"Well I guess it's I should report to you now," Hailey said to me as she walked out of the forest line. "I ran a few more patrols and everything is clear."
"Um that good we don't want to have any strays coming out of no where," I replied nodding my head. "Hows Sam's pack doing?"
"They only had one injury but its already healed. Sam...," she trailed off as she stared into my eyes.
"Sam wants to know when do you want to have your mother's funeral. She was born and raised on La Push land and that means she deserves a proper funeral."
I dropped her gaze and dragged my fingers through my hair slowly. "I have to call Phil and Charlie," I mumbled. Before anyone could ask why I would even think about calling Charlie after all he did I explained quickly. "Even though Charlie was a dick he still was her husband at one point and without him I would not be here. Besides the man still loves her and its the right thing to do."
"I already took care of that," Hailey stated as she stuffed her hands in her pockets. "And Sam is putting the treaty on hold so that everyone can attend."
"Is the..." swallowing the lump that was forming in my throat I forced the words out. "Is the...body ready?"
"Then call everyone and tell them that tonight will be the funeral."
"Are you sure that this is a good time," Leah asked grasping my should gently. "After everything that happened don't you want a break?"
"My mother needs to return to nature as soon as possible. I don't want her to wait any longer then she already had to."
"Then I guess it time go to La Push and get everything ready."
Leah released the hold on my shoulder and made her way inside to most likely to get ready. I turned to my pack and sighed heavily. "I know that this is going to suck because it already does but the sooner its done the sooner everyone can have time to themselves and grief or whatever."
"Come on Bella let's get ready," I faintly heard Rosalie say as she pulled me in the direction of the house.
Some how I mange to get dress in decent clothes and make it to La Push a few hours before it was time to send my mother's body back to nature. I felt as if any minute I was going to be swallowed in grief as it all hit me at once what was going to happen. I heard people mumble that it was going to be okay and how sorry they were as I sat in Billy's living room. I nodded my head at the comments but remained silent as I stared at my clasped hands.
My head snapped up when Rose's scent filled my nostrils. Her usual bright gold eyes were slightly darken most likely from the amount of human in the room but there was no sign that that was the problem. Her eyes held no pity for me but more of a pleading look as she studied my face careful. "What can I do for you," she asked so softly that I almost missed it. "I will do whatever you want me to do just say it and I'll do it."
"Just don't tell me that it's going to be okay," I croaked out. "Because right now it's not okay. Maybe in the future it will be but right now its not and I just don't think I can handle everyone telling me that anymore."
"I know it's not okay but I just want you to remember that I'm going to always be here for you."
I cracked a small smile and nodded my head. "I know," I whispered. She grabbed my hands and pulled me into a standing position before pulling me into a hug. I held onto her as if my life depended on it.
I don't know how long we stood there like that but I heard someone cough trying to grab our attention. I looked over Rose's shoulder to see Charlie standing there rubbing the back of his neck. I released Rose and stood in front of her. "What can I do for you," I asked in the coldest voice I could muster.
He flinched slightly as he rubbed the back of his neck even quicker. "I just wanted...I just wanted to say that I'm sorry," he mumbled finally. "I know how I handled things wasn't the right way and I'm not proud of it. Your mother was right I have never been the father that you needed. When you needed me the most I ran as fast as I could without looking back. I know you don't want anything to do with me and I don't blame you. But I just want the chance to make it up to you because life isn't long and I don't want to miss anything else in your life. So...I'm asking you...I'm begging you to let me make it up to you and be a better father then I was."
I rubbed the back of my neck and looked over to Rose who was giving me a look the screamed 'Do the right thing and give him another chance'. Sighing heavily I looked back to Charlie. "We can work on rebuilding our relationship but just know that it's not going to be fixed over night," I said with holding a slight growl.
"I understand that."
"Good." I grabbed Rose's hand and pulled her towards the kitchen.
"Bella," Billy said I walked into the kitchen.
"Where are we going," I asked feeling the all to familiar lump grow in my throat.
"Your mother's meadow. Do you know where that is?" I nodded my head numbly as I remembered that was the place that I told her about how I felt about Rose. Where she gave me my grandmother's ring and where she seen my wolf for the first time. And where I asked Rosalie Hale to marry her. How could I not remember where that was? "Everything is set up there right now so I think we should make our way there before it gets dark."
I nodded my head once again and I allowed Rose to lead me towards our destination.
I held my breath as I stared at all of wolves and people that strangely made my family. Sam looked at me and gave me a small nod before wrapping his arms around Emily. His pack had new members once again but they looked like they weren't even fourteen yet. I looked over to Leah's pack and seen everyone standing with their mates with a sad look on their faces as they stared at Renee's wrapped up body. I finally looked over to my new pack to see most of them openly crying at the lost of an alpha who was like a mother to them. Even Kevin had tears running down his face as he held Natalie close to his chest. I turned to Charlie and watched him full on balling as he stared at Renee. I knew he still loved her deeply.
"Now that we are all here let us start," Billy said in such a sad voice that it made me flinch back a bit. "A lot of us known Renee since she was a baby. And we all knew that she was never one for staying in one place long when she felt as if she was meant to be somewhere else. And with that feeling she met many people in her life that she has touched in many different ways. As a friend, lover, mother, or an leader. So as we stand here ready to return one of our own body back to nature to let her spirit to watch over us as continue to live without her.
"I know that a lot of you have a lot of sorrow in your heart from this lost but I ask you to remember that she isn't truly lost to us. That she is still here with us through spirit and the memories that have of her. When ever it becomes too much to bare just think back to all the times that you shared and how one day your spirits will meet up once again." He stopped an looked around at all the people that was standing around him. "I know that a lot of you want to say something but I ask only Isabella be the only one to say anything right now. As it is tradition to have the first born speak before we return her to nature. Everyone else who wants to say something about her will have the chance to at the bonfire where we will celebrate her life. Now who would like to go first?"
I step forwarded slowly and took a quick look around at everyone once again before speaking. "I remember someone telling me that the hardest thing that I will ever have to do is bury my parents. And as I stand here in front of all of you I have to say they weren't lying. So much has happened in the last few months and to have to do this after all of it is done with suck so much. I know some of you only knew my mother for a few months and others all her life but as we stand her ready to return her back to nature I know that we all are burying a piece of us as well. Anyone that met her couldn't help to love the woman. She had a way about her that makes you love her. I don't think there's a person alive that can say they honestly hated her.
"I'm just proud to say that this woman gave life to me and taught me so much in the time that I had with her. I know she lead a pack of her own and was like a mother to them. Now that I'm taking her place as their lead I just hope that I can be half the leader that she was to them. She will be missed but I know that she is going to continue to watch over us while we move together as a family."
I wiped my eyes of the tears that fell while I was talking and raised my head high. I walked over to my mother's lifeless body and picked her up. A part of me thought that this was wrong. To pick her lifeless body up only to place it into a deep hole that would become her final resting place. But the other part of me knew that this was the right thing to do. It was the respectful thing to do. I hoped down into the hole and laid my mother in the bed of daisy. I looked back at her and gave her a small sad smile as the tears began to fall again. "Bye mom."
I jumped out the hole and nodded to my pack letting them know that the could begin to shovel dirt over her. Rose pulled me into another hug and sighed loudly. "She'll be watching over you."
"I love you Isabella," she whispered in my ear softly.
"I love you too."
A/N: Before you guys kill me I want you know that there is a good reason I stop the story here. The second book is going to start on a happier note. Everyone is getting married! YAY! Plus it would be better for me start the next story on this happier note because let's just say ten chapters into it a lot of things are going to change and most likely confuse many of you. So I figure start with something happy and something that everyone will recognize easily.
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