Title: The Man I Want To Be

Author: Adain

Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds or the characters. I also do not own the song 'The Man I Want to Be' that would be Chris Young.

Summary: J.J and Emily have a fight. Emily goes to a bar and a certain song comes on the jukebox. Emily's POV.

Rating: T

The Man I Want To Be

I can't believe she would through all of that in my face. I was late oh my god. How many times has she been late coming home? Ok so she always calls me but we just got off a case and I forgot. I don't even know why I am in so much trouble. Oh good a bar up ahead I'll just stop there for a drink.

"What will you have?" The bartender asks.

"Scotch and keep 'em coming." I say as I sit down.

He pours the drink and I bring the glass to my lips. As it touches my lips the juke box opens with a new song.

God I'm down here on my knees

Cause it's the last place left to fall

Beggin' for another chance

If there's any chance at all

That you might still be listenin'

Lovin' and forgivin' guys like me

Ok I'm not a God kind of a person but this song does speak to me. I mean I have had a ton of bad relationships. Maybe I should see what God could help me with.

I've spent my whole life gettin' it all wrong

And I sure could use your help just from now on

I wanna be a good man

A do like I should man

I wanna be the kind of man the mirror likes to see

I wanna be a strong man

And admit that I was wrong man

God I'm askin' you to come change me

Into the man I wanna be

Maybe that is what I need. I need to think what she wants. All she wanted was for me to call and tell her I would be late coming home. I should have known better I mean, in our line of work anything can happen.

If there's any way for her and me to make another start

Could you see what you could do

To put some love back in her heart

Cause it gonna to take a miracle

After all I've done to really make her see

Oh, I hope she doesn't give up on us because of this. I mean we have had our fights but nothing like this. I have never walked out before and she has never stormed off. I can see it all now.

FLASHBACK

"What the fuck Emily where have you been?" Jennifer asked frantic as I came in the door.

Really she was going to start this now I have had a rough day I just want to go to bed. "I was at work finish my paper work. Why it's not like you've never been late coming home before." I snap back at her.

"Oh well at least I call you when I am going to be late." She through right back at me.

"Well I am sorry that I didn't let the all mighty Jennifer Juearu know where I was going to be." I say sarcastically.

"Oh so know you want to be a smart ass. All I'm asking is for a little warning when you are going to be late so that I don't worry." She says getting angrier at the growing situation.

"Oh you worried well than just forgive me your highness." I say as I start to walk to the door.

"Where are you going?" She yells.

"Out, oh and by the way I will be lat." I snap as I slam the door behind me.

END OF FLASHBACK

That I wanna be a stay man

I wanna be a brave man

I wanna be the kind of man she sees in her dreams

God I wanna be your man

And I wanna be her man

God I only hope she still believes

In the man I wanna be

I didn't even mean any of what I said I was just tired and wanted to go to bed. I didn't want to deal with a nagging J.J and everything else. Now that I am thinking about it, I am the wrong one. She had every right to get mad. I should have called her.

Well I know this late at night that talk is cheap

But Lord don't give up on me yeah

I wanna be a givin' man

I wanna really start livin' man

God I'm askin' you to come change me

Into the man I wanna be

As the last verse was sang I lay my money on the bar and walk out. I get in the car and drive back to the apartment praying to God I still have a chance. As I walk back into the apartment she is on the couch crying. My hearts breaks I hate to see her cry. I sit next to her and wrap my arms around her.

"I'm so sorry baby I should have called." I say as I kiss her head.

"No, I overreacted." She says trying to stop crying.

"Hope we agree that we were both wrong." I say with a smile as I lean into kiss her. She moans into the kiss.

"I love you. Please don't ever walk out like that again." She says as her breathing comes back to normal.

"I love you to. I want I promise I'm sorry." I say as I silently thank God for giving me another chance.