Authors note: I don't own Sliders of course; I'd be rich if I did
I haven't written anything for a while and I've written this as a form of therapy. Recently I had my heart ripped out by the only man I've ever loved. I was removed and replaced and there's a part of me that feels like my story ties in with the Quinn/Wade/Maggie story. This is for anyone who's suffered a broken heart.
Ever felt like your heart was breaking. Ever felt like if you took one more breath the pain it self would kill you. I have! Every time I think of him with her I feel like I'm crumbling. I feel like my heart is breaking over and over again, until one day I won't have one left.
How could I be the one thing he wanted one moment and in the next be the last thing he ever wanted to see again? I gave him everything, god I would have followed him anywhere, and I did in fact. I gave up everything for him. I gave up seeing the people I loved everyday, so far away that sometimes I forget what they look like. It was always me who made the sacrifices', me who feels totally alone.
I have moments where I forget, and for a brief second I feel free. There are times when my heart stops hurting and I know that this is for the best. I don't want to be with someone who doesn't love me, who doesn't need me. Yet I don't know what to do with myself, I'm lost without him.
Remmie tells me in time my heart will heal and my memories won't feel so bittersweet. They'll be replaced with a warm fondness whenever I think of Quinn, but I doubt it.
He was my first love! My only love!
Sure I'd thought id been in love before but with him it was different. He held my heart. He always would.
I knew in my heart along time ago that Quinn's love for me had died and that I'd been replaced by someone else, someone new. He denied it for the longest time, but I knew, and when he didn't come through the vortex after me I had it confirmed.
Did I mean so little? Why does she mean so much?
I feel like my insides have been ripped out and all the air has been sucked out of the room. The pain feels so intense, that this shouldn't be love. Love should hurt like this.
Quinn Mallory loving you has always been so bittersweet x