when her world shifts and shakes and crumbles around her. She is the daughter of a military father; she knows how to stay resolute. She knows how to remain in control.

But this time, this time is different.

Because this breakup is different.

There is no one at fault. There is no right versus wrong. There is no you versus me. There is just the situation. The awful, terrible, unsolvable situation.

Still, she is calm. She is collected.

But there is an elevator.

And a moment.

And an "Arizona."

And she cracks.

For seven seconds, she cracks and they are kissing and it is both glorious and excruciating and she never wants it to end.

Their lips mash together, consumed by passion and desperation and the cruel injustice of the whole thing.

They are doing the familiar dance of give and take, except there's more taking than giving, her need overwhelming her and her resolve abandoning her.

She has never cracked like this before.

But then, she has never loved like this before either.

She makes it to the parking lot before she falls apart completely.

She has always been good at breakups.

Until now.