Hello, everyone.

I know it's a little odd to see an update for something that ended quite a while back, but I have come to the realization that, as many of you are my intended audience, you are the ones that I should go to in order to get advice. Any and all cooperation would be greatly appreciated here, because I am honestly depressed and uncertain on what to do.

So, to begin, most of you know by now that I am turning Blood Solstice into an original novel. No sparkling, fangless vampires, no Cullens, no wolves. It's all being replaced and revamped into completely original people and whatnot, though the plot is very similar. Perhaps it's not the most original idea, but it's a starting point for what could be a great series. And yes, Amara will be involved in it. She's popular with some of you, which is cool, so it's a given that I would include my first original character.

Let me cut to the chase. I finished it.

It's not perfect, but it's done. 52 chapters, a whopping 190,000 words. Therein lies the big problem; it's too big for a first time author. No editor will accept that and even if they did, I would need to cut it. And, while I know that there are parts that may not be necessary, I don't really like the idea of cutting it too much because it detracts from the story. I've already stressed out about that since I first learned of this and it hasn't really changed much since. I either sacrifice who I am as a writer-the kind of person who may write a crap-load, but I'd like to think it helps-or I delve into e-publishing. The saving grace for e-publishing is that, should you be a traditional reader, certain sites allow you to turn an e-book into a paperback book.

Maybe this is silly of me to do, but I wrote this book because a) I enjoy writing, b) I like vampires, c) this got a good following and I figured I could keep that and d) I wanted to write a book for gays (you love too, after all). When I made that poll asking if people would buy it if I made it, the number who said yes without question (I am assuming you were being honest and not doing it for my benefit), I was thrilled.

I guess what I'm really asking is if you would still read it despite the long length. I know, this fan fiction was longer, but there's a difference in that you would be using your money to purchase this book, whether in e-book form or paperback form. I know I'm basically rephrasing my poll question, so I apologize for that, I just need advice. Anything you, my readers, can give me is welcome. You can reply via PM, I don't mind.

Thank you all,